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"Can I play with you during Chinese New Year?" This time Yu Xing didn't ask Lin Ziyue to help her pack her things, Lin Ziyue just sat on the edge of her bed and played her mentally handicapped games.

"Hmm." Lin Ziyue lost her mind and shifted a wrong color block, and the four characters of clearance failed popped up on the screen, and she suddenly recovered, "Huh?"

"Chinese New Year—I want to play with you." Yu Xing was pulling out the innermost clothes from the closet, talking vigorously.

"Did you bring so many clothes home during the winter vacation, would you know how to wear them? Why did you take out your short sleeves?" Lin Ziyue finally remembered that she was here to guide mentally handicapped children to pack their bags, and hurriedly took out Yu Xing's clothes. Tucking the clothes back, "Isn't it enough to play here? How can I have time to play after only going back for a few days?"

Even though it was said so, and the actual situation was true, Lin Ziyue just didn't want to reject Yu Xing.

So after she said she didn't have time, she asked again: "Where are you going to play?"

"I don't know..." Yu Xing thought for a while, "Why don't you go to the gate of my high school and eat grilled fish, there is a delicious grilled fish."

"There is also a delicious grilled fish in front of our high school." Lin Ziyue smiled, "Which high school are you from?"

"One middle school."

"What a coincidence."

"Hey, I never met you in high school."

"Because I had already graduated when you entered school, are you mentally handicapped?"

Yu Xing thinks he might be.She touched her nose, feeling a little pity, and suddenly wanted to see what Lin Ziyue was like in high school, and whether she was different from others in her school uniform.

She turned her head to look at Lin Ziyue's face. The man was frowning slightly to help her tidy up the messy closet she had just rummaged through, and the eyelashes were long, and he wiped the stars in his eyes with a blink before letting them out.

Will Lin Ziyue in high school be sad often?Has she ever told anyone about that matter?What do you do when you are sad?Does anyone give her a hug?Who hugs it?

Yu Xingqing couldn't go on anymore, and sat down on the ground with his big padded jacket in his arms. With a bang, Lin Ziyue looked down.

Yu Xing didn't know what to say, hugged the padded jacket twice, and said, "I'm hungry."

Lin Ziyue: "..."

"Okay, I'll cook the dumplings, how many do you have?" The two looked at each other for a few seconds, and Lin Ziyue conceded.

"Five, I'm not particularly hungry."

"..." Lin Ziyue was speechless, "Are you really hungry?"

"... then eight."

For dinner, she thought that not only would she not be able to eat the food made by Lin Ziyue in the next period of time, but she would also go home to accept her mother's ravages. She felt extremely sad, and added an extra bowl of rice. It was extremely difficult to eat these eight dumplings , and even made her suffer from insomnia again.

She walked through every corner of this small house like a sleepwalker, except Lin Ziyue's room, and then went into the kitchen to make herself a glass of milk.

The moon cannot be seen tonight, Yu Xing sighed standing by the kitchen window.

Yu Xing almost didn't get up because he slept too late yesterday, and even tried to act like a baby with Lin Ziyue, saying that he didn't want to go back.

"I really don't want to go home. I can't get up. I really can't get up."

"Then you get in the car and sleep again." Lin Ziyue had a cold face and lifted her quilt without hesitation, "Anyway, you have to get up now."

Then Yu Xing and Lin Ziyue were angry until they got into the car, but because Yu Xing usually didn't talk much, Lin Ziyue didn't notice, thinking she just didn't wake up.

……

A little more angry.

This may be the last time we met years ago. Yu Xing was by the window. The light at the station was not good, and Lin Ziyue could vaguely see Lin Ziyue lowering her head and playing with her mobile phone through the glass.

Still the mentally handicapped game.

She suddenly remembered that Lin Ziyue said that she was mentally handicapped last night, so who is better than the other?

"Are you sleeping or not?"

Lin Ziyue thought she was still looking at the scenery, but she really didn't know what to see at the train station that hadn't left yet.

"It's not easy to sleep." Yu Xing pointed to the old man behind, signaling her that the chair should not be placed too low.

"Then why don't you sleep on my lap?" Lin Ziyue spread her legs and asked.

That's a good thing, Yu Xing didn't want to sleep at first, so he lay down without hesitation.Probably because she slept too little last night, she fell asleep until Lin Ziyue woke her up.

"It's almost there." Lin Ziyue pushed her, "I'm going to stand up for a while, my legs are going to be numb from your sleep."

Yu Xing watched Lin Ziyue get up and walk two steps with a grin that was slower than the old man behind, then turned her head and gave her a helpless look.

Yu Xing returned a very bright smile.

Lin Ziyue probably never let others sleep for so long, Yu Xing thought.

It really doesn't.

Yu Xing couldn't hold back for a day and didn't look for Lin Ziyue, and couldn't hold back the next day, even more so after drinking a little wine on New Year's Eve.

All the groups were giving out red envelopes, and when she was facing Lin Ziyue's dialog box, messages would always pop up, so she blocked all these groups without being moved by foreign things.

There are not many records of her and Lin Ziyue's news. After all, the two of them get along almost all the time, and there is nothing that needs to be communicated through chat software.

Scrolling up is almost full of message transmission records, and two people wandering in the supermarket separated and asked where each other is. Lin Ziyue spends most of the time in the vegetable section, and she spends most of the time picking yogurt.

Such a comparison makes it difficult to see Lin Ziyue now.

She didn't know why she had to be careful, but after typing for a long time, she finally sent a happy new year.

The person on the other side was probably playing a mentally handicapped game again, and replied to the message very quickly. The same four words also wished her a happy new year.

Yu Xing was a little dissatisfied.

Probably because of the alcohol, the normally suppressed emotions came out all of a sudden, she felt that she was being impulsive, but she had thought about this matter countless times, how could it be considered impulsive.

She told Lin Ziyue, I like you, and I want to fall in love with you.

Yu Xing found a way out for herself that wasn't considered a way out. During the New Year's Eve dinner, her mother asked her to come back again. She stared at her phone, thinking that if Lin Ziyue said she didn't like her, she wouldn't go back.

Lin Ziyue read that sentence countless times and thought she was dreaming.

Her heart was beating violently, her hands were shaking so much that she couldn't type a word, Lin Ziyue wanted to find a blade in her pocket again, and then remembered that Yu Xing had already taken it away.

She wanted to agree, but a good word was stuck in her chest, and she couldn't say it no matter what.

"I am this person." Lin Ziyue's hands were shaking, so she skipped each word slowly, counting her shortcomings with her fingers, in front of the person she likes.

This kind of calmness is more effective than scraping the fire with a knife.

"My personality is really not very good. You may have discovered that sometimes I can get angry all day for a little inexplicable thing."

"I'm not good-looking enough. If you take a second look, you may find that my eyes are not big enough and my face is not small enough."

"I'm not kind enough or honest enough, and..."

And if it's not that I'm not kind enough or honest enough, you should still have a very good sister now.

At this point, Lin Ziyue couldn't bear to continue typing, so she took a deep breath and continued to list the next one.

"I'm afraid that you will regret it after being with me. This road is difficult to walk. You should choose better people to walk along the way."

Lin Ziyue knew that she was not the better person, but she was desperately trying to give herself another chance. Yu Xing was her light, and she had already discovered it.

So she continued to type: "Can you think about this question for at least 10 minutes before asking me?"

The words that the other party was typing stopped, and the entire screen was filled with only my own message, and there was not even a single word or punctuation below it. It looked as if it had been rejected.

Sure enough, the quiet environment is easy to make people cranky.

Lin Ziyue's parents stayed at grandma's house to watch the new year with other adults, and she came back first on the pretext of wanting to sleep.It was so lively, she also wanted to talk to others, but she didn't know who to talk to.

In fact, Lin Ziyue was not playing the game just now, she and Yu Xing stared at the dialog box together, watching the opposite party who had been moving all the time inputting, expecting what kind of blessing Yu Xing would give her.

The result is only four words.

Lin Ziyue was disappointed for less than a minute, and the following sentence frightened her, she had never done this before in her dreams.

There was no one else in the house, and when she went out and closed the door behind her back, the whole house turned off the lights. She hadn’t come back for nearly a year, and she couldn’t remember exactly where the switches were. There was dim moonlight coming in from the window. The house of almost ten years looks a little strange like this.

There is a whole row of Coke bought by her mother in the refrigerator. In fact, it is almost the same as whether it can be stored in the refrigerator in this weather, but it is still put together with the full New Year's goods. It looks a bit pitiful crowded in the corner. Jin just took out a can and drank it in one gulp while standing in the kitchen.

It's been almost 10 minutes.

Her restless and unsure of how to deal with it was miraculously soothed by this can of Coke.

She just sighed that time passed too fast, standing at the kitchen door, she could see the sofa and the torn wallpaper in the living room that she couldn't remember when she changed, and she grew so big in a blink of an eye.

People can always feel their own insignificance in front of time, and many seemingly trivial decisions may not have a chance to be redeemed in this lifetime.

The phone vibrated frantically in the bed.As soon as he came back, he was woken up by a New Year's greeting text message from a group of people who couldn't even remember their faces. Lin Ziyue just put on the quilt and continued to sleep when the second text message came again.

Still can't remember the face.

She turned off the bell in a fit of anger, leaving only the vibration.

Over there, Yu Xing didn't receive a reply for a long time, so she called instead. She was always very stubborn, no matter whether Lin Ziyue answered or not, she always wanted an answer.

By the time Lin Ziyue answered the phone, she had made eight consecutive calls.

"Hey?"

"How could you think of asking me to wait another 10 minutes." Yu Xing opened his mouth without waiting for Lin Ziyue to speak. Lin Ziyue has rarely seen her not calm, and even now she sounds calm when speaking, Except that the gap between words is too long, like a person who has lost his voice for a long time, he can finally speak again, trembling and adjusting his pronunciation word by word.

"How could such a thing be purely impulsive, I have thought about it thousands of times."

"I can't wait for a minute. Someone insisted on introducing me to someone at dinner just now. I wondered if you were older than me and there would be many people introducing you. I was afraid that someone would abduct you if I waited an extra minute. Then I I didn't even get a chance to say that."

"I don't even know how you nonsense about the shortcomings you mentioned. No matter how I think about it, I just want to think that you can splash water all over the floor while washing the dishes and then get angry with yourself."

"That's not a disadvantage, and it happens that I like to do dishes."

"I still like you."

"I'm serious, Lin Ziyue, would you like to spend all the days with me in the future?"

On the last day of the Chinese New Year, Lin Ziyue had an extra girlfriend.