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The progress of the paper was also much slower. The form that could be completed at six o'clock, I just dragged it to nearly seven o'clock.Chen Zhan sat in the hall outside, tilting his head and falling asleep.I stopped and looked at him, remembering that this morning Chen Zhan also silently looked at my back as I walked away.He stood in front of the window of his house, watching me stop at the breakfast stand, and watch me trot towards the subway entrance.I can even see my back clearly from his perspective, but at that time I didn't want to look back at all.

Now I look at the docile hair on the back of his head again, and I can't help feeling disgusted.

I pushed him and said, "Let's go."

"Hmm." He stood up and rubbed his eyes, "Why is it so late?"

"Isn't it necessary to make money to support you?" I complained to him helplessly, "otherwise the family will not be able to open the pot."

He also smiled: "Then what should we do?"

I said, "I don't know either. What would you like for dinner tonight?"

He said: "That's why I came to you. Do you want to eat roast leg of lamb? Today is the last day of activities in the store."

I said, "Leg of lamb is so big, it's full of meat, what's the point of eating it? And barbecued ones are easy to cause cancer, so change it."

Chen Zhan nodded and said softly, "Really."

I don't know what he's thinking.But I really want to eat meat, I feel hungry again.

Chen Zhan said, "Are you hungry?"

I said, "I'm not hungry. I ate a lot at noon and didn't exercise in the afternoon."

Chen Zhan said: "What a disappointment. I just wanted to find you for a meal, and you're not hungry yet."

I said: "Go eat Shanghai cuisine, it's near, and go home after eating."

Chen Zhan put his eyes on me again, and said slowly, "That's what I like to eat, not what you want to eat."

I said, "Whatever?"

This is the mantra of a European and American female artist that Chen Zhan likes very much for a while. I have heard it a lot, and I can learn a little bit.He told me a lot about this, and I've been trying to listen, but unfortunately I don't remember the star's full name now.

Chen Zhan paused, and said, "Forget it."

I smiled and said, "You said, you came so far to find me just to eat mutton with me, it's not worth it, I'm not worth it for you."

Chen Zhan said, "I don't want to quarrel with you."

I didn't understand his channel: "What?"

"It's okay." He walked forward again, "What to eat? I can do it."

I don't want to eat with him, and I lose my appetite when I see him.But today he forced him directly from home to my work unit, so I have no choice but to retreat.I can't keep everyone from making up their minds, stare at each other all night, and I suggest that we should eat western food, it's decent.He was wearing a light-colored thin needlework sweater today, and it would get dirty easily if he ate food stalls or soup.But he agreed as if he was compromising with me.I said what you want to eat, you say, don't be embarrassed.

He said, "Zhang He, I just want to accompany you."

I said you are not with me?

When ordering food, new contradictions arose.He said that it’s fine to order the discounted meal for two. I said that kind of food is not delicious, so let’s order it a la carte, and you can look at the menu.

I have calculated that it is also based on the amount that two people can eat, and the single point is actually nearly twice as expensive as the set meal.But Chen Zhan had never been wronged.When I didn’t know it before, I took him with him every day at the street stall Malatang. If I really wanted to go to a restaurant, I would first search for a coupon with good quality and low price. There is always a lot of preparation work in advance.Now we have to call that time interesting and fun.Now that he has passed the period of passionate hormones, he should let him live the way he was most used to in the twenty years before he met me.

He has no job and no savings now. All our livelihoods depend on my [-]-[-] salary and bonus. Fortunately, I don’t have to pay five social insurances and one housing fund by myself. My name is also on the house, and I don’t have a car, which relieves a lot. burden.I figured that there is still half a month before I get paid. After eating this meal, I will not eat the cafeteria for lunch in the future. I can make some from home in the morning and take it with me, or the leftovers from the night before. Money, otherwise it will be miserable until the end of the month.

Chen Zhan flipped through the menu from beginning to end, his eyebrows furrowed tighter and tighter, and finally he raised his head and whispered to me, "Change to another one."

I said, "What's the matter? Don't you always like their steak?"

Chen Zhan shook his head and said, "Suddenly I don't want to eat, can't I?"

Afterwards, he chose a home-cooked restaurant, where the roast pork ribs were delicious and affordable.Chen Zhanlai doesn't have as many down-to-earth places as I do. I'm a little surprised to know that there is an unknown shop here.

The dishes were almost ready, he rolled a small pancake and handed it to me, then said calmly: "Zhang He, do you want to break up?"

I didn't answer him right away, but took the cake first, and then carefully said my words: "Why did you say this all of a sudden?"

Chen Zhan obviously also realized that I was avoiding the important and taking the light. He put his elbows on the table and said, "If you want, break up."

I blurted out, "No. Tell me what you have to say."

Chen Zhan said: "I have been fighting wits and courage with you for so long, you are not tired, I am tired. Let each other go, otherwise it will be a waste of time for everyone."

I continued to eat the cake, and said while eating: "Old Chen, don't add drama to yourself, can you? Don't talk about whether you are tired or wasteful. Who is fighting wits with you? Are you brainless or do I have fists? Let go of each other, it sounds nice, even if you can let go, I can't let go."

Chen Zhan said, "I don't want to lie to you anymore."

I said, "Don't, don't, it's not necessary. I don't agree to break up, let's eat first."

Chen Zhan suddenly said, "Zhang He, look at me."

I shifted my gaze from the seafood pimple soup to his face, his expression was upright and serious.I have seen his expression like this, but it is rarely directed at me. A few years ago, when he was often negotiating with clients in suits and leather shoes, the two sides tried their best to care about every penny. Chen Zhan That's the look.We had known each other for a while at that time, and it was the period when gags were not in the right shape. Chen Zhan was seven years older than me, and he must have paid more for food, drink and entertainment. One of us would like to fight and the other would suffer. There is new happiness.Once when I was passing by the conference room, someone came out to answer the phone. Through the swaying crack of the door opening and closing, I saw Chen Zhan sitting opposite me. flashed by.I know that he is in a tug-of-war with others, so there will not be only one opponent, and there will not be only one teammate. Everyone is probably equally nervous and serious, but I only saw Chen Zhan, he was not sitting in the main seat. In this position, the angle seems to be right on me.It's just so upright and serious.

My thoughts came back to the furnace, and I suddenly felt emotional that Chen Zhan was really old.It's not the graying of the temples, but the changes in the details that are not clear.

Chen Zhan said, "Zhang He."

Chen Zhan said, "Didn't you always want me to die?"



I was forced to suffocate by his straightforward gaze, I first avoided the eye contact reflexively, but only turned down a small half circle, then turned up again, looked at him like before, and pulled the smile lines , Said: "Huh?" As if he was talking about some magical and imaginary Arabian Nights.

He said, "Are you asking me?"

I blinked my eyes, put on a completely innocent and bewildered expression, and secretly laughed out loud, giving myself a perfect score for my acting skills.

Chen Zhan said, "What are you laughing at?"

My face didn't hang on for a while, and before I had time to think about it, I opened my mouth and asked him: "Do you know what I'm thinking?"

"I know, I can hear you," he said.

I lowered my head and stuffed the last bite of the burrito into my mouth. I chewed and said, "No wonder you came to me to eat the leg of lamb. It turned out to be like this. When did you have this superpower? You can only see what I'm thinking or everything Can people see their thoughts?"

His eyes seemed to be very sad, but I just kept eating, mouthful after mouthful, chopstick after chopstick, with relish.It's ridiculous to say that my first thought was not to reveal the truth or to keep him, but to calmly worry that if he was so guarded against me, it might be very difficult for me to do it today.I originally planned to end where I started, but with a stab in my chest, it was all over.What should I do?

In fact, my appetite is not that big, but maybe because I have been using my brain, I actually finished all the dishes ordered by two people.He remained in the same position as before, and I thought, can you see what I'm thinking now?Only then did he respond.That is to say, I regretted that Wanquan's plan failed and he knew about it, so I raised my hand to signal to the waiter, and I said, "Add more food——"

The waiter came, I looked up and asked Chen Zhan, "What do you want to eat?"

Chen Zhan said: "Potato shreds and rice."

I stopped the waiter from writing it down on the receipt, and said, "That's too boring. Let's order a plate of beef tenderloin. Do you have salt-baked chicken wings? Yes, and Coca-Cola is also fine."

Chen Zhan also stopped the waiter from writing it up, "Nothing, it's too expensive."

With a half-smile on my face, I began to think in my head, "I want you to die, how about treating you to a meal and sending you on the road?"

Chen Zhan stopped looking at me, and then firmly confirmed to the waiter: "Potato shreds and rice, thank you." The waiter looked at me again, so I nodded and waved him away.

Soon the plates and bowls were served, and Chen Zhan lowered his head and began to eat.

Chen Zhan is really old. I saw his white hair, which was hidden under the top of his hair, and I couldn't usually see it.He is really old, do I have gray hair?Probably not, I think.

Chen Zhan didn't answer me.