a row of egrets

Xiao Yibai did not contact Lu Zhan. On the one hand, Lu Zhan asked Li Jing to tell him not to wait for him, and on the other hand, Lu Yancheng had looked for him.

He knew what Lu Zhan was feeling that night, he understood, he understood, but he was still regretful and sad.He called Lu Zhan, desperately delaying time, not for Lu Zhan to hit someone.He just wants Lu Zhan to pick him up and go home, so that he can see him at first sight when he wakes up, and no matter what happens next, they can face it together.

He has long been prepared to separate, and he has also been prepared to wait for Lu Zhan in the country.He thought that if they wanted to separate, it was because Lu Zhan had to take over the American business, but he didn't expect that Lu Zhan left in an impulsive and evasive way.

The matter about Wu Chengze was completely suppressed, and no one around him knew about it except Li Jing and He Yun.Xiao Yibai didn't want to recall the details of that night when he was in a coma. What kept churning in his mind was always the phrase "Let's go home" that Lu Zhan cried and said, and the tears he fell on his face.

The person who said he would take him home is now thousands of miles away, and he hasn't even been able to say goodbye.

When Lu Yancheng came to find Xiao Yibai, Xiao Yibai had just finished an operation.

He took off his mask and nodded to Lu Yancheng: "Please wait for me to change my clothes first."

They stood by the window at the end of the corridor, looking down at the traffic on the street at night, and everything was as usual.

"I know everything about you and Lu Zhan."

Xiao Yibai turned his gaze from downstairs to Lu Yancheng: "Yes."

"You are still young, and you are bound to act impulsively. Lu Zhan has been away for a few years, I hope you can think about it too." Lu Yancheng looked at Xiao Yibai. He actually didn't want to criticize this young and outstanding child. After all, Xiao Yibai is He also felt sorry for the victim, but he really couldn't accept what happened between him and Lu Zhan.

"Don't be impulsive, uncle." Xiao Yibai said flatly, "It's been many years, I've thought clearly enough."

Lu Yancheng suppressed the surprise in his heart, and his voice became a little harsh: "That's not okay, what are you talking about? Do things so recklessly, don't you even think about the future!"

"What are you thinking about, Uncle?" Xiao Yibai looked at him wearily, "It's just work and life, Lu Zhan and I don't think there is any problem."

"But look at what's going on now?!" Lu Yancheng's eyes were full of anger, "If this matter is not suppressed, Lu Zhan will be guilty of intentionally hurting people!"

"Uncle, if the person lying in the hotel that night was Lu Zhan, I would kill him directly." Xiao Yibai raised his eyes, the eyes were indescribably firm and cold, just like Lu Yancheng on Lu Zhan As seen from his face before the plane.

"It's not me and Lu Zhan, it's Wu Chengze." Xiao Yibai exhaled, "Don't worry, I won't contact him or affect him when Lu Zhan is abroad. Everything will wait for him to come back. Besides, if Lu Zhan doesn't come to me, I will never bother him again."

Xiao Yibai turned his head and looked at the distant night sky outside the window, the stars and the moon were gone, and it was pitch black.

Spring has passed and midsummer has passed. Although Lu Zhan is abroad, his graduation certificate was still successfully sent to the military compound. What happened that night didn't seem to have any impact.

Except that Lu Zhan and Xiao Yibai separated because of this.

Lu Zhan would often recall that at that time he thought he was going to be sent abroad, Xiao Yibai told him many times to let him take care of himself, but he always cried and said that he couldn't take care of himself, and that he couldn't live without Xiao Yibai.But as the days passed, Lu Zhan found that there was nothing difficult to live alone. He ate, worked and slept as usual, and his heart was still beating.

But living well does not mean living well, or to put it more cruelly, it does not mean living like a person.

On the surface, he looked normal, but when he got home alone, he couldn't help feeling panicked.Lying in bed countless times, I suddenly woke up in the middle of the night, and then kept my eyes open until dawn.After getting up and washing up, I drove to work. I had no time to think about other things. I went home as late as I could at night. I didn’t want to face an empty room alone.

This is the almost identical life state of Lu Zhan and Xiao Yibai.

The difference is that Lu Zhan seems to be more difficult than Xiao Yibai, so he learned to smoke and often drink.

Every time he got drunk, Lu Zhan would lie down on the balcony and look at the stars in the sky with his eyes open, twinkling and twinkling, much like the beautiful eyes of that person in his memory.

Lu Zhan's face was full of drunkenness, his complexion was bright red, and he was indescribably unconscious.He just looked at the sky like this, tears fell drop by drop from his eyes, across the side of his face, and fell into his hair.There was a misty and painful smile on his mouth, and he muttered to himself in a low voice.

"I miss you so much……"

His eyes were full of tears, extremely clear, but looking carefully, there was actually a dead silence in the depths of his eyes.

He remembered what Xiao Yibai had said to himself: "You cry so much, what if you are outside alone and no one can wipe your tears?"

What can be done?What else can I do besides boil it.

Winter also seems to come very suddenly, as if one morning when I woke up, I saw water droplets on the windows, and my breath was full of white air.

On the day of his grandfather's death, Li Jing happened to be on holiday, so he went to the cemetery in the morning.

He didn't take two steps before he saw the tall and thin figure in front of the tombstone, but his heart didn't fluctuate much anymore.

Since Lu Zhan went abroad, he and Lu Yu have basically never met or contacted each other.

"Are there a lot of tasks recently?" Lu Yu asked lightly.

"That's it. I'm busy when I'm busy, and I don't have much free time."

"Ah."

"Have you contacted Dr. Xiao?" Lu Yu asked him.

"We had dinner together and talked about some innocuous things, but I dare not mention Lu Zhan in front of him."

"People always have to grow up, they are just walking the road we have walked."

Li Jing took a long breath: "Then they won't end well."

"Not necessarily." Lu Yu turned to look at him, "At least they are more honest than us."

Li Jing frowned: "You go, I want to have a few words with Grandpa."

Lu Yu nodded slightly and left the cemetery.

Li Jing looked at the tombstone and smiled: "Grandpa, I'm very tired, I can't like others anymore, there's nothing I can do."

"Lu Zhan beat someone and was sent abroad, and he didn't contact us very much. I guess he was really unhappy. I don't know if Lu Yu thought the same way back then."

"Life is getting more and more boring. I seem to feel like a human being only when I am on a mission. At other times, I feel like I am dreaming. I am confused and can't arouse interest at all."

"Grandpa, tell me, how did it become like this? Why did the people around me suddenly fall into the situation that everyone didn't want to see?"

"It's so tiring, it seems like it's never going to get better."

……

It was New Year's Eve again, Xiao Yibai had dinner at his grandfather's house, and sat in the living room with his grandfather watching TV.

He remembered that at this time last year, he and Lu Zhan were sleeping under the quilt together. Lu Zhan said that he hoped that Xiao Yibai could grow up well and be with him forever.

It turned out that a year had passed.

Whether it is numb or sad, happy or painful, time will not stop or speed up because of this, and life will still go on at a normal pace.In this process, one's mind will be worn away little by little, and the pain will be turned into a scar, waiting for complete healing, or being set off bloody again.

Xiao Yibai looked down at Lu Zhan's chat box on the top of WeChat. Their chat history stopped on a morning more than half a year ago. After Lu Zhan arrived at the company, he sent him a message: Remember to send the hotel name to Me, I will pick you up when the time comes.

Xiao Yibai: Okay, I'll call you when dinner is over.

Lu Zhan: OK, OK, I'll pick you up as soon as you call!

pick you up home.

It has been a long time since Xiao Yibai heard such words that moved his heart.

Just after the Lantern Festival, Li Jing had another urgent mission. As a result, the prisoner convulsed and had difficulty breathing as soon as he was detained in the car. Team Lin took a look: "Fuck, it couldn't be a heart attack, right? Hurry up!" Go to the hospital first!"

The car drove all the way to the People's Hospital. After the prisoner was sent to the emergency room, Team Lin took the other prisoners back to the team first, leaving Li Jing to stay in the hospital to wait for the rescue results.

After the operation, the doctor briefly described the prisoner's condition to Li Jing, saying that his condition is not very good now, and he needs to be observed in the special care unit first, and then he can be sent to the general ward for simple interrogation when he is stable.

Li Jing rubbed the back of his neck wearily: "Okay, thank you doctor, I'm sorry to trouble you."

He leaned against the wall outside the ward, raised his head and closed his eyes to rest until someone called him, "Li Jing?"

Hearing that strange voice, Li Jing turned his head and saw a male doctor in a white coat. He looked very young and had a very gentle temperament.

"You are?" Li Jing didn't remember any interaction between himself and this doctor, he had no memory at all.

"Hi, my name is Huang Jia, and I'm Mr. Lu's personal doctor."