until now

Outside the station, Shen Feng talked about his past life word by word, with a flat tone as if he was telling someone else's story.Chen Xiao listened silently, keeping every story in his heart.

After the story was told, the two fell into silence.

"This is my past, and Shen Ling's, Qin Hao's past." Shen Feng exhaled a breath of white mist, feeling much more relaxed.

He reached out to take back his bag, but Chen Xiao lowered his head and took a step back, looking at him with burning eyes.

"Okay," Shen Feng sighed, "It's my fault to say goodbye without saying goodbye. This time, we really want to say goodbye."

Listening to Shen Fengyun's calm farewell, Chen Xiao felt suffocated for a moment, closed his eyes fiercely and opened them again, the bag in his hand fell to the ground with a bang, Chen Xiao took a step forward and grabbed Shen Feng's shoulder : "If you escaped at the beginning because you were afraid of facing your past, and now you have faced what you should have faced, and abandoned what you should have abandoned, you can't...you can't..."

In the end, even Chen Xiao didn't know what he was going to say, wanted him to stay, wanted him to take a good look at his heart, but those words were clearly on his lips but he couldn't say anything

"I know, I know everything," Shen Feng said with a slight smile and hesitation in his eyes, "I just didn't think it through..."

"...I really want to give you time," Chen Xiao slowly lowered his hand, but he took a step closer to Shen Feng, "but obviously, the time you need is beyond the range I can bear, so, in fact, I There is no need to leave any room for you, Shen Feng."

"Chen——" Before he finished calling out a name, a certain person used practical actions to prove the tough attitude in his bones. Chen Xiao blocked what Shen Feng wanted to say with his lips, not wanting to give the other party any chance to defend himself. It was a real and peaceful kiss.

The man's lips had a faint smell of tobacco and the coolness of mint. Such a domineering and gentle kiss really surprised Shen Feng. However, in the next second, the unbearable memories of the past began to clamor in his mind, and the nerves and cells of his whole body They all started to rebel.

Shen Feng's eyes darkened, and he pushed Chen Xiao away with undue force. After all, he couldn't hold back. He took a few steps back and supported the tree trunk and started to vomit.

He retched a few times and didn't spit out anything, but Shen Feng was still pale, and cold sweat broke out one after another.

Chen Xiao clenched his fists tightly, and stretched out his hand to ease his breath. Before the palm of his hand touched Shen Feng's back, he was slammed open.

"Don't touch me." Shen Feng's voice trembled slightly, it was so cold that it was about to freeze.

The two of them were in a stalemate like this, Chen Xiao looked at Shen Feng's pale face with regret, but he didn't want to give in.

But what if you don't give in?

"I see." Chen Xiao took a step back and picked up Shen Feng's bag, "I will give you time, but you can't leave now, you live in that house first, and I will give you a relatively free space. Wait until you think it over."

"Relatively free?" Shen Feng twitched his lips.

"Yes." Chen Xiao returned to the expressionless face when we first met, "I'm giving you time, just to make you think about how to accept me better. I won't let you go, this is what I can give you, The ultimate freedom."

This time, Shen Feng was completely under house arrest, and the house arrest was very clever.

Wherever he can see, he will never see another person, but whenever Shen Feng plans to leave here, someone will always find you at the last moment and bring you back.That person would naturally be Chen Xiao.

Shen Feng's daily routine is to feed the cat, draw pictures, and explore the new world in Chen Xiao's old house.Chen Xiao didn't stop Shen Feng from flipping through his belongings at will, so Shen Feng was also happy and unscrupulous.Surprisingly, in this old house, Shen Feng found many traces from Chen Xiao's childhood to student days.

The old childhood photos are full of age. Chen Xiao was chubby and cute when he was young, but his expression has begun to be very serious.

The textbooks and awards from school days are kept in a box. Chen Xiao had good grades when he was a student, with excellent grades in all subjects, and there are even photos of him receiving the award with Song Yu and Lei Xue.

Shen Feng found a photo of Chen Xiao's mother and her son when she was alive.In the group photo, Chen Xiao's expression is always gentle and full of smiles, completely different from now.

Oh, by the way, Shen Feng even found the love letter.Looking through those sincere letters, Shen Feng really couldn't comprehend what kind of expression Chen Xiao had at that time.Putting down the letter, I found that I haven't seen that person for a long time.

Shen Feng looked at the empty house, sighed at the devastated paintings, packed his luggage and planned to leave.

I went out and looked left and right, but still didn't see any suspicious people, so I went to the station confidently and boldly, and in the waiting hall of the station, I saw a somewhat haggard Chen Xiao with a cigarette in his mouth.

Unexpectedly, the sword was on the verge of breaking out, Shen Feng looked at the tall man in the windbreaker and sat down on the stool beside him.Chen Xiao stood still, Shen Feng patted the stool beside him: "Sit."

Chen Xiao exhaled a puff of cigarette, glanced at Shen Feng, then extinguished the cigarette and threw it into the trash can, and sat on the stool next to Shen Feng silently.

The two were silent for a while.

"You have to go." God knows how hard it is to squeeze these three words out of Chen Xiao's teeth.

Shen Feng smiled: "Why don't you ask why I'm leaving?"

"Why?" Chen Xiao crossed his hands on his knees, and the white joints hinted at something.

"I can't even see a second person in a month, no one can bear it." Shen Feng seemed to be relieved, leaning lazily on the back of the chair, looking at Chen Xiao, "Even if it's you, it's fine." ah……"

Chen Xiao couldn't react for a moment.Even me?Chen Xiao stared stiffly at a blemish on the marble floor, afraid of misunderstanding the meaning of Shen Feng's words.

Does he mean that he wants me to appear in front of him?

Chen Xiao mechanically turned his head and looked at Shen Feng.As soon as he opened his mouth, his voice was a little hoarse: "You have thought about it..."

"No," Shen Feng's answer dimmed Chen Xiao's hopeful eyes for an instant, but the next second's words rekindled the other party's hope, "I'm just, willing to give it a try. After all, the time we got along before Not bad, isn't it?"

If you are willing to give it a try, the future is full of possibilities.Chen Xiao would not be afraid of the unknown, but he was afraid that Shen Feng would send Chen Xiao to hell if he said something to death.

Letting go of the intertwined hands, Chen Xiao's palms were full of sweat. Shen Feng's answer made people nervous and pleasantly surprised, but calm and composed like Chen Xiao, he would not lose sight of one because of this sweetness.Shen Feng is still Shen Feng with thorns erected all over his body, he can't abandon the past, because darkness is also the twin of light, those memories have already become his flesh and blood, so Chen Xiao dare not act rashly.

"Wait for me, half a year." Chen Xiao stood up, picked up Shen Feng's bag, looked down at Shen Feng, his gaze was tender like never before, "Once this is over, I will accompany you wherever you want to go." looking at you."

Shen Feng raised his eyebrows: "You keep your word?"

"That's natural."

Shen Feng grinned, with an incomparably bright smile: "It's not wasting my trip today, help me carry the bag, although it's empty, it's still a bit heavy."

"Empty?" Chen Xiao was surprised that he was going to go out with an empty travel bag on his back.

"Of course not." As if seeing Chen Xiao's doubts, Shen Feng, who was walking in front, turned his head to look at Chen Xiao, with a teasing smile in his eyes. "Of course I made this trip to see you."

Chen Xiao was stunned for a second, then burst out laughing.Carrying the frayed travel bag, the smiling meteor walked behind Shen Feng.

But among the bustling crowd at the station, a certain delicate woman gritted her silver teeth.

When Shen Feng left Chen Xiao's house for the first time, he found Shen Feng one step too late for Chen Xiao. During the month of house arrest, Shen Feng was even more tightly protected by Chen Xiao. Xiao Xiao's displeasure caused his family's property to be suppressed everywhere, and even with the marriage agreed with the Chen family, Chen Qisheng began to lose interest.

"I don't believe in this evil," Mu Rou clenched her fists tightly. If you can't do it secretly, I don't believe that you can stop it if it's obvious!Chen Xiao, you are making a toast and not eating a fine wine!

The sky was getting dark gradually, and it was deep winter, but at four or five o'clock, the street lamps were lit up one after another.

Shen Feng walked slowly in front, and Chen Xiao led Bao Bao followed step by step, the two of them walked silently like this, as if they had reached the end of time.

It would be good if he could reach the end of the world, Chen Xiao thought with a slightly curved mouth.

Shen Feng felt a chill on his face, looked up at the black night sky rendered by the lights of the city, the feather-like heavy snow suddenly fell profusely, under the orange street lights, it looked extraordinarily wanton.Shen Feng's heart moved, he stopped, took off his gloves and reached out to pick it up.

No matter how cold and beautiful the snow falls into the palm of the hand, it turns into a drop of water after all.Shen Feng turned his head to look at Chen Xiao.

From early autumn to late winter, from the first time we met in the square, to now this tall and handsome man followed me with an expression of fear of being lost, it was only five months.During the five months, nothing earth-shattering happened, but these five months also made Shen Feng seem to have lived a rare and peaceful life.

Recalling that when I was Chen Xiao's personal painter, Chen Xiao was always by his side quietly, living a life that seemed to be in harmony with each other under the same roof. Shen Feng never felt awkward, on the contrary, he was very natural. I am used to this way of getting along with each other. The forced kiss a month ago was the bottom line that Shen Feng could not control. Now if the two can reach a consensus, Shen Feng really hopes that they can live in peace like this.

Seeing Shen Feng stop, Chen Xiao also stopped, standing three steps away from him, looking at Shen Feng's eyes that were still shining in the dark night, he had an intuition that those clear and transparent eyes In the eyes, something seems to be disappearing a little bit, and something is brewing a little bit.

"Today is New Year's Eve." Shen Feng put his hands in his pockets and shrugged, "Let's go home and eat dumplings."

Chen Xiao was silent for a second, then took two steps forward, only one step away from Shen Feng, these two steps were already too close.

"Okay," Chen Xiao said with a satisfied expression on his face, "Let's go home."

Shen Feng lowered his head, his eyes were like bright stars.