[Comprehensive] Chronic child love

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Carrying bad thoughts?

—What does that mean?

Looking down at the petite figure from above, he couldn't react properly for a moment—he knew that he had never been good at reading the atmosphere and guessing other people's thoughts, so at this moment, he seemed to be more cautious than usual.

And Baijian looked at the young man standing in front of him, noticed that he was not good at this atmosphere, opened his mouth, finally gave up his thoughts, walked past him in the direction of the way home, and said with a smile: "... ...Well, let's go back! Little Jiao Dong, it's better not to say anything. It's getting late now, if the time for access control is over, you might be punished by the housekeeper."

And looking at her determined to leave, who seemed a little lonely for some reason, he finally had a decision in his heart - he caught up with Bai Jian who was walking away quickly, and stretched out his hand to strangle her wrist, Bai Jian felt his hand tighten, and stopped again.

"No... just say it, Bai Jian, I believe you." Hong Hang looked at her hair twirling, at the moment her back was turned to him, and he couldn't see her expression.

"...Are you really going to tell me?" Bai Jian asked him softly.

"Really." Hong nodded, he knew her, why did he ever harbor really bad thoughts?Even if it is true, as her friend, he just needs to face it with her.

"Even if you might disappoint me because of it?" she asked cautiously.

"Even so, I still believe in you." He still replied.

Bai Jian lowered his eyes and thought for a while, and finally made up his mind: "Okay, since you said so. In fact, I feel that I can't hide it from you any longer—after all, you always support me, and I have to treat you too. Just be honest."

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"This secret is another important reason why I worked hard to get into Xiongying."

"Why?" Boom's heart skipped a beat.

And Bai Jian lowered his eyes, and it seemed that it took a while to sort out his emotions before he uttered the secret deeply buried in his heart: "...I have always hoped to be a hero like my parents, but at the same time, the current I also had an impure motive in my mind, an idea that a hero shouldn't have."

"...I have a person who I want to catch with my own hands no matter what. In order to defeat him, I will do everything possible to become stronger. I even thought-if I see him, I have to be prepared to kill him. After all, he Killed many heroes and destroyed many families."

"I do want to be a hero, but more... Before becoming a 'real hero', I feel that I have to accomplish this." Saying this, she lowered her head again—after all, she What I said just now are all thoughts that are rare for a hero.

Revenge, murder—that is obviously not what a hero should have, and it is not allowed.A hero should use his personality and power for others. If a hero uses his identity as a hero to satisfy his personal desires, he is disqualified.These are clearly stated in the classroom, as well as in the laws of the country as a whole.

The expression on Hong's face was startled, and he inevitably remembered what happened to Iida before his workplace experience last year, but now is not the time for him to interrupt Shirama, he is more concerned about the person who made Shirama think so .

"The person you mentioned, could it be..." Looking at her, the photo of the serial murderer in the clipping of the talk show just now naturally appeared in her mind: "It stands to reason that that person should still be in prison now." That's right."

"No." Bai Jian was stunned, then shook his head, with a somewhat annoyed expression: "...I have a secret that no one believes."

There was a pause, if it wasn't the murderer who killed his parents, who else could it be?

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"I was at the scene of the case ten years ago."

Bai Jian's tone was very calm. As she spoke, she finally turned around and stared at Hong Jiao Dong with a pair of clear red eyes. His blue and gray pupils were obviously stunned, as if he was surprised by her presence at the scene. It was a little surprising—presumably, she never talked to him about the accidental details, and the hero's daughter was never mentioned in the reports.

It is very normal that no one noticed. The fact that she was at the scene was also known to the police who were in charge of recording the statement.

Therefore, for more information about the accident, Bai Jian must personally describe it to Hong: "...that day, it was rare for Mom and Dad to take a vacation on the same day—so our family went to the country park in Chiyoda to play, and it was also Encountered the reported murderer 'Stola' at the amusement park there."

"At that time, my parents, who sensed the danger, immediately handed me over to the hero who led the evacuation at the scene. Because my parents have a personality suitable for dealing with 'Stola' and have a lot of experience, they stayed at the scene."

Bai Jian looked at Hong, and calmly recounted the scene at that time: "In the beginning, I waited in a safe place with other uncles and aunts. Because I always believed in the experience and strength of Mommy and Dad, in my opinion at the time... ...I think they will be able to settle the incident and come back to me safely."

"It was only later that the news that a hero was seriously injured spread among the waiting people. When I heard the news, I felt scared again... I was afraid that it was my parents, so..." Said Up to this part, Bai Jian, who had always narrated the incident in a calm tone, gradually weakened his tone.

I don't know if it's an illusion of Hong, but I feel that her clear red eyes are full of sadness and loneliness at this moment.

Bai Jian paused as he spoke, adjusted his mood again, and continued talking about the situation at that time.

At that time, because she was afraid that her parents would be injured in the incident, she was ignorant and cried and fled from the crowd because of the uneasiness in her heart, and then secretly ran back to the scene of the accident by herself——

Then, because of her decision, she saw something unbelievable.

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She clearly remembered that when she ran back to the scene of the accident, she saw the parents who were knocked down on the ground with scars all over their bodies, and the figure of the enemy 'Stola' who raided the park.

At that time, Stola exuded an uneasy aura all over his body, his hands were stained with the blood of many people, and beside him were many heroes who were in charge of "suppression" just now.

Seeing such a violent scene for the first time, she was so frightened that she could not react at all, she could only stand in the distance and watch what happened afterwards——the skin on the face of that 'Stola' was actually shaking with a It gradually collapsed in a way that shrank and shattered, and then, like a snake shedding its skin, a layer of human skin peeled off like this.

Then, after the human skin peeled off and disappeared in an instant.A muscular man with a completely different appearance reappeared.

The man was dressed in black and held a thick book in his hand. After the skin peeled off, he approached his parents and the rest of the heroes with a gloomy expression, took their hands and put them on his own. A bloody palm print was printed on the page——

He did this slowly and carefully, until the bloody palm prints of all the heroes on the scene were collected, and then he left the scene of the accident unhurriedly.

Recounting the things that frightened her the most in childhood, Bai Jian's voice trembled unconsciously. She spoke intermittently, but she still insisted on describing the scene at that time to Hong as much as possible, and then said her conclusion firmly. Come out: "...So, the murderer can't be Stola, the captured Stola is...'fake'."

Bai Jian lowered his head: "...but, among the police... no one believes me, after all, the wounds on the parents were indeed caused by Stola's personality, and Stola himself also has unexpected memories, and also After admitting this matter, there is no doubt in the whole case..."

"But I think that's really strange. Maybe it's because the prisoner has a special personality? That way it can be done—but no matter how I explain it, the police at the time still don't believe me. Especially since I'm just a brain If you are a stupid child, then my testimony will be even more unreliable.”

Bai Jian bit his lower lip: "... Originally, the situation at that time was very chaotic, the police didn't get much information, and there were still some people who exaggerated their subjective experience. Of course they didn't believe my unsubstantiated testimony, so... ...So..." Bai Jian's shoulders began to shrug, and tears began to well up in her eyes - this was a knot in her heart all along.

"I'm not...not reconciled." Bai Jian covered her face with her hands, and continued with sobs: "Since everyone doesn't believe me, I can only work hard..." Because of crying, she even He didn't speak calmly anymore, his tone was lowered, and he sounded a little excited: "I must catch the real murderer, otherwise..."

She didn't go on, but lowered her head, trembling and crying.

She looked so fragile and lonely, standing in this deserted shopping street, her small figure was as pitiful as a child abandoned by someone.

It was completely different from her who always had a smile on her face—this surprised Hiroki, who didn't expect that under Shirama's strong and cheerful appearance, there was actually such a strong sadness hidden.

Looking at the girl like this, even Hong's vision was blurred for a moment—he hadn't realized that she was enduring so much alone, and he was completely disqualified as her friend.

At least, from this moment on, he has to look at her more seriously and protect her.

He couldn't make her shed such sad tears anymore.Thinking like this, Hong approached her mysteriously, and hugged her into his arms: "Bai Jian, you are not alone, I will always stay by your side."

And suddenly felt that she was being submerged in an exceptionally warm embrace, Bai Jian's crying became louder again, she buried her head in Hong's chest, and did not speak again.

"I also have something to say, I don't know if you want to hear it..." Hong stretched out his arms to hug her, and lowered his eyes again, with a bit of sadness written in his eyes: "...Actually, I understand your thoughts very well, after all, the old me That’s what it is — having an object of resentment in your mind and making that hatred your own goal to move forward with, but then I realized that wasn’t right.”

"...that's not just hatred!"

Hearing what Hong said, Bai Jian corrected him with some displeasure—it was not her hatred alone, if that person was allowed to go unpunished, it would definitely bring harm to more people, although her personal hatred was a reason , but in this story, there are actually various emotions. She choked up: "I couldn't save my parents at the time. I was very sad. No one believed me. I was also very sad. I didn't find out at the time. Personality, I didn't help you with anything, and I... If it wasn't for my request, Mommy and Dad wouldn't take me so far away during the holidays... and..."

"So, not only do I hope... to catch that person, but I also..." Bai Jian burst into tears, with all kinds of memory fragments intertwined in her mind, which made her heart feel like a knife: "I hate myself very much, So if I can't finish this..." She might not be able to let herself relax for the rest of her life.

She spoke in a hurry, but it made Hong gradually understand the white room all this time—why she worked so hard to get into Xiongying, why after getting in, she would do all kinds of exercises desperately, and work harder than anyone else. It's all because after the Chiyoda incident, she alone shouldered many responsibilities and emotions—remorse, self-blame, fear, loneliness... Unknowingly, all kinds of complicated thoughts formed a heavy shackle, binding her White room can go forward.

Thinking of this, he swallowed back the words he wanted to explain, and stretched out his arms to hug Bai Jian, he lost the words to comfort her, so he could only promise her the only thing he could give her: "... ...It doesn't matter, I will always be with you until you figure it out."

Hong pressed her head down, letting her tears flow on his chest: "And I'm not denying your thoughts, but, as someone who has experienced it, I want to remind you...hatred will make you see many things, Bai Jian, I don't want you to miss many more important things than that."

And Bai Jian's petite body trembled, and the tears stopped suddenly—it seemed that the words that had been bombarded had touched somewhere in his heart.

"Don't worry, these things can't be understood overnight." Boom's voice became more sincere and gentle, and he stretched out his arms to hug Baijian, his eyes gradually became gentle: "...take your time, Baijian, it's the same as before, no matter what I'll be with you too."

"You are the hardest-working person I have ever seen," Hong rubbed her hairy head, her tone subconsciously rubbed into distress: "Occasionally look at the people around you, everyone is happy to support your emotions and everything of."

Patting her trembling shoulders, when he was a child—as long as he was comforted in this way, no matter how frightened he was, he could gradually be soothed: "I have an appointment with you, right? I will always be with you."

Bai Jian's crying gradually diminished, instead, she closed her eyes in Hong's arms, thinking a lot in her mind - Hong has been saying some sincere comforting words to her in a gentle tone, and her voice lingers Being next to her made her feel at ease.

——He still believed in her, and said that he would accompany her in an affirmative tone one after another. There was really nothing that made her happier than this.Bai Jian tremblingly closed a pair of red eyes, then quietly rested his forehead on his chest without speaking, like a little animal that has been calmed down.

She thought, Hong's body was very warm, and listening to his powerful heartbeat made her feel at ease.

——It’s good to be self-willed again, and from tomorrow onwards, let’s go back to that hard-working white room.

With him around, what she can achieve, even the unattainable wish, seems to be able to come true.

The two hugged quietly for a long time.

And this silent moment seemed to be the most relaxing moment she had ever experienced.

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