Save Honkai Gong [Rebirth]

Snow mountain.

The end of my last trip.

During this period, he disappeared for a while.

I searched for most of China, but I still couldn't find that gentle figure.

Dr. Chen told me that as long as I miss him, he will appear all the time.

At first I was reluctant to believe her words.

Even wanted to kill her.

But later, I realized it with hindsight.That person, who only appears when I need him, appears behind me, smiling softly at me.

When I wanted to touch him, he shattered like a bubble and disappeared at my fingertips.

This is why I am greedy for the world.

I love him, even if it's just a phantom.

Even if it is cold to the touch.

On the third day, I searched aimlessly in the snow-capped mountains.I think he should be here, hidden under the abyss, buried in the ice, or, in my heart.

The wind from the snow-capped mountains was dry and cold, making my cheeks dry and cracked.

I can't find any words other than pain.

Looking at the vast snow-capped mountains, as far as the eye can see, there are continuous ups and downs, a piece of snow-white, holy and pure.

What surrounds my ears are the sound of wind, snow, and distant chimes.

I was fascinated by staring at the vast snow-capped mountains. This is the place I most want to come with him, and it is also the place I most want to die with him.

It's quiet here, without the hustle and bustle of the city.

There is no noise.

Only wind and snow, me and him.

"Brother." Shen Yan hugged me from behind.

When I came to my senses, my vision was blurred by tears, and my throat was choked with soreness. After a long time, I could only choke out one word: "Mmm..."

The moment I fell into a hallucination, the remaining warmth from my fingertips suddenly dissipated, and the whole world turned off the lights.

I can't see him, I can't touch him, I can't see all the bright pictures in this world.

"Mr. Fan, you have acute glaucoma."

"..."

"In the future, you can't cry any more, keep on crying... maybe your eyes will disappear."

"It's useless." I shook my head: "I lost my lover, even if I hold back...every time I remember him in my dream, I can wake up crying."

"My condolences." The doctor sighed.

I squinted my eyes, and some light seemed to have recovered within a few days. Although I couldn't see the buildings clearly, I could at least see the blurred shadows in the crowd.

Xiaoxiao gave me a guide dog.

With it, I can walk on the road.

Today is the day I go to see Dr. Chen.

Every six months, I go to her for treatment, and every time I get treatment, my chances of seeing him become less and less.

I was getting better and he was going away.

But no way.

Life has to go on.

I followed the guide dog to the subway station. It was very well-behaved. It could tell me where to go and where not to go, and even gave me a backpack.

I named it Huihui.

There was a lot of noise in the subway station, and I couldn't see people or buildings around me clearly. I could only see vaguely moving shadows around.

Hui Hui led me in.

But it was walking too fast, the crowd was too crowded, I accidentally let go of the rope in my hand, the dog didn't seem to notice that I was lost, and got into the subway.

"Hui Hui! Hui Hui!" I called out to it anxiously, groping helplessly in the air, hoping to find a building that I could lean on and feel at ease.

The traffic coming and going bumped against my shoulder.

I panicked and wanted to cry several times, but my eyes hurt badly. "Huihui! Come back quickly! You lost me!"

"Wow, woof, woof!" The dog's voice sounded, and it seemed to be very anxious, but there was no way to come to me immediately.

I could only grope blindly to find it, but was pushed farther and farther by the flow of people, so that in the end I lost my footing and almost fell to the ground.

Just when I was about to fall, a pair of hands wrapped around my waist from behind and hugged me tightly.

Those arms are strong.

Strong enough to give me a long-lost sense of security.

Once in a fire, it was such a pair of strong arms that supported my life.

My heart is beating, like a resurgence, beating extremely fast.

The man straightened my body without speaking, as if he was about to leave.I quickly grabbed his arm, panting heavily, and said in a panic, "Sir, help me."

The man did not speak.

I said, "I'm going to the town by car, but my dog ​​lost me. I can't see the road...can you take me there?"

I listened attentively to the sound of the fabric of his clothes rubbing against each other. He seemed to move his body, and then he hung an arm across my face.

When he spoke, he didn't know if he was suppressing his throat deliberately, or if he had a cold, his nasal voice was very heavy, and his voice sounded extremely hoarse and deep, so hoarse that I felt a little familiar: "Catch me."

I obediently grabbed his arm, and when he wasn't paying attention, I sniffed his body with the tip of my nose. I didn't know if he had noticed my little movement, but I heard him laugh, laughing so hard very light.

There was nothing familiar about him.

It's a strong smell of disinfectant.

This is the smell after staying in the ward for a long time.

I realized that I might have identified the wrong person, the tip of my nose couldn't help sore, I laughed at myself, laughing, I was still expecting him to appear in front of me.

When the man escorted me into the subway, I let go of him and thanked him very much: "Thank you, I really trouble you."

The man didn't speak, the figure just stood there, seeming to be looking at me.

I turned and walked into the tram.

"Hmph..." My guide dog smelled me and found me after my scent.

I fumbled and grabbed its leash, and said with some resentment: "Where did you go, can you run slower next time?"

At this moment, someone kicked my dog.

My dog ​​was startled and shrank to my feet.

"Come on... your dog is scaring my kids."

"Can't you hear me?"

"Is this man blind?"

I turned my head slightly, and bowed in the direction of the sound source to apologize: "I'm sorry, I'll just lead it away."

The subway is very crowded now. Although I can't see it, I can feel the strength of everyone around me pushing and shoving.

I fumbled into the corner of the car door with ashes.It is very obedient, lying obediently at my feet, seems a little scared, and rests its head on my lap.

It whimpered and acted like a baby to me.

I was about to squat down and hug it, but I was squeezed against the wall by a force.

There was a person behind me who was very close to me, almost back to back, so that I could clearly feel his body temperature and the hardness of a certain place that made me blush instantly.

It's a man.

The faint smell of disinfectant got into my nasal cavity.

I was taken aback for a moment, and realized: This person is the one who sent me to the tram just now, and he didn't leave.

"Sir..." I was about to say something when suddenly a pair of big hands pressed against my waist.

The man hugged me from behind, and his turbid and hot breath sprayed on my neck, which made me tremble all over, and goose bumps came up all over my body.

he is touching/me...

Is……

It's a pervert!

I was about to call for help, but he suddenly said, "It's better not to call, otherwise, I'll steal your dog back to make dog meat soup."

"You... um..."

I bowed my head deeply, clutching the guide dog's rope tightly in my hand, I don't have to think, my expression at this moment must be angry and ashamed.

I would never have thought that at my age, I would still encounter the legendary tram pervert.

before he kissed me.

Delicately kissing my neck, nibbling my earlobe obsessively, when the soft lips brushed against my skin, I actually trembled unexpectedly.

wrong.

I never come like this.

This person seemed to know where my sensitive spots were.No, it should be said that he is familiar with the road.With just two easy strokes, my defense was completely disintegrated with both hands.

My brain was a little dizzy, I was at a loss, and my body began to tremble: "You stop quickly...I will call the police..."

The man didn't speak, and didn't seem to stop.

I tried to kick the crawling guide dog under my feet, hoping that it would feel that I was being hurt, and barked at the pervert twice.

Unexpectedly, the guide dog, which is usually lively as hell, is sleeping like a pig at this time, and I can even hear its snoring.

I can't wake up even if I kick it.

I'm kind of desperate.

"asshole……"

I couldn't let him hurt me. After biting me, I struggled to break free from his embrace, turned to face him, and was about to yell, but he suddenly pushed me against the wall.

Then, something seemed to cover my head.

It's a coat.

I was about to take it off, but he locked my wrists behind my waist.The man stuck to me, lifted the coat covering my head, and kissed me deeply.

Lips collided, he skillfully pried open my teeth, protruding his flexible tongue wrapped around my tongue, devouring my feeble breath.

The crowd in the tram sighed.

He kissed so forcefully that I couldn't breathe for a while, the more I resisted, the more intense he kissed, as excited as a wild beast meeting its prey.

For a moment, I was almost crying.

"Don't...please..."

All I remember is his heavy breathing.

"The small town is here..." When I was about to despair, the sound of the hourly broadcast sounded from the tram.

Not long after, the doors opened.

He let go of me.

I almost frantically pulled my guide dog out of the car.Huihui probably hasn't reacted yet, lying on the ground motionless.

I pulled it hard twice, and then it reacted, and ran like crazy with me.

Because of blurred vision.

During this period, I bumped into many people.

Fortunately, Huihui was smart and led me around the crowd, and came to a place I didn't know where it was. In short, there were very few people, almost no one.

Because I can't hear the voice of people talking.

Call the police.

My first thought after quieting down.

I fumbled in my pocket, but I couldn't find the phone. It was only later that I realized that my phone should have been taken away by that person.

"It's over."

Encountering this kind of thing, for the first time, I felt that I was really useless, and my heart was so sad that I squatted down, hugged Hui Hui's body, and sought a sense of security in it.

I hugged Huihui and sobbed, Huihui hummed very psychically, and licked the back of my hand.

"March, it's your birthday... I miss you, I think like crazy... Whenever I want to die, your afterimage always appears beside me. Although I know it's not you... ..."

It's my voice, the voice recorded by my phone.

I straightened my neck vigilantly, and turned my ears slightly to listen to the direction of the sound, which was the small door I just turned in.

"Dr. Chen told me that as long as I miss you, you will appear..."

The sound of the recording is getting closer.

I gasped for breath, quickly patted Huihui's back, and gave it instructions: "Quick... Huihui, let's go..."

After receiving the order, Huihui stood up and led me to a place. I couldn’t tell the direction or see the way, so I could only pin all my hopes on it, hoping that it could lead me to a place full of people. place.

During this time, I glanced back.

In the blurred vision, a tall figure was slowly following us, as if he didn't care how fast we fled.

"Run in a hurry! Run to a crowded place!"

I yelled, Huihui yelled twice, and Sa Yazi ran up, like a wild horse that had run out of rein, so that I didn't realize it, and the traction rope in my hand came off again.

Ashes are gone.

I was left stunned in place, at a loss.

I didn't even have time to call it.

"Step... step... step..." The dull leather shoes stepped on the smooth marble floor, lurking in the darkness, approaching me step by step.

My heart beats extremely fast, mixed with my rushing and waiting for my panting, echoing in my eardrums.

If caught by this pervert.

I just can't imagine the consequences.

In the news I saw two days ago, many women were dragged into the dark and raped/violated, after which the corpses were broken into pieces.

The murderer has not yet been apprehended.

I became suspicious for a moment, the person following me was probably the serial murderer.

As for why he came to me?

I had a jolt.

He wanted a change.

There is an intersection in front and an intersection on the left. I don't know where it is, but I'm sure it should be in a school or an underground square or something.

There is light at the intersection on the left.

I couldn't see the specific road conditions, and I couldn't even see the door, so I could only go to the light source based on my feeling.There was light there, and it was bright.

When there is light, there is hope.

I didn't care so much anymore, I stumbled and ran towards the light source, shouting: "Is there anyone! Is there anyone here?!"

No one responded to me.

Even when I came to the light source, no one responded to me.

The smell here is very strong, and there is the sound of dripping water from the tap. No need to guess, this is a public toilet.

I chose the wrong road, a dead end.

It’s over.

These two words came to my mind again.

Before the pervert came over.

I fumbled for something on the sink, got into a toilet cubicle, sat on the cold toilet, and waited for him to find me with a heart hanging in my throat.

"Tap...tap...tap..." The sound of leather shoes stomping on the ground came slowly, the man walked slowly and leisurely, accompanied by a low humming sound.

Sure enough, he followed.

I clenched my hands on something I didn't know what it was, and shrank into a ball trembling all over, listening to the sound of his footsteps.

"Bang! Bang!" He was kicking the door, one by one, very violently, as if deliberately scaring me.

I knew he must have known I was in the toilet, so he came in a hurry.He was trying to put pressure on me, trying to break my nerves.

Of course, he also succeeded.

My whole body was so frightened that my breathing was fuzzy, and cold sweat kept oozing from my forehead, slipping wet and slippery along my cheeks, into the depths.

"Bang!" He violently kicked open the door of the compartment on my right, and the next one... was me.

"Don't..." I trembled all over, covered my mouth and nose tightly, held my breath tightly, tears burst out of my eyes unstoppably, I really didn't want to be violated by him.

I don't want to die so embarrassingly to see Shen Xian.

Just as I was holding the object in my hand and preparing to confront him, he didn't make any further moves, and almost lost his voice.

The bathroom fell silent.

It was so quiet that only my rapid breathing and heartbeat sounded.

he's gone?

I guess.

Soon, this idea was rejected by me again.

The man must have not left, because I didn't hear the sound of him going out just now.

I swallowed, tightened my arms, and didn't dare to go out. I only hoped that someone would come to the toilet, and I would call for help.

I was engaged in psychological warfare with him.

Consuming, grinding.

Soon, time passed by every minute and every second.

He seemed to move, and the sound of cloth rubbing came into my ears, and then, the sound of his heavy footsteps began to walk out.

For a long time, there was no sound.

I was about to stand up when the light in the toilet suddenly went out.I panicked for a moment, and stretched out my hands to fumble in the air.

There is nothing else to panic about.

Because I might be blind.

How could the toilet light be turned off at this time?

"I..." I couldn't help sobbing, my eyes hurt badly, this feeling of not being able to see anything made me more and more frightened.

"Shen Xian... Shen Xian..." I couldn't stop my tears, trembling in the dark, I could only keep calling Shen Xian's name, seeking a sense of security.

Looking forward to his phantom appearing and responding to me.

"Shen Xian... woo..." My crying became louder and louder, so that I couldn't help it, and wept loudly, calling his name while crying: "Shen Xian..."

"Bang!" The fragile compartment door was kicked open with two feet.

That man rushed in, hugged me, kissed my lips frantically, and stuffed all my crying into his mouth.

"Don't... um... don't..."

His warm hands clasped my waist and skillfully unbuttoned my shirt.I wanted to resist, but he roughly tied my wrist with something.

He pushed me against the partition wall, sparks sparked where his fingertips brushed.

"Don't!" I trembled a lot.

Taking advantage of the moment I opened my mouth, he swept over with his tongue of fire, stirring my mouth, entwining my tongue like a snake.

My mind went blank for a moment after being kissed by him.

Even so, his hand didn't stop.

The sound of saliva mingling echoed in my ears, and I just wanted to die for a moment. Rather than being insulted like this, it would be better to hit my head to death.

Of course, he won't give me this chance.

I tried hard to push his tongue out with my tongue, but he took a bite and sucked the tip of my tongue, making my whole scalp numb.

It was also at that moment that I unexpectedly felt that he had canine teeth, sharp canine teeth.

I gasp under his kiss.

I took the initiative to stick out my tongue and got into his city. The tip of my tongue brushed his teeth, and my heartbeat accelerated instantly.

It's two... It's two tiger teeth!

The man was very satisfied with my initiative, and his movements became more gentle, and the heavy panting sound rose and fell with my groaning/groaning, mixing together.

After a long time, he reluctantly left my lips, turned and bit my neck, licked my earlobe, and swept my ear with the tip of his tongue.

"Shen Xian..." I gasped and muttered his name, stretched out my hands and hugged his head: "Is that you? Did you come to find me?"

The man was startled, bit my Adam's apple hard, and said in a low voice, "Don't think about other men when you're being fucked by me."

"Hmm..." I raised my head subconsciously.

He seemed to smile a little.

"You let me go..." The only illusion was shattered, and my heart fell to the bottom.

I cried out angrily.

My body is so unbelievable, it's really low to be played by a rapist into this virtue.

He kissed me tenderly, seemed to be impatient with my tears, lowered his voice and said: "Don't cry, don't you want your eyes anymore?"

I sniffed, feeling extremely wronged, and said in my heart: You are a fucking rapist who still cares about me.

The man kissed my tears away, and said hoarsely: "Be good, I won't let you hurt."

"Get out..." I bit the root, and said viciously: "You'd better kill me, or I won't let you go."

He smiled lightly, and said four words: "As you wish."

All my cursing sounds turned into intermittent groans: "Ahhh..."

"Hmm..." My heart was throbbing, I was panting quickly, and I frowned in pain. After a while, my heart suddenly twitched. Under his torture, I couldn't hold on and passed out.

When I woke up again, I was lying on a bed.

The eyes were covered with a cloth.

There seemed to be medicinal herbs wrapped in the cloth, and the strong smell of medicinal herbs got into my nose. It was cold and comfortable to apply.

Suddenly, someone's fingertips touched my eyes lightly.

I was startled, opened his hand, and said in a low voice, "Who are you?!"

The man seemed to sit down, sitting on the edge of the bed, jokingly said: "Why are you ruthless with x? We did it a few days ago, and you forgot about me after a few days?"

"It's you!" I was so angry that my body was shaking.

He grabbed my hand and branded a kiss on the back of my hand: "It's me, your man."

"Go away! Don't touch me!" I waved his hand away.

He smiled helplessly: "Baby, you will regret treating me like this."

I sneered: "Yes, I will regret it, I regret not being able to stab you to death."

"It's really violent." After a pause, he said with a smile: "Like a wild cat, it will scratch people when it is in a hurry. How lucky it is to be able to control you."

"none of your business."

"I'm your husband, so naturally I have to take care of it."

"Shut up!" I was so angry that I waved my hands in the air and wanted to hit him, because now I want to remember the time when I was humiliated by him as soon as I heard his voice.

"What are you! I have a lover! I have a lover!"

A pair of gentle hands grabbed my fidgety hand. Before I could say the word get out, Dr. Chen's voice was as thin as running water: "Fan Yuan, don't get too emotional."

"Is it Doctor Chen?"

"it's me."

I was ecstatic and grabbed her hand, and said excitedly: "Quick! Call the police! That man...he..." I was a little bit embarrassed, but I still said it: "He raped/violent in the public toilet I."

Dr. Chen didn't speak. Hearing the sound of her clothes rubbing against each other, she seemed to turn her head to look somewhere.

The man said helplessly, "Don't look at me like that..."

Doctor Chen asked: "Don't you know that Fan Yuan has a heart attack?"

"..." The man didn't speak.

I was confused: "Dr. Chen, why are you still chatting with him? He raped/violated me, he is a pervert, please call the police!"

Dr. Chen looked a little speechless: "Fan Yuan... I think you can wait and consider whether to call the police when your eyes recover."

"What else am I thinking about?" I shook off her hand angrily: "Could it be possible that he can still be Shen Xian?!"

"..." The air was quiet.

I was stunned for a moment, and I realized it with hindsight. When I realized it, my whole body froze.

Doctor Chen coughed twice in embarrassment, walked out on high heels, and said, "You guys talk, I'll go out first."

The door was closed, and Dr. Chen left.

My mood gradually calmed down, and I thought: That's right, when I heard that I was hurt, I didn't call the police immediately, but I was still speaking for the rapist.Why?

Footsteps sounded, and then the bed was pushed down.The man came over and sat next to me.

I said, "Who are you?"

He chuckled, held my hand, and brought my hand to touch his face: "Feel it, who I will be."

I stroked his facial features with trembling hands. His eye sockets are deep, the base of his nose is high, his nose is upturned... his lips...the lower lip has a sunken lip line...and, the beauty groove on his chin.

With a sore nose, I moved my trembling hand up a few inches to touch his right cheek, and after confirming that it was his face, I slapped him hard.

I don't care who it is.

It's delivered to my hand, without a slap, it's hard to understand my hatred of being humiliated by him.

The man was thrown onto the bed by my slap, motionless like a dead body.I kicked him with my legs and said, "Get out of here."

"..." He didn't speak or move.

I leaned out half of my body and leaned towards him in doubt, and listened with my ears, trying to hear if the man was still or passed out.

Just thinking about this, a low laugh came from next to my ear, and I was about to retreat, but he suddenly grabbed my waist, turned over and pressed me under him.

"Asshole! Let me go!"

I struggled under him, but he didn't take it seriously. He kissed me helplessly and comforted me, just like I was a spoiled child.

The ambiguous collision of lips made my heart beat faster.

He pecked my lips again and again, and said in a hoarse voice, "What? Still pretending?"

I didn't say anything, I just felt sad.

He moved his lips down, bit my neck lightly, and whispered: "I have been with my brother for so long, will my brother not recognize me?"

I finally couldn't bear it any longer, raised my head, and bit his shoulder with a bite, which made him grunt and smile softly: "I'm trying harder, it doesn't hurt enough."

I let go of him, turned my face to the side and cried, crying and scolding him: "You bastard..."

"Yeah." Shen Yan echoed me: "I'm a bastard, a bastard who makes my brother sad."

"Where did you go..." I hugged his neck aggrievedly, sobbing softly: "Where did you go? I've been looking for you like crazy..."

"I was sent to Singapore by Shen Fushi, and I slept for a long time." He was also very sad, and I could hear his faint sobs: "In my dream, my brother kept calling me. So I tried very hard to wake up. coming……"

"Shen Xian...is it really you? Didn't you lie to me? Or did you lie to yourself?" In fact, I was still a little unbelievable, even uncertain, and I was afraid that he was just a phantom of nothingness that would disappear when touched.

"It's me, I'm back, I'm here to take you away." He said.

"Okay...anywhere is fine, please don't leave me alone in the future."

He moved his body, picked me up, walked out, and said, "Well, it won't happen. It won't happen in the future, everything is over."

"Shen Xian..." I closed my eyes and leaned into his arms.

"Where are you going?" Doctor Chen stood outside.

The smell of smoke came into my nostrils. I knew she must be smoking, but she had never smoked before. I couldn't see her expression, but I knew she was very happy.

Shen Lian said: "Go to a place where no one bothers us."

Dr. Chen smiled, and asked me with a smile: "My patient is going to elope without my permission?"

I lowered my head and murmured, "My illness..."

She continued: "Okay."

"Really?" I couldn't believe it, even a little excited.

Dr. Chen smiled happily: "Your heart is back, what disease can't be cured?"

"I……"

She seemed to sigh: "Fan Yuan, let's go. You are not sick, you have never been... You are a good person, we are sick."

Shen Xian's tone was a little displeased: "Doctor Chen..."

Dr. Chen didn't say anything, just touched my face and said: "Get married again, this time, no one will laugh at you again."

I laughed, and after laughing, I cried: "Well..."

Shen Xian said to her: "Let's go."

She responded: "Let's go, remember not to play any exciting/interesting games. He has a bad heart, you know."

Shen Xian coughed in embarrassment, hugged me, and left.

Half a year later, my eyes were healed and I could see him, but it was much more terrifying than I imagined.

I kissed the scar left on his neck lightly, it was a burn scar, a large one, spreading to his chest, like a spider web, shocking.

He wrapped his arms around my waist tenderly, and said cautiously: "Are you afraid?"

I shook my head.

He smiled, his eyes were affectionate, and he smiled indulgently: "I think my brother is completely blind, so...you can't see this ghost."

"That's fine." I buried my face in his chest, moaning, "I'll cut your face twice, so that no one else will look at you."

Shen Xian froze: "So ruthless?"

I didn't answer, just squatted down, under his burning eyes, knelt in front of his legs, and possessed him.

Because of that, it's mine alone.