a row of egrets

It's been five years, Lu Yu went abroad for medical treatment without telling him in order to let Li Jing pass the college entrance examination smoothly, he knew that Li Jing must hate him, but compared to Li Jing's dream, Lu Yu would rather that he hated himself.

At that time, Lu Yu was already taking a risk when he returned to China, and he had to beg his mother many times before he got permission to come back.His health deteriorated day by day, and he couldn't even go to school. He stayed in a private ward every day and begged his mother to take graduation photos.On the day Lijing finished the college entrance examination, Lu Yu ran out secretly. He stood at the school gate and waited for a long time, and he went to the security room to rest until he couldn't take it anymore.

He saw Li Jing after the exam, so full of vigor and vigor, facing the sun, and seemed to be growing hotly every second, but he himself saw death in the dark corner.

You are getting better, I am withering.

After returning to the ward, he was grounded by his mother and never went out again.

The day Li Jing received the admission notice was the day when Lu Yu's condition could not be delayed any longer.

Lying on the hospital bed in the cabin, Lu Yu suddenly realized that if he could not become healthy and strong, he would never be able to protect Li Jing well, and he would not be able to accompany him all the time, but at this moment, he did not know what he was about to face Live or die.

And that text message was the only way for Lu Yu to verify Li Jing's attitude.

Li Jing's words "don't even think about it" completely reassured Lu Yu.

He felt that Li Jing hated him anyway, Lu Yu would rather Li Jing hated him than let Li Jing wait for him, and start another life again.

After the successful operation, Lu Yu stayed abroad to take over his family's business in the United States, because he had to face an illegitimate son of the Lu family who was one year older than himself. What has been taken is held in one's own hands.

But after he had everything, when he looked back, he found that he had lost the only thing he wanted at the beginning.

And has been lost for many years.

From the moment he was pushed onto the plane, the boy was lost to him.

He avoided hearing any news about Li Jing, but he still learned a lot about Li Jing from the words that Lu Zhan and the others chatted.

Li Jing went to the police academy and always called them to complain.

Li Jing went to practice, and every day he dealt with some messy chores from his parents.

Li Jing was about to graduate, and he finally became a policeman.

……

Lu Yu outlined Li Jing's life on the far side of the ocean, until Li Jing graduated from senior year, Lu Yu returned to China and took over the domestic business.

During the years abroad, Lu Yu dreamed of Li Jing countless times.He dreamed that Li Jing was standing on the wall of the school stretching out his hand towards him; Rubbing his hair and talking to him in the room, he always looked heartless.At that time Lu Yu realized that he would never forget Li Jing in his life.

He had actually seen Li Jing many times, besides that time in the cemetery, there were actually many other scenes.

For example, on the way home, I saw Li Jing wearing a police uniform standing on the side of the street with his colleagues, taking notes in a notebook while persuading the couple in front of them to talk and not to do anything.

For example, when I went to the Public Security Bureau to discuss things with the chief, I saw Li Jing standing in the opposite corridor smoking a cigarette through the window.

For example, when I went to the military compound, I saw Li Jing coming out of Lu Zhan's house in the car.

Sometimes Lu Yu felt lucky, he thought that if he could never be with Li Jing again, at least he could learn about Li Jing's life from these encounters.

But when he thought that he could only understand Li Jing in this way, Lu Yu felt that life was meaningless.

Not a year later, Lu Yu went to the United States for a review. At the same time, it took a few months to formally hand over the affairs of the United States. He could finally stay in China for a long time.

And he never wanted to lose Li Jing again.

But the hurdle in Li Jing's heart was too high, and Lu Yu gradually understood that the two of them would never be able to cross it.

He originally wanted to throw away the past and start over, but he didn't expect the past to hold too much weight in Li Jing's heart.Lu Yu thought about telling him everything, but later he found that he and Li Jing could really start over, but he didn't expect that those were all illusions, as long as he didn't talk about it, Li Jing couldn't forgive himself.Until that night because of Li Jing being with other girls, they said goodbye completely, and Lu Yu couldn't find a suitable time to say it again.Today, by coincidence, Huang Jia met Li Jing, and he happened to tell Li Jing everything from his mouth, which is also a chance given by God.

Lu Yu couldn't help feeling relieved in his heart, he even regretted his obsession with 'restarting', if he had told Li Jing earlier, perhaps the two of them would not have had to work so hard.

As soon as Li Jing returned to the team, he was busy with interrogating and sorting out the records. He tried his best to suppress his inner emotions, forcing himself to focus on his work and not think about Lu Yu's affairs.

It wasn't until after ten o'clock in the evening that Li Jing was free to take a breath and smoke a cigarette in the empty corridor.

He thought a lot, he hated Lu Yu, hated Lu Yu's forbearance, hated Lu Yu's refusal to speak, after hating, Li Jing also began to understand.At the beginning, Lu Yu didn't say anything because he was afraid that he would go abroad with him and give up his dream of going to the police academy.Later, Lu Yu stayed abroad for four years and never came to contact Li Jing, probably because he felt guilty after missing it by a mistake, and he didn't want to remind Li Jing of his thoughts, and he was afraid that the relationship between the two would be far away in a foreign country. It was slowly consumed, so it was cut off directly, and it hurt for five years.And their attitude towards this relationship is just as Lu Yu imagined, because the end is too deep, so no one will forget it.

He hated Lu Yu, and he also hated himself at the same time. Back then, his youthful nature seemed to only know love and hate, but he couldn't understand why.As long as he thinks about it more and calmly, he will know that with Lu Yu's character, he will never do such a thing without saying goodbye and disappearing suddenly.When they were together, they could truly feel each other's sincerity, but it was because of this that Li Jing was blinded by resentment for five years.In fact, he was also at fault. He didn't confirm Lu Yu's character, and he didn't even learn more about his later life. He just blocked all contact information impulsively, and stubbornly insisted on himself, which caused both of them to suffer.

After returning to China, Lu Yu came to him again and again, and said again and again that he wanted to start again. Li Jing didn't understand it before, and he thought it was ridiculous, but now he understands that sometimes he really has to let himself go, and he has missed it for many years. If you continue to make mistakes, it may be a lifetime.

If it wasn't because Li Jing still liked Lu Yu, even if he knew the truth, he would definitely not have any reaction, at most he would scold Lu Yu for being fake and affectionate.But he is too aware of his feelings for Lu Yu, he has never let go, otherwise he would not lose control as soon as he faced Lu Yu, and he would not let him attack the city in his heart again and again.

What's more, Li Jing saw that Lu Zhan and Xiao Yibai's life is so bad now, when the two separated, they still knew the reason in each other's hearts, but under such circumstances, neither Lu Zhan nor Xiao Yibai had the courage to leave. Contact, not to mention that Lu Yu went abroad without telling himself.

He didn't dare to think that when Lu Yu was at his most dangerous and vulnerable, he couldn't be by his side, and he didn't even ask if you were okay, but directly cut off contact without mercy.If it were him, he would definitely be in great pain, but instead of blaming him, Lu Yu survived by himself. After returning to China, he showed his kindness to him again and again, but was blamed by him again and again.

The more Li Jing thought about it, the more he couldn't bear it. He thought of the sarcasm and scolding he had made to Lu Yu again and again in the past. He couldn't see it, and Lu Yu might not feel better.

Yes, Lu Yu was wrong, but Li Jing couldn't blame him anymore.

Li Jing frowned and smoked one cigarette after another until a person came across the corridor.

The lights in the corridor in the middle of the night were not bright, but Li Jing knew who the man was at the first sight.

Lu Yu was wearing a black padded jacket with a neat suit inside, his eyes fell straight through the darkness on the face of Li Jing who was leaning against the wall at the end.He didn't walk fast, every step was steady and sure, and more importantly, every step was slowly approaching Li Jing.It seems that after walking this long corridor, you can walk through the nearly six years, and then reach out and grab the person you want, and hug them hard like you did in KTV on Li Jing's birthday many years ago.

In the past, Lu Yu always wore simple T-shirts and jackets, which clearly outlined the posture of a young man. Now he mostly wears exquisite shirts and elegant suits, and his every move has a calm temperament.Li Jing also suddenly realized that they were very far away from them when they were seventeen or eighteen years old, so far away that they could start a new life again.

Li Jing looked at Lu Yu's eyes that were gradually becoming clear in his sight, and suddenly felt relieved. After fighting for so long, he could finally land safely. He finally had a reason to let each other go. He was unwilling to resist any more.

Li Jing is not a entangled person, he has always been transparent and free and easy, Lu Yu is the only knot in his life, now that this knot is finally untied, Li Jing doesn't want to think about it anymore, there is nothing to think about.

He leaned against the wall and smoked, squinting to see Lu Yu walking towards him step by step.

Lu Yu stood in front of him, staring fixedly at him.

The smoke filled between the two, Li Jing couldn't see Lu Yu's eyes clearly, and Lu Yu couldn't see his.

He took the cigarette out of his mouth, held it between his fingers, put his whole hand on Lu Yu's shoulder, and dusted the cigarette ash on the ground behind Lu Yu.

Li Jing still squinted his eyes, looking at Lu Yu lazily.

"Is something wrong?"

"Puff out the cigarette before talking."

"Immortal, what can you do to me?"

Lu Yu looked up at him for three seconds, put one hand on the wall, bowed his head and kissed him.

There was still the smell of tobacco in Li Jing's mouth, and Lu Yu ruthlessly wreaked havoc in his mouth, from the tip of his tongue to the palate, as if he wanted to take all the smell of tobacco away from Li Jing's body.Li Jing closed his eyes and let Lu Yu snatch his own smell. He even hoped that Lu Yu could replace all his own smell with his, so that Li Jing wouldn't have to rely on smoke to calm down when he thought of him.

Li Jing's hand holding the cigarette was still on Lu Yu's shoulder, the cigarette butt was extinguished, but it was still burning.

It is very similar to the relationship between the two over the years.

Lu Yu raised his head slightly, and whispered to Li Jing almost mouth-to-mouth: "Can you quit?"

Li Jing's eyelashes moved, and he smiled lowly: "Okay."

Then he lowered his hand from Lu Yu's shoulder, and extinguished the cigarette butt on the wall behind him with his backhand.