Dereliction of duty · 90 years in the new calendar

"Why did you give up before trying!"

"Such a stupid reason! Can you convince yourself first!"

The banquet venue is brightly lit.

Among people with different minds, only one has become an outlier among them.

Panic and despair... the suppressed anxiety finally found a breakthrough.

"Don't be dazed, hurry up—"

The sharp weapon that pierced "his" abdomen... a river of blood.

……

Sui: (…)

(...What an annoying dream.)

After waking up, I didn't feel any fear of what I had dreamed just now. Instead, I was filled with endless... loneliness and desolation.

Fortunately, that person didn't go away...at least now, he is by my side.

Sui: (Four o'clock...what an awkward time.)

It's not time to get up yet, but it's not enough to go back to sleep.

Sui yawned softly, pulling his arm out from under the man's neck as much as possible without disturbing the man.

Sui: (So quiet.)

The scene that appeared in the dream happened at the end of last year, on a cold day with heavy snowfall.

The touch of a body that is colder than snow is a memory that I want to forget but can't forget.

Now, just looking at his sleeping face so quietly, a little carelessness may cause panic.

... Great, still breathing.

Sui: (The gap between the past and the present is really huge.)

(...a little miss when he was still alive.)

(However, whoever made it happen...)

Sui sighed heavily, got up to leave, even though he was reluctant to leave, he would probably be deeply moved if he didn't leave again.

To distract himself, he had to find something to do.

It's a pity that my first reaction was to "make a breakfast for the beginning of the day", but I remembered the fact that I don't know how to cook.

Including two months ago, on the day of Flo's birthday...the biscuits I tried with good intentions, the results were also terrible.He didn't bluntly criticize this, but made himself feel uncomfortable.

The next best thing, how about housework such as sweeping and mopping the floor? ... Sui Xiao went around and the house was very tidy.

Usually, Flo will do all kinds of chores at home without complaint.

Sui: (If you think about it this way, am I a burden?)

(...I, have I given him any help?)

A similar idea would come up to him once or twice a day, but he would shake his head and brush it off.

It's partly an act of escapism, but also because, whenever he hesitates, Flo gets...unhappy.

Compared with the so-called reward, he seems to hope that he can live happily and easily.So no matter what, in front of him, Sui won't show the...fear in his heart.

Sui: (The one who is afraid is actually me.)

(Afraid of being abandoned by him one day... something like that.)

"The Mr. Sui I know is not a sentimental person."

Sui: (He must be very disappointed, if he knows that I am worrying about such things now.)

Being in a situation with nothing to do, after looking around, he found that the only option left was... to sit on the sofa for a while, calm down, and don't add chaos to this home that he worked hard to maintain peace.

When he was about to close his eyes and rest his mind, he finally looked in the direction of the bedroom... His eyes widened instantly.

Sui: Did I, I... woke you up?

Flo's eyes are always dead, which makes the little sparkle left in the memory so precious.

In fact, it wasn't just the eyes that died.

Flo: Not bad.

I am a light sleeper.

... What's wrong?

While he was opening his mouth and didn't know how to explain, Flo had already approached silently.

He raised his face with both hands worriedly, looked at it for a long time, and finally heaved a sigh of relief.

...his hands were warm.

Sui: ...I had a dream.

Flo: Well, I listen.

Sui: Last year, you helped me block that knife scene.

It's scary so... waking up and having nothing to do.

Flo: I see...

He sat next to him, the distance from him was a little subtle, not too far, but not very close.

He inadvertently touched his abdomen, and after a few presses, his brows were tightly locked.

Flo: It really hurt, that day.

Sui: (…)

I am sorry.

Flo: I don't mean to accuse you.

At least, thinking about it now, I don't regret it.

...It's still very early, Mr. Sui, what's the plan for today?

Sui: Nothing but work.

At night, I might want to go farther, looking for... looking for that brother of mine.

Flo: After that day, after that, I really haven't seen him again.

At an informal banquet seven days ago, my brother who hadn't seen him for a long time also appeared.

After some insignificant provocation, he quickly left the feast and was never heard from again.

Since that day, although I have thought about looking for it along the way, there has been no result.

Sui: (Takes a step back.)

(Even if I do find it, what would I want to tell him?)

("You see I'm fine now"...of course not.)

Flo: Mr. Sui?

Sui: Ah, it's fine.

... come a little bit, a little bit more.

That's it, let me lean for a while...thanks.