just because you are addicted

During the day, I force myself to fully devote myself to my work, so I don't have time to think about it and my heart doesn't have time to ache.As soon as he returned to the apartment, he was in the room where the two of them had been intimate, staying in the room filled with him, and there was no way to hide all the emotions.Xu Siyi no longer tried to hold on, and sat on the cold floor in pain, the sound of choking sobbing was very clear in the cold room.

He deleted all his contact information and tried to delete him as a person, but only to find that he had grown like a thorn in his heart, and when he moved a little, he was so painful that he couldn't breathe.

Xu Siyi hated Han Yi, hated him for leaving, but he couldn't forget him.Hate him for infiltrating every bit of his life, everything he does has his memory.

He was afraid of going back to the villa, he was afraid that his son would ask everything about Han Yi.

Looking at the blue and red couple's cups on the coffee table, Xu Siyi only felt ironic. The promised life and vows could not be worth the three words "Shen Yijun" in the end.

Xu Siyi suddenly looked fiercely, and with a sweep of his big hand, there was a crisp cracking sound, and a red mark appeared on his face.

Xu Siyi left the apartment as if fleeing, and it was raining heavily outside.Xu Siyi walked in the heavy rain in a daze, aimlessly.My heart ached to the extreme, and I lost consciousness of the external environment.

When Xu Siyi appeared at the door in a daze and drenched body, Song Mingyuan was stunned and pulled him in.Song Mingyuan didn't ask any questions, didn't say anything, and asked Xu Siyi to take a hot bath.

Song Mingyuan didn't expect anything, he just wanted to stay by Xu Siyi's side, as long as he could see him often, he would be satisfied.But sometimes he wants to take people as his own out of control, but he is afraid that this will scare him and scare him away.So for many years, he has not dared to express his feelings, and has always been Xu Siyi's warm big brother.Song Mingyuan was terrified of Xu Siyi's hurried escape last time when he confessed his love by accident.Now that his little guy is willing to come back on his own initiative, he doesn't ask for anything.

Drinking ginger soup, my heart was extremely bitter.Song Mingyuan looked at Xu Siyi's figure, but did not speak.

"Brother ~".

Song Mingyuan looked at Xu Siyi, looking at him tenderly.

"let's be together".

"What did you say?!" Song Mingyuan looked at Xu Siyi in disbelief.

"Brother, I don't love you, but I want to try to like you." Xu Siyi said these words with difficulty.

Xu Siyi felt that he was quite an asshole, and wanted to fall in love with another person to forget him.

Song Mingyuan sat next to Xu Siyi, held Xu Siyi's shoulders with both hands, and asked carefully, "Is what you said true, Siyi?"

Xu Siyi didn't dare to look Song Mingyuan in the eyes. He shouldn't have treated him like this. The grievances between him and that man should not involve innocent people.

Xu Siyi pushed away Song Mingyuan's hand, pursed his lips, and looked at Song Mingyuan guiltily, "Brother, I fell in love with a man, I just want to forget him, I'm sorry."

Song Mingyuan was shocked for a long time, and understood what, his little guy fell in love with someone else and was dumped by someone else.Song Mingyuan felt that his little guy must have been cheated by some wild man.I was crying to death in my heart, he shouldn't be so passive, he should be careful, so that he won't be cheated by others.

Xu Siyi got up to leave, but was hugged by Song Mingyuan.

"Okay, we're in this together".

"Brother?!"

"I've been waiting for you for a few years, at worst I'll wait for a few years until your heart is all about me."

Xu Siyi pushed Song Mingyuan away, looked at the man in front of him, and felt guilty.

Song Mingyuan looked at the little man in front of him, with a strange emotion in his eyes. This was the person he had always been on top of.Song Mingyuan leaned forward bewilderingly, his eyes moved down to the lips that were thinking day and night.At the last moment, Xu Siyi turned his face away, and kissed Xu Siyi's face.

"You love him very much?".

Xu Siyi didn't speak, but just looked at Song Mingyuan in a daze.

"It's okay, let's take our time." Song Mingyuan put his arms around Xu Siyi and didn't move.

Xu Siyi spent the night at Song Mingyuan's house that day, but it was just a guest room. Song Mingyuan knew that he should not be in a hurry, otherwise he would scare people away.

Song Mingyuan sent Xu Siyi back to the apartment to pick up things and then went to the police station. Xu Siyi felt that the two of them had that kind of relationship, and they were colleagues, so naturally they couldn't refuse.

Han Yi stood at Xu Siyi's door all night, cigarette butts lined the walls.

Not seeing each other for more than a month, Han Yi thought he was going crazy, he thought he would hold back.He also wanted to forget him, and even wanted to do it with "Shen Yijun" to forget him, but every time he reached the last step, Xu Siyi's face always flashed in Han Yi's mind. But he couldn't arouse any interest in "Shen Yijun".

Han Yi was very annoyed, he didn't know if he had changed his mind, obviously he and Shen Yijun were in love with each other before, but now his heart would always think of the man who had a child, the man who was forced by him and was easily shy.For some reason, Han Yi still feels that Xu Siyi is the Shen Yijun in his heart, but what is this "Shen Yijun" who has the memories of the two of them before.If it wasn't for this "Shen Yijun" who could tell a lot about the two of them that others didn't know, Han Yi wouldn't believe it.

Seeing the figure of Day Si Ye Ning appeared, Han Yi's breath was stagnant, and he stared straight at Xu Si Yi, the love in his eyes seemed to overflow.His eyes were reluctant to move away.

When Xu Siyi saw the man at the door, his heart skipped a beat, thinking that he had almost forgotten about it, and when he saw his figure, he immediately threw away his armor and had nowhere to hide.

Trembling, Xu Siyi pulled the hand next to him. Yes, he was afraid of Han Yi, the pain Han Yi would bring him, and that he would accidentally fall again.

Song Mingyuan realized that something was wrong with the person next to him, his face turned pale, and he held his hand instead.

Seeing Xu Siyi timidly hiding behind the man next to him, Han Yi's blood seemed to be flowing backwards. He found that Xu Siyi was afraid of him, and this knowledge almost made Han Yi collapse.

Han Yi wanted to speak, but found that he couldn't call out his name. He thought it was him before, but in the end he never called his name seriously.

"Let's talk." Han Yi looked at the frightened Xu Siyi, but he didn't realize that his voice was trembling.

"I'm his boyfriend, talk to me directly if you have anything to say." Song Mingyuan looked straight at Han Yi, without any timidity or even provocation.

Han Yi looked at the two of them in shock, and then stared dangerously at Xu Siyi's pale face.

"Is what he said true?!".

Xu Siyi didn't even have the courage to look at Han Yi, his lips trembled, "Yes".

Han Yi came over and knocked on Xu Siyi's chest every step of the way, making him panic.

"I can't control myself now. If you want your boyfriend to leave here unscathed, it's best to let him leave first. Let's have a good talk." Han Yi's forbearing voice made Xu Siyi's heart tremble.

Xu Siyi knew that Han Yi could do it, he was a devil.

Of course Song Mingyuan was worried about handing Xu Siyi over to the man in front of him, but he didn't dare not listen to Xu Siyi's words.

As soon as he entered the door, Han Yi couldn't wait to press Xu Siyi against the wall, staring at Xu Siyi, "Is that man really your boyfriend?!".

"Yes~".

Han Yi's eyes changed, and he squeezed Xu Siyi's chin tightly, "I'm so short of men, um~, I hooked up with other men as soon as I left me."

Xu Siyi pushed Han Yi away bitterly, and was immediately pressed against the wall. Han Yi's breathing trembled, he couldn't control his anger, "You are so hungry and wanting so much, why don't you take that man home?" Not going to fuck you."

Snapped.

Xu Siyi exhausted all his strength and hit him furiously. Han Yi turned his face away, bleeding from the corner of his mouth.

The atmosphere suddenly intensified, and both of them felt very guilty.

Han Yi hugged Xu Siyi's waist and tightened it. Xu Siyi's terrified hands pressed against Han Yi's aggressive chest.

"Since you want it so much, then I'll give it to you." After speaking, he opened his mouth and kissed the trembling lips. Every time the kiss seemed to be exhausted, the nose was deformed by Han Yi's nose .

Tasting the salty tears, Han Yi stopped abruptly, looked at the person in his arms, frowned in shame and pain, his hair was disheveled, and his clothes were pulled up to his chest.

Han Yi's out-of-control fist hit the wall above Xu Siyi's head, roaring.

Xu Siyi was trembling in Han Yi's arms.

Trembling, Han Yi tidied up Xu Siyi's clothes, and stroked Xu Siyi's cheek tenderly and distressed.

"You have a bad stomach. Tell him to put less chili for you when cooking, and don't kick the quilt at night. If I let you go, I also let myself go. Don't let yourself be wronged," Han Yi said with difficulty.

Xu Siyi's eyes finally loosened a bit, and he looked at Han Yi in a daze.

"Can I have one last request, let me kiss you again?" Han Yi pampered Xu Siyi's hair, and looked at Xu Siyi beggingly.

Han Yi lowered his head slowly, Xu Siyi did not resist, Han Yi kissed very gently, closed his eyes, and kissed affectionately and focusedly.

Xu Siyi tasted the tears and found that Han Yi was crying.

I don't know how long it took to kiss before Han Yi reluctantly let go.

Seeing Xu Siyi's flushed face, Han Yi couldn't help pecking, and then left without looking back.

Xu Siyi's heart seemed to have fallen into an abyss with the sound of footsteps gradually drifting away.