Mo Jingliu'an

Chapter 4

Have you ever tried to cry heartbreakingly once in your life, something that is obviously not worth mentioning in normal times can make you cry for half an hour.After crying like nothing happened?

That is our heart overload, like a glass, the glass is filled with water and the water is overflowing.

Lin Jingan withdrew her thoughts, took a pile of documents on the table, and then took out a sugar cube from the drawer and put it in her mouth. Lin Jingan herself forgot when he developed this habit, but one day she suddenly found that she liked There is a sweet taste in the mouth.

He has always been in love with Li Xiaoli for half of his life, and he has also lived in hardship for half of his life. Falling in love with Li Xiao made him fall into darkness, but it was Li Xiao who redeemed him.

After all, it's too bitter in my heart, and it's nothing to pretend to be self-deceiving desserts.

Looking up, he suddenly saw Li Xiao passing by the office door, and the assistant next to Li Xiao was talking beside him, Li Xiao just looked ahead, seemed to be listening but didn't seem to be, still so arrogant and conceited.As if feeling Lin Jingan's eagerness, Li Xiao turned his head and looked at Lin Jingan through the glass, Lin Jingan's heart throbbed.

Li Xiao just took one look at him and left without any expression. Lin Jingan lowered her eyelids and her eyelashes moved slightly.

In the past four years, there have been many similar scenes like Li Xiao, and Li Xiao has never stopped.

"What are you doing?" The cold voice came from the door, which surprised Lin Jing'an.

He raised his head suddenly and saw Li Xiaoyi standing in front of him with his hands in his pockets.Lin Jingan's heart beat faster.

"You..why did you come in?" Lin Jing'an said dryly, answering irrelevant questions.He was so confused that he didn't know what to say.

"Why don't you welcome me?" Li Xiao looked at her eyebrows with sharp eyes.Lin Jing'an didn't know what to say, she clenched her hands a little at a loss.

"But it's okay if you don't welcome me, I just want to tell you that Xiao Xi is back, do you want to go and pick him up together?" Li Xiao didn't intend to ask Lin Jingan to answer anything, so she spoke with some resignation.

Lin Jing'an's eyes widened suddenly, her heart was throbbing with pain, and her mind was filled with the words "Xiao Xi came back", but it made him unable to breathe.

Xiao Xi came back, came back to break the tranquility between him and Li Xiao, why did she come back?Obviously it shouldn't be, just let him look at Li Xiao like this, he doesn't expect anything else, so that's fine.But why did she come back.

"Hey, are you okay, you look so bad?" Li Xiao stretched out her hand and dazed in front of Lin Jing'an's out-of-focus eyes, her tone filled with anxiety.

"It's okay...Xiao Xi. When will you come back?" Lin Jing'an wanted to run away, but he wanted to yell why.But he could only speak hoarsely with a pale face. He...is not qualified to ask these questions.

"As for the plane at noon today, if you are free, we will go to pick up Xiao Xi together, if you go." Seeing that Lin Jingan spoke, and there was nothing wrong except her complexion, Li Xiao put down her hands and continued.

Lin Jing'an's ears were a little ringing, he only heard himself talking nonsense, and then saw Li Xiao going out, and before leaving, he seemed to say that he would pick him up after get off work.

Consciousness slowly recovered, only feeling pain in the palm of the hand, opened the palm and found that blood had already been caught by him, and stared at the palm in a daze.

He no longer has the mind to look at those boring documents, his mouth still has the sweetness after eating sugar cubes, but it can no longer be sweet. Before Xiao Xi was not around, he could still deceive himself, but now that he is back, what can he do? .

Lin Jing'an has never hated Li Xiao so much for coming to him like today, even if he just glanced at him lightly outside the cold glass, it can make his heart warm.It was a feeling of hope, and now he only felt cold hands and feet.It's like entering a freezer and can't help myself.

The blood in the palm of the hand has stopped, and there is no big scar, but the blood flow looks a little scary.It will be fine once the scabs form, Lin Jingan thought lightly.Just don't know if it will leave ugly scars like his wrist.

It was left behind by Li Xiaonai, who hadn't seen Li Xiaona for a long time in the junior year. He made it up with his own hands. He didn't think about dying, but just felt in a daze that he didn't exist in this world, and he wanted to prove his existence.

Lin Jing'an knew that he had some self-abuse tendencies, but he couldn't control it. He needed that kind of self-abuse behavior to wake himself up, keep him from going crazy, and stop him from wanting to tell Li Xiao that he loved him so much.

When he was in junior year, he wanted to make himself not miss Li Xiao so much, and control himself so that he would not be unable to bear the longing.This time it was to make myself sober, so that I would not lose my composure in front of Li Xiao.Lin Jing'an suddenly remembered that it seemed that it was all for Li Xiao, including every time after the junior year, it was for Li Xiao.

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