hunting light

That night, Ian stayed up all night.

The physical impulse faded under the effect of the cold bath, but the aroused heart wave showed no sign of stopping.The turbulent waves still crashed against the shore, washing over the precarious dam.

That young man was like a reckless dog, who rushed towards him enthusiastically and stubbornly, made a confession of affection, disrupted Ian's life that could barely maintain order, and then ran away with his tail between his legs.

Ian was lying in the messy night, and the past was overlapping in front of his eyes. No matter how he recalled the warmth of the past, the picture would finally freeze on the scene that happened tonight.

He relived that kiss over and over again.

There is a hard door panel on the back, but a warm and soft body is pressed against the chest.He couldn't help himself, confused, and even after the end, there was still a trace of unresolved feelings that he dared not admit.

So sinful, yet so sweet.After only tasting it once, Ian felt that he seemed to be addicted.

In this world, nothing will last forever, and Ian is of course well aware of this truth.But when his belief, which had been solid for more than 20 years, cracked under the persistent impact of that young man, and began to fall apart little by little, Ian still panicked.

Lust is actually just the last straw. As early as when Ian followed Leon's footsteps, he had become more and more aware that the god he believed in was not all as He showed. Holy and immaculate.

Shaken faith is a very dangerous thing for a believer and a clergyman.

If it is said that Leon's sudden confession and kiss made Ian sleepless because of excitement.The wavering of his belief made Ian confused, and felt a sense of panic for a long time.

Ian chose to become a clergyman with the belief that he would dedicate himself to spreading the light of the Holy Lord.He firmly believes that the Holy Light can lead people in suffering out of the darkness and away from all evils.

But what if the Holy Lord's original intention was not to free people from suffering, but to weaken their strength and make them obey the rule?

And once the belief was shaken, desire overflowed from the gap, and began to loosen the shackles that Ian had fastened on his body little by little.

His mood was no longer peaceful, and his body began to be restless.When the temptation comes, his resistance is even more vulnerable...

that kiss...

Ian closed his eyes.

A dusty box was opened, and hot marks hit his body one after another:

It turns out that the body is so pleasant to be touched, it turns out that the entanglement of lips and tongues can make people dizzy, it turns out that there are so many longings in his body, like a mouthful of boiling magma, it will burst out uncontrollably under the stimulation of the outside world, Burn sanity, and everything.

The teeth marks left by the canine teeth behind the ears have not disappeared, and the glands always feel a little sore, which makes Ian very uncomfortable.

The physical sensations will eventually wear off, but what about the spiritual shock?

"How pious are you, Father Adway?" Ian suddenly asked in the office the next day.

Adwei, who was sitting across from the office, raised his head from the official document, thought for a while, and said, "It should be far less pious than you, but it is enough for me not to feel guilty when I chant the name of the Holy Lord. Why do you ask?"

"Felix IV said some very confusing things to me on his deathbed," Ian said.

"Let me guess," Advi said. "He wants you to communicate directly with the Lord for him and heal him?"

"Yes." Ian said, "He thought that if I could summon the Holy Light, it would be the same as being able to communicate with the Holy Lord. But after I refused him, he began to curse. He...he called the Holy Lord a dog, a dog. The shepherd dog who betrayed humans..."

"Didn't you reprimand him for being disrespectful to the Holy Lord?"

"What can I do with a delirious old man?" Ian smiled wryly.

"But you kept his words in your heart." Adway showed his playful and meaningful smile again.

He leaned back in the chair, crossed his hands behind his head, and crossed his legs: "Actually, there have always been rumors among the people that the Holy Lord is just a super optical brain. god."

"There are many loopholes in this legend." Ian said, "If human beings create a supercomputer, won't there be a control background? I thought that scientists' technology on how to control supercomputers is as pure as fire. And If the Holy Lord is really a super brain, why does no one know? Is he operating by himself, or is someone manipulating him?"

"Every question you ask is on point." Adway said, "In my opinion, no matter whether the Holy Lord was a human being or something else, anyway, he is above all rights now. Those who once instructed him People have no power to fight against him now. The Holy Lord is order. Then, it is not an exaggeration to call him a god."

Advi stared at Ian: "And, yes, I don't agree with many of the orders he established. He may control the most powerful force in the world, but he is not as selfless as the promulgated teachings say and fraternity. The essence of Holy Mingism is domination. And domination is necessarily selfish."

Ian said: "But you are still a believer?"

"The Christian is just the identity I use to walk in the world." Adway said, "But you, Mitchell, you have to think about it carefully. When the faith of a pure person begins to be shattered, it is often easy to start from a extreme, to the other extreme.”

"Then you can rest assured." Ian said calmly, "No matter what the form of the Holy Lord is, what I believe in is not him as an individual, but the sincerity, kindness and beauty spread in his teachings. Guide me Moving forward is also these beautiful things."

Advi raised his coffee cup and saluted Ian.

Suddenly there was a commotion in the corridor outside the door.Someone was banging on the door.

As soon as Ian opened the door, a small figure rushed in.

"Kathy?" Ian recognized this handsome little boy as Maureen's prodigy younger brother, "What's wrong with you? What happened?"

Little Casey was still unable to speak, she was sweating in anxiety, and she tugged on Ian's clothes and whimpered non-stop.

Adwei squatted beside him and asked seriously, "Did something happen to Maureen?"

Casey nodded desperately, tears welling up.

Maureen went to the army.

This 16-year-old boy, just enough to join the army, secretly signed up behind his mother and younger brother's back.

Mo Lin deposited the conscription subsidy he received and the private money he had saved from working these days into Casey's account.Then he left a letter full of typos and left without saying goodbye.

When Adwei and Ian arrived at their house, the boy had already entered the new barracks.He will receive short-term training in the reception battalion, and then be sent directly to the battlefield under heavy artillery fire.

Maureen is just an immature boy, and his physique is even weaker than other Betas. It's hard to imagine how he survived on the battlefield.

"My illness has relapsed again, and I need surgery. Casey also needs money to study. Morin has been thinking about ways to make more money recently, but I really didn't expect him to join the army!"

Maureen's mother cried.

Casey communicated with Ian through the photon board: "My brother always said that he wanted to do something unusual. He said he couldn't read well, and he was just a weak Beta. But he didn't want to be inactive for the rest of his life."

Mo Lin's thoughts are exactly the inner portrayal of all the low-level youths who join the army despite the dissuasion of their families.

"I can ask people in the organization to find out the whereabouts of this child. At least make sure which boot camp he is in." On the way back to the monastery, Advi said to Ian, "But I don't think he will come back. "

Ian agrees with this opinion: "Instead of being trapped in a place like Area 96, it is indeed better to go out and have a look. But the battlefield is too dangerous for a child like him."

"Let me see what I can do." Adwei contacted his companion with a bracelet, and casually reminded, "You seem to have a delicate guest."

A slim figure stood in front of the monastery.Seeing that Ian saw him, the girl showed a cute smile.

Sang Xia was also an intern at the Ministry of Justice recently. She was still wearing a rigid black professional suit after get off work, her hair was combed meticulously, and she looked tired like "an intern is not as good as a dog".

"Don't worry, I have a flower protector." Sangxia pointed behind her before Yian could speak to educate her.

That little media prince, Neil, was leaning against a shuttle, waving his hand towards this side, with a somewhat cynical smile.

"I won't delay your time too much, Father Yi'an." Sangxia's usual hearty smile was more cautious, "Also, please rest assured, Leon didn't ask me to come."

Ian brought Sangxia into the monastery and sat with her on a bench in the courtyard.

In the early autumn evening in the imperial capital, the warm golden sunset shone on the two of them.Sang Xia took off the hairpin, loosened her long hair, kicked off her tormenting high heels, and let out a long sigh of relief.

Sangxia thought for a moment, then said, "I think you should already know that I am not Leon's real girlfriend."

Ian looked at the girl with a guilty expression, and couldn't help smiling: "I'm still wondering when you will tell me the truth."

Sangxia sneered: "This alliance is very good for both of us. Leon has a reason to reject other suitors openly, and I also have a protector. With the help of his girlfriend, I can come to the Imperial Capital to study , to enter the upper class. These resources are not available to me from my family.”

"You are his best friend, Sangxia." Yi An said softly, "I believe that the relationship between you is not just a partner."

The girl said with emotion: "You are the most delicate and upright person I have ever met, Father Ian. And Leon, he is the most faithful and dedicated person I have ever met."

Ian fell silent.

Sangxia thought about it, and said: "It seems that for Leon, loving someone is a mission. Once he recognizes the other person, he will love him unswervingly. He will be the most loyal lover in the world. And From the first day I met him, I knew that he silently liked someone in my heart."

Sangxia cast her eyes on Ian: "Over the years, his feelings for that person have not weakened, but have grown deeper. Leon's whole body and mind are devoted to this person. He is obsessed with and admires him. After he came to the imperial capital, He has come into contact with all kinds of people, but never diverted his attention. His love for that person is the most dedicated and deepest I have ever seen."

Ian still sat silently under a warm golden sunset, almost turning into a marble statue.

Even though he is almost 30 years old, perhaps because of his pure heart and healthy and regular life, Ian still looks like a person who has just left his youth.

The lines of his facial features are soft and smooth, with graceful arcs, as if carefully drawn with a paintbrush, which is surprisingly attractive.As the years go by, he can always taste more and more mellow flavors from his bright eyes and moist lips.

This man is like a grassland with a gentle breeze, or a deep mountain that is cool and quiet after the rain.The bustling and impetuous urban atmosphere can't infect him. When you approach him, you will be infected by the tranquility and serenity emanating from him, and feel that time has become slow.

"Leon is a very crazy person." Sangxia said, "There is a powerful destructive force in his soul. And he is in the center of this crazy world, doing the craziest and most dangerous things. Yes You restrain him, Father Ian. Like a rope that restrains a galloping horse, or a scabbard that holds a sharp knife. You are the most important person in this world to keep him from losing himself."

Ian listened quietly.

"I'm not here to be a lobbyist for Leon." Sangxia said, "I know that I can't change your position with just a few words. I just hope you can learn more about Leon's side that hasn't been shown to you. That fragile, insecure boy who needed someone to hold him. And you were the one holding him over the cliff, Father."

Ian's slender eyelashes trembled like a curtain, blocking the emotions in his eyes.

"I fear that once you let go, no one will be able to catch him again. He will fall off a cliff, or worse. His blade will go out of control and cause untold damage."

"I won't." Ian finally spoke, raising his eyes, "I won't abandon him for such a small matter. I have a responsibility to Leon. I swore to continue to protect him .As for the matter between me and him...I think he will figure it out for himself. He is still young and has not experienced enough things, so it is inevitable that he will take the current relationship too seriously. He will change. "

"It's not fair to say that." Sangxia couldn't help whispering, "Why are young people's love more variable and unstable? And mature people's love is longer and more stable? There are so many that last a lifetime The true love of my life begins when I am young."

Ian was speechless.

Instead, Sang Xia apologized: "I'm sorry, Father, I didn't come to discuss this with you."

"I know." Ian smiled wryly, "Sorry, I don't know much about love, so I shouldn't comment rashly."

"No." Sangxia said, "Love is an instinct. People are born to love. Everyone is qualified to discuss. But Father, you have a broad mind and full of emotions. Your love is like a vast ocean. The one you love will be extremely happy."

But on the second day after Sang Xia's visit, the situation was like a flame-out flying shuttle, which turned sharply and swooped headlong towards the ground.

Ian went to the cafeteria for breakfast early in the morning, and saw the monks discussing in front of the photon TV.

"Ramond has fallen!"

"Such an important front-line fortress was captured by Kruvia's rebels?"

"There was a poor riot in Lamond. The mob attacked the military base. In addition, some local soldiers mutinied and detonated the arsenal... The Cruvia army took the opportunity to attack and captured Lamond. This was a premeditated The inside should cooperate with the outside!"

Following the fall of Ramond, two more bases of the Imperial Army fell in just three weeks.Not to mention the aristocratic territories near the front line. In order to preserve their property, the lords immediately turned into grass that would fall in the wind, and surrendered to Louis one after another.

This change in the situation is really surprising.

When Kruvia declared its independence, everyone felt that they were like a house made of paper. The purpose of their existence was probably to be burned by the artillery fire of the Imperial Army to accompany Emperor Felix of Daxing.

Unexpectedly, this unpopular rebel army is growing stronger and stronger.They occupy, they destroy, and they leave a mess behind them.However, they completely disrupted the order of the empire with violent and extreme methods, expanding the line of fire inch by inch, and advancing towards the center of the empire step by step.

The Imperial Army took emergency measures, replacing two front-line generals one after another, and invited the famous imperial general Hoffman out of the mountain.

It is a big taboo for military strategists to change generals before the battle, and the Duke of Oran is very opposed to it.But Raphael did not listen to his advice this time.

Louis's victory was like a needle buried in the cushion, a pea under the mattress, and Raphael couldn't sleep or eat.He wished he could immediately arrest Louis and bring him back to the imperial capital for trial, and he would not delay for a moment.

General Hoffman is 170 years old this year and has retired emeritus.Now that he was ordered to come out of the mountain again when he was in danger, he immediately took up his post in good spirits and was ready to go.

General Hoffman will also lead an Air Force mecha team to support the Air Force [-]th Division.

The day before the army's expedition, Adway only inquired about Molin's news.

"This kid is included in the air force that is going to leave tomorrow, but there is only one medical soldier. This is a good thing for him. Mitchell, can you take Casey to send his brother off tomorrow? "

Of course Ian was more than happy to help.

The next day, when Ian arrived at the military port with Casey, it was just dawn.But there are already crowds of people outside the military port.

Today there will be three star warships, carrying 13 soldiers, heading to the frontline fortress Magdeburg.They will face the artillery fire of the main force of the Cruvia army, and strive to take back the star field numbered AD-[-] occupied by the opponent.

Ian held Casey in his arms, squeezed through the crowd with difficulty, and looked for the assembly point of the medical team.

There were tears and cries everywhere.Mothers hugged their sons, and lovers kissed tearfully goodbye.

The boys look forward to making contributions on the battlefield and returning to their hometowns.They sat on the shuttle, waved to the girls, sang war songs loudly, and were in high spirits.

"The bell is ringing in the wind in the distance. The warship full of soldiers is about to set sail. We will defend our homeland with our flesh and blood. Isabella, my beloved girl, your tears make my medal shine with glory . . . Oh, Isabella, my dear girl . . . "

Ian and the others finally found Mo Lin among a large group of medical soldiers.

The child was wearing an ill-fitting military uniform with Red Cross cuffs, and his hair was shaved so that the scalp was almost visible.But I haven't seen him for half a month, probably shrunk due to the scorching sun of the training, and the whole person is dark and thin, which makes people feel very distressed.

Mo Lin's big, shrewd eyes suddenly darkened, with a hint of sharpness in them.Like a little dog, it finally grew the sharp teeth of a wolf.

Kathy jumped out of Ian's arms and threw herself into his brother's arms, crying loudly.

Mo Lin's eyes immediately turned red, and he hugged his brother tightly, without saying a word, and kept stroking Casey's head.

"You're too willful, Maureen." Ian wiped his sweat and said helplessly, "You shouldn't have made such a decision without even discussing it with us."

"I just want to change my life, Father." Maureen was more helpless than Ian, "I don't have many choices. Joining the army is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for me."

"You are risking your life to gamble." Ian said earnestly, "The danger on the battlefield is beyond your imagination. Fortunately, you are a medical soldier, at least better than the combat soldiers rushing to the front line. You have to promise me, don't go Do stupid things. For your mother and brother, you have to fight for a safe return!"

Kathy hiccupped crying in her brother's arms.Mo Lin wiped away his tears, bowed his head and kissed his younger brother's sweaty forehead, with endless reluctance in his eyes.

"I'll let you two talk for a while." Ian nodded towards Mo Lin and walked aside.

The warship stopped at the port, like three huge humpback whales floating on the sea, waiting for the soldiers to go to the front line.

The first bell rang for the assembly, and the cries in the crowd became louder, which was heartbreaking.

The soldiers wept one after another, let go of the hands of relatives and friends, and ran towards the assembly point.

"Father Ian?"

Ian turned around and looked at the acquaintance who greeted him in surprise.

"Mr. Gercia? What a coincidence..."

Ian saw the Duke of Oran standing not far away, he was talking with two senior officers.

Gercia used drugs to conceal her Omega gender, posing as a Beta.His current status is the chief secretary of the Duke of Oran, regardless of work or life, he does not care about the Duke and serves him personally.

Raphael didn't have any doubts about Gercia at all, completely unaware that he had called this humble secretary his mother countless times, and that the other party was not only the holy father of the eldest son of the Duke of Oran, but also the real pillow of the Duke.

Gercia had already held Ian's hand cordially, and said, "I'm so happy, Ian. Our whole family is very touched by your thoughtfulness."

Ian was confused, but then, he saw a satin badge pinned to Gercia's chest.

It is a badge of honor worn by military families to indicate that an immediate family member has served in the military.

Such a badge, such an occasion...

Ian instantly understood.

Under the undiminished heat of early autumn, he felt dizzy for a while.

"Leon didn't tell you?" Gercia understood everything from Ian's face, and was very surprised, "We all thought you knew. Oh, this is embarrassing..."

Ian heard himself asking in a trembling and hoarse voice, "Where is he?"

"The third mecha squadron." Gercia pointed to a place, "They have assembled..."

Ian pushed away the people blocking the way, and plunged into the crowd against the current.

Ian didn't need anyone to show him the way, and Ian quickly sensed Leon's presence.It was as if there was a voice calling to him in his mind, and an invisible thread connected each other, allowing him to discern the exact direction.

I don't know how long he ran in such a hurry, but Ian got out of the crowd, his eyes opened up, and he finally saw a group of soldiers in mecha combat uniforms.

This is obviously an elite team, all members are Alpha.They have assembled and are preparing to set off for the boarding port.

Yi'an stumbled and wanted to go forward, but he didn't dare to approach rashly, so he had to stand aside helplessly.

Leon turned his head and looked over, meeting his gaze.Then he saluted the officer, stepped out and strode towards Ian.

The young man was wearing a slim one-piece combat uniform, fit and tall, and he set off a sassy and vigorous wind while walking.His blond hair was cut short again, giving a fuller head, and his features were impeccably handsome.

Ian stared blankly at those icy blue eyes, feeling that he was falling into a sea of ​​polar ice, and he was about to lose consciousness due to the freezing.

Even if he doesn't know much about the Air Force, he still knows that mecha fighters like Leon are responsible for driving mechas on the front line for stand-alone combat.They are often still forwards, haunting the most dangerous artillery fire on the battlefield, and they are the group of soldiers with the highest injury and sacrifice rate!

Leon walked up to Ian with a guilty smile and lowered his head.At this time, he still looks like a boy who was caught for doing something wrong.

"I didn't mean to hide it from you, Ian. I just don't know how to tell you. I'm afraid you think I'm just being mad."

Ian swallowed hard to moisten his dry throat: "So, are you?"

"No, Ian." Leon said calmly, "Our country is divided, and the rebels are encroaching on the peaceful territory step by step. As a man, an Alpha, it is time for me to stand up and defend our homeland !"

"But you are still just a student." Ian's voice trembled a little out of tune, "The battlefield is so dangerous..."

"You know that I have already finished all the cultural courses by myself." Leon said, "I came to the military academy mainly to learn actual combat operations. But what can I learn more than going to the battlefield and participating in actual combat? What better place to train than the battlefield? I must go to the front, to fight. This is my calling!"

Ian's eyes were hot, and he fixed his gaze on Leon: "When did you decide? Was it before you came to see me last time?"

Leon's smile was apologetic, and he acquiesced.

Ian felt an invisible heavy hammer on his chest, and almost groaned.

The assembly bell rang again, and Leon's teammates began to walk towards the warship.

Yi An stood in the sun, feeling cold all over his body, and he didn't know what else to say.

"Don't be afraid, Ian." Leon comforted him in turn, smiling softly all the time, as if he was just going away to do some small things.At this time, his maturity and composure were fully displayed in front of Ian.

"I am a strong soldier. I am calm, cautious, and smart. You have to have confidence in me. I will take good care of myself and look forward to seeing you again soon."

Ian's face was as pale as paper, and he didn't say a word.

"I should go." Leon looked back at his teammates who were about to board the ship, "I will write to you, I promise."

Ian just gave a low "hmm".

Leon put his military cap on his head, showing a bright and handsome smile, with white teeth and high spirits.

He turned and walked quickly towards the warship.

Ian stood still in place, transformed into a stone pillar, his eyes were fixed on the tall figure, and he let him drag him further and further away.

Suddenly, the young man stopped, turned around abruptly, and flew back towards Ian.

Ian's heavy heartbeat suddenly jumped three feet high.

Leon was as fast as a phantom, and he jumped in front of Ian in a flash.

Before Ian could see Leon's expression clearly, he was pulled over by force.The back of the head was clasped by the palm, his eyes darkened, and a pair of hot lips were pressed down.

The salty sea breeze blew across the empty square, and the sun made people's foreheads feel slightly hot.The assembly bell rang for the third time.Soldiers passing by were laughing and whistling.

But all this is too far and too vague for Ian.

At this moment, all he could clearly feel was Leon's strong arms, warm and solid body, and those fiery, affectionate lips.

Apart from that, heaven and earth, war, parting...all cease to exist.

In fact, this kiss was not long, the entanglement of lips and tongue had just tasted the numbing pleasure, and it had ended.

The two separated panting, each other trembling uncontrollably.

Leon held Ian's face and gently rubbed against the tip of his nose.This kind of simple intimacy, which is different from a hot kiss, made Ian's nose suddenly sore and his eyes ached.

Leon pulled out the Holy Light Talisman from his collar, grabbed Ian's hand, and held it.

"The suffering we endure today will become our laurels tomorrow." He whispered.

Ian closed his swollen eyes tightly, unable to speak a word.

His hands were released, the warm breath disappeared, and only the cool sea breeze was blowing on his sweaty cheeks.

When Ian opened his eyes, Leon's figure had disappeared at the entrance of the warship.

When I returned to District 96, the rush hour for commuting in the city had passed, and there were few people in the empty rail cars.

Ian sat in the corner with Casey.

The empty rail shuttles quietly between tall buildings, leaving the dazzling billboards behind.The passengers went up and down, expressionless, all of them were passers-by.

Cassie snuggled into Ian's arms, felt the vibration in his chest, reached out and touched Ian's face, her palm was wet.The child looked at Ian worriedly, and asked silently with his eyes.

Ian hugged the child's small, warm body tightly, and could no longer suppress the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time.

He cried with tears streaming down his face.