dissociate

When Nina opened her eyes again, she just nodded at Kurapika.

Kurapika breathed a sigh of relief that he could finally talk to her properly.

"Annie, I know you are listening to me. I'm sorry I can only use this way. After all, you really didn't give me any chance to talk to you. I really, just want to talk to you." Kurapika said with a helpless smile.

Annie in her heart snorted, who cares to listen to you!

"I know you must be very angry with me now, and I don't care. If being angry with me can make you continue to ignite the desire to survive, then I would rather you be angry with me for the rest of your life. But, don't listen to my explanation okay?"

"I'm sorry for what I said five years ago. I said that on purpose, but if I knew what happened in Nyon at the time, I would never have said that to you in that situation. I promise."

Believe you are a ghost!Your assurance is worse than the dust on the ground!Annie thought angrily.

"Do you still remember that photo you saw that year? That photo you couldn't even find any information about. Those red eyes..."

Annie froze for a moment in her inner world, ah. . .Are those pictures of red eyes?

To be honest, although she has always hated him these years, she has always subconsciously wanted to find out who that man is.

She interpreted this action as that she was just not reconciled to the information in this world that she could not find.

But in fact, not long after, because of the relationship between the hunting brigade and Hisoka, she stopped looking for it seriously.

"I found out who that person was through information from the Hunter Association. It was the fourth prince of the Kajin Kingdom - Chelidonish. At that time, he had a lot of red eyes on his hands."

"When Mi Caiyi gave me information at that time, I knew that the only way to get close to him was to board a yacht heading to the Dark Continent. And it happened that at that time, Mi Caiyi invited me through Leori's relationship Join the Twelve."

"By virtue of this, I found a way to get close to Celidonish, but I can't let you go with me."

Speaking of this, Kurapika suddenly stopped, his whole body was trembling slightly, and he lowered his head a little angry.

Annie in the inner world saw this situation through Nina's eyes, and was stunned.

"I don't know what kind of world the Dark Continent is. I didn't know what kind of person Celidonish was at the time! All I know is that the danger level of this matter is approaching A-level, or even higher. I can't put you in any danger! That was my only thought at the time."

Annie felt that her breathing stopped for a second. She stared at him with wide eyes. What did he say?

Is he looking down on her ability? !

She is also a hunter after all!

"I originally thought that in this world, except for the eyes of my people and the matter of revenge for them, I would never have any emotional fluctuations towards anyone or anything. However, you broke into into my world."

"Until now, I can't forget the scene when I saw you for the first time. At that time, you were like a beam of fiery sunshine, breaking into my world for no reason. .” Kurapika said this, raised his head, with a faint smile on his face.

Annie in her inner world froze for a moment, then remembered that scene, her face suddenly turned slightly red.

babble. . .At that time, she seemed very unmannered.

"As long as I think that you may be involved in any danger, and you may disappear into this world, my heart will become very disturbed! I have lost too much. At that time, I could lose the whole world. I I can lose everything, including my life, but I can't lose you, and the hatred of my tribe! So, with such anxiety, the only thing I can do is to push you away. Because I know, if you know You will definitely help me without hesitation because of the Dark Continent and Cheridonish. I can't lose you, let alone let you take such a big risk! I have already lost everything, and the only thing I can't lose is It's just you!" Kurapika lowered his head and said with a trembling body.

Annie stared at him with her pupils constricted. She wanted to find signs that he was lying, but no matter how she looked, she couldn't find it!

What he said made her completely stunned, just because he didn't want to lose her. . . . .

His expression, his trembling, all the appearances are true, every word and every sentence he said is true.

"But I really didn't expect what happened in Nyon to happen. I should have paid more attention at the time, maybe I would have discovered how helpless you were at that time and how much you needed me! But I was an asshole. Those words come to hurt you! So, you hate me, I would rather you hate me, but... Can you please, please don’t disappear in my world again? In order to find you, I even sacrificed myself I came to offer a high price to myself, just because I want you to come to me... because I really can't find you... I can make you hate for a lifetime, but don't leave me, don't let me I can't find you, don't...leave me alone...I beg you.I promise you, I will never push you away again, I will only listen to you in the future, as long as you... Willing to stay by my side. Let me assure you, okay?" After Kurapika finished speaking helplessly, he stretched out his hand and held Nina's hand tightly.

The strength is so strong that even Annie, who is in her inner world, can feel it.

He was really afraid of losing himself.Annie thought blankly.

Nina looked at him, then silently closed her eyes.

She looked at Anne who was a little confused in front of her, and just walked over to pat her on the shoulder.

'Sometimes things are not what you think they are.He may be a little selfish, but when you think about it carefully, all this selfishness is just because he is afraid of losing you, how much he loves you, isn't it? ' said Nina.

Annie looked at her, then silently turned her face away, not wanting to see Nina's expression.

"By the way, let me tell you one more thing. In order for you to listen to him, there are strong restrictions and vows in the power of his thoughts. Maybe he will shorten his life span every time a period of time passes. . ' said Nina.

When Annie heard this, her eyes widened.

She looked at Nina, who just nodded at her.

he. . .What did he do? !

How could he do this!Doesn't he know. . . . .

She was also afraid of losing him!

Like her, she also lost everything. When she lost everything, it was he who entered her life and gave her something she cherished and someone she cared about!

She can't lose him!

'Annie, don't let yourself regret it, okay?In the past five years, you have worked very hard. When Nina said this, she suddenly pulled her over, and then pressed her forehead against her forehead.

'Nina you. . . 'Annie looked at her in surprise.

After a while, Nina's figure began to weaken, with a faint smile on her lips.

'Five years ago, what I wanted to tell you was this matter.I plan to integrate my personalities, and then give up my qualification as the original personality, and let you take over this body.Just because, I know that you are more suitable to stay in the outside world than I am.Because someone will be there waiting for you. '

'If it hadn't happened to that bastard outside, maybe five years ago, it would have been successful. '

'It's been so hard for you all these years.thank you too.Thank you for working so hard and living for us. '

'Now, I hope you don't do anything you'll regret.I gotta go, take care of myself, and take care of us too, you know? ' After Nina finished speaking, she showed a beautiful smile, and then disappeared completely.

That smile was the most beautiful smile Anne had ever seen, and Annie knew it.

That was Nina's most relaxed and at ease smile.

In reality, Anne opened her eyes.

Those eyes were clear and transparent violet.

She looked at Kurapika, his hand still holding hers tightly.

She felt it carefully, and then, many pictures began to flash in her mind.

Those are memories that Nina herself kept, memories that neither she nor Anna knew.

Now, it's all up to the rest of Annie.

And Nina exists. . . .Not anymore.

Then Annie cried and shed tears.

For so many years, she has been holding on, alone for so many years.

Now, she is finally free, finally, free.

Kurapika was stunned for a moment, then he untied the chain, and also the shackles of her reading, squatting in front of her, touching her face distressedly.

"Don't cry, my heart hurts seeing it." Kurapika said anxiously.

The next second, Annie threw herself into his arms, hugged him tightly, didn't say anything, just burst into tears.

And Leorio, who watched all this, left silently.

Now, he can feel at ease.

Kurapika hugged the girl in his arms tightly, letting her wipe tears onto his shirt, but he didn't mind, he just hugged her hard.

"Idiot! Idiot! Selfish bastard! I hate you! Why did you do this to me... Do you know how miserable I have been for the past five years?! You know the life of revenge and resentment I have How painful?! I love you so much, but because of your words, I have to hate you! Why did you give me the whole world, and then destroy the world! Bastard! Bastard! Bastard!" Annie shouted Crying and cursing.

It was as if he wanted to vent all the grievances of the past five years at once.

Kurapika endured her scolding, he hugged her tightly, "I'm sorry, it's my fault. You hate me, after you hate me, give me a chance, let me give you the whole world again Will you give me a bastard a chance, please?"

Annie clutched his shirt tightly, then nodded repeatedly.

Kurapika smiled and hugged her tightly.

Her whole world, he will give her again.

And his whole world returned to him.

The author has something to say:

Dissociative personality disorder is definitely not as simple as imagined. . . . .

This time I write about dissociative personality disorder. Although many people are used to calling it split personality, I am more used to this academic name.

I also read a lot of previous textbooks (Jasmine studied psychology), and there are many movies related to dissociative personality disorder. The most famous one is Split released in 2017.

In the end, the male protagonist splits into a personality that looks like an animal but is not an animal, so I wrote the existence of 'Anna'.

There are infinite possibilities for the split personality, and it may be due to the influence of the environment or other factors, no one knows, so it is not ruled out that it is really possible to split into an existence similar to animals.

But it is definitely not an easy thing to treat this disease.

The reason why this volume is called 'Integration' is to unify 'Nina', 'Anne', and 'Anna'.

Because Anna is a child and bloody, and exists as a 'protection', so when those who need to be protected no longer need her protection, her existence becomes less necessary, so she will be the first to be integrated .

What remains is the relationship between Nina and Annie, the original personalities.

Their personalities are actually the most similar, but they are also the most difficult to be integrated, just because of different ideas and different experiences.

Nina is obsessed with life, but Annie pursues death.

It's impossible for Nina to unify Annie, right?

I actually didn’t intend to arrange for Nina to appear at the beginning, but as I wrote later, Nina’s appearance made the protagonist of this article a little more entangled, and it also made my plot arrangement more smooth.

It just gave me a little headache when I had to integrate later.

The next step is to prepare for the end and some extra stories~