Hedgehog men are men too

If I could change the past... my mother wouldn't have to suffer thousands of years, wouldn't be suppressed and killed, and wouldn't have to bear the notoriety and murder...

If only I could...if!

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Calm down, don't make a quick decision!Everything happens for a reason, and when the truth comes out, there will always be an explanation.As an onmyoji who communicates between nature and ghosts and gods, what exactly happened?Abe Seimei stopped his thoughts.

The Big Tengu has long known that he is doomed, but he cannot accurately predict the direction of fate, the future...

Qingming calmed down and took out divination tools, compass, copper coin and tortoise shell.He drew a formation on his mother and concentrated on chanting the mantra.However, this time the divination did not go smoothly, Seimei had a splitting headache as if he had suffered backlash, he knelt on the ground, and Yuyihu stepped forward in shock.

"Seimei!! What's wrong, don't scare mom!"

"Not good! Seimei resonates with the meat!"

Abe Seimei's spirit was disturbed by the piece of meat, and Daitengu hurriedly pushed the fox away, and sure enough, his condition improved a little.

Onmyoji lay in the arms of Mikazuki, sweating profusely, Seimei seemed to have experienced the life of the monster Nue in just a few minutes.

When he woke up, he was very familiar with this place, whether it was the decoration or the configuration of the room, he took it for granted, but... why did he wake up here?Whenever he opened his eyes, there should be a lot of... a lot of what?

They would happily surround him and call out his name affectionately...

"Father, are you awake? You haven't gone to court for several days because of a serious illness."

Two young men knelt beside his bed, they were Abe Jihei and Abe Yoshimasa, so he was... Abe Seimei?

As soon as I think of this name, fragments of broken memories flash in my mind, but they come from various perspectives. In the picture, there is an onmyoji with a blurry face, wearing a light blue coat embroidered with white feathers and a tall hat.

"I can't remember what happened before."

In fact, he is not ignorant, but there are too many broken pieces, and he cannot be completely reassembled for the time being.

The two youths had such expressions, and they reported respectfully.

"Father, you had a high fever three nights ago. Memory loss may be the sequelae. However, fortunately, father, you are awake now, and your body is in good health."

They smiled sincerely, as if they were supported physically and mentally. The tears and feelings in the young man's eyes were real, but he always felt a slight sense of disobedience. He could accept that they were his sons, but... there seemed to be few people around him. What happened, the red mist in his memory was preventing him from remembering.

He was sure that those "what" were very important.

After convalescing, he entered the palace and chatted fluently with the ministers and dignitaries. Talent, waka, and Chinese poetry seemed to be instinctive. Everyone congratulated him on his recovery from a serious illness, but the picky noble ladies whispered about his appearance , for example, lack of handsomeness, loss of elegance...

Indeed, his hair gradually changed from light gray to jet black. The sons said that they should thank God for giving him a healthy body. They clasped their hands and murmured: "If you survive a catastrophe, there will be blessings later."

It took him a long time to realize that what is coming is not a blessing, but endless evil consequences.

He is an onmyoji who can communicate with ghosts and gods and divide the two worlds.He can shoot arrows to break barriers, fly leaves and cut butterflies, preside over priests and dance divine dances. He has accomplished many things without his knowledge.

Even if he doesn't remember anything, there is a will that will keep reminding him to protect Heian-kyo, as if he will regret it if he doesn't do so, if he regrets, his heart will be empty...

Everything seems to be going well for him.The family is happy and the people are happy.

But... why is his heart getting more and more hollow?

After a few months, he understood that he was not human.

When Pan Ran woke up, he was already in the graveyard playing with ghosts, beating the beat with human bones in his hand.

Although he has been given the identity of Abe Seimei, has fragments of memory, and is recognized by everyone, he is not Abe Seimei himself.

He is forced to have the dream and life trajectory of "Abe Seimei", pretending to pursue these will make him feel more comfortable, because "Abe Seimei" is the role he must play.

However, as the number one onmyoji in Japan, all the shikigami powers that were rumored to be bound to him have disappeared.where did they goDid they know that the onmyoji they respected disappeared, so they don't want him?

"Abe Seimei" living in the world is just a monster, a restrained monster, the only obsession in his mind is to protect Heian-kyo.He is obviously a monster, why should he protect humans, why!

Thoughts clashed violently, he had to suppress his dark nature to become an Onmyoji, if he wanted to describe this disgusting feeling... Inexplicably, he suddenly remembered the huge black wings, but he didn't know whose wings it was.

There must be something driving him to do this, as if someone once loved this place deeply, but never appeared again.

Lonely, ridiculous.He has to pretend to be Abe Seimei all the time to be able to settle down.

He is Abe Seimei, he is Abe Seimei... Otherwise, who else could he be?He has nothing but this false identity.

He wants to find "Abe Seimei"'s mother. If Yuyi Fox admits him, will he be able to gain a foothold in the world as if he had a new life? After having a mother, he will no longer be a fake.

After more than 20 years, finally got the definite news from Yuyihu. He wanted to visit her and tell Yuyihu that he was Seimei. She would definitely support all his decisions and give him the strength to go on.The imagining of his mother gave him the motivation to continue struggling.

When he came to Yuyihu's hut in the forest, his mother was dazed for a moment after seeing him, and then gave him a hug. His mother's warmth made him believe that he could become Abe Seimei.

Since then he also has a mother!

They watched the forest full of moonlight together, and caught fish together in the stream.He felt that the hole in his heart was filled, Yu Yihu didn't care whether he had the talent that Abe Seimei should have, only cared that he was her child.

At that moment, he decided to abandon the darkness in his heart and live a dignified life as Abe Seimei.He will cherish this identity, endure his abnormality, and obey the voice in his head: protect Heian-kyo.

Unfortunately, misfortunes abound.

The nobleman who had a good relationship with Michimi Ashiya came to him with a fox and said, "Since you have discovered the secret recipe of immortality, why don't you share it with everyone? This fox is the key! Use it to make medicine for me!"

He saw his mother, who had been thrust into a hedgehog by an arrow, dying.The fox expressed its joy with the remaining intact eye, and the other eye was pierced by arrow clusters, bleeding profusely.

At this moment, the mother was still glad that he was fine, and that her child was not injured.

"He" was drowned by the black tide.

The black water choked his nose and mouth, covered his eyes, and let his negative thoughts go.

All the previous beliefs were broken, and the mother who loved him was trampled by human beings.

Protect humans?ridiculous!Humans are the root of all evil!He finally knows who he is, he is the monster "Ne", who wants to rule the darkness of the world forever and live forever!

Let everything be covered in darkness, and there will be no tomorrow.

For his mother, and for him to finally have his own name.

The silver-haired young man in Sanriyue's arms covered his eyes with his hands, his tears silently slid down his cheeks and dripped onto the floor.

Big Tengu walked towards Sanriyue, leaned the Onmyoji to his chest, and patted him on the back.

"Don't worry, I'm here, I've lived until now just to help you."

Seimei's tears wet Ootengu's white clothes. No one knew what he saw, but he was very grateful that he could see his mother again in his lifetime.

"Mother, the monster in your belly, Nue, has my human soul and earth soul, and the remaining seven souls are sacrificed by the souls of my shikigami, they...they...

Troubled my mother to give birth to Nue, I want to send them away properly. "

His shikigami, why are they so stupid?There is still a chance for Abe Seimei to be reincarnated after collecting all three souls, but his shikigami are no longer possible, their souls were made into incomplete pieces, just to make up for Nue's seven souls.

"Seimei, what are you going to do after Nue is born?"

Yu Yihu didn't know if his son was fully prepared.

"I don't have enough attack power, and now only Ootengu can defeat him. After Nue is subdued, I will dismantle his soul."

It is extremely painful to disassemble the soul, not to mention that Abe Seimei will resonate with his own soul. He did not say that he would also experience that kind of death penalty together.He is both the executioner and the victim.

What kind of fate is this?Why did this happen... Abe Seimei couldn't figure it out, everything happened after his death.

"鵺" is a bad debt, not Seimei's wish, but he can't get away with it.At least... I can't worry my mother anymore.

"I see, that's great."

Yuyihu smiled reassuringly, as long as her son was fine, it was enough for her Qingming to be fine now.

"Yuyi Fox, how long will it take for Nue to be born?"

Big Tengu asked.

"It's three more days, what's wrong?"

"Seimei doesn't have that much time. He will be deported within a few hours at most."

Yuyihu grabbed Seimei's arm tightly.

"Then, what should I do..."

"Ootengu, how did I get summoned?"

The big tengu glared at Abe Seimei.

"The summoning talisman flew out by itself, and the talisman wanted me to use it flickeringly, and then you appeared."

Sato Yuki described the scene at that time.

"The sudden energy fluctuation hit me, and I was summoned within a short time. So the point is still the big tengu. You need me at that time, so I will appear."

Seimei speculates while recalling.

"That's right..."

"Give me your token, I will perceive the fluctuation of the summoning talisman at any time thousands of years ago."

Abe Seimei's tone seemed like his girlfriend was begging for a diamond ring from the man, because Otengu, the token he wanted, would generally not offer it.

Datengu faced Seimei's handsome face and felt the thick ink under his skin.The Onmyoji wanted the monster's token but didn't say which one it was, and the original intention was for the big tengu to offer it voluntarily.

Qingming has turned black. Although he was as cunning as a fox, now he looks like an impatient beast.

Sato Yuki's face was covered with dark clouds. She knew what Abe Seimei wanted, and indeed only the sensitivity of such a token was enough.

For my friend, even though there are... tens of millions of people, I will go!Big Tengu cheered for himself in his heart.

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