a row of egrets

1.

My mother and I have the last name. My parents divorced when I was three years old. My mother went abroad. My father has been busy with work and rarely comes home.

I was sent to my grandfather's house and lived with him in the military compound.

I have known him since I was very young.

You ask me who is he?Who else could it be, Lu Zhan.

2.

When I was young, my health was not good, and I stayed at home every day. My personality was not lively, and I rarely went out to meet people. Many people in the compound were not familiar with me.

When I was at home, I could often hear the laughter of a group of children outside.I'm not tall enough, so I can only move a chair under my feet and lie on the window to watch.

Among the group of children, I know that the older one is the general's grandson named Li Jing.There is also a white-skinned son named Lu Zhan, the colonel.

3.

In fact, many times when I lay on the window sill, Lu Zhan would raise his head and smile at me when they ran past.

In fact, I have been to Lu Zhan's house. When I was very young, I went with my grandfather, but at that time Lu Zhan ran out to play, so I didn't meet him.

In fact, Lu Zhan's fall was because of me. I sneaked out to play that day, and my balloon was hung on the branch.

When Lu Zhan passed by alone, he said, "Wait, I'll get it for you."

He also told me not to cry, but I didn't intend to cry.

4.

He climbed up to the fence, trying to reach for the rope of the balloon, but he reached the rope, and he fell down too. There was a sharp stone in the grass, and his waist was hit.

Lu Zhan's face turned pale at the time, and it took him a long time to cry out. Li Jing and the others heard it nearby and ran over immediately.They helped Lu Zhan up, his back was covered in blood.

I hid behind a tree and cried in fright.

They called the adults and sent Lu Zhan to the military hospital. After that, I didn't see Lu Zhan playing outside for a long time.

He was injured because of me, but I dare not tell grandpa.

Then I moved away, and I didn't have a chance to say thank you or sorry to him.

I'm sorry Lu Zhan.

That balloon is still in my drawer, I folded it.

5.

Later I went to junior high school, and Lu Zhan was in the senior high school of the same school.

He and I are separated by a building, and I can often see him chatting with his friends leaning on the railing of the flyover between the two buildings.The wind on the flyover was so strong that it made his hair flutter.

6.

He looks good when he smiles, and he loves to laugh too.

His voice is nice, clear and bright.

His eyes are beautiful, blinking.

His fingers are slender, thin and fair.

7.

I have never been close to him, but I know all this.

I don't even know how I put this together.

He is still the man in my memory, the man who broke his waist because of my balloon.

8.

I always thought that Lu Zhan was such a memorable and special existence in my heart, until I saw him with other girls.

At that time, he was in the second year of high school and I was in the third year of junior high school. I saw him hugging a girl at the school gate.

9.

The feeling that came to my heart at that moment was real and terrifying.

It's jealousy.

10.

I'm not an ignorant child, I know my thoughts very well, and I also recognize my feelings for him.

I like it.

11.

From the vivid memory of my childhood to the observation of nearly three years as a teenager, it is enough for me to understand everything, and it is enough to overturn everything in me.

12.

When I first fell in love, I saw him all in my eyes, and it was not surprising that I fell in love with him.

13.

When Lu Zhan was in college, I skipped a grade again.

Grandpa wanted me to be admitted to the University of Medicine, which is just across from Lu Zhan's university.

14.

Then go to medical university.

15.

I moved out in the third year of high school. In fact, apart from having no playmates in my childhood, everything else was fine. Although my grandfather was busy, he always loved me. Living alone is actually very easy, and I have the ability to take care of myself.

16.

I occasionally see Lu Zhan at the gate of the opposite university, most of the time he is playing with his friends, sometimes driving a military jeep, sometimes driving a tattered Xiali.

He doesn't seem to care much about what others think, whether he is the second generation official or he likes to play, he is always smiling.

Lu Zhan also has many girlfriends, one after another.

17.

I didn't expect him to come up to me at the bar.

I just went to a friend's birthday party that day, and the box was too chaotic, so I went downstairs and asked for a drink myself.

18.

When Lu Zhan put the wine in front of me, I thought it was a hallucination.

I have known him for over ten years and this is the second time he has spoken to me.

And he doesn't remember me at all.

19.

He was a little drunk, and I said to take him home. At first I deliberately didn't call a taxi, and wanted to walk with him for a while, but Lu Zhan refused to go home, and dragged me into the hotel.

He was really drunk. When he opened the room, he asked me if I had my student ID. When I paid, he opened the weather forecast.

20.

When I got him water, he finished taking off his shirt. I was actually a little confused because he went to the shower in his pants.Fearing that he would be cold, I turned on the light to warm him up, and adjusted the water temperature again.

The light was very bright, and his body could be seen clearly.

Lu Zhan's figure is actually very good, white and firm, with beautiful muscle lines, although he is very thin.

21.

I admit I'm a little goofy.

I think I could have controlled myself if he hadn't turned off the shower and asked me what we were doing here.

22.

His last two words completely aroused my desire, but before I took the initiative, he pulled me over and kissed me.

23.

What's it like to kiss someone you've loved for a long time?

24.

In fact, it doesn't feel good, because he is drunk at the moment, and I don't know who he is in his heart, or who he thinks I am.

But I can't help it, some things have been backlogged for too long, and when it broke out, I didn't have the slightest idea to suppress it.

25.

So be it, I just know that I like you, and that's enough.

26.

When I left, Lu Zhan was still sleeping, his eyes closed, and he looked very good. I kissed him on the face, pressed the phone number under the cup, and took out his mobile phone to take a picture.

He didn't contact me later, and I guessed the result. Not everyone can calmly face the fact of having a one-night stand with a stranger of the same sex.

Although Lu Zhan is no stranger to me.

Every late night after that, I would think of Lu Zhan's eyes and expression that night. When I thought of not being able to have someone I like so much, I felt that life was boring and the world was full of passers-by.

27.

One day the nurse brought me a film and said it was the colonel's son who had been hit by a car. At that moment, my heart beat fast. I glanced at the name and it was really him.

28.

When Lu Zhan came in with his wheelchair, I had already put on a mask and pretended to be calm.

His voice was soft, and he asked me to look at his legs. After I said a word, I felt his whole body trembling.

30.

I looked into his eyes, it was a kind of happiness expressed from the bottom of my heart.

It turned out that he still remembered me and didn't seem to hate me.

31.

I was very busy that day, and I went to see him after the operation at night. He asked me why I didn't pass his friend application, and said that he found me with his phone number.

In fact, it is a WeChat account. He must have asked which nurse took it. I want to praise that nurse sister.

32.

Lu Zhan is a bit stupid than I imagined, sometimes he is in a daze, but he has a thick skin.

33.

He called me "Doctor Xiao", which gave me a headache.

34.

He confessed to me that he didn't see the phone number I left at all, and I don't know whether it was helplessness or happiness. If he didn't get into a car accident, maybe we would never have an intersection in this life.

So I shouldn't have driven the driver away with a cold face. Instead, I should have thanked him, but he was so noisy that I think Lu Zhan was going to cry.

35.

Lu Zhan asked me if I was gay.

36.

Of course I'm not gay, and I don't like other boys. Before I realized that I liked him, I occasionally had one or two girls who were attracted to him.

37.

I hang out in front of him every day, but he doesn't seem to realize anything, he only cares about himself and keeps showing his favor.He doesn't seem to be such a stupid person, he has such good academic performance, and he is also very clever when he is with his friends.

38.

When Lu Zhan kissed my eyebrows, I really almost forgot to pull out the needle.

I pulled off the mask because I was almost out of breath.

39.

When the girl in the red dress went to Lu Zhan's ward, I was quite nervous. No one could tell that they knew each other. They could quarrel in the office, and the relationship was very suspicious.

40.

When I walked outside the ward, I just heard that girl call him "die gay".

……

41.

What's even more unbelievable is that Lu Zhan actually admitted it?

42.

It was only later that I remembered that I had seen that girl once. One evening at the gate of the university, some of Lu Zhan's friends stood behind him, and this girl stood in front of him. They were scolding each other.At that time, I was only watching Lu Zhan jumping, and didn't pay attention to that girl at all. I didn't remember it until I heard them arguing again outside the ward. It seemed to be her.

43.

When Lu Zhan fell in the bathroom, I was really worried, afraid that he would hit me, but he kept pulling me to apologize, as if his fall would seriously delay my career.

I really want to scold him, does he know how to care about his injuries first?

When I cut his pants, I actually didn't think about anything, but he was too shy, so I couldn't help teasing him.

44.

I want to do everything about Lu Zhan myself.

But he didn't seem to understand, and kept asking me if his father gave me money.

45.

It's okay if you don't understand, you will understand sooner or later.