be humble, be humble

fleeting time has passed

Say I love you, dawn or not

For some reason, Roy always feels that the quality of sleep has always been poor recently, since the last Valentine's Day.

Every night, whenever he falls asleep alone, for some reason, there is always a lingering nightmare entangled in his dreams, that kind of loneliness, lingering.

He used to be so timid.

dare not love

afraid to say love

afraid of leaving

Can't help being sad

Couldn't help crying on countless nights.

In front of my eyes, suddenly, like a movie, scenes of scenes flashed continuously, and in the silent darkness, a long, ancient but familiar voice sounded.

∴ ° ★. ☆ °. ★. °∴°. ∴ ° ★. ☆∴. °★. ∴. ★． ☆. ★°∴°. ∴ ° ★. ☆∴

That year, I woke up in that world.

The first moment I woke up, I knew that I could only stay in this world for a few decades.

Of course, as a human being, living in that world.

When I was young, I was a bit withdrawn.I don't like sports, I just like to sit quietly.

On a cloudy day, I met him.

He was taken home by his father, who said he wanted us to get along well, and we would be a family from now on.

I looked at him, and at an angle that others could not see, I raised the corners of my mouth slightly, and my faint smile seemed to be mocking the seemingly lively and cheerful boy.

But how can you know that in the eyes of many people, it is actually the strangest thing.

Carefully concealing the sadness and sarcasm in my eyes, pretending to be naive to spend every day, I know that as long as I endure it for a few more decades, I can get out of here.

Decades, to me, are so short, just a snap of the fingers, but for human beings, it is all.

only

how do i feel

i'm in love

That boy, who has been living in my house ever since, is a relative's child, I think so.

He asked me to call him brother, and I obediently called him, but, for some reason, I always felt that the title of brother was so awkward.

He accompanied me through elementary school and junior high school, and he taught me a lot of things to play. I was always disdainful at the beginning, but as time went by, I would listen lightly and sometimes echo a few words.

I don't know when, the feelings of human beings have gradually affected me.

For him, I had the feeling that I shouldn't belong.This feeling is sweet and warm.

In high school and college, he has always been by my side. Others think we are good brothers, a good brother with a very cheerful personality and a good brother with a very withdrawn personality.

I think that kind of feeling is probably family affection.

One day when he was in college, he came to the house rented by our parents very strangely. You must know that he usually does not come.

I still looked at him indifferently, and somehow felt that his mood and aura had changed a lot that day.

His eyes were reddish, but he didn't smell of alcohol. I felt like he was about to cry, but he didn't.

He just looked at me fixedly and didn't say anything.

I am not a person who talks a lot, but I asked him that day:

Are you broken in love?

It's strange, I've never been a gossip person, I never wanted to get involved in his emotional world, let alone understand, I know, this is probably everyone's privacy, everyone It should be a space of its own.

He was startled, his expression suddenly became decadent, he remained silent, and lowered his head in frustration. From my angle, I couldn't see his expression clearly, it was completely covered by the fine bangs.

I didn't ask him again, I was waiting for him to speak, this is a tacit understanding for so many years, I know he will speak, it's just a matter of time.

Sure enough, after a short while, he still lowered his head and spoke slowly:

Do you hate me?

Hate?I was slightly surprised.How could he say such words without any warning.

but

He hesitated, and I saw his hand clenched and then loosened. After a while, he seemed to have taken the most courage before continuing.

I fell in love with the person closest to me, but he doesn't love me

My heart seemed to miss a beat at that time, the kind of throbbing, inexplicable, hazy, ready to come out.

If you like it, you have to pursue it. I think you are not a brave person.

At that time, I told him so.

He pursed his chapped lips, clenched his fists, hesitated for a while, and finally left without saying a word.

I was suddenly a little lost, I wasn't expecting anything.

A few days later, I was on my way home when a few gangsters rushed out halfway and blocked my way.

They asked me if I was his younger brother. I lowered my head and remained silent. I probably knew that they probably had a grudge against him.

We asked me to go with them, but I refused.But in the end it was taken away.taken to a remote place.

There is a lot of dust around, and there are traces of soil piled up everywhere. Someone has been waiting for them there.

In fact, such a character is nothing in my eyes, a small character that can be crushed to death in one go.

But I was looking forward to him coming to save me.

He came and saw me standing by, and I wasn't being abused.He seemed relieved.

The leader of the group told him that he wanted him to leave a person, and it was a girl's name.

I frowned, sure enough, he was still not for me.

Presumably that day was also because of her.

He is very proud to say that he will not leave.

My heart was a little cold, and I smiled a little self-deprecatingly. It turned out that I was the most naive.

It doesn't matter what the ending is, I know, I won't have that kind of intersection with him anymore.

I still remember that day, when I went out, I saw him holding a girl's hand and walking with a smile on his face. I didn't disturb them, I just watched quietly.

In the end, he suddenly told me that he was getting married with a beautiful girl.

I was stunned, and I smiled at him with a forced smile, that smile was so sad.

That night, I didn't know why, who was on the bed, but couldn't help crying.

In the end, you had a very happy life, I was single all the time, and there was no suitable person around me.

You will still smile at me, but the distance between me and you has become so alienated.

I don't know why, but I started to record every day, it's all filled with your past, and now, it's all your shadow.

But I dare not write any sentence, the sentence that has been expressed very clearly.

I want to say, I loved you, I used to love you, but after I found out, you have already walked past me.

In the end, when that car roared by, the fate I expected finally came.

After being knocked down, I didn't feel any pain, the only thing I felt was endless relief.

In my confusion, I watched you rushing over, holding my little notebook in your hand, staring at me in despair.

My lips moved a few times, but in the end I couldn't say anything.

I never told you until the end,

Actually, I really, liked you.

You hugged me covered in blood, your hands trembled, and you said a word tremblingly

I love you

At that moment, I felt that my world was no longer so silent and desolate.

It turned out that what I always wanted was just one sentence after all.

I love you

∴ ° ★. ☆ °. ★. °∴°. ∴ ° ★. ☆∴. °★. ∴. ★． ☆. ★°∴°. ∴ ° ★. ☆∴

I woke up suddenly, and in an instant, tears gushed like a fountain.

The prosperity is gone, like a dream without a trace.You were supposed to be beautiful for the rest of your life, but for some reason, it was like a passing scenery. In the world of mortals, we passed by each other. After all, we are not the protagonists of each other's life like a play. In the haste of passing by, we may be able to Just a small back in each other's world.

only

Suddenly raised the corners of his mouth that were already heavy, and looked lightly at everything around him.

The sweet taste permeates every corner.

I have met someone who is truly mine.Someone I truly belong to.

Those years of emptiness, I am glad that I met you, you ended such parting, such sadness.

Thank you for being with us.

On my way, I am no longer alone.

I love you, really love you