Expectation

I sent the kids back to watch TV, shoved the little glasses out the door, and locked the door.

Sherry and I were the only ones left in the room.Although she is much shorter than me now and has a very weak figure, but...

I opened my mouth, not knowing where to start.Maybe it was too much confusion and panic, I looked at her helplessly, like looking at a fragile dream.

She talked about her choices and imperatives in her usual calm and steady voice.I just listened, and I heard a lot of grief and helplessness.

I can only listen.

"Okay, that's all for the old things. You still don't want to have anything to do with me in the future."

"?!...Why!...." I tried to argue, but I had nothing to say, because I found that she was not angry.She's just narrating one of her decisions.

"Don't you know this truth yet? In that case, we are grasshoppers on the same rope. Unlike you, a deserter who has no worries about food and clothing, I am a sure-fire traitor in the eyes of the organization. The organization now estimates that But you're looking for someone to hunt me down." She smiled sarcastically and said, "Isn't that the same as your original intention? Wouldn't you rather leave us and leave?"

...not so, "I...."

"I'm not blaming you," she said in an adult tone with an extremely complicated expression on her childish face, "...you did the right thing before, you've already done it Very good. Don't fall short and lose to your own feelings and impulses. You don't want to die young, at the hands of the organization, do you?"

The repeated questions one after another made my heart tremble.I am like a child who has done something wrong, with my hands neatly placed between my knees. "this and that......"

How can I describe it?That regret and anxiety.And the loneliness of being alone.

How should I tell it?In fact, Mingmei is still alive, and her decision of wanting to die will only make her sister feel even more miserable.It all made her choice seem like a joke of bad luck, like a nasty prank I'd inadvertently pulled off.

After some hesitation, I bluffed and said, "How do you know that I am a deserter? Are you not afraid that I will change careers to be an intelligence officer of the organization?"

"...." She opened her eyes wide, "Then you are?"

"..........I'm not."

She snorted softly, "Even if the organization is really empty, I can't think of looking for you," she turned her head and said in a faint voice, "Then I beg you to let me go, will you let me go?"

.......Of course I will.

But what is that!Who can't think about it!Akai Shuichi?

Really as always....

I held my breath, looked at Sherry's thin and small figure, and said, "There is something...don't be too excited...don't be too angry... .”

She kept a straight face, "Don't change the subject."

I was wronged and thought, who wants to change the subject.I'm still afraid that you will have a heart attack in shock.

"That...actually..."

"...Why are you such a mother-in-law, tell me quickly!" said the little Queen.

"That's right...Mingmei is still alive and in good health in the United States, and she is going to graduate school. Eat well!"

Well, it doesn't necessarily taste delicious.But a white lie.I said with my eyes closed.But there was no echo for a long time.

Quietly open one eye...

Oh no! Sherry was shocked! !

I tugged at her softly with a guilty conscience, "Are you okay?"

"........not too good."

As expected of Sherry.So calm down so quickly.

Oops, I admire a ghost.

I said with a guilty conscience, "Anyway, it's just such and such a thing. You don't want to hear these details..."

"Wait." She looked at me probingly, "I've always wanted to ask, did you... do all these things by yourself?"

My heart skipped a beat, but I was still as keen as ever... I rubbed my head and laughed dryly, "Why, do you think I can't do it...?" Let's get over it first...

"It can't be done."

"........"

I silently straightened my sitting posture again, thinking that this is such a long relationship again, "...can you talk about this next time..."

"No."

"......"

"Are you stupid???" she said bitterly.Hey, hey...I also think all this is too dangerous....In the end, I almost failed to save you...and even killed you almost to death...

"Is that how easy it is for you to give your life to that Rye?"

....Eh?Have it?

I looked at her innocently, blinking innocently.I think I'm pretty smart. "You are such a rookie, and you still learn from them to set up intelligence?? Do you think it takes a long time?"

"I...I'm okay too, I have learned..."

I struggled to refute.

"You escaped from the organization with great difficulty, why did you catch up with the FBI again? Can't you be a civilian with peace of mind..."

"I think so too!" I couldn't control my temper and yelled at her.She froze for a moment, staring at me blankly.

"However, it's really boring to be alone." I turned my face away and said softly. "Sherry, you haven't experienced that kind of experience. Everyone is laughing with their friends at the firework festival in midsummer, and I am standing on the bridge alone, holding a beautiful fan, looking up at the fireworks. Turn your head , there is no one around."

"It was really sad at that time. It was even more sad than when my life was hanging by a thread."

"I don't even have a single person to miss." I said with a slight smile.

She gently put her hand on my arm, "...Forget it." She said calmly, "It's getting late, and the children should be able to go home."

I was still immersed in my own anger for a while, so I could only say a word in a daze.

"...Then can I go play with you?"

I grabbed her sleeve and couldn't help but say.

"You're so disgusted with life, come and play. But it's the first thing to say," she said with a gentle smile, "If you come to play, you also have to do something."

Eh?

"Come help me make the antidote for APTX4869."

"...I thought you would like to be a child. Didn't you give yourself a cute name like Haibara Ai?"

She rolled her eyes gracefully, "Please, HaibaraAi, it's sad mourning."

"......Eh?"

"Hurry up and get used to my name. Che." She said with a faint smile, "I want to see my sister in my original form as soon as possible. She must be worried when she sees me in my current form."

"I'm also worried! What kind of medicine is this? Why does it still have this effect! I remember...it seems to induce programmed cell death, right?" When she said this, I remembered it, normal The medicine won't have that effect, will it?Even if all the cells are really shrunk, the energy required for this reverse growth..."

"Okay, shut up. I'll tell you in detail next time you come to my house."

"Oh oh oh..."

I thought happily, I can go to her house to play.This holiday is not boring anymore.

"Speaking of medicine..." She stopped going out, and suddenly remembered and asked, "Don't you know that Edogawa Conan is Kudo Shinichi?"

"?"

Ehhhhh? ? ? ?

"...With your power of observation, Rye was really in a hurry to find you as a substitute?"

"......"

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