If I don't quit, I will be forced to usurp the throne.

I didn't tell Odasaku the details about Umeki, I didn't want him to worry.

And Mr. Dazai's sudden easing policy and the sudden Spartan education model, I am not interested in talking to Oda.

I always feel that after talking about it, I will become a kid who lost a fight outside and tell my parents when I go home, especially when Osamu Dazai is still friends with Oda, I feel like I am using nepotism to get special treatment through the back door Generally, strange.And I don't think Dazai-san is the kind of person who would treat me preferentially because of my relationship with Odasaku.

It’s not that I’m against killing people. After all, my master’s brainwashing education model of “good guys let us kill the mafia all over the world” and the police’s method of training me as an undercover agent in Hong Kong from the very beginning, I won’t suffer because of this. There is a psychological shadow.

I am purely, Mr. Dazai used my gun to kill someone who could be regarded as my friend, and I have a temporary psychological shadow on the gun.

That's right, although Umeki is an idiot, I think he can barely be regarded as my friend.

After all... I was in Hong Kong and Heilongjiang before, and I had no friends at all.

Of course there is now!

I don't mean Mr. Dazai, I mean Mr. Hirotsu.

The other party gave me a pair of short knives as a weapon before I was willing to hold a gun again. I firmly believe that we are already dating each other!No one is allowed to refute!

After the initial discomfort, it took about a month for me to get used to the behavior patterns and magical logic of my new boss.

Although it is a bit hard, I also have a lot of tasks in Black Lizard, both in groups and alone. Mr. Dazai is just the person who assigns tasks, so it is still bearable.

From the fact that the tasks given to me by the other party require me to use illusion to perform, I can see the purpose - it's just for training and developing my illusion.

In fact, it is quite effective. For example, now I can successfully cast illusions on groups.

Of course, it is far worse than my master. After all, my master was able to wipe out a small northern Italian mafia family by himself.

If he's not bragging and he's real.

Finally, when it was a day off, I was free and went shopping with Odasaku.

Holding the vegetables I bought, I raised my head and chatted with Oda: "My salary will be paid next week. This time the budget is much larger. I will save part of it for Kemi and the others to pay for next year's tuition."

"Chisaki, you insist on letting Kosuke and the others go to school..." Oda Saku suddenly sighed, looking at me, "What about you?"

"……Um?"

"Do you want to go to school?"

I still looked blank, and tilted my head: "...Huh? But I'm working?"

"I know you're working...but if you don't want to go, it's ok."

Oda looked at me with eyes full of understanding, and I knew what the other party said was serious.

Maybe it's because I'm not in a good state during this time, maybe Mr. Dazai or Mr. Ango said something... In the end, I still worried my guardian.

Although I don't know how the other party came to the conclusion that I don't have to go... But at this moment, I suddenly wanted to tell him what I had encountered during this period, and I really wanted to chat with him.

"...Odasaku, I want to advance payment for next month's Father and Daughter Day." I whispered, then went to grab the corner of the other person's clothes, and called out softly, "Father... I know that the reason why you don't kill people anymore is because Want to be a novelist...but why?"

Before this day, I only knew that Oda Saku did not kill people to write novels.

But I never understood the logic of this.

I didn't ask, and Odasaku wouldn't take the initiative to say it.

"Well... I once read a book, only the first volume and the second volume. I haven't been able to find the second volume." Oda Tsukuru narrated, "Later, someone gave me the second volume, and when he gave it, he also commented on it. Call it a terrible book."

"Is the second volume bad? Is it unfinished?"

"No, the second volume is very exciting." Oda Saku sighed, as if recalling the scene at that time, narrowing his eyes slightly, "I have never read such a fascinating book."

"Hey—" I opened my eyes wide, "What kind of story is it?"

"I can't tell you the specifics." Oda Saku patiently explained to me, "But after reading the book, the whole world seems to be different. Before that, I only had killing in my life. Shooting people and killing people to complete commissions. That book woke me up."

I nodded knowingly: "Then you are encouraged by the author, do you plan to start writing too?"

"Hmm... But the reason for writing is not what you think." Oda Saku raised his hand and rubbed my head, "That book has no ending."

Me: "..." So this is because you are angry after jumping into the pit and filling it yourself?

"The few pages near the end were cut out, thanks to which I can't know the most critical scene - that is the scene where the killer, one of the characters on the scene, explains his reasons for not killing people anymore." Oda Saku said "Why on earth did the killer stop killing people?" I was troubled by not being able to find enough information from other descriptions to deduce his reasons. people to understand the important content of this killer role..."

I asked abruptly, "Father, did you substitute yourself into that killer?"

Probably not used to this name, Odasaku was stunned for a moment before shaking his head: "No, I'm just trying to substitute. In order to know the answer, in order to be able to write the ending, in order to write the story of that man until he stopped killing. A novel, so I gave up killing people and decided to become a novelist."

"Hey..." I was thoughtful, and grabbed the other party's sleeve with my loose hand again. After a long silence, I suddenly didn't want to talk about Mei Mu.

Because... I think, even if I don't say it, the other party can understand it.

"When Odasaku's novel is finished, I'll be the first to read it. Even if I can't be the first, I'll be ahead of Dazai-san!"

Odasaku didn't answer directly, but said with some surprise: "Ah... the first sentence is the same as what Dazai said."

"...Odasaku, I'm your favorite child, right? I'm more important than Dazai, right?"

"Ah?" Odasaku showed a somewhat dazed expression, "Only you are my child, right?"

I felt like I was hit with understanding, and the anxiety and exhaustion of the past half a month were swept away in an instant, and I nodded happily: "Yes, only I am!"

People who are not even Odasaku's children have no right to compete with me!As long as I think about it, I am full of motivation to work!Hahahahahaha Dazai is nothing at all!One day I can successfully get rid of this psychological shadow!

"You and Dazai have a good relationship, so I'm relieved."

"...Hey, let's do it, let's do it."

If this can make Odasaku feel at ease...Damn it!I always feel bad for admitting this!I should think of something else before I get rid of it... Ah, there it is.

When I got home, I locked myself in the room and did handwork for an hour.

"Hey, Odasaku, do you think how I made this doll? I made it out of cloth that Kosuke and the others couldn't fit, so there was no waste."

"Well done." Odasaku praised, "Is this Dazai?"

"..." After looking at the Q-version doll in my hand for a few seconds, I said with a smile on my face, "Yes."

Since Odasaku can see it, it proves that what I did is really good, and it must be effective to tie villains!

After I was happy, I did not forget to remind: "Ah, but Oda Saku, you can't tell Mr. Dazai."

Oda Saku didn't ask why, but nodded after thinking for a while: "Okay."

"Odasaku is so kind to you!" After I finished speaking sincerely, I went to the room and calmly opened the magic conch shell I found from a second-hand bookstore... Ah no, a mysterious book.

Hmm... where's the chapter on the curse?

"Boss, what is this?" Saki Le asked as she walked over and sat down in my arms.

"Call me sister! Saku Le, don't mess with Xingsuke and the others!" I reached out and touched the two-year-old girl who looked at me with curious eyes, rubbed her head, pondered for a moment, and replied, "This is my sister. stress-relieving toy."

"Sister, there are needles."

After a moment of silence, I nodded, "Yes, this one can also work as a sewing kit."

"Sewing kit?" Saku Le looked puzzled.

"Xiao Le, you are still young, don't touch the needle, it's dangerous." I hugged the little loli in my arms, and led her outside, "Let's go! Let's make dinner!"

……

The decompression effect of the little doll I made is really good, even so good that I use it frequently, and even take it with me when I am on a business trip.

In this way...a little embarrassing incident happened.

I stood upright on the spot, with a solemn face, and my mind was wandering.

What should you do when you secretly stab a villain behind your back because your boss puts too much pressure on you, but the villain is discovered by your boss?

In short... there should be other ways besides killing people... right?

"Hey, Xiaoqian..." The black-haired boy fiddled with the doll in his hand, and looked at me with the eye that was not blocked by the bandage, "This is for cursing, right? Does it work?"

With a blank face, I opened my eyes and said nonsense with a sincere tone and cadenced arias: "No! How is that a curse! Look at how much I respect you! I even specially made a miniature version of you to bring with me! Look Seeing it is as reassuring as if you were by my side! I have to look at it before I go to bed, or I won’t be able to sleep! You have no idea how important this little man is to me!"

Only by piercing the villain before going to bed can I relieve the stress of the day and fall asleep!

My young boss looked at me with surprised eyes, held my self-made villain in his hand, and asked in a simple questioning tone: "Hey, really? But the same villain you respect and love looks It's riddled with holes."

"Ah..." I put my hands behind my back, my eyes wandered, and I said slowly, "In order to pursue the truth, this villain of mine also commits suicide all day long."

Dazai Osamu: "..."

At this moment, an awkward silence spread among us.

I started to have beautiful fantasies, for example, the other party thought I was too disrespectful and let me go back to the bottom position to continue working with Oda Saku and ponder the philosophy of life while fishing.No matter how bad it is, it’s OK to let me fend for myself. I’m almost familiar with the black lizard now, and I feel that I can stabilize it until I retire...

"Okay, I fully understand your heart, Xiaoqian!" Dazai Osamu, the youngest cadre in Hong Kong and my immediate superior, said in a cheerful tone.

"……"Huh?What do you mean?Why do I suddenly have heart palpitations?

Two days later————

"From now on, Xiaoqian, you will always go out with me on missions, so you won't need the same doll anymore, are you happy?" The black-haired boy patted me on the shoulder, his tone was kind, and his face was completely inconsistent with his gloomy temperament. Chunliang announced a huge bad news with the posture of "Come and see what big treasure I have prepared for you...ah no, surprise".

"...Happy." I choked up.

I am so happy that I want to kill you and then run away with the reason that Hong Kong gangsters oppress child labor too much.

Not to mention getting rid of it, but being entangled!

It turns out that it is true to curse others that they will be backlashed.

The author has something to say: Long comments plus updates!This regular article is also updated with deep-water torpedoes and effective long comments (no water, no repetition with others, over a thousand words).

But are you guys too crazy? I only have eight chapters, and I have only opened the pit for 6 days. Help!

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In the future, little sister Saku Le would definitely call out "sewing kit" when she saw Dazai for the first time (not

The next chapter puts a hardcore triangle relationship (?)

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[The discussion about that book quoted part of Oda's monologue, for the convenience of understanding, I put the full text of the original text——]

"The second volume is really a wonderful book." I said.

So far, I have never read such a fascinating book.

Every line captured my heart.Everyone can see their own shadow.

The person who gave me the book said it was "terrible", but I feel the opposite.I read it almost in one sitting without eating, and started reading it a second time right after that.

Every brain cell seemed different before and after reading that book.It felt like the whole world was never the same before and after.

Before that my life was nothing but killing, shooting and killing people to fulfill commissions.It was the book that woke me up like morning light at dawn.

And that second volume has only one shortcoming.

Only a few pages near the end were cut, and thanks to that I couldn't get to the most crucial scene.It was a scene where the killer, one of the characters on the stage, explained his reasons for not killing people anymore.

Why on earth did that killer stop killing people?It bothers me that I can't find enough information from other descriptions to deduce his reasons.I understand that is a scene that is an important turning point in the whole story, and it is also an important content for people to understand the character of this killer.The book is out of print, and the answer cannot be found from the old bookstore.And even if I wanted to get to the bottom of it, that bearded man never showed up in front of me after that.

As a result of my brain-wracking, I came to the conclusion that——

—Then you will write it.

The conclusion I came to was "write it yourself".

I'm going to be a novelist and write a novel about the man who died until he stopped killing.

So I gave up killing.