Spring is waiting for the flowers to bloom

?What should Ran Jingyu do with her increasingly peaceful married life?How should Bai Owen face it? If there is no other possibility, this will be his only child, what should I do?Touching the little life that is being conceived in the womb, it is growing up carefree day by day!I can't ruthlessly block the existence of such a life.

Every life should be treated fairly, and their right to come to this world should not be cruelly denied.

I am longing for happiness, longing to love and be loved, but the reality is like this. Every time I make up my mind, I will fall into a beautiful dream because of a certain warm moment, a certain thoughtful word, and be entangled in the entanglement. Pull, it's time to make a decision this time!

I dragged my heavy body and lay back on the bed, inhaling the scent left on the pillow. The broken flowers on the pillow were swallowed by tears like a swamp, and my heart was plunged into this endless darkness, unable to save myself!

In the dream, I still had long hair flowing, and the smile on my face was indifferent. The wind blew up my trench coat, and the corners of the coat fell on the little girl beside me. , just want not far

"Can I play there?"

The girl's eyes are full of novelty in the morning, looking at a forest of cherry blossoms not far away.The wind blows the petals up, pure and undisturbed serenity.

"It's so beautiful there! Is it your secret garden?"

"Yeah! It used to be my whole world!"

The spring breeze is still there, the cherry blossoms are still there, but the most beautiful scenery in the world is not seen in the gorgeous beauty!

I woke up crying bitterly, and fell into a warm embrace. The sweet aroma made me feel a little relieved!

"Silly heart~ What did you dream about? Crying so hard?"

Ran Jingyu's gentle voice soothed my trembling heart.

I hugged my soft body tightly and kept this warmth deep in my heart to resist the wind and rain that I would encounter in the future.

"Jingyu, I want to go see my mother, I'll go tomorrow!"

"Okay, I'll accompany you!"

I shook my head and raised a smile,

"No, I want to go by myself, there are some things I can face by myself, trust me!"

Ran Jingyu nodded lightly, and I buried my face deeply in my soft long hair, letting the tears flow silently down the long hair!

Soothe my emotions, we had dinner together, Bai Owen came to pick up Ran Jingyu home, I smiled and watched them leave, in the dim light and shadow, their leaving backs were so happy and happy!

When I came to the grave of my parents again, I felt mixed emotions and wept bitterly.

"Mom, I'm sorry, the vow I made was almost fulfilled, but please forgive me, I can only repay the gratitude you taught me in another way! Now I can't be right There is nothing she can do to help her, not even to make her feel at ease. Mom, you will support my decision, right? I hope you can relax and settle down with Dad, and stop being tired of mundane things. I will see you again, It may be a while, you don't have to worry about me, I will live a good life! It can only be good!"

I lowered my head and stroked my growing belly, believing that he would give me the strength to face everything that came next!

The towering trees on the high mountains in the distance reach the sky, and the winding mountain roads connect the high and low clouds, like a ladder that goes straight to the sky. Sometimes happiness is like the end of this ladder that cannot be seen.

But people who are close to the clouds are brave and lucky, but unfortunately I am not brave enough or lucky enough!

I rented a clean and bright house in a small and comfortable county town, and started to live a peaceful life. It was the only place I was familiar with. I had attended junior high school here for three years, and I had an excellent impression!

Before leaving, I brought enough cash through Zhang Yiman. For the sake of reality, I will live a life without income. This is also a way for Ran Jingyu to rest assured that I will not return to the embarrassment of not having three meals a day.

Plain and comfortable is that life makes my heart quiet, and I learn to forget in the monotonous and peaceful days.

I still don't like socializing with people, but I still insist on going out to buy groceries every morning, and I only buy a day's worth.

Occasionally go to a nearby clothing store to buy loose clothes, and buy two books a week. This is my only pastime besides eating and sleeping.

The enthusiastic landlady sometimes sends some special meals made by herself. One eggplant, one crucian carp, and one piece of tofu are enough for one person.

I learned from her that crucian carp soup can reduce morning sickness.

She is a middle-aged widowed woman, with a slightly fat body and a naive smile. She raises two underage children by herself. She has a few houses for rent, and her life is not tight.

Kind and experienced, she frankly did not ask me any sensitive questions, and only chatted with her heart with pity and kind help!

In a small, backward and simple county town, the comfortable and comfortable life is as quiet as a lake!

The sky is getting warmer and the sun is rising very high. I like the sunlight in the cool breeze in the morning. It falls quietly without any restraint, just like the palm of someone suddenly holding it in the cold. It is warm and firm without any restraint. !

I raised my head and smiled at the sun, just because at that moment I thought of her again!

When I felt the warm palm again, the indifference I had worked so hard to learn in recent days disintegrated in an instant.

The hand holding the bag was wrapped in a soft palm. I was so stunned that I didn't look up at her, but mechanically followed and walked forward. The difference in height made Budiao slow and weird.

She stopped, bent over to take off her high heels, and never let go of her tightly clenched hands.

Her white feet stepped on the uneven concrete road, she was persistent and determined every step of the way.

With tears in my eyes, my mind went blank, and I only thought about the softness and warmth of the damp under her feet, so that I stood at the door and forgot to open it.

"key?"

The palpitating sound brought me back to consciousness. I opened the imprisoned hand, opened the door in a panic, walked in, put the things on the table, and still didn’t dare to look back!

The incomparably nostalgic embrace in my memory came from behind, the hot breath on my neck, the sweet fragrance in the air, and all kinds of things that haunt me day and night, hit my heart one after another!

"go home with me!"

The firm and stubborn voice, just a few short words, made my tears burst again. I shook my head desperately, reminding myself to stick to the last persistence.

"No, Jingyu, I can't..."

"Come and see, what did I bring you? It's red bayberry. I just picked it yesterday. Let's pickle it together!"

She completely ignored my refusal, and excitedly held up the bright red bayberry, making her fingers even whiter against the backdrop.

The red bayberry here is not mature yet. Only in the mountains in the south can there be such bright red plums at this time of year. If they were picked yesterday, they must have traveled at night. Only then did I dare to look at her. Her smiling face was full of tears. full of exhaustion.

But now that you have made a decision, you have to be ruthless, vacillating like before will only make things worse!I renew my faith,

"Jingyu, I'm not going back, and we can't go back either! Do you understand?"

My tone was extremely indifferent, as if such words would never come out of my mouth, it made me feel strange!

Ran Jingyu was unmoved, still smiling and walked towards the kitchen,

"Where is the salt? You know I don't know how to do this, you have to teach me, I can't seem to do anything without you!"

"Ran Jingyu! Please let me go! Let yourself go too, we really can't go back!"

I roared angrily to wake her up!She finally stopped the movement of her hands, sneered strangely, her eyes were as determined as death,

"As long as I'm alive, I won't let you go!"

"You see, I'm pregnant, and I'm going to give birth to a child, how should I face you, and how will you face this child!"

"I know, so I will divorce and let Bai Owen marry you! Remember? That year under the cherry blossom tree, you said that you would find a man who loves you and spend your life happily! I will do whatever you want for you!"

Ran Jingyu washed the red bayberries carefully one by one, her stubbornness made people feel distressed!

"Did I say that? I don't remember! But that's not the point, Jingyu, wake up! Things are not as simple as you think!"

"It's not that complicated, it's just that the two-year marriage was agreed to end early!"

"Two years of marriage?"

"That's right! This is Bai Owen's compromise, the business deal between my brother and Bai Zechen!"

"Heh~~~"

I staggered to the chair and sat down. It turned out that I was the only one who took it seriously. I simply thought that this kind of marriage would last long and guarantee Ran Jingyu's happiness. I was so stupid!

"Is marriage so unimportant to you?"

Ran Jingyu came over, bent down and pressed against my forehead, with stubborn eyes,

"I said, nothing else matters except you!"

I lowered my head and stopped looking at her, afraid of being melted instantly by her heat, and I couldn't believe who should be responsible for her future happiness!

I still made simple meals, she looked so hungry and ate a lot, we didn't talk about anything anymore, and it didn't seem to make any sense anymore!

After the meal, Ran Jingyu finally couldn't bear to lean on me and fell asleep. I helped her back to the bed. She refused to let go of my hand when she was asleep. She was frightened and trembling from time to time. I comforted her and fell asleep. Be comforted!

I drowned the dried red bayberry and put it in a jar, and then I heard Ran Jingyu screaming in despair,

"Xiner~ Xiner~ where are you? Don't go, don't leave me, please, don't leave me!"

She ran out and saw me sitting in front of the window, heaved a long sigh of relief, ran to kneel down and fell into my arms,

"Xin'er, I dreamed that you disappeared again! I was scared to death! Xin'er, can you not leave me? Apart from you, I have no meaning to live in this life!"

Ran Jingyu, with tears in her arms, was begging like a child who had lost her love, longing for the only possible love in the world.

My heart tells me that I'm afraid I won't be able to escape in this life!

☆, 23

23

Returning to Ran's house again, Ran Jingyu also moved back.

I was wearing a baggy skirt that couldn't hide my pregnancy.

Ran Jingyu likes to touch my swollen belly when she sleeps, gently and carefully like a treasure.

Sometimes I feel that she values ​​and cherishes this child more than I do.

"This is our child, I will make her the happiest child in the world, and give this child all the love you and I lack."

Looking at the delicate and special ribbons on the bouquet that Ran Jingyu brought back with anger on the table, I worried that she already knew everything. Ran Jingyu locked herself in the room, talked on the phone loudly, and told me to obediently remember to drink soup before going out.

In the bright sunshine, Ran Jingyu smiled sweetly and happily, looked at me with pure and clear eyes like a child, gently hugged me with both arms, left a light kiss on my forehead, and then left.

I can’t remember exactly what she said. If I knew that this was the last smile and hug she left behind, I would definitely take care of every word at that moment, every minute and every second. Engrave it in my heart, and wake up in the middle of the night when I wake up from the dream, recalling such a tender moment, as if she still just reluctantly parted with me, and will return in a short time, and she will give me all her warmth again!

Ran Jingyu didn't come back until night fell that day. I fell asleep while waiting, and was awakened by deafening thunder in my sleep.

Ran Jingyu still hasn't come back, I poked my head out from under the quilt, watching the flickering thunder in the dark night illuminating the empty sofa, I had a very bad premonition.

There was another burst of thunder, and I hid in the quilt again in panic, hugging the pillow tightly, not daring to move.

The ringing of the mobile phone cuts through the silent space,

"Hello~ Is it Jingyu?"

I try to keep my voice as calm as possible,

Ran Jingyu's faint breath came from the phone,

"Xin'er~ my little one! I still remember that year when the cherry blossoms were in full bloom. Your calm smile was so beautiful that I loved it deeply. I would give everything for this kind of you, but I can't give you the happiness you want. My lifelong regret!"

"Jingyu~ What are you talking about? What's wrong with you? Where are you? Come back! Come back!"

"I'm sorry! Xin'er, I may really not be able to go back this time. Do you still remember you asking me why I was so nice to you? The first time I saw you, I couldn't help being attracted to you. You by the window are pure and pure. Beautiful, with the same eyes as my mother, lonely, stubborn, I know you are the angel sent by my mother to protect me,..."

The piercing sound of metal being crushed came from the mobile phone, mixed with Ran Jingyu's restrained moaning,

"Jingyu, what's wrong with you? Where are you? I'll look for you, I want to see you...you wait for me, I'll look for you, you must wait for me..."

I jumped out of bed, ran downstairs barefoot, and ran outside frantically in the rainy night of lightning and thunder,

"Jingyu, where are you? Where are you?"

The pause on the phone end scares me,

"Jingyu...Jingyu...you...you answer me! Please, can you talk to me? Please..."

"Xin'er~ Remember to look up and smile when the cherry blossoms are all over the sky, that is your most beautiful moment, and it is also the beginning of my heart. The five-year period has expired, I will let you go now, you are free, forget about me, let you think about it My life, goodbye, my little boy... goodbye, my favorite little boy..."

The sound was cut off by the violent impact and water flow, no matter how hysterically I shouted, there would be no echo.

The thunder is still roaring, I am still running forward barefoot, the deep rainy night seems to sweep everything away, into endless darkness, no direction, no purpose, no consciousness, no hope!

I saw the light again in the hospital ward. In the room, Mrs. Li was sobbing weakly, her eyes were red and swollen,

"Where is Jingyu? Where is Jingyu?"

I got up and got out of bed, and fell to the ground. Mrs. Li stepped forward to help me, and the choking sound did not stop.

"Miss Lin, you have to take care of yourself, or you won't feel at ease when you leave!"

"Leave...not at ease? What... mean?"

I looked at Aunt Li blankly, she just lowered her head and cried bitterly,

"What do you mean by asking?"

I shook her desperately, asking her to give me a clear reply, but what do I want to hear?This is a dream, a dream I don't want to wake up from!

When I opened my eyes again, I became calm, and my heart was as calm as dead ashes. With the support of Mrs. Li, I walked in the cold corridor, and my legs were already frozen by the cold air.

God is such a cruel monster. In the same place, there is the same loved one. It was my mother five years ago, but now it is Ran Jingyu.

She just lay there quietly, her pale face lost the beauty of the past...

I shook my head desperately, tears kept falling, everything in front of my eyes changed from blurred to clear to blurred, as if I was constantly tormented by doubts and confirmations over and over again,

"This is not her, this is not..."

Until I saw the silver bright ring embedded in the flesh on the swollen left index finger, my heart was instantly torn and I stopped breathing.

"Why? Why? Jingyu, get up quickly, you know I'm timid, don't scare me, don't you say you want to be with me forever? I won't leave you, never again, I will guard you You, don't go anywhere, okay, don't scare me, please, get up, get up..."

I held my cold hand and kept begging for an unknown amount of time. I cried until there was no sound and no strength, but the tears kept flowing. I struggled to stand up against my cold forehead, and the tears dripped on my pale face. face,

"Jingyu, do you know? You are the person I am looking for, you are my happiness!"

I closed my eyes, quietly feeling the last touch, and refused to leave for a long time.

Intermittent crying faintly came from the next door,

"Owen... Owen... my poor brother!"

When I walked out the door, I saw Bai Zechen and his wife in the next room who were already crying into tears, and then saw the same pale and cold Bai Owen, who collapsed to the ground in an instant, fell into the endless darkness, unwilling to wake up!

☆, 24

24

Jingyu, this time I am finally going to disappear completely, and returning to the slow life in a small county allows me to temporarily calm down and face the cruelty of life!

In the hot summer, a beautiful little girl was born. Her bright and stubborn eyes are so much like me in your eyes that I dare not touch them.

This is our child, yes, it is my child and yours, you have said that you want to make her the happiest child and give her the love we have been missing!

She was lying in the same stroller with another beautiful child, they were born at the same time, and they were squeezed in the same car, so they were destined to have a lot of fate in this life.

It was the first child of a young couple. The husband was sincere and honest, and the wife was mild-tempered. It was a warm and harmonious family.

How many times have I imagined that I could grow up in such a warm family, but the child's congenital misfortune made this ordinary family shrouded in haze!

Two cute little lives are arranged together by fate, and they are doomed to be entangled for a lifetime. I still believe in fate, just as I firmly believe that you are my destiny!

On a sultry summer night, a burst of thought drove me to that decision.

I'm sorry, Jingyu, I didn't ask for your opinion, I left all the money I had on me, and handed over the newborn child to that couple, praying for God's blessing!

I didn't even hug her, I didn't let her suck my milk, I left her so cruelly, and disappeared like fleeing!

The information in the backward small county is blocked, I only care about making myself disappear completely, but I never thought that there will be more cruel follow-ups.Returning to city b again, everything became unstoppable!

In front of your tomb, I saw the tombstones of Ran Haoyu and Li Yueran. They returned home to attend the funeral. The plane crashed and their bodies sank into the sea, so only the clothes tomb was erected. Such a change was a fatal blow to the resolute and cold Ran Zhenhai, and he collapsed in a fit of anger in bed.The majestic and majestic momentum that was once like a lion collapsed in an instant!

sorry!Jingyu, it was my appearance that caused all the tragedies. If you had to choose again, would you still choose to know me?Will you still treat me well without hesitation?Now I have no way of knowing the answer, because I don't know how to choose!

I just want to tell you that meeting you is the only color in my pale life.

You said that the five-year period has expired and you want to let me go, but do you know?The deadline was never set by you. I have the right to change it. Now I feel that ten years is not enough. I have dreamed that we will meet again in 20 years, so I will unilaterally delay the time until 20 years.

With a pious and repentant heart, I look forward to meeting you next time!

And now I want to fulfill the responsibilities and obligations that should be fulfilled on your behalf. I know it is difficult, but I have to do it!

It has been two days since I knelt in front of Ran’s house. The kindhearted Mrs. Li offered me some water and food in private, but I politely declined. Confession must be sincere, without any falsehood.

At noon on the third day, I seemed to be reminded by a voice to look up. On the balcony on the second floor, you were wearing a red floor-to-ceiling dress, bright red lips, and charming wavy long hair fluttering in the wind. The beauty made my heart palpitate Endless!

You are still that dazzling woman, I burst into tears with joy, my dry throat made a hoarse sound, I hope you can hear,

"Jingyu, I'm home!"

I will never leave you again, come and pick me up!Hug me tightly!Give me your bright and warm smile!

But you still look at me like that, smiling foolishly, so happy, so free-wheeling, I was willing to give my all for this smile, it's just that I'm not brave enough, not firm enough!

Jingyu, my love, laugh!Splurge to your heart's content on such a sunny day and bloom to your heart's content!

The familiar taste in the dream, the soft touch, this place that makes me sink infinitely, Jingyu, I am back again, back to our common memories!

Nothing in the room has changed, the bouquet you left before you left has withered and fallen off, the faint fragrance in the pillow, the lipstick on the dressing table, the red tissue, the brightly colored clothes in the cloakroom, the beautiful high-heeled shoes, the exquisite glitter Bright accessories, you used to like these things that make people more dazzling!

Mrs. Li said that I have been away for a long time, but it seems that I only had a long and sad dream in those drowsy days, but after waking up, you only exist in my mind, only when I miss you so much The moments appear on those sunny and cherry blossom days, wearing beautiful clothes, with a bright smile, smiling with joy, you are still that unscrupulous woman!

I know that without Ran Zhenhai's consent, I can't step into this house again, enter your world, and lie on your warm bed.I take good care of him, your father, and my father.

Although his slurred words are always swearing at each other, and his unaffected hands are facing me with force, I know he is hating, hating why it wasn't me who died, and why I appeared to kill his two sons and daughters.

I fully bear it, without any complaints in my heart. He expressed his anger and grief. I need such pain and humiliation to warn myself that I should live firmly until all the debts I owe are paid off!

In this painful and powerless day, I miss you so much, Jingyu, my love!

In the UK, I went to all the places where we have left traces, the beautiful campus, the quiet library, the wet street, the corner where you were beaten, the cozy cafe, and the apartment I rented, where now There lived an English couple, they had a lovely son, you know, English children always have beautiful eyes.

It is a joy to have a continuation of warmth and happiness in the house we once lived in.

The cherry blossoms have been defeated, and the smooth and slender branches are still swaying. Looking at the blooming flowers in the distance, I still decided to meet her, that gentle girl!

After a rain, the humid air, the British streets in midsummer became clean in the sunshine, the girl's long silky hair was casually tied behind her back, a few scattered strands of long hair fluttered with the wind, a white cotton dress, white Under the sun, her skin has a transparent halo. With her slender fingers, she picks up the bouquet in front of her nose and sniffs it lightly. She smiles peacefully and sorts the flowers and branches calmly. Her bright eyes are blank and unfocused. This may be her happiest feeling. moment!

The accident at the age of six left her in a daze in this world, but it never seemed to make her regret the novelty of this world!

The slightly raised corners of the lips, the slight dimples, make her smile more and more detailed!

I raised my hand and stroked the corner of my mouth, forgetting the smiling me, forgetting how beautiful I used to be!

On this sunny day, I saw that gentle and watery woman, and with just one glance, I had no doubt that Bai Owen would be hard-pressed for her affection!

Such a gentle smile is enough to warm all the loneliness in the world.

Jingyu, at a certain moment, have you ever been moved by such beauty?

"who are you?"

"I'm?"

"I know who you are! I've seen his wife. Although I didn't say it, I know that they have the same smell."

"What smells?"

"Your smell, sweet, like cherry blossoms!"

"mine?"

"I know you are Owen's lover, right?"

"No, I am not."

"Owen said that he fell in love with a woman as gentle as spring, not the woman before. She was too strong and domineering, and it was obviously not her."

The girl shook her head, pure and docile like a cat.

"Jing Yu, no, what did that woman say?"

"Quiet? Huh~"

The girl looked up at the sky and sneered,

"Owen, you will never be her main concern, I finally understand your loneliness!"

"What do you mean?"

The girl's smile made me tremble.

"You can't love deeply, why didn't you let him go earlier, so that he wouldn't end up like this!"

The girl made a fist with her fingers, her knuckles were obviously white,

"You love that girl named Jing Yu, why drag him into the water?"

"I... I'm sorry, I'm sorry! We... Forget it, everything is my fault, it's my fault! My cowardice and escape made us all lose our lovers, you can hate me!"

"I don't hate you. I thank you for letting me know that there was once a person who was happy because of my existence. As long as I think about it like this, I will feel happy. As long as I think about it like this, everything will pass and everything will be fine!"

The girl calmly told the story of her and Bai Owen, a love that started by chance but ended without a cause!

The girl was adopted by a British couple since she was a child, and she opened a flower shop when she grew up. An encounter with an alcoholic and a troublemaker brought a warm boy into her world.

Because of the fellowship, Bai Owen often visited the flower shop, helped the girl take care of the shop, and also talked about the three of us with her.

The girl knew that his bouquet was for the woman he admired, so she wrapped it very carefully. All the ribbons were made by the girl herself. She only hoped that Bai Owen could get what she wanted.

The intuition of a woman makes the girl have infinite worries in her heart, but she can't express it from her eyes.

Later, Bai Owen disappeared for a long time, and the girl's life returned to calm.

The aunt in China contacted the girl and was willing to take care of her. The girl wanted to go back to China to experience the city that Bai Owen said, so she agreed to go back to China.

The two met again on the plane back to China. Bai Owen was immersed in the joy of love, but the girl knew that such a long-lost love might just continue stubbornly, lacking the original passion and sweetness of love.

After the girl returned to China, she continued to run the flower shop, and Bai Owen often visited it, and the girl felt more and more the loneliness and loneliness in his heart.

All the tenderness spread inadvertently, but the two of them at that time were in it without knowing it!

"Our love is fixed at the most beautiful moment, like flowers, although it is short-lived, people remember their most beautiful appearance! Enough for me to spend the rest of my life!"

The girl smiled calmly, but said the most desolate words.

Such a girl deserves Bai Owen's heartbeat for her!

The flowers in the girl's hand seem familiar, and seeing the ribbons scattered on the table, I have the answer,

"what is this flower?"

"Tumi flower symbolizes the passing of a woman's youth and the end of love. It is a very decisive flower. When I first met Owen, my youth and my love ended at the most blooming time. Welcome Mine will be endless dullness and loneliness!"

The girl's beautiful smile directly hits the softest sore spot in people's hearts!

Jingyu, today I got to know a new kind of flower——Tumi flower.

The cherry blossoms are gone, and the tea is in full bloom!

Your departure also lost my entire youth!

Our love freezes at the most beautiful and splendid moment!

Enough for the rest of my life!

☆, 25

25

The last stop of the British itinerary is also the most important purpose of this time. I went to meet her - Ran Youni.

Jingyu, your beautiful niece, she escaped the plane crash because of illness.

Under the care of grandma, she looks fat and attractive, with bright facial features similar to yours. When she grows up, she will be an equally dazzling girl. Since then, this lovely girl has become my child. I let her call me aunt , I think you will agree.

Jingyu, when she was not born, I thought about how helpless you are when you hug her, and how she would make you feel happy, but these can only exist in my imagination forever!

After returning to China, I focused on the rectification and reform of the company. Uncle Lin was the only person my father trusted, but he lacked assertiveness and courage, so the company was in a lot of trouble. I gave up the companies in the UK and Hong Kong and concentrated funds on technology development. .

You know, it's hard for me, so I go out every day wearing bright clothes, cool makeup, wavy hair, high shoes, and being like you is what makes me happy Courage shuttles through all kinds of occasions.

I have a hearty smile, elegant and decent manners, decisive decisions, domineering momentum, everything is as close as possible to your appearance, and I can easily pretend to be in Zhang Yiman's loving eyes!

Only in the dead of night, when we go back to the room that belongs only to us, can we completely let go of our defenses, wear plain clothes, sit on the balcony and watch the scenes that happen in this secret space.

You started to look at me and chat with me. I remember the first time you put away your smile and called my name. I cried for a long time in surprise.

Your response makes my life no longer lonely. I like the time alone with you more and more. It’s just that the busy life makes such time a luxury, but it is extremely precious. The state of being unable to choose makes me helpless, but I know , we will have enough time to get along in the future, and I look forward to that day.

I buried you under the cherry blossom grove. When the cherry blossoms are in full bloom, you can enjoy the beautiful scenery all over the sky. I buried the box my mother left me with you, and returned the account book to you in advance. You, let you see that I can pay off the debt above, and when we pay off, it will be the time for us to meet again!

Our daughter's name is Xu Zhiqing, a nice name. She lives in a warm family and enjoys the happiness that neither of us has. I have fulfilled your expectations.

It's just that her eyes are becoming more and more like me, lonely and stubborn, I dare not contact her, it will make me feel scared, but fortunately there is a gentle girl to accompany her, I only hope that she will not be lonely in this life.

Spring is waiting for the flowers to bloom

2017.06.12-2017.07.09