Yesterday was like Death

Xi Zonghe really kept his word, and within a few days Wang Chen called and said that Rong Shen had let go and let me join the group as scheduled.

I don't know what kind of agreement he reached with Rong Shen, but I'm relieved that the matter can be resolved smoothly, and it's worthy of my butt that has been hurting for two days.

Before joining the group, I went to Bailang Village for the third time to shoot an episode of "Big Brand Farmhouse".This variety show has entered the promotion period. Sang Qing told me that the online expectations are quite high, and the discussion is also rising, which is a good momentum.

Okay, we'll have to wait until it's broadcast.I am not as optimistic as him. Looking back on the first two episodes, I always feel that my performance is very boring. Apart from getting along with Uncle Cai, I am more natural. I have nothing to talk to with the other three, especially Xi Zonghe. How embarrassing it is. , It seems that I really just want to be a cook.

The night before the shooting, after arriving at the hotel, Jiang Yan and Cao Xi went to the cue process as usual.Jiang Yan told me that the first episode of the program has already been edited. They repeatedly confirmed and revised with the leaders of the station, and kept the most exciting content. They also organized a preview meeting for 20 people. The effect was good. Audiences will love it too.

Jiang Yan said that the theme of this issue is to return to the real rural life. There will be a rice planting activity tomorrow, and then the children in the village will be entertained for dinner.

"Transplanting rice seedlings?" This word is very unfamiliar to me who lived in the city since I was a child. Among us, probably only Uncle Cai knows it better.

Jiang Yan smiled and said playfully, "It's spring, and it's time to plant seeds again."

Cao Xi said: "Bailang Village has not been very rich. Most of the young people go out to work. There are only old and weak in the village. The problem of left-behind children is very serious. We also want to promote the local tourism industry through this program and let more people I know there are such beautiful and simple places in China.”

I nodded and said solemnly: "I will definitely try my best to convey the gist of the program to the audience."

The two sat for half an hour, and when Cao Xi saw that it was almost time, he wanted to get up and leave.Jiang Yan glanced at me, turned around and said to him: "Old Cao, you go first, I still have something to say to Teacher Gu."

Cao Xi has always been relatively silent, and he left quickly without asking any further questions.

I probably knew what she was going to tell me. "Single Family Hundred Years" was her middleman. If something happened to me, Wang Chen should have informed her early in the morning.

Sure enough, Jiang Yan thought for a moment and said, "Wang Chen told me about you, do you need me to say hello for you?"

I appreciate her kindness.She has helped me enough, even if I have saved her life, she doesn't need to worry about everything and wipe my ass.Besides, her face is not as big as Rong Shen's, and it is estimated that she will have to rely on a lot of connections. Such a big circle will cost people and money, and I might as well play billiards by myself.

Of course, the most important thing is that Xi Zonghe has settled for me.

"No, it's fixed." I said.

Her expression relaxed instantly: "That's really great."

There are many icing on the cake, but few charcoal in the snow, and there are very few people who provide charcoal uninterruptedly like her.She is very similar to Sister Meifang, she treats people sincerely, repays every kindness, and is a good woman.

"Don't worry about it."

Jiang Yan pursed her lips and said with a smile: "What are you doing with these kind words. I know you are a good actor worthy of my trust, but you lack some opportunities. One day, you will shine."

I was a little embarrassed by what she said, this fan filter is too thick.

Maybe the expression was too straightforward, she saw the slander in my heart, she raised her eyebrows and said, "Do you think I'm bluffing you?"

I scratched my face in embarrassment: "Uh..."

"Actually, I saw you before you saved me."

I froze and put my hands on my face.How old is this "before"?Could it be that I met me in the years when I worked in nightclubs?

However, this possibility was quickly rejected by myself. I was only in my early twenties at the time, and she would only be younger, so she probably wouldn't go to that kind of place.

Jiang Yan continued: "You may not remember it for a long time. At that time, you were just a newcomer, and I was just an assistant to the director. The director of that film was an old fritter. He was very annoying. He always teased us girls on the set, full of mouth Dirty talk, you have to drink for us when we eat. Everyone is afraid of him, but you always protect us intentionally or unintentionally, and block the drink for us. Once you blocked the drink for a girl in the group, which angered us Director, I knelt for an hour during the filming of a snow scene the next day, and my knees turned purple. We all know what's going on, but we dare not speak for you." She said with a look in her eyes. With tears in his eyes and guilt all over his face, "I thought that my own people were soft-spoken, and even if I stood up, I was afraid that I would not be able to help you, but in fact, I was just timid and afraid. I am very happy to meet you again. To be precise, it's not that I want to repay you, but I want to make up for the regrets in my heart."

Even I almost forgot what she said about the past, as if there was such a thing.Gu Ni and I grew up dependent on each other, and I have long been used to standing in front of her in everything. What I hate the most in my life is that old men bully little girls.That director looks like a pig's head, and he always wants to take advantage of girls.I can drink, so I drink with him.In the end, he couldn't drink me, so he teased me sincerely and let me shoot a simple kneeling scene for an hour.

"I just did what a man should do," I said, "You've helped me enough, and I appreciate it."

In the end, I sent her to the door. She said goodbye to me with red eyes, and held my hand to tell me not to give up.I couldn't stop nodding funny, when she walked away, just as she was about to close the door, I inadvertently caught a glimpse of a standing figure at the other end of the corridor, looking this way.

I took a closer look and it turned out to be Xi Zonghe.He was holding the doorknob, and seemed to be halfway through the door, attracted by the movement of Jiang Yan and me, and stopped there.

His gaze had followed Jiang Yan away, but at this moment he might feel that I was looking at him, and then turned back and moved to me.

I shivered, and I had the illusion of plunging into a cold pool, and I felt goosebumps all over my body.

Rongshen's matter was all up to him. I was not sure whether to thank him in person. After hesitating, the other party pushed the door into the room and closed the door heavily. The reverberation reverberated throughout the corridor.

It was he who raped me, and it wasn't me who raped him, who would you show me?

Looking at the empty corridor, I frowned, followed his example, and turned around and slapped the door hard.

After noon the next day, the four of us, Xi Zonghe, Du Yu, and An Xinlan, teamed up to transplant rice seedlings in the village’s rice fields.The field was filled with muddy water, and it was cooler than I imagined, only about ten degrees Celsius.

Normal people feel cold, but I don't know if Xi Zonghe can bear it.

Thinking of him, I looked up and looked around for his figure, and suddenly felt something strange on my legs. I looked down and found a dark brown leech biting there, desperately sucking blood.

My scalp felt numb for an instant, and I froze in place, not knowing what to do.

Still, the accompanying photographer saw something was wrong, glanced at my leg, and immediately sweared.But he is also a layman who survives in the wild. Apart from exclaiming for me to attract more people to watch, he has no definite way to deal with leeches.

I don't even want to look at my legs, it makes me sick to look at them.This thing is too far away from my life, and it suddenly appeared on me. I really can't express other emotions except panic.

Du Yu and An Xinlan, who were some distance away from me, jumped into the air as soon as they heard the leeches in the water, eager to put on their wings and rush to the shore.Only Xi Zonghe went against the flow of people and came towards me.

He waded in front of me, looked at me silently, and then squatted down to check my calf.

"Is this thing poisonous?" Seeing that he was reliable, I asked nervously.

He held my calf with one hand, and patted the muscles near the leech with the other: "No, you should relax."

Soon, with his slapping, the leech let go of its suction cup and fell into the water. There was a small hole in my skin, and bright red blood flowed slowly from it.

The alarm was lifted, and the carrying breath dissipated, and my whole body softened. Xi Zonghe grabbed me and carried me to the shore to treat the wound.

After this incident, Cao Xi didn't dare to let the artist go into the water anymore, so he had to end this session ahead of schedule.

After a simple antiseptic bandage, my leg stopped bleeding after a while.On the way back, relying on Xi Zonghe’s performance in front of the camera, I had a good relationship with me, so I deliberately approached him and asked him how he knew how to remove leeches.

"I have participated in some Boy Scout training camps before, and the instructors taught survival in the wild."

I made a surprised expression: "So even if you are thrown into the jungle by yourself, you can still live, right?"

He stopped, looked at me blankly for a few seconds, and uttered two words like a barb: "No."

Before I could react, he left by himself.I fell behind and didn't want to chase him, so I had to walk with Du Yu and the others.

"I was really scared to death just now. I'm going to have a catwalk in a few days. If I get bitten by a leech, if the wound gets infected or something, I won't have a place to cry then." An Xinlan said.

Du Yu rubbed his arms: "Thinking about it makes me shudder, Brother Gu, were you scared just now?"

I walked side by side with them, opened my eyes and said nonsense: "Don't be afraid, there is nothing to be afraid of. You can learn from your brother Xi and see how calm he is."

He looked up at the back of Xi Zonghe in front of him, and nodded vigorously: "Yes, I want to learn from Brother Xi and become a real man!" He also made a "come on" gesture and ran towards Xi Zonghe . "Brother Xi, I'm here to learn from you!"

After the leeches, Du Yu let me experience the chill again.

Did he know he was pushing a little too hard?

Back at the farmhouse, Uncle Cai was physically and mentally exhausted from being tossed by a group of children. Seeing us back, it was like the moment Columbus discovered the New World, excited and surprised.

I'm not very good at getting along with children, so I had to take Uncle Cai and both of them into the back kitchen. I would rather face daily necessities than play with children.

Uncle Cai may have been eager for his skills for a long time, and he said that he would show us his cooking skills and let us see his cooking skills.

I was happy and relaxed, and I helped him by the side.I was washing a pot of vegetables when a little boy came in cautiously from outside. He moved up to me shyly and asked me in a mosquito-like voice: "Brother, do you want me to help?"

There were seven or eight children outside, and he was the only one who thought of coming in to help.

I pointed to the small bench beside me: "Sit here and help me peel edamame."

"Okay." He sat down on the stool obediently, and really started to peel the edamame quietly.

He is not very tall for a boy, but his eyes are still big, and his skin is dark like that of the locals.

I asked what his name was. He shook, and a bean rolled to the ground. He looked at me in panic, as if he was afraid that I would blame him.

I pretended not to notice his uneasiness, and tried my best to be kind and said: "It's my fault, I should introduce myself first. My name is Gu Tang, can you tell me your name?"

He pinched the edamame shell in his hand, and replied to me in a low voice: "Yang Shaojie."

"Xiaojie, where are your parents?"

He stopped the movement of his hands, lowered his head, and said after a long time: "Dead. He was hit by a big truck and died when he was working outside."

I guessed the front, but not the back.

"I'm sorry, brother shouldn't bring up your sadness." I apologized, and quickly changed the topic, "Xiaojie, did you think about what kind of person you want to be when you grow up?"

Xiaojie raised his head and looked at me in confusion. Apart from the innocence of a child, there was also timidity and gloom on his immature face.

He hesitated: "I want...to be rich."

This is a non-mainstream answer, but it is true.I saw his uneasiness, and comforted me: "That's very good. If everyone wants to be a scientist, a pilot, and a barrister, who will make money? There is nothing shameful in wanting to be rich. I want to be rich."

With money, my mother’s illness can be cured; with money, those gangsters will not guard the door all day and splash red paint; with money, I can support my sister to study and let her dress up like other girls floral dress.

I never think that liking money is a vulgar thing. People who think this way may not have tasted the extreme taste of being poor.I am obsessed with it, I am fascinated by it, and I am willing to be its slave for it to drive.As long as I can't go back to the old days, I can do anything.

"Then... can I become a star like you, brother?" Xiaojie asked very anxiously.

"Yes." I pressed my palm on the top of his head and rubbed it twice desperately, "My brother is not from a wealthy family, so it's okay to be different now? As long as you are willing to work hard, study hard, and strive to be admitted to the film and television industry Kind of university, one day you will shine."

Xiaojie was so rubbed by me that he closed one eye, and his face was slightly red: "Thank you big brother, I understand, I will definitely work hard."

I smiled and said, "Come on!"

Smiling and laughing, and a little melancholy, I don't know if Xi Zonghe and I's children are so cute and cute.After the child is born at full term, he will definitely not allow me to visit her often, and maybe he will hide the child.When I think about it, I will have to toss again at that time, and I have a headache.

After the meal, the program team specially arranged for us to set off fireworks with the children in the yard.Taking advantage of no one's attention, I pulled Xiaojie aside and slipped 1000 yuan to him secretly.

He looked at me helplessly, not knowing what to do with the money in his hand.

"Whatever you want to do with it." I knelt down and said to him, "You can use it for fun, pay for school fees, or give it to your family, it's up to you. Destiny is in your own hands. Maybe I can be the master for you once or twice, but I can’t be the master for a lifetime. Your youth is like money, you can spend it as you want, but it will never increase, you have to think carefully about how to spend it.”

He nodded half-understanding, as if frightened by my seriousness.

Then the two of us returned to the brigade together, waving fireworks sticks in the courtyard.

It was also at this time that I accidentally discovered that Xi Zonghe seemed to be beating his legs uncomfortably in the corner, and he was a little reluctant to walk.

It must be because of soaking in cold water during the day, his legs are very delicate, and he must not catch a little bit of cold, otherwise he will show embarrassment.

After sending the children away, it was late at night when everyone went back to their houses to rest.Taking advantage of Xi Zonghe not entering the house, I filled a wooden barrel with hot water and moved it to his bedside outside.As soon as he entered the room, I preemptively asked him to come over and soak his feet.

"It's good to have you today, as a reward, how about I give you a foot massage tonight?"

He was in a dilemma, and he couldn't scold me in front of the camera, so he said stiffly: "No need..."

I patted the mattress and said unyieldingly, "Come on!"

He still didn't move: "It's really not necessary."

I didn't move either, and stared at him for a long time.

He took a deep breath, forced by our "harmonious and friendly" character design, after a few minutes of stalemate, he still walked over slowly.

His strides were small and he walked very slowly, which worried me all the more.

After he put his feet into the hot water, I rolled up my sleeves and carefully massaged upwards from the heels.It may have eased his pain, and his frowning brows relaxed a little bit.

"Comfortable?"

He said "hmm" lightly.

I was a little happy to get an affirmative answer, and was about to make persistent efforts when I heard his deep voice above my head.

"I saw you gave the kid money."

I glanced at the direction of the camera, and said to the future editor, "Please don't cut the following paragraph."

Xi Zonghe seemed a little confused: "Why not cut it?"

He must have thought that the reason I gave the money was to be caught by the camera, and then he would lead this passage, and when the show was broadcast, I would be able to gain a good reputation as a "kind-hearted".

I raised my head and smiled at him: "I don't donate tens of millions, or just a small amount of money. What's there to let people know."

"Goodness has no size."

I lowered my head again: "It's not really good either."

I just saw my past self in him, so weak, so helpless.Want to ask for help, but can't find anyone to ask for help; want to gain hope, but are defeated by reality time and time again.

Alone and helpless, every eye is black.

"It's a pity." I heard Xi Zonghe say this.

what a pityIt's a pity that it's not true and kind, or it's a pity that I can't use this wave of fans?

For several minutes, neither of us spoke.

The water was getting a bit cold, and I wrung out the towel and said, "I'll help him, but it's only for a while, not for a lifetime. Children without parents around seem to tend to tend to two extremes of personality. Extreme low self-esteem, or Extremely conceited. Xiaojie is a little too inferior, and I don’t know if he will get better in the future.”

"I don't have parents either."

I was taken aback for a moment, and then I remembered that Xi Zonghe also lost his mother and father since childhood, and was brought up by his grandfather, which is almost equivalent to a left-behind child.

I used to think that he was neither arrogant nor impetuous, neither humble nor overbearing, it was because he became eccentric after being hurt by that scumbag Jiang Mu.It is only now that I realize that he may be an extremely proud personality, so he can't tolerate half a grain of sand in his eyes.

When others let him down and deceive him, his self-esteem will be frustrated, and then he will doubt the whole world and close the door of his heart.

I looked up at him and said with a hint: "Then you should be deeply touched. Children without parents around will lose two very important loves. These two loves need many, many other things to make up for." Qi, once it is not completed, they will be more sensitive and fragile in the process of growing up. Since you choose to give birth to them, you have to be responsible for them. This is the responsibility of parents." I turned to the camera and said hello, "This paragraph can be edited go in."

I admit that I have my own selfishness in this passage.

Xi Zonghe's legs moved, stretched out from the water, and slipped into the slippers.

"Not everyone deserves to be a parent."

One of us looked down from the top, and the other looked up from the bottom. We looked like a high-ranking king and the little eunuch who served him.

His expression was very calm, and he pierced my selfishness mercilessly: "If my child is destined to only have one love, I will not wrong myself to make up for this lack. You don't have to act in front of me, whether it is The words just now, or..." He kicked the barrel with his foot, "This."

Then he imitated me and said politely to the camera: "Cut out the above two sentences, thank you."

His defense against me has reached such a point.Everything I do and say, in his view, is for other purposes.He doesn't believe me, and is happy to speculate on me with the greatest malice.

Inferiority and pride, fragile and suspicious, vile and arrogant.

Like a nasty bad boy, relying on favors, he becomes proud of favors.

"Okay." I sneered, and threw the towel into the bucket vigorously, splashing water all over the floor, "Even if you roll in pain in front of me in the future, I won't even blink, whoever I love will give you a massage and whoever will give you a massage !"