give me a chance to be a good person

"what happened to you?"

Wu Lang's voice is always so warm, even with the temperature he leaned over, there is an appropriate distance and warmth. The two of them are shoulder to shoulder, and Shang Shijing looks up at the moonlight. It was a bit dull, and it took a long time before he said: "Wu Lang, have you ever been unhappy? It was when you suddenly felt bored and panicked, and felt that you had done something wrong, but no one blamed you, so there was no way to apologize. .”

"Yes." Wu Lang's voice was soft, soft and sweet, and he stretched out his hand suddenly, calling Shang Shijing to throw him into his arms, and leaned meekly and obediently, like leaning against a pillar. She leaned against Wu Lang like that, raised her head slightly, and never took her eyes off the bright moon.

"When?" Shang Shijing asked flatly, as if he didn't expect any answer from the other party.

Wu Lang smiled in a low voice, and didn't care too much and said: "On that rainy day, when my aunt told me about those things, I was far less calm and calm than in the illusion. My birth was not welcomed by anyone at all. It is a disgrace to my mother, it is a burden to my mother, it is a betrayal to my mother, and it is a cruel comparison to my younger brother. No one in this world has expectations for my birth, and neither does Yuze. People are like that, and since everyone gets the same thing, it's not surprising."

"At that time, I always felt guilty, and felt that the world should be guilty of me."

Wu Lang combed Shang Shijing's long hair carefully, and asked him again, "Why did you suddenly ask this question?" In fact, he probably guessed in his heart that the world has changed a lot. Bai Banan, maybe an old man died, but Nan Jixue had already told him that the Nether Ghost Prison had attacked Sihai Yantao, and since they had done so, it was almost impossible for people not to die.

"Is that time?" Out of a normal person's thinking, Shang Shijing should have felt sorry for digging out his scars inadvertently, but it was probably due to the malice of human nature, so he didn't feel much embarrassment or embarrassment. Feeling guilty, they breathed a sigh of relief, feeling like they fell together.

But in fact, that's different.

Wu Lang couldn't decide his own birth, but if Shang Shijing had been more vigilant at the time, he could have avoided such a disaster, or even if it happened, he could have a clear conscience.

Just like the truth that Fat Whale told him back then: If you blame me, I will feel better.

In fact, what you want to be forgiven is only your own hypocrisy, not the sincere feeling of guilt.

Shang Shijing leaned against Wu Lang, his chest heaving slowly, the waves rose and fell with the sound of the tide, like the singing of a mermaid in a dream, the track of the wind could be seen on the endless sea, this illusory thing, only with the You can only feel it when you touch it.The moonlight is spreading, like silver frost all over the place, wandering around, with a little salty taste, he whispered: "I should be more sad, but what I think more is Next thing."

"People always have to go down." Wu Lang's voice was mixed behind the waves, making one suspect that he has the blood of a mermaid, otherwise how could it be so beautiful.

Shang Shijing turned his head slightly, leaned completely into Wu Lang's arms, and slowly closed his eyes.

But Wu Lang just hugged him, lowered his head in great satisfaction, and sniffed the fragrance in his hair lightly. In fact, it was more of the chill piercing into his lungs. Spiritual power could not completely recover all the chill. Wu Lang was too close. , There is no way to completely avoid it, but fortunately, this bit of coldness is of no importance to him.

Just listen to me alone.

Just tell me one person.

Trust me alone.

Even if you can't just look at me...

To the vast majority of people, Shang Shijing is an overly calm and distant lover, as if he doesn't put the slightest thought on maintaining the relationship between the two of them, he walks blindly, waiting for others to chase after him.He seldom brought up his relationship with Wu Lang with anyone, but he did not hide it. They are inseparable, but they seem to be strangers. No matter how good-tempered a man or woman is, it is definitely difficult to accept such a relationship place.

However, Wu Lang is different.

Wu Lang tried so hard to escape from Tianzun, his success was only to keep himself away from that man, but he became the supporter of the past by nature.Ordinary people have gone through a terrible childhood like him, and they must be devouring and insatiable to ask for love from others; but Wu Lang is just the opposite, if he never bows his head, he is always so amiable and considerate to everyone Gentle, but if you change your mind and surrender to others, you will worry about the gains and losses of your feelings.

He craves attention but fears too much emotion.

Wu Lang is not a person with low self-esteem, his strength, status and even his past and status are enough for many people to look up to him, but there are some exceptions.How much he hates Tianzun's control over him, but in the end, he wants to love someone, and all he is willing to sacrifice is this control.

Things always seem so ridiculous.

Experiencing love did not make him better, on the contrary, it overturned everything, and Wu Lang became that helpless young man again. No matter how good his swordsmanship, no matter how handsome he was, how smooth and appropriate he was in dealing with people, But also afraid of the dissatisfaction of the master.

Even if he got Shang Shijing, even if the other party had promised to love him, it was still like a bright moon hanging in the sky, out of reach.

Shang Shijing seldom trusts and expects anyone, so he is not surprised when he encounters a "betrayal" that most people find shocking enough. When he came to the door, he had already become lovers with Wu Lang, and it was inevitable. He proposed the best plan and let Zhan Zhixi leave. He said it so sincerely, but he was sure that Wu Lang would not choose him.

That's why when he saw Wu Lang coming to pick him up that day, he seemed so deeply moved.

This is not a bad thing, at least it is not a bad person for work or even when getting along with most people. To them, Shang Shijing is an overly gentle and good person. After all, no one can read minds. , is not expecting anyone.

However, it is unavoidable to be mean to those close to him.

Yi Jianhan and Shang Shijing are the only two people in the world who trust each other, but Fat Whale will never see this person's true nature. It is not difficult to guess the characters in his pen. Those souls, but they come from another person in the same world, are obviously much more elusive.

Not to mention that their particularity lies only in the only involvement, not in the depth of emotion.

Wu Lang is used to the wind and snow, and knows that everyone is different. However, Shang Shijing's emotions are as cold as his body. He can feel that this man loves him sincerely, but he doesn't show any love. , which is not normal.After Shang Shijing regained his emotions, he sat upright and leaned against the pillar again, so Wu Lang leaned over gently, raised his hand attached to his cheek, and looked over meekly.

The eyes looked dignifiedly and quietly at the lover.

"What's wrong."

Shang Shijing asked him calmly, with his face slightly sideways, the moonlight softened his outline, as if his whole body was shining.

From the moment he wounded Tian Zun, Wu Lang knew that he had fallen into a quagmire, and his character was completely distorted. He used to regard his father as an insurmountable mountain, until he found out that he was a rotten person, from bone to flesh, completely rotten Tianzun was a ruthless lunatic a long time ago, and he, with his blood flowing in his body, naturally couldn't be a good guy. When Wu Lang left, he was satisfied with destroying the former spiritual pillar, but fell into a deeper confusion. middle.

After wandering through the years, Wu Lang has no interest in longevity. For him, lifespan is long enough, boring and boring, as stale as a summer dish that is unintentionally left overnight, disgusting.

Therefore, people who pursue longevity are mediocre to him, even Shang Shijing is no exception.

Because of past experience, Wu Lang hated anyone who tried to control him, but Shang Shijing was different, the only way he could love this person was to become a pawn in his hand willingly.How interesting, how much Wu Lang hates this fate, but in the end he is willing to become a supporter. People will always turn into the appearance they hate the most.

Perhaps it was precisely because Shang Shijing never wanted to control anyone that Wu Lang wanted to be his only pawn.

The master always does his best for his chess pieces.

Maybe he and Mr. Shang just happen to be a natural match. He never asks for much, and Mr. Shang can give too little. It may be more interesting to keep chasing like this.

Too much emotion, even meticulous thoughtfulness and care, may make ordinary people feel moved and happy, but to Wu Lang, it is nothing but boredom.

Everything will wear away, let alone feelings, he would rather get less, but exist forever; he is not willing to covet a moment of happiness and burn it out in an instant.

But Wu Lang also knew that Shang Shijing probably wouldn't care too much about this kind of thing. He was indifferent to others but kind-hearted, and he was afraid of death but still wanted to try. Paranoid and distorted pathological thoughts are probably not intolerable in his eyes.

So Wu Lang smiled at him, and Shang Shijing thought that his appearance was a bit playful and cute, so he couldn't help but also smiled.

"If I obey you obediently, will there be rewards in the future?"

The implications of these words were so strong that Shang Shijing couldn't help being startled.

"meeting."

However, he still speaks loudly, and even at this moment when he is deeply affectionate, he still thinks about life and death.

The night was too bright that day, Shang Shijing and Wu Lang entered the same room, Wu Lang was different from his appearance at certain moments, fierce and not at all polite, probably planning to charge some interest first; Shang Shijing put his arms around his neck, his already hoarse voice was like torn silk, Wu Lang was resting on his chest like a child, Shang Shijing was a businessman who refused to lose money, and he was just taken away. After receiving the reward, he said something incomprehensible as expected: "Don't ruin it in Shang Shijing's hands."

Probably out of fear that time will change and it will be forgotten.

Then he pulled Wu Lang's hair and asked people to look up, then lowered his head and kissed his left eye, which was actually a little tender.

Wu Lang heard the sound of his body being crushed to pieces.

He was in the abyss, looking at the bright moon, he couldn't help laughing.

So he replied meekly and well-behaved: "Okay."

Wu Lang has always been aware that he is not normal, but it was only at this moment that he realized that he was indeed hopeless.

The author has something to say: See if you can relax this point.

That's it for today's update.

I mentioned before that the shaping of this pair is completely different. I feel that everyone should have seen something wrong but didn't think about it.

I don't know if everyone feels more scary or more emotional after watching it.

[Note: There is no standard, but I am not sure how JJ will censor. Please try to be restrained when replying, and don't report it.

If there is no way, I can only delete it completely, which will definitely affect reading. 】