[Comprehensive] Why am I not dead yet?

It took Lian Su more than two months to make the first doll.

Once she gets busy, she forgets herself completely and even Zhao Zheng doesn't care about it. Sealing Guigu to work alone means that she can't rely on the materials in Yanzhong to make, and has to find ways to collect materials for making dolls by herself.

The only person around Lian Su who can be regarded as helpful is Zhao Zheng, a half-grown boy, but this is also a complete layman, and Lian Su has no choice but to do it by himself.Zhao Zheng thought that Lian Su would be with him all the time when he came out, but she just stayed with him for a while on the day of reunion, and after she decided to make this Zhao Ji doll, Lian Su disappeared completely.

The original reason for making this puppet is simple. If Zhao Zheng wants to return to Qin, his identity is too sensitive a topic. Zhao Ji can’t help in opening up relationships. If Zhao Zheng really wants to I couldn't do without her help when I went home, so I had to find a way to make a fake out.

In order to make this puppet, Lian Su put a lot of thought into it.Although Zhao Zheng can't see her on weekdays, in fact she often goes in and out of the residence of their mother and son. From Zhao Ji's speech and behavior to her daily eating habits, she keeps it in her heart. The understanding of her is better than that of Lu Buwei and Yiren, the men who used to be husband and wife with her.

And after she had a score in her heart, she appeared in front of Zhao Zheng on a moonlit night.

"—Ah Zheng, I have watched your mother carefully these days."

Zhao Zheng, who was about to go to bed, suddenly heard Lian Su's light and fluttering voice above his head, no matter how good his mental quality was, he couldn't help but shiver. Zhao Zheng knew that the other party was going to talk about something serious when he heard the beginning, and silently climbed up from the straw mat Get up and wrap the quilt tightly.

The image and etiquette can no longer be estimated. The two of them have been married for so long in their previous lives, who cares about image issues.

Lian Su sat in front of him in a straight posture, with a serious face: "Your mother...it is definitely not suitable to go back to Qin with you."

"...Yes." Zhao Zheng nodded. "I know."

"That's not what it means." Lian Su tugged at Zhao Zheng's crooked quilt, and then continued: "Your mother, Zhao Ji, I've looked carefully over the past few days...she is a very difficult person to say."

"You don't need to be so polite." Zhao Zheng yawned, patted the back of her white hand on her knee, and comforted her: "I know who my mother is. She followed Lu Buwei before, and she was used to living a rich life. , after being given to my father all of a sudden, life became much harder, and now he ran back to Qin country and left her to suffer here. If she can return to China in the future, with my father and my identities, that woman's life may be uncertain It's going to be pretty good."

... When he said this, it might have been a bit ironic.

Originally, he could understand what Zhao Ji had achieved in the first place. After suffering so much and being wronged, there was nothing wrong with being a little presumptuous and living a little extravagantly. The fault was that Zhao Ji was completely fascinated by wealth and glory He closed his eyes, forgot who he was, and who his son was.

In her previous life, even Su never agreed to help Zhao Zheng make this puppet so early in her life, and she never showed such a calm and rational side—with only a preliminary understanding of the background, she directly decided to make the real Zhao Zheng a puppet without hesitation. Throwing Ji here, re-making a doll that can be controlled by herself, did not happen in her previous life.

Guiguzi went back in time but couldn't really let Lian Su go back to her original time. The only thing she could do was to seal her past and only keep a small part of her original memory, let her be a pure Children are playing and playing in the ghost valley.

But Guiguzi herself knows that those dark and heavy experiences are actually imprinted on her body. Even if it is sealed, it is only a sealed memory. It does not need to be driven by memory to retain the instincts and habits that belong to the past and the knowledge learned to understand. But it cannot be separated.

From this point of view, it is impossible to say that there is no influence at all.

For example, a person forgets that he has been bitten by a snake by accident, but his body will remember the pain caused by the snake's teeth. Even if he does not remember that he has been bitten by a snake, he will subconsciously avoid those potentially dangerous places .

From this point alone, it can be said that today's Zhao Zheng is not the original Zhao Zheng, and today's Lian Su is no longer the original Lian Su.

But Zhao Zheng doesn't care about this—the young man today has extremely complicated and heavy feelings for her, including love, respect, pity, and guilt; Whatever Su did, he would subconsciously understand and accept it.

These two people are getting along with children now, but their state of mind and way of thinking are not like children.

However, one was born in Ghost Valley, and the people who get along with him are either geniuses or geniuses. He has no idea what an ordinary child should be like. Also know nothing about it.

In a sense, these two people can be regarded as being right.

The two children got together to discuss about Zhao Ji, and every sentence was enough to make a mature adult feel terrified.

"When you go back to Qin, you can't take Zhao Ji back with you—well, it should be said that you can't take this 'Zhao Ji' back."

Zhao Zhengdao: "Susu, my mother can't die yet."

Lian Su looked up at him inexplicably: "I didn't say I wanted Zhao Ji to disappear, but I just wanted to find you a more suitable 'mother', so that you won't be distracted by Zhao Ji's affairs when you become the King of Qin in the future." .”

Zhao Zheng smiled and said, "Is that the saying that the enchantress will harm the country?"

Lian Su shook his head, frowned and said: "That is the foolish opinion of the ancients. Many people say that Daji is a subjugated enchantress, so beautiful women are often seen as disasters for the country, but Qin also has Queen Mother Xuan to turn the tide and assist her son to help her." Killing Yiqu? What is scary is not a beautiful woman, nor a capable woman, but a woman who cannot be controlled."

The corner of Zhao Zheng's mouth became slightly shallower, he squeezed Lian Su's hand, and asked in a low voice, "You are so calm in front of me, telling me directly that you want me to abandon my mother?"

A dazed look suddenly flashed across Lian Su's face. She looked at these eyes, as if she saw many strange and familiar shadows through them in an instant.

The girl bit her lip, lowered her eyelashes slowly, and the fingertips held by Zhao Zheng felt a little cold.

"...I just subconsciously feel that this is the most suitable method. Zhao Ji's background, temperament, and experience are all of no benefit to you. If you go back to Qin in the future, there is a great chance that you will become king. A mother with such qualifications will not do you any good, so I came to this conclusion... I didn't think about other things. "

She seemed to have forgotten that she casually said that she wanted to make a puppet to replace Zhao Ji, and the person in front of her was the one who responded calmly on the spot. The girl only felt a strange and profound fear and panic suddenly hit her. On the heart, it is like a thick and transparent spider silk entwined and stuck to the position of the blood vessels in the heart mouth, rushing to the whole body with the flow of blood.

This weird and disgusting feeling... can't be seen, can't be shaken off, can't be erased, it seems to have followed her for hundreds, thousands of years... tens of thousands of years.

She just suddenly felt...

If even this person can't accept it, then she probably really doesn't know what to do.

"If you don't like it, I won't continue to make it. The puppet is only the first one. It can't talk, walk or think like ordinary people. It's just that it looks a little like Zhao Ji. I'll wait for it To destroy it is..." the girl murmured.

Seeing her getting more and more flustered, Zhao Zheng couldn't help frowning worriedly.

"Susu?" He held the girl's shoulders so that she couldn't jump up and run away, and the words full of stomach were circling around her mouth, and finally there was only a helpless sigh: "I'm not angry, you panic!" What."

The girl would have such a reaction, Zhao Zheng understood it, but he didn't understand it either.

It is human nature to understand that she would be afraid of him getting angry when she said this, but the person who would be afraid if she didn't understand it was Lian Su.

He would not be so surprised if Li Si or Lu Buwei were the ones who would be afraid of his anger if he said that.

He has been the King of Qin all his life, and he has long been used to his subordinates taking the lead in making all the considerations and then letting him make the final judgment and decision. Doing everything by yourself will only exhaust yourself, so how to use the right talents in the right position is also one of the necessary talents for the king.

Although Lian Su's words sounded too offensive to many people, in fact, before Lai Ai rebelled in his previous life, the proposal was similar to asking him to find a way to put Zhao Ji under house arrest or directly find a way to get rid of Zhao Ji and Lai Ai. There are countless copies on his desk. After Zhao Ji's rebellion, there were not a few people who frankly wrote to the emperor to directly execute Zhao Ji.

Of course, Zhao Zheng couldn't understand the troubles and despair that Lian Su had been brought by countless reincarnations but failed endings under the background of cultural separation, let alone know that her decision stemmed from her experience after countless setbacks and failures.

What supported her to reflexively say this suggestion was the almost crazy obsession and arrogance that Lian Su had left behind after being destroyed and suppressed countless times in the life experiences of loss, failure, and disgust.

Even if the memory is sealed and her body and mind cannot grow, this thing has always been rooted in her blood, bones, and soul, and has never been scattered.

To make the most effective decision in the shortest time - even if you will be destroyed.

This is a habit that Lian Su developed unconsciously.

It doesn't matter if you die, anyway, no one cares, anyway, there will always be a next time.

She just wants to prove that she is right, that her decision is correct and the most valuable, and that's it... For this, she can pay any price without any hesitation.

——Don’t meet a bright master, don’t meet a great talent, don’t meet a confidant, and don’t meet an old enemy.

Under such circumstances, it is very difficult to prove yourself.

Those experiences outside made her almost feel that the life between her senior brother and Guigu was just a fleeting dream.

Even now, even now, it seems that everything has returned to the original Xiao Liansu, deep in her bones is still the entangled fear and arrogance, which have not disappeared with the retrospect of her appearance and age.

The self who is afraid of not being understood and accepted again... and the self who insists on going on despite being so worried and afraid.

Zhao Zheng looked into Lian Su's eyes, somewhat puzzled.

The girl who was originally gentle and calm in front of her seemed to have suddenly turned into a cat who was terrified but still wanted to bite.

...It's just a suggestion that is a bit ahead of schedule. Susu, Guiguzi's most beloved little disciple, shouldn't he be the most arrogant one?

... As for this reaction?

——Honestly speaking, if he shook his head and said no, she turned her head away and walked away with a small face. From then on, he thought of the possibility that she didn't know each other. He even thought of several ways to coax people. I didn't expect the other party to react like this.

You must know that when her senior brother Wei Yang reformed, the first person to strike the knife was Ying Quliang's brother Gong Ziqian, the elder brother who fought together on the battlefield, the original king of the Qin Kingdom, Gong Ziqian's weight is better than a pure fate Zhao Ji weighs too much.

Therefore, Ying · Great Qin Shi Huang · ancestral ghost valley powder · Zheng, expressed [-]% incomprehension of Lian Su's reaction at this moment.

In fact, with the help and guidance of several generations of Guigu disciples, the Daqin royal family has an unusual attachment...and obsession with the descendants of Guigu.

Although the monarchs and ministers are single-minded, it seems that the only one who coaxes and pampers them is the king of Qin... Then when these incumbents are gone, and a new monarch is replaced on the throne of Qin, these old ministers will be thrown away. , and the reason is still not pleasing to the eye or the need for a scapegoat.

Ying Ji is the worst, he directly bestowed Bai Qi to death when he was still in power.

The descendants of Guigu are so arrogant, even the kings who grew up on this soil may not really understand the thoughts and behaviors of Guigu's disciples, how lucky Shang Yang met Ying Quliang and him, never forgetting each other, never abandoning each other, How lucky Zhang Yi was to meet Ying Si, who worshiped the prime minister twice, and obtained the status of prime minister with one person under one man and above ten thousand people. But I didn't think there was anything wrong with this one.

But how did they die...

Ying Ji felt that Bai Qi's loyalty was first to the Qin State, and then to the King of Qin.

All in all, Bai Qi is loyal, and his loyal reassurance seems to have no major problems from various perspectives. The problem is that Yingji can't bear it. He is not the first, so he can't bear it.

... and then died.

——If it is not in my hands, the other side will be destroyed in my hands.

This is Yingji's logic.

Having said that, these proud sons from Guigu are arrogant and arrogant, but after meeting the Lord of the Ming Dynasty, they will be more loyal than anyone else.

But before they get their loyalty and passion, most people can't understand and accept their unauthorized behavior beyond the king and their talents and abilities far beyond the king's own.

If they hadn't met Mingjun, they might not have lived as well as ordinary counselors and staff. If they didn't have great ambitions in the world, how could they tolerate the arrogant and arrogant descendants of Guigu.

But if I have to meet Ming Jun...

Zhao Zheng thought for a while, and the only conclusion he could draw was that Susu was worried that he was not a suitable king and would not listen to him.

"I didn't say you couldn't do this method. Why did you panic like this first? If you think this is the best and most appropriate method, then you can just let it go and don't worry about me, really."

He touched Lian Su's cheek and said with a smile.

"You just need to remember one thing, no matter when you do something harmful to me, I will believe you."

The boy curled his finger and scratched the bridge of the girl's nose.

"And the only thing you have to do is believe in it."