No matter how dangerous the Linxi road is

"Don't Ask About Linxi's Dangerous Road" Author: Vaguely YX

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Lin Xuan knew what Xun Zhiyuan meant by "no breach of contract".

A year ago, after he had skin-to-skin relationship with Xun Zhiyuan, Xun Zhiyuan made a promise to him: unless there is national hatred or national righteousness, the only possibility of a break between you and me is that you abandon me, and I will never Will take the initiative to abandon you.

It was he who brought up the sentence of breaking up friendship, but he didn't expect that Xun Zhiyuan would really agree.

He thought that that person would stay, that he could see the emotional turmoil of that person.He even thought that as long as Xun Zhiyuan is willing to say "no", he will immediately agree to Xun Zhiyuan's confession, even if he knows that the other party is just temporarily frustrated and looking for comfort, he is still willing to accept his unemotional feedback.

He even felt that Xun Zhiyuan did it on purpose.That person didn't take the initiative to abandon him, but pressed him every step of the way, letting him say the end of the relationship.

So smart, so ruthless.

Article: ☆, if you see it for the first time

"My name is Lin Xuan."

"Hi, I'm Xun Zhiyuan."

"Brother, your name sounds very interesting, I wonder if you would like to interpret it for me?"

"Looking for you in the empty valley and secluded forest, to the fragrant and beautiful shade, and seeing the bright sun and warmth in the sky, I came here from a long distance for this. When I first met Lin Xuan in search of Zhiyuan, I dissected the name selfishly. How offensive."

"Hey, you are indeed the editor-in-chief of the Literature Club. Look at this lip service. I really can't flirt with you."

tbc.

No.: ☆, I want to repeat

It has been a few days since I checked the results of the college entrance examination, and all kinds of emotions have almost settled in time. There is nothing more than a final choice. When I receive the admission notice, it means saying goodbye to the three-year high school.

"I want to repeat." When Xun Zhiyuan said this decision for the third time, the father sitting across from the coffee table still couldn't hide the surprise and shock on his face.No wonder, at the beginning, he said without hesitation that he was the one who went across the province to go to L city alone, and he walked out of the college entrance examination room with a face of indifference and said that it was him who had a low admission threshold for a junior college in L city, and he was the one who imagined that he would accompany that person in L city in the future , Now he can't wipe away the tears but insists on gritting his teeth and saying that he is the one who repeats the reading and fights for the heavy copy again-this contrast is not to mention the father, even Xun Zhiyuan himself finds it extremely ironic.

"This is not a trivial matter, you have to think it through carefully, once you decide..." Before his father finished speaking, Xun Zhiyuan put on his coat and stood up, interrupting in a hurry: "Okay, I'm going out for a walk, I've contacted you, Wen Cheng is with me, you won’t be back too late, you have your mobile phone, you can call if you have something to do.” Then he slammed the door to shut his father’s complaint in the room before he could finish, and went to the carport to push the battery car. "You child..." The father shook his head helplessly, then turned and walked into the study to continue dealing with work.

When Wen Cheng met Xun Zhiyuan, he was in a park near his home.It was already dusk that day, and there were already some people in the park who were used to having an early dinner enjoying the cool air to cool off the heat.The main purpose of this appointment is to relieve Xun Zhiyuan's worries, and the quiet park is a good place to talk and chat.

"Accompany me for a drink?" As soon as the car stopped, before he had time to say hello, Xun Zhiyuan handed him a can of beer in a can.Wen Cheng didn't pretend to be polite to him, and raised his hand to take it: "Just drink this can, I want to keep healthy." The other party couldn't help teasing: "Then should I bring you some longan, red dates, and wolfberries to make tea for you?"

After all, this meeting came with a lot of thoughts in mind, and it was hard to be as carefree as in the past. With a smile, Wen Cheng recalled the topics chatted on QQ in recent days, showing concern and worry in his words: "You really Have you figured it out? Are you sure you really want to repeat it? Don’t just get angry for a while, you won’t regret it in the future.”

The two walked side by side on the sidewalk, and Xun Zhiyuan recalled the reason that made him decide to repeat:

"There is such a person, I met on the Internet, his name is Jin, and his family is in L City. I have known him for almost three years. We used to be very good friends, but now we have broken up, and we don't keep any involvement.

"Before I told you that I wanted to apply for a certain college in L City, because that school was close to his home, and I was going to accompany him. Don't think too much, it's really just a friend, I treat him as a brother with a different surname.

"He is the same age as me, but he started school two years later. Because of amblyopia, his eyes can hardly see clearly. His family also dislikes him, thinking that being half-blind is a burden, so he used to feel inferior and didn't dare to socialize with people.

"The reason for breaking up the relationship was very straightforward. He said that I was too demanding on him. He felt tired and didn't want to think about life skills now. He wants to be drunk today.

"He said he was disabled and couldn't be like a healthy person. Let me not be too demanding. But why doesn't he think about it, in the face of social survival, physical disabilities will only make his life more difficult. His birth defect is If he is asked to work harder than others, who is willing to listen to his complaints and tears?

"I'm not idle either. I'm not giving instructions to him. He has amblyopia and can't read the words on the blackboard. He takes pictures with his mobile phone and sends them to me. I identify them one by one and spell them out and send them to him. Then I have to correct his writing. mistake. How much time and energy does this take up? Am I paying less than him?

"He couldn't understand math class. I searched for learning software and gave him feedback after trying it out. I also selected supplementary books of appropriate difficulty for him, and often explained to him the topics he didn't understand. Am I feeding my conscience to the dog? He Do you know how much this burdens me?

"The major he chose in the technical school has high requirements for eyesight, so his usual grades are also very poor. I asked him about his future arrangements, and he said that he could at least finish the three years in the technical school. Consider it. Moreover, he made it clear many times that he would not take the college entrance examination, because he felt that going to school was too tiring and boring, and he knew that he would not be able to enter any higher school.

"I said that when he graduated from technical school, he was already 20 years old. Since he would no longer continue to study for a higher degree, he should also consider how to make money for a living when he was weak. He said he knew nothing and didn't want to learn anything. Every day counts.

"I think that even if he doesn't take the exam to seek a degree, he should at least learn some survival skills. It's better to have skills than nothing, so I plan to find a job that suits him.

"About the junior college in L city, I plan to study marketing, so that I can open a small shop with him in the future, and let me do the external sales. He is only responsible for logistics and bookkeeping, and does not need a high level of education. So, also It can be regarded as finding a way for him to survive.

"I have conceived a lot of things with him, and I have contacted his parents not long ago. Since I am going to L city across the province, if it is not convenient to go back to my home for a short vacation, I will directly stay at his home. His parents also treat me Don't be restrained by saying that you don't have to meet outside.

"I used to think that it doesn't matter if you study for a bachelor's degree or a junior college degree. It's enough to know one thing about life, and all the days with him will not be bitter. But I overlooked one point. According to my assumption, life with him is not bitter. What if he is gone? If he turns his back on me, what am I left with?

"So I want to repeat the study. I bet that my talent and hard work can be repaid. Maybe I will meet better people on a higher platform. I really hope that I can have a confidant who works hard by my side, but I am now convinced that at least He is not."

At the end, Xun Zhiyuan couldn't help but wipe the dry tears from the corners of his eyes, he is not a hypocritical person, he rarely shed tears on weekdays, but recently he couldn't help covering his face and weeping several times because of the re-reading. Only then did I know that a man does not flick his tears easily because he has not reached the sad place.

tbc.

No.: ☆, write to you

Wen Cheng said very little along the way, basically he only patted Xun Zhiyuan on the shoulder to persuade him not to get excited when his mood fluctuated too much. He knew that listening is the best help at this time. The other party is always smart and transparent, and he can completely The inside story analysis is clear, there is no need for others to explain, not to mention that the breakup of the three-year friendship cannot be explained clearly in a few words, and he is still an existence outside of the friendship between the two of Xunjin after all.

"I can't intervene between you and Jin, as you said, you are not the same kind of people, since he is willing to fall, you can't help him up by yourself. Wait a few years for him to see if he will think of you after he graduates from the technical school." Throwing the empty can in his hand into the trash can by the road, Wen Cheng stopped in his tracks, and looked at Xun Zhiyuan with determination, "Since you said you If you think about repeating the study, I just hope you don’t let yourself down, and when we stand here again in a year, I hope we can all have a satisfactory result.”

The depressed words in his heart can be poured out, and Xun Zhiyuan's mood has improved a lot. He is not an indecisive person.Before, I was always used to suffering in my heart. Now that I have a trustworthy friend as a listener, it is only a matter of time to get through it.

"Xun, if you repeat the exam, you will be taking the college entrance examination in the same class as Lin Xuan. Have you talked about which school you took the exam?" On the way home, Wen Cheng's inadvertent greeting made Xun Zhiyuan's heart tremble.This name once almost melted into his life, leaving him with too many unforgettable memories, but now somehow it is blown away by the wind like sand, and the particles are scratched on the face without traces, but it is hot pain.

"Just, let's study hard, and where we go depends on how much we scored in the college entrance examination." Xun Zhiyuan tried not to smile so awkwardly, hoping that Wen Cheng didn't notice the strangeness between him and Lin Xuan.

Speaking of the friendship with Wen Cheng, from a certain point of view, it is fortunate that Lin Xuan mediates it.All three of them were members of the school's literary club. Xun Hewen was one class older than Lin, and was the editor-in-chief and president respectively at that time, and Lin was a freshman.Later, Xun Zhiyuan transferred to another school due to various reasons. Since then, he has been worried about the negative impact of this accident on his reputation, so he has a lot of rejection of his old acquaintances. Zhiyuan has a lot of concerns, but the other party is too sensitive, often stubbornly rejecting the kindness of others, and unable to express some concerns.At that time, Lin Xuan was one of the few close friends of Xun Zhiyuan, and Wen Cheng often asked him about Xun Zhiyuan's recent situation. Until the second semester of the third year of high school, Lin Xuan couldn't bear to see the estrangement between Xun Wen and Xun Wen. Lai Wencheng's concerns.

Back home, Xun Zhiyuan walked into the bedroom and closed the door, sat in front of the desk, staring at the table and wandering.The name Lin Xuan has been lingering in his chest, making his breathing seem to be accompanied by a feeling of stagnation.He grabbed the remote control of the air conditioner, lowered the temperature by two degrees Celsius, and immediately threw the remote control on the bedside as if touching a hot potato.Of course, the irritability in my heart cannot be degraded by external objects, but I really can't think of a better solution so far.

Lying cross-legged on the bed, watching the moon outside through the window, the unreasonable irritability in his heart intensified for some reason, so he got up and drew the curtains tightly.I wanted to be out of sight and out of mind, trying to be quiet in the darkness, but found that the name was not in front of my eyes but in my heart. If I couldn't properly handle the relationship with that person, I'm afraid it would still be like today, A casual mention by an acquaintance made me flustered and at a loss what to do.

"After I finish the college entrance examination, I will write you a long letter, sending you the love of the whole universe and the longing from the ancient times to the eternity ①, to encourage you in the critical year of the third year of high school, and you must pay attention to it when the time comes." All of a sudden. Recalling the words he said to Lin Xuan a few months ago, Xun Zhiyuan felt that if he didn't do something tonight, he would definitely not fall asleep, so he put on his clothes and turned on the lamp to try to write this letter. The letter promised earlier.

"Write to Lin Xuan:

I said earlier that I planned to write you a letter after I finished my college entrance examination, and I will honor this matter today.

The reason why I have this idea is because I think that many times I have a lot of words that I can't say to you.I don't know if I'm introverted in your opinion, but I always feel that it's enough to keep a lot of emotions in my heart, and it seems that it's always inconvenient to speak out until a certain moment.

I have so much to say to you, but I don't know why I give up before I speak.So today I thought about writing them all down, and I thought that the evidence in black and white might be easier for you to believe.

The whole content of this letter is my sincerity, every single stroke is my sincere heart.I don't know if the image in the letter is different from my usual appearance, but if you think so, then I ask you to accept my sincerity written in my own handwriting today.

I don't know if it's because I'm more timid when I'm close to my hometown. I usually feel that there are too many things to say, but now when I open the letter paper, I don't know where to start.

How long have we not seen each other?Suddenly want to ask this question, I wonder if you count the time.Remember we said before that we went to have a seafood buffet together during the summer vacation?Now the sea is still the sea, the fish and sheep are still fresh, but where did you go, who was sharpening your knife and trying to rob my wallet?

In fact, I have always wanted to ask, how did we get to where we are now?There is no quarrel, no conflict, but they all cut off contact by coincidence.I thought about whether I should take the initiative to find you, but I didn't dare, because I was afraid that something I didn't do well would make you feel disgusted.

If I have to combine thousands of words into one sentence, then I dare not talk about affection, so I can only try my best to accumulate all the courage and ask one sentence: Will you believe me?

Do you know that cowards are afraid of happiness, they will be hurt when they touch cotton, and sometimes they are hurt by happiness②.I have always been afraid of being passionate, so I simply turned around and pretended not to care, so as to avoid the possible pain.

Suddenly, I sighed with emotion, if life is just like seeing us for the first time, do you still remember us when we first met?At that time, we lamented that we met each other too late, and felt that we had too many similar experiences. When we saw each other, it was as if we had found another self in the world. Talking about ideals late at night, encouraging each other's aspirations, making many promises to eachother—I always remember all this, and I think you will remember it too.It’s just that I don’t know when it changed later. I talked less and less about my inner thoughts to you, but criticized you more and more for being superficial, childish and unrealistic.

The love is deep and the responsibility is heavy. I don't need to explain this truth. I hope you can have a better life, so I place higher expectations on you, but in the end, what qualifications do I have to judge your life? Woolen cloth?Perhaps I have overstepped it. My self-righteous standards may not conform to your life trajectory. It is reckless of me to make judgments without consulting your opinions.

I can only ask you if you are willing to believe me, I am sorry I can't say the rest.I stubbornly want to bear all the emotions by myself, I bury all the deep friendship in my heart and don't talk about it easily, so that you can hardly feel my sincerity to you.But if I said that my friendship with you has never changed, and this feeling has been deeply engraved in my heart, but I insist on burying all my emotions, would you be willing to believe my sincerity?Or, are you still willing to believe the sincerity of a cold and mean person like me?

I know that you lacked the love of a father since you were a child, but have you ever heard the phrase "elder brother is like father"?I don't know when, I hope to be able to play the role of elder brother in your life, and I want to use this to make up for the father's love you lack.Does this statement seem too boastful?But for me, you are indeed the person I am willing to spare no effort to protect.

It is suitable for me to write a big book and miss it deeply, but I dare not say anything easily.In the end, I just ask you: I don't want to see a relationship that ends without a disease, so can we continue to be close?

Seek far”

tbc.

① "Send you the love of the whole universe and the longing from ancient times to eternity" is Zhu Shenghao's love letter.

② "Cowards are afraid of happiness, and they will be hurt when they touch cotton, and sometimes they are hurt by happiness." From Dazai Osamu's book "Disqualification in the World".

No.: ☆, Hello, Brother Long

This letter was deleted, deleted, modified, and it was already dusk when the draft was drafted. Xun Zhiyuan dug out the letter paper and envelope, and carefully copied it.