fall in love with a mentor

John, I didn't expect that the one who felt guilty would be me!Thinking of those promises that could not be fulfilled, Junyi couldn't go on talking anymore, sometimes there is no room for recovery for a momentary mistake.There was a sudden tearing pain in his chest, an uncontrollable sense of guilt ruled his whole body, and tears rolled down his pale cheeks.When Jun Yi realized it, his clothes were already wet with tears.

Jiaxi stared at him dumbfounded, and said after a long silence, "What's wrong with you?" Just as he was about to get up to comfort him, Junyi was one step ahead of him, leaning down and placing Jiaxi between his arms.

"What's wrong with you?" Jia Xi reached out to wipe away his tears, but Jun Yi hugged her body.Tears fell on his face, burning his skin.

"Jia...I want you...please..." Wanting a hug as a comfort, Junyi, who was on the verge of collapse, lost control, and forcibly kissed Jiaxi. The passionate kiss disturbed Jia with bitter tears. Xi's thinking.

"Jia...I seem to be hugging you..." Every word uttered by the slightly hoarse voice was like a soul-stirring poison, and Jiaxi's body seemed to be immobilized by magic, making it difficult to move.

"Jia...jia..." Calling Jiaxi's name over and over again, her gentle lips fell on Jiaxi's earlobe, neck, and collarbone, gradually depriving Jiaxi of her last sanity.

"...Ah!" Suddenly there was a scream, and Junyi rolled down under the sofa.Jia Xi jumped off the sofa and looked at Jun Yi angrily, don't be kidding, this bastard just told the story to the point of emotional tears, but now he comes to ask him for tenderness, no matter how dull he is, he understands what it means.He didn't want to be regarded as the object of rekindling old feelings.

Jun Yi clutched his chin and got up, and said aggrievedly, "You are too much!" Just now when he was forgetting himself, he was punched on the chin, almost biting off his tongue, and now he felt salty in his mouth.However, this punch also woke him up, and he really shouldn't ask for a hug in such a state of confusion.

"Who is too much, I know myself!" Jia Xi dropped a sentence, climbed onto the bed, and ignored him.

Junyi came to the bathroom resentfully, rinsed his mouth, saw that it was just a piece of skin on his tongue, nothing serious, he washed his face again to calm himself down.Coming out of the bathroom, Jia Xi was already lying on the bed, seemingly asleep.Junyi turned off the light, took the pillow and came to the bed, and lay down quietly for a while, seeing that Jiaxi didn't move at all.She couldn't help but turned around and leaned against Jia Xi, and said softly, "Jia, I'm really sorry just now!"

Jiaxi didn't respond.

Knowing that he was really angry, Junyi sighed, and said, "Don't be angry, sleeping in anger is not good for your health. I didn't mean to regard you as Chen Han. I just thought of his illness and death, and I felt I'm sorry for him, so..."

So I'm looking for someone to comfort me.Jiaxi understood what he meant, it would be too petty for her to be jealous with a deceased person.Maybe because he couldn't find self-confidence in this relationship, he was afraid that Jun Yi would just use himself as someone's stand-in.He didn't deserve such favor from him. This has always been the voice deep in his heart, so he overreacted to such details.

"I have buried these stories in my heart for many years. You know that after Chen Han died of illness, it became my own story. No one mentioned Chen Han's name, and no one understood our previous relationship. If this continues, The memory will fade away. I am afraid that sooner or later he will completely disappear from my life, and that is his only bond in this world. When I am alone in the middle of the night, I am often immersed in those memories and cannot extricate myself. When I wake up at dawn, I sometimes wonder if those things really happened. Love without a third party witness, after losing one party, becomes illusory, so I am very happy if you are willing to listen to me. The more you talk about it, the more you get involved. But I know that I am in a relationship with you now, and it is wrong to miss someone like this, and ignore your feelings, I am sorry."

"But when I'm with you, I definitely don't mean to relive the past. I really want to start a new relationship."

"Take it lightly." After a long silence, Jia Xi suddenly said.Junyi's last words touched him, and he also deeply understood the loneliness of not being able to listen to him in reality. He exiled his heart and lingered in the memory, and finally wondered whether the memory was a fake self-comforting illusion or a real existence. The painful struggle of split personality can't find a way out.

"What?" Junyi, who had given up on persuasion, didn't understand for a while, leaned forward and asked.

"Does someone have to say this twice?" Jia Xi turned her head and shouted.

"Ah, you mean you can hug you, right?" Junyi was a little overjoyed, and then said in a deep voice, "You don't have to do it for me..."

"I want to comfort you too..." Jia Xi dropped this sentence in shame, and turned her head away.After a long wait, when Jiaxi turned his tenderness into shame, Junyi's hand gently stroked his back.

Two people who are burdened with a heavy past need good communication to build mutual trust. The collision of hearts and physical contact are all promoting mutual understanding.

The trembling lips and the passionate voice poured out the feelings from the heart, igniting each other's body temperature.The overlapping bodies are tossing and lingering.

"Good... the next 30 years, and another 30 years, will be left to me, okay, I won't let you be alone. I want to engrave my life into your soul, and at the same time put your life in From the bottom of my heart."

Well, I really hope that when I recall it again, I no longer have a blank past.

"Jia... I lost it once, so I will cherish you in the future. I know that I am a bit bad, but you can point it out, and I will change it, but please don't leave me alone, okay? You know It’s really hard to walk alone.”

And please don't leave me alone.The road of life is too long, after squandering so many years, because of your love, I finally feel the need to cherish it.

"Jia, the world feels real when we hug each other. In the past few years, no matter how many articles I have published and how many achievements I have made, I have never felt so real."

Yes, after so many years of being displaced, the mind has finally found a place to call.

With the utmost tenderness and tenderness, both of them burst into tears in the dark night.

Junyi's tears made him feel comforted. Junyi has always been a strong existence in his heart and a strong support.Seeing his fragility and helplessness, Jiaxi felt that she could also be his support in life, and that they were equal to each other spiritually.

Happiness, sweet and bitter.

The author has something to say: Now generally maintain the update speed of one chapter per day!Sometimes two chapters are updated every other day.Two chapters have been updated today!

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