[Japanese Edition] Love at First Kiss] Female Supporting Struggle

Reiko Matsumoto looked up at the list of [-] candidates posted on the bulletin board for the first-year midterm exam.

Naoki Irie ranked first with a full score without any suspense:

1. Naoki Irie (A) 800

"Full marks..." Junichi Watanabe pushed his glasses, but he didn't know what to say anymore.

Matsumoto Reiko turned her head and looked at him, and couldn't help but sigh in her heart. Such a score really made people speechless.

If the test paper was simpler, full marks would not be impossible, but they all knew that with the difficulty of this test paper, how much knowledge is needed to get full marks, is no longer simple and can be summed up with diligence.

Reiko Matsumoto followed the list, followed by Naoki Irie:

2. Reiko Matsumoto (A) 782

3. Junichi Watanabe (A) 767

Matsumoto Reiko pursed her lips.

From October last year until now, she believes that she has put in 10% effort, all her energy and all the time that can be used for studying, without wasting a minute or a second.

She has the habit of keeping records. She records the time and progress of her study every day in her hand account.She can say with a clear conscience that she has put in the best effort she can in her studies.

She reviewed her time schedule again in her heart, and then found that there was really no way to extend the study time here, and it had reached the limit.If it is forced to arrange again, it will only squeeze the training time of the new gymnastics, which will conflict with her plan.

The key is to find ways to improve efficiency.Reiko Matsumoto thought.

Looking at Naoki Irie next to him who was not surprised by his grades, Matsumoto Reiko still felt unwilling, why, why did this guy get full marks in the exam.

Because Japan uses a deviation value to evaluate students' academic ability, compared with the direct score, the deviation value excludes the influence of the difficulty of the test paper to a certain extent, which makes Matsumoto Reiko have a wrong judgment on the academic ability of herself and Naoki Irie.

She originally thought that the gap between herself and Naoki Irie belonged to the height that could be reached by jumping hard, but now it seems that the gap between them is almost the height gap between Seijuro Akashi and Atsushi Murasakihara.

Subtly, she remembered a joke she had seen once,

Shintaro Midorima was able to score 100 points in the test because he had the ability to score 100 points in the test;

And Akashi Seijuro scored 100 points in the test because the full score of the test paper is only 100 points.

If it is said that for Reiko Matsumoto, the exam is to use all his energy to get a satisfactory score, then for Naoki Irie, it is a question of how much he is willing to take seriously.

Be casual, get more than 760 points in the test, and be the first in the grade; be serious, get a full score in the test, and be the first in the grade.

Think about it this way, with such a top student at the front, sometimes it really frustrates those who follow behind.

Reiko Matsumoto looked at Naoki Irie, he was good-looking, good at studying, and good at sports. No matter how he looked at it, he felt that this guy was the real protagonist.

Naoki Irie looked at Reiko Matsumoto nervously.But his expression was very calm, except for the slight frowning of his brows, there was no movement to be seen.

Are the test scores too high?Irie Naoki was a little worried, he felt that he had made a mistake.

He knew how much effort she had put in for this exam. Although he said that he hoped that she could look at him, he couldn't help worrying whether the large score difference would make her feel disgusted.

The experience of being isolated by classmates in elementary school and middle school began to appear in his mind.

Thinking of himself who had always been alone, Irie Naoki's heart began to pound violently.

Just when he felt that he couldn't bear this kind of psychological pressure and wanted to run away, Matsumoto Reiko suddenly smiled at him and easily accepted his failure.

This is not the same as Naoki Irie's imagining of Matsumoto Reiko's reaction, or it is an agreement to make the next challenge, or something else. In any case, it should be a more serious reaction, at least to be angry with herself.Such an easy exposing made him feel insecure.

"For me, the process of hard work may be more important than the result." Reiko Matsumoto leaned against the railing of the playground, "Of course I want the best result, but compared with the result, what I am more afraid of is the memory. It reminds me of myself who didn’t try my best at that time. It was only a little bit short, if I had worked harder at that time, as long as I thought of such a thought, I would be terrified.”

Naoki Irie looked at Reiko Matsumoto in surprise, which was different from her who was always full of confidence in his impression.

In his memory, whether she was standing on the podium of the national competition or at the piano presentation, Matsumoto Reiko always looked at ease and calm, nothing could stop her.

Will she be afraid too?

This place that should have made Irie Naoki shake his faith in her unexpectedly made him feel a kind of joy from the bottom of his heart.

Although he is spiritually dependent on her, deep down in his heart he is not content to always be like this. He has his own pride.

Firmness, self-confidence, persistence, these excellent characters, he has this kind of potential, but they were hidden for various reasons before, making them weak and vacillating.

And once stimulated by some external force, those precious characters will gradually shine like polished diamonds.

This is exactly the case for Irie Naoki. He doesn't just want Matsumoto Reiko to be his spiritual support, he also wants to be someone who can support her.

Irie Naoki opened his mouth to say something, but for the first time found that he was clumsy with his tongue.

He can write good articles in the Chinese test, but he lacks sufficient expression skills in real life.

He didn't get along with people very much since he was a child. Before Matsumoto Reiko and Watanabe Junichi, he didn't even have the experience of getting along with his peers.

He had classmates, but never had friends.

They always exclude him, avoid him, and don't play with him for various reasons.

The pride in his heart prevents him from doing things that are bent down and condescending.

The only time he came close to giving in.

"Did you see that store?" The core figure among the boys pointed to the video store not far away and said to him, "If you show it, we will let you join."

Probably the boys in the second grade of middle school like to learn some social words, as if this can make them look more mature.

"Take it out?" Irie Naoki wasn't sure if he understood what he meant.

"Of course I don't pay." After reading Naoki Irie's expression, the boy smiled contemptuously.

Naoki Irie hesitated and struggled, but finally walked into the video store obediently.

People still belong to a group no matter what.

Then, he saw the proud Matsumoto Reiko, mercilessly reprimanding those core figures in the class.

He likes, or is spiritually attached to Matsumoto Reiko.He wanted to be with her, and fantasized about being able to be with her.But apart from watching silently behind her, he couldn't make active contact.

He wanted to say something, but worried that she might misunderstand.

He hates himself like this.

"Although I was a little frustrated that I didn't win against Naoki. Ah, I still feel frustrated when I think about the score now, but in the process of chasing Naoki, I did what I never thought I could do. Thinking about it this way, I am full of energy again."

Irie Naoki looked at Matsumoto Reiko fascinatedly, and whenever he thought he had discovered everything that Matsumoto Reiko fascinated him, she could always show him more.

Whether it's studying, sports, or playing the piano, it's good anywhere.

It is not difficult for a person who always wins to remain steadfast, because her efforts can always get her satisfactory feedback; but knowing that she may fail, but still not giving up, this kind of steadfastness is even more valuable.

"In my case, I'm actually not that smart." Reiko Matsumoto smiled a little embarrassedly, "Although I have been praised all the time since I was a child, it's actually not like that."

Reiko Matsumoto knew that she was able to show such ease now, largely because of her accumulation in the previous life, which made her not completely start from scratch like other her peers.

After rebirth, although some things are forgotten and some new content needs to be learned, it is easier because of one experience and the mastery of basic learning methods.

Whether it is studying or new gymnastics, these are all things she has learned once.

She didn't learn these things very well in the past.

Her academic performance is good, rhythmic gymnastics has won prizes in the city, and piano has participated in some competitions. They all sound good, but none of them can go all out.

Teachers always say, "A very smart kid with good talent, it would be great if he worked harder."

She always only listens to the first half of the sentence, and secretly delights in it.She's smart, talented, and doesn't work hard enough, but that's enough.

Until she was lying on the hospital bed.

All the wonderful life she had imagined had nothing to do with her anymore, and she began to regret why she didn't work harder at the beginning.

After rebirth, she stretched herself like the second hand on an alarm clock, without stopping for a minute or a second.

Maintaining a high level of tension for a long time will always make people tired. There will always be times when you want to be lazy. Just die, whether you can accept the current delay calmly.

"Many times, I would envy Naoki, who has such a smart mind. Every time I saw that Naoki could easily understand the teacher's explanation in math class, I would think in my heart, if only I could do the same."

Having said that, Matsumoto Reiko lowered her head, as if she was embarrassed by what she was going to say next, "It may be a little brash to say this, but I really hope that, compared to being smart, I hope that when people think of me, would say, 'Reiko Matsumoto, her diligence is exemplary.'”

"Let me teach you." Irie Naoki blurted out, "Whether it's math or other homework, just ask me if you don't know anything. If you want, I can help you with tutoring."

He wants to try to work hard, instead of watching her silently all the time, he wants to get closer to her.

He was a little nervous, and the expression on his face looked impatient to unfamiliar people. He used to use this expression to hide his inner tension.

Reiko Matsumoto looked at Naoki Irie, she was a little surprised at Naoki Irie's initiative.

Irie Naoki looks like the type who doesn't like others to trouble him.

In Reiko Matsumoto's impression, she has been working hard to get closer to Naoki Irie, but he just doesn't refuse.

Well, not taking the initiative, not refusing, sounds a bit scumbag, but Matsumoto Reiko doesn't mind.

For her, whether she likes it or is liked, it is her own business.

In Reiko Matsumoto's heart, her love does not need to be responded to. All she wants is a wonderful memory, a happy memory that will allow her to smile unconsciously when she recalls her youth in the future.

She doesn't long for a result, what she enjoys is her own mood when she falls in love, and the wonderful experience of love as an adolescent girl.

She has never experienced love, only fantasies.

She enjoys the happiness of being loved, and also enjoys the subtle emotions in her heart when she is in love.

What a sincere feeling, what a beautiful youth.

She is caught in a wonderful world of her own imagination.

She sometimes fantasizes that she is a cheerful girl in love, telling him all her thoughts, whether good or bad, and fantasizing that she can hold hands with him in her heart and walk on the playground after school;

Sometimes, she fantasizes that her love is silent and will never get a response.

I loved you silently, hopelessly, with shame and jealousy; may you know that I loved you so sincerely and so tenderly.

Maybe one day you will think of me like a flower that never reopens.

She immerses herself in these emotions.

In the past, it was impossible for her to experience that kind of pure and hot love, and she never had the opportunity to experience such a life, but now, she can happily say to herself, I also had that kind of youth, and I once loved a person so tenderly. people.

What she wants is a dream to decorate her cold and pale time.

So when she expressed her heart to him, she was not eager to give him a response, so that would be fine, all the heartbeats, entanglements, and tossing and turning were her own affairs.

Reiko Matsumoto thought that all her liking was like this - she wanted to see how she liked and chased another person hard. She didn't expect his response, but when he took the initiative to walk towards her.She found that unimaginable joy burst in her heart, as if all the best hopes hidden in her heart had blossomed.

Reiko Matsumoto looked at Naoki Irie in surprise, her face was surprised, and her heart was filled with unparalleled joy.

She tentatively held his hand, but he didn't refuse.

He looked into her eyes, which shone with genuine emotion.

This is the first time he took the initiative, but in exchange for better results than expected.

The author has something to say:

I'm really not good at writing about feelings. I'm a third-rate romantic style. I've been writing and deleting since last night. I'm a little frustrated. That's it.

Thank you for your comments in the last chapter, I love you (づ￣3￣)づ╭～