"Levi bg" has a three-inch heart, you are faith

I seem to have had a long dream.

In the dream, there was a white light at first, which was very dazzling, and then gradually enveloped me.

In the haze, I felt my body getting lighter and lighter, as soft as a feather, without any sense of substance, and could only be at the mercy of the wind.

When I opened my eyes, my first feeling was that it was very dark around me.It was like being in a huge cellar, airtight, warm and humid.

At this moment, I still feel it, at least my skin can't adapt to this sticky and hot feeling.

I held out my right hand, but couldn't see anything.Then I felt a force guiding me forward, and my body moved forward uncontrollably, giving me the feeling that I was floating forward.

I was a little shocked, but I quickly realized that it happened again. Could this be another dream with self-awareness?Every time I dream, I feel this way. The surroundings are gray, like the picture quality of an old TV set in the 80s and [-]s of the last century. The dullness and depressing drive me crazy.

It didn't take long for me to realize that the character I was playing in the dream this time was not human, but more like a character with a hollow body—a character that should be called a "ghost".

Immediately afterwards, the field of vision in front of me gradually widened, no, it should mean that I could see the things in front of me clearly.

When I realized it, I found that I was standing by a dilapidated fence, looking around, it seemed to be a mixed residential area.

The light was dim, but at least I could see things clearly.However, the light source does not come from the sun, but some luminous stones mounted on the wall.

I looked up, but I didn't see the sun, and it was dark all around.It was not a night, but a huge ceiling.

European-style architecture, ceiling, rusty copper bell not far away, dripping stone stalactite pillars extending downwards in the soil, cold and humid air, no sunlight?

I froze for a moment, and realized in an instant, why is this place so much like an underground street?

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"If the obsession is too deep and it can come true, then you are my truest existence."

After so many years, I still remember this sentence, it is engraved in my heart like a brand and never dies.Maybe this is my imagination when I was young, but now this fantasy has at least become a reality.

Speaking of the reason, it started when I fell from a building and came to this world called "Attack" three years ago.

Only after I opened my eyes did I realize that my body no longer belonged to me, but a young girl with a western face, curly wine red hair and dark brown eyes.In other words, my soul has passed through, and the premise should be that I have fallen from the building and died.

I'm not afraid, because in that world my parents don't love me, they just raise me obligatoryly.They even wanted to deprive me of the right to go to school and work for them early on to earn money.

They didn't care much about me since I was a child, and they took it out on me when they were in a bad mood. To be honest, I have nothing to miss about that family.

And in those dark three years of high school, my only spiritual pillar was my hope for the future and Levi who was hidden deep in my heart.

Until I came into this world three years ago.

I have no memory of the girl's past, so I named myself Evelyn.

There is no surname, which means "life", and I can boldly pursue the rebirth of my thoughts as a human being, which only belongs to the life that exists for Levi.

So I joined the training corps, and finally chose the survey corps, and on the first day I joined the regiment, I provoked Petra Lal, the senior of Levi's special operations squad.

"My name is Evelyn, and I'm from Toros District! I love Captain Levi deeply, so, Senior Petra, I want to compete fairly with you!" I saluted the military properly, with strong words and bright eyes.

No reason, just because this girl with short light brown hair was once the object of my jealousy.I think I am quite extreme, as long as there are women standing next to Levi, I have been jealous of them one by one.

Jealous that they can contact Levi, jealous that they can receive Levi's silent care and protection, jealous that Petra is the object of everyone's gossip.

If I could, I'd be madly jealous of Fran and Alan.

Once Isabel, then Petra.It was clear to me that it wasn't hate, it was just jealousy and hostility, trying to outdo them.Afterwards, my overreaching was ridiculed by everyone, and I smiled triumphantly, holding my head up even more.

Three years in this world, three years in this life, more than six years in total, he is my favorite existence in my heart, and because of this, he has encountered countless strange eyes, isn't that enough?I can also stay by his side and fight side by side with him!

So from the time I joined the League in 849, I was ridiculed by them until 850, that eventful year.

When I graduated, I was not a ten-blade, and I was not too bad, ranking 26th.

Because of this, I couldn't be assigned to Levi's elite class as I wished, and I could only watch them go forward bravely and try to catch up with the captain, but I didn't even have the qualifications to chase them.

This annoys me.

"As long as you become an elite soldier, you still have a chance to join Levi's squad. Of course, the final decision rests with Captain Levi." My current squad leader Nanaba has already seen my thoughts and smiled helplessly.

"I will, I will be the only one standing beside him." I know I am arrogant, but I just can't help but want to catch up with him, "Captain, Captain, I have known you since junior high school, At that time, I thought, you are such a powerful person, you are absolutely omnipotent without any scruples, right?"

This should be a kind of freedom.

After struggling through high school, I got to know Levi as time went on.He once had an unbearable past in the underground shopping mall.Even though he was immersed in darkness, he became a rare person of brilliance and was admired by thousands of people.

From then on, I felt that even if I was born in such a family, no matter how unfortunate it is, the good thing is that I still have a chance, like Captain Levi, I can become a person who can create what I want to live, and truly belong to freedom Bar?

And the real turning point may be inexplicable to everyone. I know better about Levi's past, but it actually came from a dream I had three years ago. Let's not mention this for now.

It's just that I didn't expect that my admiration and yearning for Levi gradually changed. I felt like a junior high school girl with a spring heart, eagerly hoping to pursue my favorite sweetheart.So after joining the Survey Corps, I will only do one thing in my spare time—find Levi.

Watching other soldiers swarming towards the dining hall at meal time every day, I stand on the side of the only way to the office under the scorching sun.

"Captain Erwin, good afternoon!" I saluted the blond man, but looked behind me.

Except for the training time, most of the time Captain Levi discusses official business with the head of the regiment, so what about the captain now?

"Regimental Commander, what about the Captain?" My mood was delicate again.

Fran, Alan, is there another one now?

I felt uncomfortable being stabbed by my "explicit" eyes, but the head of the regiment said calmly: "A female soldier with good grades in the 103rd class? I heard that you are very interested in Levi."

Are you jealous?

I rolled my eyes inwardly, and nodded sincerely on the surface: "I want to see him."

The head of the group suddenly had a strange expression. It should be said that there was a deep smile hidden in his eyes, but his expression was calm and natural. I just thought it was weird, the head nodded to signal something, turned around and left.

ha?Is he gesturing to me to look behind me?

I turned around dumbly, my heart pounding.Then I looked up, and I saw a man with short black hair, his face was not very good-looking, he just looked at me with his lips pursed and his arms crossed.

After joining the group for a month, it was the first time I saw him up close, Levi Ackerman.

But my first feeling is that standing in front of the commander needs to look up, and Captain Levi needs to nod slightly.

Yes, this is the first time.When I saw Levi before, I always stood under the podium and looked up at him.

In fact, I don't mind the height, but what is the subtle feeling that arises in my heart?

- Well, so petite, haha.

"Captain Levi!" I held back my laughter, wishing I could pinch my thigh and slap myself, my body trembled uncontrollably.

Yes, I'm so excited that I finally see someone I miss day and night.And he, looking at me now, is just looking at me!

You must know that standing in the audience several times, I almost rushed up and said, "Captain Levi, I like you, marry me! No, no, no, I want to be with you!"

"Are you constipated and shaking non-stop?" He said blankly.

"... Even the constipation is worth it." My eyes lit up, and I almost reached out to hug him, "Lee, Captain Levi, I have liked you for a long time, six years, six years... I can finally be with you today It's great that you spoke...the last time, it was still in a dream..."

My volume is not loud enough for passers-by to hear me, and they stop to watch.

There was something inexplicable in Levi's eyes, and it took him a while to speak, his voice was indistinguishable and his voice was low: "If you have such thoughts, I advise you to give up."

I was stunned, and soon realized that this was rejection, and for a while I didn't know how to respond.

To be honest, I have thought about this ending and prepared myself mentally, but when I heard him refuse with my own ears, I still felt a sense of loss poured over my head with a basin of cold water.And, don't want to accept it at all.

"I like you, and I want to be with you." I curled my lips, I know I must have laughed so ugly, although this body is still pretty.

"The Survey Corps is not a place to talk about love, and I don't have that kind of idea." Levi's expression suddenly became cold, and his tone was indifferent and alienated, "You have time to think about unrealistic things, why don't you think about it with your head 'Why don't you feed giants' question."

Then he brushed past me and left without looking back.

"What do I think about that? I'm not doing it for the righteousness of mankind." I looked at his straight back and twitched the corners of my mouth, "I'm just doing it for you."

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The training of each class is in full swing. After all, it will be No.40's nine investigations outside the wall soon, and it is also the second expedition away from the wall for our recruits.

If we don't try hard to survive, we will disappear from this world forever.

I don't care too much about survival, after all, I've died once.Death is not that scary to me, it's just that I close my eyes and it's dark, and no one knows which world I will go to.

In the last expedition outside the wall, several people were killed or injured in the carriage guard squad I belonged to, and a dozen corpses were transported back by the way.

It should be said that it was a piece of shit luck that he didn't die.

The only thing I can't bear is Captain Levi. After all, I have always believed that I was lucky enough to come to this world because I wanted to see him too much. This opportunity is hard-won.But if I really want to die, it can only be said that my life is not bad, I saw my sweetheart and chased him by the way, the result is not important.

Joining the Survey Corps is one of the few ways to see him.If one day accidentally dies, it's not bad to be a martyr or something.

It's the best of both worlds.

What worries me more is that in the last investigation outside the wall, Leila Oswald, a recruit who was in the same period as me, lost her lover.

She was rescued from the giant's mouth by Captain Han Ji, and she kept crying after being sent back to the wall, and she was emotionally excited in the early stage and wanted to die.

With everyone's help, oh, I didn't die.

At the beginning, she and I were roommates, and our relationship was not too bad during the training period.

"Don't cry, Vito can't come back anymore." The next night, I tossed and turned on the bed listening to her crying, and couldn't sleep all night. "Aren't you the ones who chose to investigate the Corps in the first place?"

The implication is that this is a foregone conclusion. Who is to blame for the path you chose?

I know my words are thorny, but I don't know if Leila is gentle by nature. She is not angry, but her voice is desperate, her whole body is empty, and she is sobbing.

Inexplicably, I thought of Levi's "choice without regrets" theory. After all, I never understood what he wanted to express, but probably, I have never regretted coming to this world.

Maybe everyone has their own choices, but they don't need to be understood by everyone, because that is something that has to be done hard to achieve.But my sarcasm, is it too much?

"I'm sorry, Leila, I mean..." I frowned and got off the bed, "Everyone has his own choice, Vito can uphold his beliefs, and he will definitely die without regret. Maybe he is gone, but you don't want to die. Will you forget him?"

"...Of course, in the beginning, I also wanted to be with him." As if recalling the past, although Leila's light brown eyes still had tears remaining, she finally smiled, "We are childhood sweethearts. When I was young, when I was buying sugar together, I saw the Survey Corps going out of the city, their green cloaks flew up in the wind, and the wings of freedom behind them were like wings."

"That's when Vito told me he would be like that in the future, wearing the mantle of freedom, and I decided to follow him."

"Because Vito's eyes are shining like I have never seen before, as firm and bright as stars."

"I long to see the world as he sees it."

"It's really amazing that he can always be in your heart, which shows that he is really a hero." I saw her crying, entangled in my mouth that can't comfort others and abused it, "...I'm sorry, don't cry Alright, go to sleep, what if you don't rest."

"Evelyn, I feel like my world is nothing without him."

I used to think that too, of course in that world, I, Levi, and my own ideals, trying to create freedom for myself.But when did I start to come into this world, but I lost the idea of ​​longing for freedom?

"What about your life? Shouldn't you cherish it? It's not easy to be born in this world, because you don't know what hardships you have experienced before you were born as a human being."

However, even I did not hesitate to die, it just so happened that I did not die.

Levi, I used to envy you who can create freedom, so I look forward to and like you.Now that I have lost the idea of ​​pursuing freedom, why do I like you?

That's just an excuse for me to force myself to live. I'm so sorry for you.

But I really like you.

"Evelyn, you're actually not bad, so you have to live well, let's be together." The next day, Leila looked haggard, but she said to me with a smile.

I have always felt that I am a bad boy who only cares about his own feelings.

Thank you, Leila.

I will try my best.

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This article is a modification of Qingkong yesterday, let’s update the short story slowly~