pig like age

Ji Shuyu's father came around around four o'clock in the afternoon, carrying a lot of exquisite gifts in his hand.

My dad didn't show anything special to him, he was still a polite hostess, but my mother was completely different from usual.From the moment he entered the door and greeted us, to sitting on the sofa in the living room and reminiscing with us.My mother didn't say a word during the whole process.

I think this problem is a bit big.Especially when I saw Ji Shuyu's eyes flickering with panic, my heart sank again and again.

Until my dad went to the kitchen to make tea, the living room suddenly became cold.

Ji Shuyu's father is completely different from what I imagined, maybe because of Ji Shuyu's beauty preconceived, and her mother's face is deeply ingrained in my mind, but I didn't expect her father to be very ordinary, with a long face, dark and tall Not really high.It's just that his demeanor is a little gentler and more solemn than ordinary people's, but it sets off the appearance of that ordinary person a bit like a man with a successful career.

For a while, everyone didn't know what to say, and then he turned his attention to my mother.

For some reason, there was an awkward look on the polite and kind face just now.And my mother was even more strange, her eyes were empty, her brows were frowning, as if she was thinking about something on her mind, and she didn't have the kind of warmth that she usually entertains guests.

"Lan Ying, you are still the same." He said.When he said this, Ji Shuyu's body trembled, and it was obvious that I was next to her.I knew what she was worried about, but I had no idea at this time, so I had to reach out and hold her.

She turned her head to look at me, and smiled with her lips pursed as if to comfort me.

My mother said: "I'm old, how can it be the same. You are still the same as before, your mouth seems to have been coated with honey." My mother's tone of voice when she said this was not kind, and it was mostly teasing.

He frowned, and lowered his gaze: "As you get older, your appearance changes, but some things don't change. When I see you this time, I still feel the same as before."

My mother "puchi" sneered: "I feel that this thing is the most outrageous, let's talk about something practical. I invited you here this time, because I want to talk to you alone. In my heart, Shuyu is like a daughter-in-law .Now that you want to recognize her, I won't stop you, but I have to tell you a few words first."

Ji Shuyu became nervous and squeezed my hand tightly.I comforted her and said, "Don't worry, my mother won't make things difficult for your father."

She nodded.

My mother followed him to my father's small study.After the two entered, the door closed.Ji Shuyu and I looked at each other.

At this time, my dad came out with tea in his hand. Seeing that there were two people missing in the living room, he asked, "Where is the time for me to make some tea?"

Ji Shuyu and I looked at each other speechlessly, we both sat on the sofa, motionless.

My dad poured a cup of Zhang Yiyuan's jasmine dragon ball tea for me and Ji Shuyu, and the refreshing fragrance of the tea filled the room. My dad saw that we were both worried, and Ji Shuyu looked worriedly at the closed door from time to time, It seemed like a rabbit that would be frightened at the slightest sign of trouble.My dad shook his head and met my eyes, and the two couldn't help but smile wryly.

Later, I still felt that the air pressure in the house was too low, so I turned on the TV and found a cheerful program. Several hosts and guests played games, which was quite funny.My dad was quickly attracted by the show, but Ji Shuyu was not moved at all, all the tactile nerves in his body were glued to the door.

I didn't think that the sound insulation effect of this small study was so good, and I couldn't hear any movement from such a short distance.About ten minutes later, there was still no sound, as if there was no one inside.

Not to mention Ji Shuyu, I can't even sit still.

I poked my dad: "Shall I send them the tea?"

My dad said, "Huh?" He didn't know why, and said, "What?"

"My sister and dad didn't even drink their saliva when they came in, so I'll bring them tea, what do you think?" After speaking, his eyes fell on Ji Shuyu, Ji Shuyu gave me a grateful glance, and then turned his eyes to the door.

My dad nodded again and again: "You can take it there, I don't know how long they will talk, and they need to drink water."

With my dad's approval, I quickly poured two cups of hot tea, held a cup in one hand, and walked to the small study.

It wasn't until I stood at the door of the study that I heard a faint sound. I looked back and saw Ji Shuyu standing up, with an anxious look on his face.I closed the door and listened, only to hear my mother's voice intermittently, saying, "...Even if you die right now, I won't agree to you..."

I was stunned when I heard this!How can we talk about life and death so well?

Ji Shuyu's father's voice was particularly low, "I have no choice, I'll let you do it. We've been sorry to Ye Ye, but now we can't be sorry to Shuyu..."

After he said this, my mother burst into tears with a "wow".

After a while, Ji Shuyu's father said, "Keep your voice down, the children are outside."

My mother sniffled: "This is a study room, with soundproof cotton installed. I'll wait for a while, you go out. So that kid Shuyu won't think too much."

"I'll wait for you, she will think more about me going out alone."

"Oh." My mother cried again.

I was terrified when I heard it, but I had to hold it on the face. At this time, I was thinking the same as the two of them, and I couldn't let Ji Shuyu think too much.

Ji Shuyu's gaze has been on me all the time, now seeing me standing still, he will come over if he is in a hurry.I quickly waved to her, brought the tea back, and said to her with a smile, "I think they are talking about having fun, so don't bother them." None of the teacups were properly placed, and a lot of water was spilled.

Ji Shuyu asked, "What did they say?"

"The sound insulation in the study is good, so I can't hear you clearly. But don't worry, the two of you are chatting normally. Don't worry too much."

She nodded slightly after listening to me.

My dad nodded while watching the TV: "At that time, in order to isolate the sound from the living room, the study room was decorated with sound-proof cotton."

I never knew that the most secluded place in my house was actually the study.

Sure enough, after a while, two people came out. I stared at my mother, who lowered her head slightly.She had curled her hair before, but now she let it down to cover her eyes.I can't see if she ever cried.

Ji Shuyu looked at her father for a while, and my mother for a while, with a suspicious expression on her face, but she didn't want to ask too many questions.Just sitting next to me with my heart in my heart.

I gave the tea to Ji Shuyu's father. He saw me and asked me with a smile: "Xiaochen, you are really tall. You don't follow your mother or your father. It should be inherited from the next generation."

"Have you met my grandpa?" My parents are all average in stature, as are my grandparents, only my grandpa is a full 1.9 meters tall.

"Yes, is the old man okay now?"

I smiled: "My grandpa has always had a bad heart, and he lived in my house for several winters. He went there in a dream three years ago, and there was no pain."

So starting from my grandfather, some old events were gradually mentioned by everyone, and they repeatedly recalled, sighed, and sighed.My dad turned off the TV and chatted with us together.Of course, Ji Shuyu and I have nothing to interrupt, the main thing is my mother and Ji Shuyu's father.

For some reason, ever since the two of them entered the small study and had a secret conversation, it seemed that they had settled the knots of those years. When they came out again, my mother was no longer eccentric, and talked about those old things with him as usual.It just didn't say anything about Ye Fan being Ji Shuyu's mother, but just mentioned one after another people in those years who left or knew a little bit of life.From their words, you can probably understand how high-spirited they were at the beginning, but their later situation was nothing more than getting married and having children. Whether they live well or not, they are just the way of life of ordinary people.

"Among these people, you are the most promising. You have become a big boss." My mother said.

"The general environment is better." Her father shook his head and said.

"Don't be humble. Although you are the son of the factory manager, but you can still learn the technology steadily, I know that you will be successful in the future. If you say that the environment is good, no one else is outstanding, right? No one is as big as your family. Sit and enjoy the glory and wealth." Seeing his modesty, my mother praised him a few words from her heart, which completely set the tone of this meeting.

It's just that her father didn't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, and he didn't see the slope. Instead, he said: "I have come here through hardships. The family business I have created can keep my daughter prosperous and wealthy for the rest of her life. I am content."

I don't know which nerve of my mother was touched by this sentence. She glanced at him and was about to speak, but when she turned her head and saw Ji Shuyu, she swallowed the words as if holding back her words.

Ji Shuyu felt something, his expression was much more relaxed than when they first met.My mother probably didn't want to spoil the current atmosphere, and the request she made just now might have been agreed by him, so she didn't care about these little things.

Later, everyone ended the meeting in a fairly normal atmosphere.Ji Shuyu and my dad went out to see her dad off, and I wanted to ask what my mother and his dad had said, but I suddenly realized that my mother could keep the fact that Ji Shuyu and the family had no blood relationship for so many years without saying anything, There must be a reason why she didn't say it.Besides, the sound of my mother crying bitterly still stimulated my nerves. At that time, I was considerate of Ji Shuyu's mood, so I didn't think too much about it or reveal it.Now that I think about it, I have grown up so much, but I have never seen my mother cry like that.Asking in such a reckless manner, apart from increasing her troubles, it would not yield anything.

When Ji Shuyu came back, my mother sat on the sofa with her arms around her for a long time, and I clearly saw the misery on my mother's face.

My heart was also very heavy. After washing and lying on the bed, I couldn't help but think of my own sad things.

Yao Ye didn't contact me again, but I don't necessarily feel at peace.Just think about taking one step at a time.

Soon, it's the beginning of school season.

Spring is also coming. Walking in the campus, the spring is cold and cold, but I can smell something different.

It should be the taste of love.

A lot of my acquaintances were in relationships, and I couldn't get a date when I was playing.

I rarely go back to the dormitory. It used to be to spend more time with Yao Ye, but now I don't want to see her.I haven't figured out what to say when I see her, how to say it.

She is also very busy. She has just taken over the student union, and the new official takes office three times.It turned out that within a few days after Ji Shuyu came to power, he solved the problem of the students' difficulty in eating. With this comparison, everyone was looking forward to the means of the new student council president.She must have been under a lot of pressure.But maybe the seven days in the resort had an effect, and the student union was working well.Some large-scale activities in the beginning of spring are in full swing, especially in attracting investment.

I went to eat sliced ​​noodles a few more times, thinking of the scene of eating sliced ​​noodles with her every time.Thinking of her being a southerner, she doesn't really like eating pasta. It's hard for her to eat with me so many times.

I also remembered that once during a meal, a boy came over to strike up a conversation, saying that he was about to graduate, "You gave me a feeling of being on campus."

People become different, today is not yesterday.

I feel sad when everything recovers in spring, I don’t even bother to play ball every day, go to class, go home, go to class, go home...

Until one day our school invited a rather famous person to give a lecture to everyone. Everyone went to the lecture theater to reserve seats in advance. Fu Chunlei helped me occupy the front row, and Qiu Menghan also helped Yao Ye occupy the front row.

When I found my seat, I saw the person next to me. I looked at her face, and she looked at me.

I sat down, but she turned her head and looked straight ahead.Like you don't know me.

My heart is slowly getting darker.Every time we quarreled, she was the one who made peace with me first, but this time, during the nearly one-hour lecture, she never squinted.

I suddenly had a premonition, perhaps, this is the end of the two of us.

My whole portrait was covered by a huge black curtain. In the second half, I almost finished listening to it with tears in my eyes.I think of many, many pictures of us together.I still remember that we walked through the summer of military training and cicadas, the gluey autumn, and the deep winter of constant quarrels, but we were absent in spring alone.In this season of warm spring and rippling spring, bury our love in the grave.

The famous people were still talking, but I stood up and walked outside.

Walking out of the classroom, taking a deep breath, tears flowed down.

I never knew that there was no need to say the breakup, and it was completely cut off in some form.But when it did come, it broke my heart.

What I don't realize until now is that my love has never diminished in the slightest.Even if there are so many problems, even if all kinds of things go wrong, it has nothing to do with one thing——

I love her.I still love her.

My world became blurred, and sharp pains came from all limbs and bones. It was the pain that the heart could not bear and permeated the whole body.

I looked at the warm sun, great sadness swept me, I was so sad that I squatted down, tears poured down my face.

How strong does one have to be to remember a lost love, a lost person?

I didn't even go to school anymore so as not to see her there.I leave home on time every day, wander around Xueyuan Road, sit at McDonald’s, sit at Peking University Library, and then go to Xinhua Bookstore...

In the afternoon, I went to the Aeronautical University to play basketball. I swore to Binzi that I would definitely make you a fairy.But not once.The fairy must have gone away with the colorful clouds against the wind, so that we will never see her again, she looks like a character in a legend, like a dream of Binzi.

At night, I put a small lamp on in the living room, waiting for Ji Shuyu to get off work.

I followed her to change shoes, change clothes, and go to the bathroom. She locked me at the door, and I waited outside for her.

Until she came out, I helped her dry her hair, leaned next to her, and slept peacefully with her warmth on my pillow.

I fell out of love and felt that the whole world abandoned me. I was lonely and cold, and I needed Ji Shuyu's warmth.She let me rely on, let me rely on, let me do whatever I want, she just begged me to cheer up quickly.

Sometimes I would say nonsense: "Sister, I love you, okay?"

"Be good." She hugged me tightly: "Don't think about it, it will pass."

I shed tears: "My heart hurts so much, sister."

"I know I know……"

"You don't know." I shook my head, and I looked at her seriously: "You have never loved anyone."

She smiled sadly: "I am not as brave as you, and I dare not love."

"Is he good?"

She smiled again, her eyes were like water, and her expression was so gentle: "In my heart it is."

I suddenly became curious, propped myself up and asked, "Is that the little boy from school?"

"I've never been such a boy." Her fingers gently stroked my temples: "Don't guess, you can't guess."

I lay down again: "It turns out that my sister also has such a heavy heart." I couldn't help but think of my mother again, her miserable expression, the tone of her crying...

Ji Shuyu has a sweetheart who can't be talked about, my mother can't tell anyone about her lifelong worries, and I can't talk about all kinds of love... It's not easy for everyone...

"When I think of her..." I clutched my chest, "My heart hurts."

She stared at me with her water-cut eyes, her expression was sad but firm: "It will pass."

"Hmm." I put my hand down and asked her curiously, "Why didn't you persuade me to go find her?"

"Will you go?"

"No." I thought about going back to her countless times, but I knew I couldn't go back. I think this is the best ending.If you spread the word out, you will quarrel again, over and over again, and the memories will not be beautiful.

"I understand you, you are the softest child. You go back to find her and go through the same process again. The long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain."

"It's just that it's too difficult now, too difficult..." I closed my eyes and gradually fell asleep.

The most difficult time to break up was around the 21st day. I couldn't bear it anymore on that day, and I wanted to find her.I even want to lose face and dignity, as long as I can reconcile, I promise her anything.

Lost love is draining my life force.My hair was withered and yellow, my back was bent, and I lost 20 catties in more than 13 days.This decision made me feel refreshed again. I thought about my lines and prepared a reconciliation gift. It can be said that everything is ready!

Suddenly, I remembered that I hadn't "harassed" the goddess for a long time, so I left a message to Fat Penguin: I'm going to save my love, wish me good luck!

It's just that it rained heavily that day, so I didn't go out for a while. My mother came home from get off work in the afternoon, and when she came back, she made a phone call in the living room.Not long after Ji Shuyu came back, my mother was so angry that she brushed all the decorations on the coffee table to the floor!

I was petrified.

My mother has never lost such a temper with Ji Shuyu.

Later, through my mother's questioning, I found out that Ji Shuyu's full scholarship was wasted.She said she forgot to turn in a recommendation from a key professor.

She also said that she is not going to study abroad anymore.

My mom reached out and raised her hand above her head, almost hitting her...

My dad just came back from get off work, and he didn't have time to put the briefcase away, so he quickly persuaded her.

My mother just sat on the sofa and cried, Ji Shuyu cried too, and my father sighed.

I stood there stupidly, with those three words circling in my mind:

a?

a……

I stumbled back to the room and called Song Xianxian. She is the eyeliner of my student union, and her boyfriend is a senior veteran of the student union who studies journalism. There is nothing in the school that he doesn't know.Even taking her has become my bag of inquiry.

"It should be Professor Shangguan. He is a visiting professor at Wisconsin, the school your sister applied for, so there is an unwritten rule that all applications for full scholarships from that school must be passed by him. I heard, just heard , His niece originally appointed the current student council president by default, but Ji Shuyu didn't sell his face and voted for Yao Ye, he was so angry that he didn't write a recommendation letter in time, and the application deadline passed."

There was a "buzz" in my head——

I hung up the phone and went back to the living room blankly. My mother wanted to call Ji Shuyu's father, but Ji Shuyu begged her not to call.

My mother gritted her teeth: "Scholarship is fine, our family can afford it too!"

My dad chimed in: "That's right."

Ji Shuyu cried like a tearful man, shaking her head all the time...

I backed away again, went straight to the bed, sat down, and picked my fingers.

Ji Shuyu didn't get the scholarship, not because of anything else, but because of me.That's why Yao Ye felt that Ji Shuyu liked me, and that's why he leaked out of his temper last time...

Ji Shuyu wanted to exchange her future for my future.

But my future has long been clearly displayed in front of my eyes, that is, Yao Ye and I cannot have a future.

And I still can't recognize the reality, and I still want to save...

Is Ji Shuyu an idiot?Or is she willing to give up her own happiness even if there is a slight possibility?

The idiot!Fool!

I lay on the quilt with tears dripping on the quilt, you idiot, the last thing you want to drag my family down, but my mother has made up her mind to pay you all the money to study abroad.And if she uses her father's money, she has to submit to her father's will to study business.

You pushed yourself into this situation, all for me, is it worth it?

I cried bitterly and beat the quilt: Is it worth it? ! ! !

Later, her father rushed over and promised to pay Ji Shuyu the full amount, provided that he also took business courses while studying the subjects he had chosen.Ji Shuyu agreed.My parents said that they will pay for the living expenses, and after we negotiated, everyone will be happy about this matter.

I didn't go to Ji Shuyu's room at night, and neither did I the next day.

Since that day, I haven't slept with Ji Shuyu again.

I also completely cut off the idea of ​​seeking peace, even if I miss that person again.If I do that useless work again, I will not only be sorry for myself, but also for the sacrifice Ji Shuyu made for me.

later……

Still decided to make a final farewell, from beginning to end.

I remember that it was the 30th day after the breakup, on March 3rd, the peach blossoms were still in bloom, I logged into QQ, the system displayed, and left a message offline;

On April 4, I went to see Peach Blossom, the withered Peach Blossom, I went to QQ, the system replied, please add friends.

later……

I watched a Thai movie called "A Little Thing of First Love".Thinking of my first love, thinking of her smiling eyes and the curvature of her mouth, even if time flies, even if I no longer love each other, it is not blurred at all.

My first love is over, in that peach blossom season.

It's really like a small thing, and life goes on as usual.Only I know, what does this lovelorn mean?It forced me to get used to life without her, and forced me to learn to let go. The word "let go" is too heavy, so heavy that I have to fight it with my whole body and mind.We are so ordinary, life is ordinary, a small lovelorn undoubtedly becomes a huge pain in our life, we know ourselves in pain, reflect on problems, and then grow and transform...

In peaceful times, we become mature because of falling out of love.

At the end of April, I suddenly thought, is it almost May Day?

May Day seems to be a special day. I live it numbly every day, as if it has been many years, and I have long forgotten any important promises on this day...