pig like age

Speaking of desire, I am no stranger.

I still put the small movie that Mais passed on to me in a folder on my computer, because I was afraid that my mother would find out, and it was so hidden that I couldn’t even find it myself.When I watched it at the time, my face was really blushing and my heart was beating, and I secretly went to wash Xiao Nei Nei.However, there is still an essential difference between this forced stimulation of the external senses and the gradual awakening of the inner.

I couldn't help but think that my relationship with Yao Ye was never the same as it is now... At that time, it was really innocent, and the kisses were superficial and superficial.When holding Yao Ye, I was full of joy and throbbing, but I never felt like this.

What's wrong with me?

Speaking of literary works, let’s not talk about the random fabrications of those online writers, let’s talk about the great literary masterpiece "Dream of Red Mansions". In the fifth chapter, you can see the first depiction of Jia Baoyu. At that time, Jia Baoyu was a primary and secondary school student, right?

What is youth?Just feel the desire for love and desire for sex, and have your own private small world, this stage of life can be called youth.But my "youth" came so strangely, why didn't I come when I was holding Yao Ye?Why not come when you have a deep kiss with Mais?Why should it happen to a person who has only met once and has not seen clearly what he looks like?

Is it possible to generate desire just by listening to the sound?

Impossible, impossible...

I used my optimistic nature and decided not to think about things I couldn't understand. Anyway, the goddess said that she would always be with me, so of course I readily accepted it.But there was another problem before me - how should I answer the result of the phone call with her?

Tell the truth, confess that you have evil thoughts about her?I don't know if the goddess is an open woman. If it were me, I would stay away from this person, and I would be able to indulge in lust and lewdness just by listening to the voice. Will I be able to meet her in the future.Not telling the truth?Then I have to admit that I was drugged. I'm really not very good at making up stories, especially the other party's brain is not a normal structure, so I'll be damned if I don't reveal the truth.

This is how to do?

Forget it, just adapt to the circumstances when the time comes.Judging from the long time with the goddess, I don't want to say, and she will not force me.

So I unplugged her phone, and she answered after a while: "I just went to take a shower, how fast are you calling?"

When I heard her taking a bath, my mind was a little out of control.If the mysterious sensory world was still covered with a veil just now, and now it is lifted away, there is nothing to hold the pipa half-hidden and shy, a signal is sent to me in such a simple and rude way from the depths of the body : Impulsive towards her.

Oh my God……

I twitched and said, "Then what, it was actually a misunderstanding. I'm fine now, so I won't disturb your rest, good night?" On the one hand, I wanted to hang up the phone quickly and digest this "awakening moment" I also thought that she could stay, and wanted to listen to her voice all the time.This ambivalence bothered me.

She seemed to be blowing her hair, said "um", and then said, "My phone is on, call me anytime you feel uncomfortable."

"……it is good."

"Good night then."

I leaned against the earpiece, listening to her voice so carefully and intently, for fear of missing a little detail.But no, there was no trace of nostalgia in her tone.I'm a little disappointed, but I said good night, and it's too late to regret it now.

But just as I was about to say good night, she hung up the phone first.

……

I threw the phone away and kicked my legs on the bed, shaking the ground!

This stay!Can't you be a little bit reluctant?Or tell me a few more words?

I found that once a woman falls in love unilaterally, how normal people will become idiots or nympho.Now I can understand those girls in love who usually see the heart-stuck.

Wait, falling in love?

There was a "buzz" in my head——

Ahhhhh!I kicked my legs again, and while kicking my legs, I twisted a few bends on the bed!

I fell in love with a goddess?

When did this happen?

Is it because I have an impulse towards her and want to do something intimate and intimate with her?

But is sex and love the same thing?

Am I not in love with Yao Ye?Why is it so uncomfortable to see her?

It seems that I really have no sex, fantasized about Yao Ye, why is that?

Where did I go wrong ah ah ah ah ah!

So, with these questions in mind, my mother twisted my ears and picked me up. She gave me a basic quality education on "what is to live and work in peace and contentment", and told me how disturbing it is to make strange noises in the middle of the night...

I'm a pig, and my mother always said that I eat enough and sleep well.Indeed, there is no such thing as the sky falling, and I maintain a close relationship with Zhou Gong and his old man.As a result, I lost sleep tonight.

In the second half of the night, I sneaked out of bed, turned on the computer, and found a small movie in a layer of folders.Mute watched half the night.

So I finally fell asleep when it was close to the early morning. The dream was full of me turning the goddess upside down... So what...

Don't ask me how I know that the other party is a goddess if I haven't seen the whole picture of the goddess.Because even if you can't see your face clearly in your dream, you can match your feeling.The goddess in the dream is really obedient to me, responsive to my requests, flirtatious...

Ah, so shy!

I went to school with dark circles under my eyes, took a professional class, and rushed to the postgraduate entrance examination class to take a political class.

Fu Chunlei arrived later than usual, the two of them had dark circles facing each other, and they were relatively speechless.

"you?"

"How are you?"

The two spoke in unison.

Fu Chunlei first confessed: "Liu Jiayang is coming to Beijing for an internship, so I will submit his resume."

I shut up.His reason was high-sounding, I...I was so embarrassed...so I covered my hot face, lowered my head, and pretended nothing happened.

Fortunately, Fu Chunlei didn't have the string of "love" in her mind, so she began to seriously and seriously discuss with me about future career choices.In fact, I have such a big worry in my back, and I want to talk about it with others.But looking at her mouth fluttering up and down, all she spits out is employment data, Holland career interest test, DISC personality test, postgraduate entrance examination and future career prospects and other related topics, I shut my mouth even tighter.

Who should I talk to?

To be honest, I didn't have much on my mind since I was a child.Some are also "boys' minds", almost no "girls' minds".I usually like to talk to my sister Ji Shuyu about my little thoughts, and she can give me pertinent opinions.Except for Ji Shuyu, there are very few same-sex friends around who can talk about their concerns, not few, or none.

I thought about it, can this be my fault?I was raised by my dad in Xiao's class since I was a child, and they are almost all big men. Occasionally, a female student will be pampered, and usually they won't come for a few days.There are also things that you can see without insisting, Xiao Youzuo, my friend is pretty much the same, confide in her?Will be laughed to death.My social circle also includes debate club and basketball.I am the only girl in the debate club, neither far nor close; let alone basketball, I once wanted to develop a women's basketball team in our school, and the team was almost formed. When I heard that summer training was needed, the group started discussing Which sunscreen is better... I saw my eyes hurt, and I lost my ambition to form a group.In the competition, the teacher catches the strong men temporarily, so one can imagine the combat effectiveness.

Now that I have become a veritable homosexual, I have nothing to say about those secret thoughts.I suddenly miss Ji Shuyu very much.But overseas calls are too expensive, and I can only make one call a week, and my parents still occupy them. Occasionally, when I get anxious, I will grit my teeth and give her a call. She just says she will call, no need. I hit.what can I say?I can only say that there is nothing wrong with it. If there is something to do, I will call once a week.

Ji Shuyu always thinks of me, but it makes me feel a psychological burden.This mood is also quite subtle.

So, the same sex, also like the same sex, and can talk about things, there is only one person left——Mais

It would be fine if she didn't like me, how much I need a friend like her.

"By the way, are you going to pick him up with me?"

"Huh?" I was thinking wildly, and I didn't listen to what Fu Chunlei said.

"Go pick up Liu Jiayang. He'll be there next Tuesday."

Liu Jiayang...

The goddess said that Liu Jiayang called her Senior Sister, and others called her Jane God...

Does this mean that Liu Jiayang is closer to the goddess than other people are to the goddess?

Thinking about it this way, I instantly became excited!

"Pick up, of course! Tell me the time and place!"

At the end of the day's classes, I returned home non-stop, ate as quickly as possible, took a shower, and then lay in bed.Just as I was about to call my goddess, my mother came in.

"Xiaochen, you ate so little, and you lay in bed before the news broadcast started. Are you feeling unwell?"

I was taken aback.

Yes, I haven't been to the hospital for examination recently.In order not to be discovered by my family, I put all the medicine in the dormitory, as if the new course of treatment had passed.I didn't feel any discomfort in my body, so I relaxed and didn't go to the hospital for a review.

I was a little guilty by my mother, saying that I was too tired from studying recently.He acted coquettishly for a while, and coaxed my mother to leave happily.

I thought to myself, it turns out that if you act like a baby once, you will be exempted from studying for life.If I got this skill point earlier, I wouldn't always be raised by my mother as a son, and I would have less beatings.

In short, when I saw my mother go out, I immediately jumped out of bed and locked the door first to prevent her from coming in suddenly.Then I curled up in the quilt and called my goddess with excitement.

The goddess answered quickly: "Xiaochen."

Oops, crispy!It's no wonder I have a reaction to such a voice...

Wait, I have a reaction, don't others?Thinking of this, my heart is cold.

"Stay, you..." I thought about my words: "Have you ever called someone like this every day?"

"No."

"Well, you're so good." I thought again, it's not okay to hit once in a while!Urgent question: "Then who do you usually call?"

The goddess stopped talking.

I regretted it after I finished speaking, thinking that a moment of excitement would be a big mistake!Why do people tell you this, you are too lenient?

But the goddess was well-trained, and she was not angry. Instead, she cared about me and said, "I fight a lot with my family. Are you really okay?"

"No, I'm alive and well, I made you worry yesterday, I'm sorry."

"It's okay. Is there anything else? I'll be busy with my subject later."

Chasing guests... My mood immediately turned from cloudy to cloudy.Unwilling and reluctant.

"Yes." I really gave in to my thick skin, and I did everything I could to make another phone call with the goddess.It doesn't matter whether it delays people's study and work.But I just can't bear her.

It seems that not only do I rely on talking to her, but I am obsessed with her voice, and now even my whole heart stumbles and sinks with her.

"There are a few math problems that I don't know how to do." Actually, I was taking a political class today: "You teach me?" It's really shameless, just to make her say a few more words.

"Okay, you send me the problem. I will send you the solution."

I:"……"

Isn't it an audio guide?

"Okay...well..." No matter how thick-skinned he is, he would not dare to play rascal again and again, because he would be disgusted by her.

She smiled: "The tone is not quite right, are you unhappy?"

"Yeah." Grievance is like a small flame, which catches fire at once. "I want you to talk to me more."

She seemed to sigh leisurely: "Okay. What do you want to say?"

I was pleasantly surprised: "Then you don't do the subject anymore?"

"You're not in a bad mood."

"I'm so embarrassed to say it." My heart suddenly softened, my goddess is really gentle and gentle.She is not my sister, because I am her only sister, so everything depends on me.I am a stranger to her, right?She's been really nice to me.

So in her heart, am I also a special existence?When I think about it, I feel itchy in my heart. I really want to know the answer, but I am afraid of knowing the answer.

Until then, I finally obeyed my heart and made sure of my mind, that is: I fell in love with her.

I want to hear her voice every day, I don't mind her being close to others, I want to do intimate things with her, what is it if I like it?

She should also have a crush on me, right?

She has helped me, she has always had a good temper with me, and cared about me, and now she stops work to comfort me softly... Thinking of all the things we got along with in the past, I really think she is really gentle, delicate, and patient, Very cultured person.

Will be a very good lover, right?

Will I be so lucky to be favored by her?

I'm tired of thinking about this question.It's not good to ask her face to face.

The two of us called in the past two days, and we have a new model.That is, I would tell her jokes to make her laugh.When she laughs, her tone will be so gentle that it will be a mess, and there will be a little bit of coquettishness and connivance towards me.Especially gives me a sense of satisfaction.I believe that all those who want to please their loved ones will do everything possible to make them happy and make them like themselves, right?

So I searched for jokes everywhere every day, and then made a point to write them down and tell them to her at night.She doesn't have a good laugh, especially since she is very interested in languages. I use various local dialects to say movie lines, which makes her laugh, and my mood will also soar. I can't wait to hold her in my arms and kiss her. smile.

I found that since I determined my mind, I have a feeling of can't wait.I want to meet her, I want to ask her how she feels about me, I want to be closer to her, closer...

Once this thought comes together, the brakes can no longer be stopped, and there is a kind of obsession that I think about day and night!

I don't think I can wait for May Day at all, and I even started planning to go to Shanghai quietly by myself.But I still need to confirm other information, so Liu Jiayang became the key.

But what I never expected was that Liu Jiayang and the goddess were not as familiar as I imagined.

After finally looking forward to Liu Jiayang's arrival, I got up early to pick him up at the airport.It turned out that I didn’t notice it, but now I really look like a little shou, wearing a red patent leather down jacket, leggings, and colorful boots, staggering out of it.

"Liu Jiayang!" I waved to him.

He froze for a moment, and approached me tentatively: "Hi, beauty. What's the matter?"

I:"……"

"How do you know my name?" He showed vigilant eyes, and then suddenly realized: "Are you Chunlei and Xiaochen's classmate?"

I:"……"

He put a finger on his mouth and nodded: "beauty, can you tell me why they didn't come?"

I:"……"

"Hey~" He waved his hand in front of me.I really want to punch him!But I remembered that my current style is a lady, so I endured it and said: "Look carefully at who I am..."

He looked at me so close that I could see his eyeliner.

Then, his eyes widened: "Xiaochen! Don't you mess with me, I'm so good at it!"

I have black lines all over my head, so scared to speak out my mother tongue?

Along the way, he just stared at me, amazed: "Xiaochen, Chunlei said that you have become a beautiful woman. I haven't paid much attention to it. Who would have thought that such a huge change is beyond my imagination limit!"

I drove my dad's car and listened to his chatter all the way, but I was thinking about how to ask her about the goddess quietly.

I have to think long-term about going to Shanghai, after all, the goddess will not be able to return to Shanghai for a while.

Besides, I don't know much about the basic situation of the goddess.I thought it was a surprise to her, not a scare.

"Why didn't you intern in Shanghai and came to Beijing?"

"Shanghai can barely be regarded as a financial center. It is not as comprehensive as Beijing. I do software research and development, and I still yearn to make a fortune in Zhongguancun."

I nodded, how can I naturally transition to the goddess?

did not expect……

"Besides, my goddess will occasionally come to live in Beijing. When I think of seeing her again, I feel that Beijing is not bad." He said fascinatedly.

Your goddess?Obviously she is my goddess!

I drove the car very fast, and he turned pale with fright: "Xiaochen, drive slowly!"

I forced a smile: "Is the goddess in Shanghai?" As a scheming girl, I can't show how much I know about the goddess's recent situation, otherwise I won't know who to ask who.

"I heard that she has gone abroad."

"Do you know where to go?" I pretended to ask.

He shook his head regretfully: "I didn't find out."

It seems that the relationship is nothing more than that, I almost hummed a little song.Am I the only one who knows the whereabouts of the goddess?Hahaha.

Later, he said without asking himself: "Actually, I also heard about the goddess from Gao Huijie. She is the best friend of the goddess."

Gao Huijie?This name is completely foreign to me.But about the goddess, I will always remember it firmly.

"Gao Huijie is my roommate's girlfriend, and the goddess is the goddess of the whole school, so Gao Huijie has also become the object of boys' fawning."

I really want to ask, is the goddess pretty?But he stopped the idea immediately, as if asking such a question would be blasphemy to the goddess.That's what I think, even if the goddess looks like a pig, I won't despise her!I'm already in love with her, so I won't change my mind just because her appearance is beyond imagination.

However, I don't need my formulas at all, as soon as this guy mentions his goddess, he starts the chatter mode, like a treasure.There is no doubt that he is a true fanboy.

I pieced it together, and the general outline of the goddess is: good image, good temperament, looks like a fairy, likes traditional culture, dance, and calligraphy.Grandpa is a general, father is a high-ranking cadre, mother is the head of a song and dance troupe, a straight daughter, who likes frail scholars...

"...wait a minute, straight girl, do you like... frail scholars?"

He nodded: "Yes, Gao Huijie said that."

My fiery heart felt as if someone had poured a basin of ice water on it, and white smoke was blowing out. It was the white smoke of despair.

"Are you right?" I asked eagerly.

"Of course!"

"Did you see it?" I turned my head and asked, I guess my expression was not very good, and I frightened him. He was surprised for a while, and hurriedly pointed to the front and said, "Car, car!"

When I turned my head, I almost hit the rear of the big truck in front of me!

I made a few sharp turns and drove the car to a safe place. Both of them felt a little lingering fear. He held his chest and said tremblingly, "I won't dare to ride in your car anymore..."

"Did you see her having a boyfriend?" From the beginning to the end, even in the moment of crisis, this matter was on my mind.Never give up without asking!

He gave me a strange look, and said honestly: "I didn't see it. She is very low-key, really low-key. Although she doesn't like to show off her beauty, she can't hide her true talent. Besides, she has such a strong sense of presence." Strong, it's hard to keep a low profile. But about her boyfriend, I heard from Gao Huijie. What she said is very reliable. The two of them have been friends since childhood. They live in the opposite door and got into the same university. You say, Is what she said accurate?"

My hands were shaking when I heard that.

I've been out of relationships and know how it feels, and that hopeless feeling comes back.

Is it my wishful thinking?

She has a boyfriend?

Yes, isn't it normal for her to have a boyfriend?How likely is it that such an excellent girl also likes girls?I was too selfish before...

So in despair, he took Liu Jiayang to Fu Chunlei, and found a restaurant to welcome him.Everyone talked and laughed, but I couldn't get a word of what I said, and even the smile was forced out.

I drank a little too much. At the moment when I was slightly drunk, I made up my mind that I would die knowingly!

I'm going to ask her tonight if she has a boyfriend!

Once this idea took shape, I took a few sips of wine, the so-called wine is strong and cowardly.It takes courage to ask her this question bluntly.It's just that I thought, instead of torturing myself with heart and soul, it's better to give him a knife, so as to completely kill this heart!

But when Liu Jiayang and Fu Chunlei got together, it was like a strange chemical reaction.Both of them became bold, blowing bottles, guessing punches, and telling the truth... It was obviously a small gathering of three people, but it made them play a scene of ten people gathering.After this round of commotion, it was almost past nine o'clock at night.I know that the goddess has a very regular schedule, and usually goes to bed at ten o'clock on time.But Liu Jiayang came thousands of miles away, so I don't want to spoil their interest.So I used the excuse to go to the bathroom and went out to make a secret phone call.

At this time, I had already drunk my head, and my whole body was dizzy and light.I calmed down, called out the address book, found the goddess, and dialed...

While waiting to be answered, I looked into the night.

Gui Street is really ugly, red, green and green, the heat is too vulgar.The sluggishness of my thoughts helps to relieve my tension, so I went from being vulgar to thinking about the lack of stars in the sky and the problem of environmental pollution...

In this way, I tried to appease my increasingly timid and evasive heart by diverting my attention.

Just when I was sad to find that these were useless, the goddess' cell phone was connected.

"Jian Nanyin..." I called out.It's so awkward that I don't want to use that exclusive nickname I gave her.

"You said, you said..."

I held my breath and almost suffocated myself before spitting it out: "Do you have a boyfriend?"

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