[Through Middle-earth BG Lord of the Rings Fans] A Different Life Das Leben der Anderen

I am an elf who has been idle for a thousand years, and I am in command of The House of the Fountain, which guards the seven gates of Gondolin.

I always thought that life would be so dull until it disappeared at the end of time and space, until...

When I saw that girl for the first time, I didn't pay much attention to it. I just thought it was a human woman with an exotic appearance and short hair. I was not even interested in taking a second look. I really don't understand why Elios insisted on asking me keep her.

And that very night, I really noticed her presence.

The banquet that night was very grand, and many people came to offer me wine with a light fruity aroma, and I responded to them one by one.Tour brought little Elendil over to congratulate me on my victory in the expedition, and little Elendil threw himself into my arms while running, and Tur had no choice but to complain to me why his son was closer to me than him Glorfindel was already half-drunk, and he and Agamose came over to tease me shoulder to shoulder, saying that the next selection of the most popular man in Gondolin must be won by me again.I deeply understand these two naughty guys who are obviously much older than me but are 'disrespectful', so I didn't pay much attention to them, I just turned my head and raised a glass with Tour.Unexpectedly, these two guys didn't stop, but said that I ignored them arrogantly, and insisted that I accompany them to dance jig. Even Duilin and Galdo couldn't hold them back. They were so annoying, I motioned to Elios behind me, and left the banquet.

Walking back to the Yongquan family, I didn't go back to the room directly, but walked to the backyard on a whim.Before stepping into the porch door of the backyard, I heard a very strange melody:

Moonriver, widerthanamile

I'm crossing youinstylesomeday...

Who is singing this lingua franca song that has never been heard before?

Puzzled, I stepped into the backyard, and then saw a figure, sitting astride the empty window frame, staring at the white full moon absently.

It was her.

This is the first time I have looked at her carefully. Her black eyes are clear and bright, and her black hair falls to her ears in fine pieces, occasionally being gently blown by the breeze.

I can't describe what kind of feeling it was, I just felt that hearing that not-so-elegant but beautiful singing voice made my whole heart soften.I looked at her quietly, but she didn't notice my sight at all, until the singing faded away, she slowly closed her black eyes and fell asleep.

I couldn't help being a little funny, like a child, who would go to sleep after playing enough.Shaking my head helplessly, I walked towards her room.

The girl's sleeping face was very peaceful, and even when she was transported back to the bed, there was no sign of waking up. As a person wandering alone, could he be too vigilant?There was a faint fragrance coming from her body, which was exactly the same as the smell of the white Elena flowers on the bedside.I put her exposed hand under the quilt, and the soft temperature made me lose my mind for a moment.Perhaps, I should get to know her better, so that I can understand why Elios values ​​her so much.

The next day, I asked someone to invite her to the hall for dinner.

I found that she didn't dare to look at me, and she didn't want to approach me. For some reason, she felt a sense of loss that she had never felt before.Although Glorfindel and the others have already used the words lofty and indifferent and repulsive to describe it all over the place, but am I really so hard to get close to...

When I asked about her background, a panic flashed in her eyes, and she lied.Can't you tell me?

I told her that Elios liked her very much, and her eyes, which had been downcast all the time, were raised in surprise, with disbelief in them, and other emotions that I didn't understand.After a moment of silence, she calmly assured me that she would leave, her tone so flat that it was not her who would be kicked out.Didn't she know that with her ability as a weak woman, she could hardly survive for more than three days in the dangerous and overgrown environment, and leaving Gondolin was like stepping into the swamp of death.

When breakfast was brought, she said nothing, and neither did I.

I suddenly began to envy Glorfindel's eloquent tongue. No matter who he was talking to, he seemed to have endless words. Even to the fragrant tree in front of the Golden Flower family, he could babble for three days and three nights. .Compared with him, I am really not good at words. I have been told by Glorfindel more than once that I am so boring, and I can hear the birdsong outside Belleriand in such a quiet place with me, but I didn't know it until now. How frustrating it is when you want to say something but don't know how to express it.

She wolfed down the meal in front of her. Normally, anyone who eats in such a rude way will be thrown out by me, but this time I am not in the mood to do so. Does leaving Elios make her so sad?Watching her leave in a hurry, I felt a little sour for unknown reason.

In the afternoon, Elios came back from the Xueta family and came to see me right away.He sincerely begged me, hoping that I would allow her to stay, when he wanted to spend a short life with her.I looked at this younger brother whom I had grown up with in disbelief. He actually wanted to give up the eternal life of an elf to accompany a human woman.

Vallar, please don't be so cruel and take this one and only relative from me.

I looked at Elios with a begging expression on his face coldly, and said to him: "If you insist on giving up your elf's possessions for a human, then I can end her short life right now."

Elios looked at me for a long time with a sad expression he had never seen before, and then he begged my permission to keep her at least until Midsummer's Day.

I agreed.

Watching Elios leave sadly, my mood was actually not calm. For the first time, I was a little at a loss, how to choose between losing my brother and abandoning her.

When I saw her again, it was in the backyard of the Harp family. She still had a relaxed expression, as if the expulsion order had no effect on her at all.Elios took her to visit the musical instrument workshop, did he want to show her the violin that carried countless memories?

In Gondolin at night, everything was very still, and I unconsciously thought of my mother, sitting on a soft rose-red velvet stool, playing the piano for young Elios and me.

After being unable to fall asleep for a long time, I finally put on my clothes and got up and walked to the piano workshop.

Silently looking at the piano covered by the beige canvas, many scenes in Valinor appeared in front of my eyes.

Just as he was recalling, he suddenly heard the sound of small footsteps coming from outside the house. This definitely did not come from the elves, could it be her?

She tiptoed through the door, but froze when she noticed me.I didn't express anything about her appearance, although I was very surprised at her arrival in my heart.I felt the uneasiness in her heart. In order to appease her, I began to tell her my nostalgia for the past, which unexpectedly brought back her memories.Then, there was a stubborn sadness on her face, and the expression of not crying was more distressing than crying.

Why are people always sad?Obviously only have an extremely short life, but have to bear so much sorrow and sorrow.I was a little puzzled.

Holding her hand, a kind of warmth spread from the palm to my heart, which made my heart soft.

I told her not to cry, from now on she will never be alone again.I am willing to wipe away the sad tears for her, until the happy smile returns to her face.

She must have been sent by Valla, otherwise why, I feel the cleansing of the soul and the purification of the soul from her music, and my heart has never had peace.I seem to be brought back to Valinor by her...

Conan, you are a special person...

The next day, I found Enesil and asked him to make me a gift, a special gift just for her.

On the way back, I saw her and entered the piano workshop with Elios. She once played for me, and now she played her music again for Elios.

I couldn't help but stop outside the house, listening to the sound of the piano inside.Her music is always so clean and soft, it is like a ray of light in the morning, brushing off the dew on the petals of Terena.Just like her people.I can understand Elios' mood. Being with her, I can feel the breath of life. It is a feeling of being truly alive, which most elves have long been unable to feel.

Maybe, I should agree to Elios' request...

It's just my heart, do I really want to fulfill them?

The king's messenger sent a decree, asking me to imprison the human beings who spread the evil voice.

I took this order, the king's decision is unquestionable, but why is my heart clamoring for the exact opposite answer?

When I took the guards to catch her, she looked at me with dark eyes in surprise, but she didn't say anything, didn't say a word for herself, and left silently with my guards.

Elios didn't understand why I did this, and chased me to ask the reason, but I couldn't tell, because I didn't know it myself, maybe, it was because I was afraid of knowing the answer.

Elios said that no matter what others think, he will take her out of here and find a safe place to live.

The younger brother I want to protect the most will eventually be lost.What was lost at the same time was the ray of light that shot into my life...

I took a deep breath and agreed to him: "I will remove all the guards from the cell on Midsummer Eve, and do whatever you want after that."

Outside the prison door, I looked at her through the barred window. She neither cried helplessly nor wandered restlessly, but just quietly looked at the Terena tree outside the high window, earnestly as if it was a book written by a wise man. 's great book.

I stood outside the door for a long time, she looked at the tree, I looked at her, she didn't move, I didn't move, I didn't recover until the attendant called me softly.

I motioned for the guard to open the door and walked in.

When she heard the sound, she turned her head. Her eyes were a little confused because of the concentration just now. After seeing that it was me, her black eyes widened in surprise.I approached her, saw myself reflected in her clear eyes, and asked her unconsciously if she would hate me.

Then, she said, she didn't hate me.

Why don't you hate me?It was me who drove you out of Gondolin knowing that you were homeless; it was me who ruthlessly obstructed Elios when he knew that he wanted to spend a short life with you; When you were innocent, you didn't say a word for you in front of the King of Special Steel, but instead led someone to imprison you.How can you not hate me?

Maybe, you never cared about everything here, all you yearn for is the vast sky outside the city.When I told you that Elios would take you away, the light in your eyes was so bright, I have never seen such vitality and hope for the future in the eyes of an elf.The long years have created the indifference of the elves, and we have no enthusiasm for life.But from your eyes, I feel the breath of life.You must not know how jealous I am of your defenseless smile in front of Ellios, that pure smile, and eyes full of hope, have never been shown in front of me, you have always been cautious in front of me .

I may regret letting you go, regret letting go of this light that appeared in my life, thinking of the long and endless life in the future, my heart is extremely heavy, even when I left Valinor, it was not so strong.

Perhaps, I have begun to regret it.

Don't look at me with that guilty look, I won't be able to let you go.Go find your happiness, live freely and happily, as long as I know that somewhere in the world, you are living happily and carefree, then I have nothing else to ask for.Thinking of this, I can't help laughing, maybe I will never see your smile again, then I will at least keep your appearance in my heart.I look at you deeply, say goodbye to you, at least at this moment, you only have me in your eyes, right?

Gondolin, the home I guarded with my life, has been hit hard as never before.I have a hunch that this time, I may not be able to protect it...

But forget it, at least you and Elios can leave safely, but it's a pity that the gift cannot be given to you.

I looked at the sky burned by the flames, the night turned into deep violet, lavender and lilac-like colors, how beautiful it would be without the war, I was a little ecstatic looking at the sky that I had never seen before.Suddenly, my heart beat faster and hit my chest violently. I turned my head with some doubts, and then I saw you, standing far away on the edge of the square and looking at me.I couldn't suppress the surprise in my heart, watching you walking towards me, getting closer and closer to me, but I didn't know how to react.

Seeing you smiling and saying "goodbye", my restless heart calmed down at this moment.

At the last moment, I thought in my heart that as long as you are safe, but when you really came in front of me, I couldn't even open my mouth to let you leave the danger here.It turns out that I am so unwilling to let go of your hand, even if we are facing destruction and death.

Are you willing to die with me when you come here?

Holding your hand, feeling the temperature it gave me, and the courage it gave me.

Conan, thank you for coming to my side at this time.

I looked up at you and smiled.

This is the third time I smile for you, the first time because of your music, which reminds me of Valinor's mother, there is gratitude in my smile; the second time I say goodbye to you, I wish you well, I tried my best to leave a smile for you, but my heart was full of reluctance; but this time, I was really happy, and the anxiety that Gondolin would fall was dissipated because of the hands that held me tightly. It was these hands that dispelled my heart The fear that gave me hope.

Conan, if I hadn't met you, I wouldn't have felt this temperature.I once sighed because of your short life, worrying that your bright smile will fade away soon, worrying that I will never be able to touch your warmth again in the rest of my long life, now I am at ease, because I will be by your side, To the end of life with you, even the army of Morgoth ahead cannot separate us.

Listening to your music from the palace hall, that kind of purity, even if it is dark, there is no way to pollute it.

I looked up and saw Agamose looking at me worriedly not far away, and gave him a comforting smile.Looking around the square, watching the compatriots preparing to resist the next wave of attack, the right hand holding the sword tightened.

Evil messengers, I will not let you easily destroy this city.

I saw Gothmog, the Firelord, swung his whip of white flame, and swung it at the top of Tull's head, and Tull could not retreat.I took a deep breath, rushed in front of Tur, and blocked the fatal blow, but just like that, I couldn't lift my right hand anymore.But my body can still move, my head can still turn, I must not leave this Balrog behind, even if I want to die with it.

At the moment of facing death and falling into the cold pool, my heart was so peaceful.

Conan, I hope that I can meet you in a peaceful time, without the invasion of darkness, without the disturbance of war.I am a human like you, or you are an elf like me, no matter what you look like, I can find you in it...

Namarie, Conan.

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Before writing the Second Era, put a side story first!

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