Save Honkai Gong [Rebirth]

The room was airtight, and it was sunny and sunny outside, but the room was terribly dark.

A glimmer of light seeps through the cracks in the curtains.

The young man curled up on the swivel chair, stretched out his hand carefully to touch the beam of light, stared blankly at the gentle sunlight on his palm, his eyes were dark and dull, like a puppet that had lost its soul.

How long?

how long has it been?

How long has it been since you left him?

Fan Yuan didn't know, but he only knew that his heart was not beating like it was dead, and the blood in his body also began to cool down at that moment, so cold that he was now living with a sense of guilt, and his life would be worse than death.

"Brother, it's time to eat." Fan Xiaoxiao walked in with the food.

After he glanced at Fan Yuan, he put the food on his desk, and then prepared to open the curtains that hadn't been opened for a long time.

At this moment, Fan Yuan grabbed his hand.

His head was still lowered, there was no expression on his face, his skin was as pale as a piece of paper, and he was skinny and painful.

"Don't open..."

Fan Xiaoxiao frowned, sat next to him, and lowered her voice so as not to scare him: "Brother...Mom made an appointment for a new cardiologist. Let's go see it in the afternoon?"

Fan Yuan didn't answer, and withdrew his hand.

"How long? Brother, how long did you say? How long have you locked yourself in this crappy room?" Fan Xiaoxiao's eyes turned red, and he was also anxious. Fan Yuan has always been like this since he moved.

"Do you know? Do you know that the whole family is going crazy worrying about you! You still look like a ghost, are you going to imprison yourself for the rest of your life? It's him who's in jail, not you..."

Fan Xiaoxiao's voice got stuck, not because of anything else, but because she saw hot tears oozing from the corners of Fan Yuan's eyes.It's been almost a year, and he finally has an expression, but that expression is extremely sad.

"I was wrong..." Fan Xiaoxiao followed with red eyes, knelt down in front of him on one knee, choked up and said, "I shouldn't have mentioned him. I'm sorry...brother..."

"Woo..." Fan Yuan couldn't stop sobbing.

Fan Xiaoxiao sniffed her red nose, put her hands on his shoulders, and said softly: "We can't go on like this, right? We have to get by... Brother, let's take the medicine and go to the doctor, shall we?"

Fan Yuan grabbed his sleeve and raised a face that was flushed from crying: "Little...will he hate me? Hate me for lying to him...hate me for the rest of my life...that child, he must be very uncomfortable..."

"Brother..." Fan Xiaoxiao gently hugged him: "He was an outsider...Brother, you did the right thing. It was right to leave him... It was a mistake for you to be together."

"Ugh..."

"Hey Let's go, go to the doctor, the doctor will definitely cure you."

A few years later:

In the empty hall, a handsome young man sat on the sofa, staring at a place in a daze, waiting for the tenth doctor to treat him.

Years of crying for no reason made his eyes worse and worse. Without glasses, of course, people's faces within two meters could not be seen clearly.

The sound of high heels hitting the ground sounded.

A woman in a white coat came down the stairs. She looked kind, with a gentle temperament and affectionate eyes. She looked very comfortable at first glance.

The woman poured two cups of hot water and came over, handed him one of them, and said with a smile, "Are you the patient introduced by Fan Xiaoxiao?"

Fan Yuan nodded: "I am his brother."

She held out her hand to him: "Hello. My surname is Chen, and you can be called Chen Yi."

Fan Yuan shook hands politely, and made a far-fetched smile: "Hello, Dr. Chen."

Such a smile is sensitive in the eyes of doctors in Xinxin, and Chen Yi soon noticed it. She glanced at him thoughtfully, and sat gracefully in front of him.

"Mr. Fan, may I ask how long you haven't smiled?"

"Is there?" Fan Yuan was startled, and lowered his sad eyebrows: "No. When I face people, I should be smiling..."

"No, there isn't. You just get used to it."

"You have a gentle and polite personality, so you smile when you see others, but it's not from the heart, it's just out of your instinct. Or..." The corner of the mouth ticked: "It's perfunctory."

Fan Yuan saw through his heart for a second, a little unhappy, picked up the coat on the chair, and said: "I think I should be normal... I don't need to see a doctor. Sorry, I have to go, I have classes in the afternoon. "

The female doctor smiled slightly, and when she saw that Fan Yuan was about to leave, she unhurriedly raised her legs and said, "If you think you're not sick, your brother won't send you here gone."

"What are you laughing at?" Fan Yuan was a little displeased.

"Laugh at life, laugh at love."

"..."

Fan Yuan paused.

The female doctor continued: "Not long before you, I received a patient. His condition is worse than yours... You can at least pretend to be in pain and talk to normal people. He is different, he completely closed himself in In a small space, all you can do is self-harm. Through the pain of self-harm, you can forget the saddest memories in your heart."

Fan Yuan's eyes turned red.

She continued: "He's a schizophrenic, and he's violent. Do you know what he wants me to fix him?"

Fan Yuan choked up and said, "What?"

"Heal his violent tendencies. So he won't be hurting people he loves," he said.

"Is it cured?"

The female doctor smiled slightly: "He is very cooperative. I think it will be soon."

Fan Yuan turned around slowly, and when he turned around, his clear eyes were clouded with mist: "Then can you cure me?"

"What do you want me to heal you?"

"I don't know either. Maybe it's the heart."

"There's only one way."

"what?"

"Forget."

The sky is blue and the breeze is warm. This is Fan Yuan's first year after graduating from university.

"Brother, what do you want to do in the future?"

Fan Xiaoxiao and Fan Yuan walked out of the house side by side, and walked around the community. Along the way, there were lush trees on both sides of the road and few people.

Fan Yuan shook his head: "I haven't thought about it yet."

"Well, there is no rush." ​​After a pause, he remembered something and asked, "How is Dr. Chen?"

Fan Yuan: "Yeah. He's a nice guy."

"Tsk." Fan Xiaoxiao raised her eyebrows, slapped him on the shoulder meanly, and said, "Brother, you have to invite someone to dinner. The doctor is still single."

"Don't make trouble." Fan Yuan pushed him away: "I have nothing to do with her."

"Brother don't you like this one?" Fan Xiaoxiao picked up his phone, opened the photo album, and slid various group photos of gatherings with girls in front of his eyes: "Look, these are all classmates Xuanxuan, and my classmates, long They are all very juicy. They are also very enthusiastic."

Fan Yuan felt a headache, so he put it in his pocket and walked forward: "You go back first. I will walk alone."

"elder brother……"

"Okay, let's go back."

Fan Yuan became impatient, and Fan Xiaoxiao stopped his voice when he saw the situation, and watched him go with deep eyes.

Fan Yuan wandered aimlessly on the street, he couldn't let himself stop, once he stopped, he would fall into endless memories and couldn't break free.

The traffic lights at the intersection are blinking.

Pedestrians in a hurry walk on the zebra crossing.

Fan Yuan stood at the top of the zebra crossing, staring at the passers-by in a trance, with unfamiliar faces, some laughing, some melancholy, with too many emotions, in his eyes, he would feel physically and mentally tired.

He simply took off his glasses, hung them on his pockets, stopped looking, and followed the crowd with his head down.

Among the people passing by, the moment they rubbed shoulders with a stranger, it seemed that a man looked over, and his eyes focused on him across the crowd.

Those affectionate eyes melted the layers of deep ice that had been in his heart for many years, but they disappeared the moment he blinked in astonishment.

"elder brother……"

Fan Yuan's eyes suddenly opened wide, with a dim light shining.

The immature child's voice sounded again: "Brother..."

Fan Yuan's clothes were grabbed.

He looked down, and saw a little boy who looked like three or four years old, grabbing the hem of his clothes and looking at him pitifully.

He resembled the most innocent appearance of the boy in his heart.Those eyes, just like when he looked at him aggrievedly before, with a mole of tears, are all dotted just right.

Fan Yuan was stunned, and came back to his senses in a trance, with a desolate smile on the corner of his mouth.Afterwards, he bent down and asked, "What's wrong, kid?"

He said, "What's your phone number?"

Fan Yuan stared secretly, a little surprised: "What do you want my phone number for?"

"Our teacher has been staring at you for a long time. She likes you."

"..."

"That's the one." The little boy pointed to a kindergarten on Southwest Road, and looked in through the railing. A cutely dressed female preschool teacher was leading a group of children to play.

Fan Yuan picked him up, pinched the tip of his nose, and said with a smile, "You ran out alone?"

"Hee hee... that's right."

"It seems that the teacher doesn't know."

"She's been peeking at you. She hasn't noticed me at all."

Fan Yuan laughed: "Little villain."

He carried the little villain back to the kindergarten, and when he handed the little villain into the girl's hands, the girl turned pale with fright and reprimanded him with lingering fear: "Xuanxuan! Are you running around again?!"

The little villain stuck out his tongue mischievously: "No one wants a teacher who is so fierce."

Fan Yuan chuckled, and the female preschool teacher blushed instantly, and stammered to him: "Yes... I'm sorry... this kid is weird. I'm bothering you..."

"It's okay." Fan Yuan's brows and eyes were gentle: "Be careful next time. This place is close to the intersection and has a lot of people. Don't lose the child."

"I...I know!"

"That's right." Fan Yuan pointed to the recruitment advertisement at the door, and said with a smile, "Are you still recruiting kindergarten teachers?"

"Um... that's right."

"Can I apply?"

"Ah?" The female preschool teacher didn't respond for a moment.Afraid she didn't hear clearly, Fan Yuan repeated: "Can I apply?"

"Ahh... Pin! Pin! Come with me, little brother!" The preschool teacher blushed and led him into the kindergarten.

"What? Are you going to be a kindergarten teacher??" Fan Xiaoxiao couldn't believe her ears: "You can be a professor with a diploma, right? You're actually going to be a kindergarten teacher?!"

Fan Yuan calmly picked up the babbling Fan Tiantian: "What's wrong with that? It just so happens that I can still take care of your children..."

"Don't make trouble, brother. Mom will find out when she comes back, and she will faint from anger."

"..." Fan Yuan lowered his eyebrows and did not speak.

"Fan Yuan... I don't care. But... Mom is worried about you. If she knows that you have abandoned yourself like this, she will definitely feel uncomfortable."

Fan Yuan held Fan Tiantian and stood up, with a hint of sadness brewing in his eyes, and he didn't know what he was thinking, staring at a place in a daze.

"Fan Yuan!"

Fan Xiaoxiao wanted to say something, but Fan Yuan slowly raised his eyes, and at some point, those eyes were filled with tears.

"I have no way to repay what I owe him in my life. Only in this way can I reduce the guilt in my heart. You know, I can't let go, maybe even after death."