[Xianliu] Suiwanyantian

On the road, he thought how many years he hadn't cried, "I want to come to Rukawa, I want to come every day, but I'm delayed by some things."

Rukawa looked at the basketball that fell on the ground, "If you don't come, I will erase a name from it every day, and if you don't come again, I will erase your name too."

Xiandao hugged him tightly, "Rukawa, Rukawa, don't be so sad, you make me want to hug you out, don't let others touch you, and keep you alone every day, day and night," he lowered his head , kissed Rukawa's lips, Rukawa opened his eyes, looked at him, watched how he kissed himself, then he slowly closed his eyes, and put his hands on Xiandao's face.

Rukawa fell asleep, Xiandao hugged him, looked at him, he thought that if his body allowed, he would like to hold him all the time, just like ancient vines around trees, water accompanying mountains and streams, cold winter and spring, he thought about the eternity of nature, in the For a long time, he wanted to fix himself by Rukawa's side through that kind of eternity.

When Grandma Rukawa came in, Xiandao left.

She doesn't like Sendo, she was shocked to see Sendo holding Rukawa.

Xiandao told her that she would come again tomorrow, and she said, "It's up to you, it's fine if you don't come."

Xian Dao walked out of the hospital, it was dark, and he forgot where he parked his bicycle.There are many flower shops open in front of the hospital, tomorrow he will buy a bouquet for Rukawa.

It was at this time that he ran into the group of reporters again, and they smiled and waved to him.

He thought he had dumped them.

"Hey, since we've been with you for so long, let's give it an exclusive."

One of the hippie faces.

Xiandao ignored them, he walked to the bus stop sign, the last bus was at 11:[-], and there was still time.

"Mr. Police, please save face."

He glanced at the sky, and there was a plane flying by like a shooting star.

"Is sex with underage boys your hobby, Mr. Police?"

Xiandao looked over, and the other party laughed, pretending to be holding the phone, "Bian Li, you can't blame me for this, I called you, but if you don't answer it yourself, don't say I've got all the information."

Xiandao rushed over and kicked him in the stomach.

When he came out of the detention center, Xiandao had a bearded face. His parents were waiting for him at the door, and they were shocked when they saw him.

The reporter called the police. He had lost half of his teeth by Xiandao, and he suspected that his nose was also crooked.Xiandao's colleagues handcuffed his hands backwards on the grounds of deliberately hurting others, and then he was taken to the detention center. The hut was dark and the strong smell of feces killed people's eyes. He stayed there for ten days.

When he came out, the police returned his mobile phone and wallet, half of the money in the wallet was missing, and he had nothing to complain about, "For the sake of you also being a policeman", the group of people said so, usually these things are There is no return.

He went directly to the hospital where Rukawa was, but there was another person living in that ward.

He asked the doctor, got an answer, and left five days ago.

He went to Rukawa's house and knocked on the door, but no one answered, and later he found out and moved away.

The neighbor said, "The child is on that kind of report." He looked up and down Xiandao with strange eyes, "If I were a child, I would definitely move out."

In his mobile phone, there are five text messages and more than 20 missed calls.

"Xiandao, mother wants to pick me up."

"Are you here?"

"Why shut down?"

"Are you here?"

He seemed to be able to hear Rukawa's voice. In an isolated room, he kept asking anxiously, "Are you here? Xiandao."

And he dialed back, saying the number he dialed didn't exist.

In his space, it doesn't exist.

[eight]

Xiandao has been looking for Rukawa for several years, from this city to that city, with his mobile phone.It is difficult for you to recognize the person you are looking for from thousands of people on the street, and for a number that does not exist, if you call it repeatedly every day for any number of years, your ears will always be empty.

On the other hand, I saw a big black cat beside a garbage dump in a city. After eating a rotten ham sausage, it nimbly jumped over the old sofa and disappeared.

Returning to the original city was due to the death of his eldest uncle. He was diabetic and finally died one day. His body was transported back to his hometown from a neighboring city. Xiandao's mother called Xiandao and told him to come back to attend the funeral.

A funeral is a reassuring ceremony where man becomes nature at last.Yes, nature has arranged the best for people, living in turmoil, doubting everything, cursing life, being hurt, missing someone-all these will pass, and nature soothes the wounds of existence with death.

Death is the best eternity that nature can give.

He seemed to have gained some kind of power suddenly, he no longer flustered, he stayed and stayed with his parents.He opened a fishing tackle shop, and the business was not bad, but enough to support his family. In his spare time, he put on a sun hat and sunglasses, went to the reservoir on the outskirts of the city for an afternoon, went fishing, and cooked a pot of good soup when he returned home.

In addition to watching sports news, he has no other persistence. He pays attention to every new basketball star that has just emerged.

Many years later, he chatted with Yayoi on the street. At that time, she was not too slender, wearing a pair of fashionable leather boots, and her hair looked dull no matter how she was done.She quit her job at the newspaper many years ago. She said that since she found out that she had involved Xiandao in the report, she knew that her career as a reporter was over, and she finally didn't kill the editor-in-chief she always hated.

She is married, and the other party is a civil servant, four years older than her.But she never wanted a child, until Xiandao met her this time, "I started to vomit recently, I might be pregnant," she said, "I'm not going to get rid of it, I'm 38 years old, I'm not afraid of anything anymore—I hope I don't give birth to a deformed child .”

He didn't travel often until Yayoi was 5 months pregnant, "I don't know why, I have to go out for a run while I can still walk, who knows? Maybe I will die of dystocia," she said, "You accompany me, I My husband's unit is busy."

They went to several cities, coastal and inland. Yayoi's belly was already a little big, and she said that she often heard movement inside, "I don't know what I'm looking for, I'm rummaging in my intestines."

As she got older, she became less and less reserved, and often said some outrageous things. How could a child's hands touch the mother's intestines?

At the gate of a garden, she fell in love with a set of baby clothes. He smiled wryly and waited for her to bargain with the boss.She should have bought a few local rain flower stones, or a red lacquered paper umbrella, but she walked into a clothing store and looked at baby products.

He leaned against the door of the store, watching the tourists coming and going with cameras hanging around their necks.

He saw a man in a wheelchair, pushed by a woman in her fifties, and he saw them come out of the garden gate, the woman wearing a red T-shirt and yellow hat.The woman let go of her wheelchair and went into a nearby supermarket to buy something.The man in the wheelchair looked in the direction of the woman and looked at the sky for a while. Later, it was probably a bee flying in front of him. He lowered his head slightly, waiting for it to fly away. He turned his head and watched the bee disappear. Air - Seeing his face, Xiandao moved his fingers.

The woman came out of the supermarket and bought a large bottle of mineral water and some bread and biscuits. She stood there eating bread and handed it to him. He took it and ate a little slowly.They were probably traveling in a group. After a while, more elderly people in red T-shirts and yellow hats came out of the garden, and a bus drove up. Two staff members loaded the wheelchairs onto the bus.

Xiandao didn't move a bit until the bus drove away, and he saw that face leaning against the window, looking up at the sky.

After negotiating the price, Yayoi came out with her spoils. The shop offered cute plastic bags, pink, with a strawberry printed on it.

"Let's go," Yayoi said, "What are you looking at?"

"Oh, there was a tour group just now."

"It's this season, the old men and women are in a hurry."

Sendo's life hasn't changed much.

It’s just that he no longer watches sports news. The new basketball star he has been waiting for probably died many years ago.

The basketball in the utility room has not been pumped up for many years, and it has shriveled into a big cake.An acquaintance came to play at home, his child messed around in the utility room, came out with a basketball in his arms, and asked his mother what was written on it, the adults were too busy chatting to pay attention to him, the child felt wronged for a while, and finally found another A toy duck, happy again.

The number of fishing in Xiandao has not increased or decreased. One day when he came back from fishing, he passed the chess and card room at the gate of the compound. After so many years, this shop is probably the only one in the city that has survived. He saw a little boy sitting on the steps of the door, looking down A little book.

He suddenly walked over irresistibly, and lifted the boy high. The boy opened his eyes wide and looked at him. The boy's mother ran out of the chess and card room, "What are you doing?"

He put down the boy and continued to walk, he was just thinking, when he was a high school student more than 20 years ago, maybe one day, he also saw a little boy like this sitting in front of the steps of the chess and card room, that boy was waiting for his Grandma went home to cook, and maybe he held the boy up like this.

The past was so long that he finally couldn't remember it.

Finish

08.3.12