just because you are addicted

In the middle of the night, Xu Siyi woke up suddenly, his eyes were terrified, his lips were slightly long and he was panting heavily, his chest was still heaving violently. When he came back to his senses, it turned out that he was having a nightmare again. Xu Siyi slowly hugged his knees and buried his head in them, as if This will be better.

For seven years, this dream has never stopped, day after day, year after year.

In the dream, his body kept falling, he struggled desperately, wanted to cry out, but it became more and more difficult to breathe, just when he thought he was going to die, a beam of light suddenly appeared in the water, he tried to open his eyes, When he found someone swimming towards him, he waved his hands desperately, but when he was about to see clearly, the figure slowly drifted away. He really wanted to catch him, as if touching the beam of light, but his body became heavier and heavier. He wanted to Tell that figure, he is here, he is here, but the voice can't make a sound, and he falls straight. Every time this moment comes, he will suddenly wake up.

He checked his phone and it was only three o'clock in the morning, he didn't sleep, he got out of bed and punched sandbags, which seemed to have become his habit.

Xu Siyi was brushing his teeth expressionlessly when the phone rang outside. He walked out of the bathroom and picked it up without thinking.Xu Siyi's head is basically chaotic in the morning.

"Hello" is neither hot nor cold, and it doesn't matter who is calling.

"Junzi, have you really missed me in the past seven years?"

"I'm sorry, I made a mistake," he was about to hang up after finishing speaking.

"Shen Yijun!!!".

Xu Siyi's movements froze, and then he frowned, "You pervert, why did you have my call?"

"Look clearly, whose phone you are holding."

Xu Siyi took a closer look, and it turned out to be the man's cell phone from last night. He wanted to deal with it, but he called.

Xu Siyi was a little embarrassed, "What's the matter with you, if it's for the mobile phone, please send me an address, and I'll send it to you later."

"No need to post, I'll be right at your door."

"What!?" Xu Siyi was startled, then covered the phone with the other hand, moved to the door lightly, opened the door carefully, and indeed saw the face that he wanted to pump his fist through the peephole.

Damn, why did this grandson come after him? He calmed down and opened the door anyway.

Just as he was about to speak, suddenly his face went dark, and his body lost consciousness.

Han Yi's eyes tightened, and he caught Xu Siyi who fell down without warning.

Han Yi asked Dabai to contact the best doctor here.

"Doctor, how is he?" Han Yi asked nervously, seeing that he was almost busy.

"Who are you?" The doctor glanced at Han Yi.

"I'm his brother..." Han Yi couldn't possibly say he was his boyfriend, Han Yi thought to himself.

"This stomach problem is an old problem. It's nothing serious. In the future, you should avoid food and don't eat irritating things. Seeing him like this, he must not pay attention to his diet. Pay more attention in the future."

He prescribed some medicine, gave him a drip, and sent the doctor away.

Han Yi looked at the side of the bed for a while, then gently pulled the quilt aside and lay on his side, quietly looking at the people next to him, the emptiness in his heart seemed to be slowly being filled.

At this moment, Han Yi felt a little unreal, but Shen Yijun was indeed lying quietly by his side.You can touch it with your hands, and you can hear your breath.Han Yi didn't dare to look away, for fear that the person would disappear in the next second.Carefully touching her hands, her eyes are as gentle as water.

You really came back to me, Han Yi leaned over and touched Xu Siyi's forehead with his lips after a long absence.

It was already night when Xu Siyi woke up, and he was about to get out of bed in a daze. As soon as his feet touched the ground, he was picked up by someone with a light step.

"What are you doing?" Xu Siyi was still a little weak.

"Your body is not fully recovered yet, rest a little longer." A petting voice came from the top of your head.

"Why haven't you left yet?"

"Are you hungry, I cooked you your favorite porridge." Han Yi stroked Xu Siyi's hair naturally.

White porridge is indeed what I like. Just as I was about to explain that I am not that person, the man walked out and came back with a bowl of porridge.

Seeing his puffed cheeks as he carefully blew on the hot air, Xu Siyi was a little distracted, but this man is actually quite cute.

Han Yi handed a spoonful to Xu Siyi's mouth.

"I... I'll do it myself".

"What do you want me to feed you with my mouth?"

Xu Siyi looked at Han Yi firmly, very seriously, "I may be really similar to the man you mentioned, but I'm really not...".

Han Yi just took a sip of porridge slowly, and then blocked what Xu Siyi said next with his mouth. Xu Siyi opened his eyes wide in astonishment and forgot to resist.Han Yi passed the porridge into Xu Siyi's mouth in one go.

Seeing the man in front of him with a smile that was not a smile, with a triumphant expression on his face, Xu Siyi's nostrils were filled with smoke, and he stared fiercely at the wicked man in front of him.Just about to spit out the porridge in his mouth, he heard a lukewarm voice.

"If you dare to spit it out, I will take you right away."

Xu Siyi looked at the man in front of him in horror, and Han Yi looked like you dare to see me.

I was not this man's opponent in normal times, let alone now that my body was weak and I had no strength, thinking about it, I reluctantly swallowed the porridge in my mouth.

"That's good," Han Yi said cheerfully.

"You...you feed it with a spoon" Xu Siyi shouted hurriedly when he saw Han Yi had just scooped up the porridge.

Han Yi chuckled lightly, seeming to be in a happy mood.

"I'm going to use a spoon, if you want me to use my mouth, I don't mind."

"you!!".

So in this awkward and weird atmosphere, the bowl of porridge has bottomed out, but it is really delicious.

"I'll give you another bowl."

"No, I'm... full" Xu Siyi really wanted to eat, but he would rather not eat if he was to be fed by this man.

Han Yi looked at the guilty Xu Siyi, as if he wanted to see something from his expression, and after a while, he put the bowl aside awkwardly.

How did this man feed, the corners of his mouth were a little sticky, and he subconsciously swept the corners of his mouth with his tongue.

Han Yi had no resistance to this action, a strange emotion flashed in his eyes, his lower abdomen tightened, and then he moved forward to seal Xu Siyi's breath, clasping the back of his head with his hands, so that he could better cater to him. Own.

"Hmm...let go...".

Han Yi seemed to be possessed, and seemed to eat Xu Siyi's lips and tongue into his stomach. Xu Siyi's resistance was not small, but for Han Yi, the temptation of lips and years of yearning were like a tide bursting, and he couldn't restrain it.

Han Yi let go of the pain, seeing Xu Siyi's scarlet eyes staring at him angrily, with an expression of wanting to tear himself into pieces, his heart ached.

"I'm sorry, Jun'er, I was too anxious." Han Yi reached out to stroke Xu Siyi's hair, but he flicked it away.

"My name is Xu Siyi, not Shen Yijun, I'm not him, and I don't want to see you again in the future." Xu Siyi became impatient and said viciously.

"Maybe we look the same, but I'm not gay, and I don't like men." Xu Siyi stared straight at Han Yi, trying to break his inner defense.

But I heard him say leisurely, "What a coincidence, neither is he".

Han Yi saw the doubts in Xu Siyi's heart, "He just fell in love with me."

Xu Siyi felt that this man was unreasonable and unable to communicate at all, so he simply kept silent.

"You said your name is Xu Siyi?!" Han Yi seemed to think of something.

Xu Siyi thought that Han Yi finally believed that he was not that person, so he raised his eyelids, as if he breathed a sigh of relief, "Yes, I am not the Shen Yijun you mentioned, my name is Xu Siyi".

After he finished speaking, Han Yi hugged him tightly. He didn't know which sentence hit his sensitive nerves again. He wanted to push it away but was locked tightly, unable to move, "You...what are you crazy about! ".

Han Yi sniffed the familiar scent and was very satisfied, "The name is all about missing me, and he still speaks hard and says he doesn't miss me."

Xu Siyi froze for a moment, then pushed Han Yi away, "You are crazy!".

Han Yi was in a good mood, "Yes, I'm a psycho, a psycho who misses you so much."

"What do you want, what do you want to let me go."

"I lost you seven years ago, and now I finally found you, and I will never leave you again." Han Yi looked at Xu Siyi firmly.

"I'm not him, even if I am, I already have a girlfriend."

Han Yiru was struck by lightning, and he was taken aback, "What did you say?".

Xu Siyi didn't say a word, and had an expression that you heard right.

The expression on Han Yi's face seemed to be self-deprecating, but also sad.

Xu Siyi looked at Han Yi's lonely back when he walked out of the room, walking as if he was about to fall down at any time, his heart suddenly clenched, as if something was broken deep in his heart.