I love you and hate you, ask if you know

Three in the morning.

The reporters guarding the Army Hospital are still tirelessly waiting and seeking the latest news.Wrapped in overcoats, they wandered around with cigarettes in their mouths in the cold wind.Twos and threes talking in low voices, guessing, discussing...

Under the flashing red lights of the intensive care unit, a door seemed to separate life and death.Wang Manchun eagerly looked around the small glass window on the door.Minglou's hospital bed was surrounded by layers of people.She couldn't see anything except the backs of the busy medical staff.

After watching for a long time, she turned around dejectedly, leaned against the door for a while, and circled back and forth along the corridor, unable to calm down no matter what.

Taking a deep breath, she pressed her hands and cheeks against the door, holding her breath to listen.In this place that she could reach and was closest to him, she closed her eyes and prayed silently.

Familiar footsteps from far to near.Wang Manchun didn't open his eyes, and silently maintained the same posture until his stiff body was wrapped tightly in warmth.

"Sister Manchun, be careful of catching a cold."

Ah Cheng gently put his coat on her thin shoulders, and suddenly tears blurred his eyes and choked him up.

With great difficulty, he helped Ming Jing, who had collapsed and nearly fainted, into the lounge, and forced her to calmly coax her to fall asleep under the effect of the tranquilizer.At this time, seeing Manchun rushing here in only unlined clothes, standing alone in front of the elder brother's ward, the fragility and softness that had been restrained with all his strength were released instantly.

"It's my fault." Wang Manchun's face was gloomy, and she murmured as if dreaming: "I should have taken care of that guard left by Hiroshi Kawasaki at the door. superior……"

"It's not your fault, it's the negligence of the Japanese Communist Party's action team. Who would have thought Ono and the others would miss it?"

Ah Cheng quickly hugged her and tried to comfort her: "Besides, he sneaked back to seek his own death, and he didn't even touch the side of the eldest brother. The injury of the eldest brother has not been very good since nightfall, and it has nothing to do with this attack."

"Hasn't it been good since nightfall?" Wang Manchun looked pale, and sighed faintly: "Yingzi didn't tell me anything."

"She doesn't want you to worry too much. She is a nurse, so she won't be as panicked as the elder sister. When I received a message from Axiang, the situation was not so bad, and I didn't want to call you. Who knows... "

He stopped suddenly and stopped talking.Wang Manchun's face changed, and he grabbed him tightly and asked repeatedly: "What? What happened to my senior brother?"

Ah Cheng lowered his head and remained silent, before continuing slowly: "The situation took a turn for the worse after midnight. Eldest brother suddenly developed a high fever, coupled with the severe nerve damage caused by the electric shock, which triggered violent convulsions all over the body. Eldest brother's heart rate soared all the way to Above 200, ventricular fibrillation occurs immediately, and breathing stops suddenly. At this time, even if Yingzi wanted to notify you, he couldn’t get away to call.”

Wang Manchun listened in a daze, the hand holding him suddenly tightened, he opened his mouth but couldn't say anything.

A Cheng paused, trying to maintain a steady tone of voice: "Doctor Akita urgently called experts from various disciplines to jointly rescue him, and finally calmed down the convulsions, but the elder brother's heart stopped repeatedly, and he couldn't maintain it every time he was revived, and his heart rate was extremely unstable. Often in the blink of an eye, it will drop from more than 200 to below 40, the speed is disorderly, jumping and stopping, and it can't be stabilized."

Wang Manchun's ears were buzzing, his empty eyes gradually lost focus, and he slid slowly along the wall and sat down as if losing strength.

"Sister Manchun, don't be afraid."

Ah Cheng involuntarily knelt down and hugged her into his arms with tears in his eyes: "Brother's heart stopped every time, but every time he finally recovered after first aid. He is so strong, he will definitely survive!"

The two snuggled together tremblingly, warming each other and supporting each other.The hour hand passed two more frames slowly and with difficulty.

When the darkness gradually disappeared in the alternation of dusk and dawn, the exhausted Akita finally walked out of the ward with heavy steps.The people who stayed at the door together were like awakened zombies, bouncing off the ground, watching him slowly take off the mask.

"Now, you can go in and see him."

"Mr. Akita..." Wang Manchun and Ah Cheng looked at each other, and opened their mouths tremblingly, with trembling lips, afraid to ask further.

"We've done our best."

Akita's face was serious and his voice was painful: "Although breathing and heartbeat have temporarily recovered, the long-term coma and multiple circulatory arrests have caused the patient's body to suffer repeated blows, and now there are signs of systemic infection and multiple organ dysfunction. I The best doctors in each department have been assembled to set up a rescue team and try their best to save his life. But you must be mentally prepared: he was tortured too severely, and his body was destroyed long ago. Tone. Theoretically speaking, the prognosis is not optimistic. It may be difficult for the patient to wake up again."

Wang Manchun heard the dizziness, and instinctively closed his eyes and leaned towards Ah Cheng.Ah Cheng stood upright with a livid face, clenched his fists tightly to restrain the fear and heartache that came from being overwhelmed.

"Go in and stay with him for a while longer. Chairman Ming won't wake up for a while, there are nurses to take care of him, so you can rest assured."

After Akita finished speaking with a sigh, he patted them sympathetically and helplessly, and left sadly.

The medical staff who gathered around the bed for rescue all night left one after another, and the deserted ward was still cold, and the thin sky had not yet illuminated the heavy curtains.Under the dim light, Wang Manchun walked quietly to the sick bed step by step.

In a coma, Minglou had an ice cap on his head, various needles and instruments attached to his body, his lips were blue and his eyes were closed, and he was lying on his back on the pillow.Less than a day later, his complexion became more and more haggard and gray, as if he was trapped in an endless twilight, and gradually even the strength to breathe was about to disappear.

Wang Manchun held back tears, and gently put his hand on his wrist.In the bone-chilling tactile sensation, weak and feeble pulsations came through the fingertips, causing an uncontrollable heartache like twisting.

"Master!"

Carefully holding the hand covered with needle marks, she leaned over and lowered her head, kissing the soft and cold piece deeply.Tears, rustling down.She bit her lip, trying not to cry out.

Ah Cheng silently clasped her shoulder behind him.Wang Manchun tried hard to suppress the turbulent tears, took a deep breath to calm himself down, and whispered to him in a more relaxed and gentle tone than usual, the corners of his lips even raised a slight arc:

"Brother, it's me, Ah Cheng and I came to see you. Are you feeling better?"

"Miss Mingjing has been guarding you all day, and you are almost scared to death, do you know that? Ah Cheng managed to persuade her to rest for a while. These days, she has really suffered. Brother, when she comes back, you Just wake up and make her happy, okay?"

"That little thing in Mingtai, everything was going well in Beiping, but after reading about you in the newspaper, he was in a bad mood. The latest call from the organization said that this kid actually tried to sneak back to Shanghai to see you without authorization. Fortunately, he was caught Jin Yun stopped it in time, so it didn't make a big mistake. But disciplinary action is inevitable, it depends on how severe it is."

"Let me just say, your young master's emotions are free and unrestrained, and even the teacher can't cure him completely. If you get bad again, who can control him and protect him?"

The sleeping person didn't respond at all.In the quiet ward, there is only the slight sound of oxygen being continuously pushed.

"There is also Ah Cheng who has been following you and protected under your wings. Brother, even if you think he has grown up and can walk out of the sky by himself, don't you really rest assured and leave him in this rapid vortex? Does the center fend for itself?"

Ah Cheng behind him whimpered uncontrollably, took a step forward, knelt down silently, buried his head in the plain white bed, weeping uncontrollably.

Wang Manchun paused for a moment, and slowly stroked the still and picturesque face with her slender fingertips, and then said calmly: "Shanghai station is in urgent need of reorganization due to the small number of people, and the Chongqing side has been slow to do so. Movement. The teacher asked me again, asking whether I should take Ah Cheng back or take you back? But you are the head of the intelligence department at Shanghai Station, and neither the teacher nor I have the right to make this decision for you.”

"Actually, I really wish the teacher would take both of you away."

She sighed slightly, her eyes were foggy, and the mist in her eyes began to rise uncontrollably and condense again.

"Do you know? When you didn't come back, I was looking forward to your return every day, and I was afraid of your return. Sometimes, I really hate the injustice of fate. Why is it you who want you to see me in the most evil way? I I even imagined the scene where we drew our guns to each other, and imagined being killed by you. But sometimes, I feel lucky to see you again before I die, and to relive the old dreams of the year, even if it is just a vain deception. "

As she spoke, her tone was surprisingly stable, as if she was talking about other people's affairs: "I have calculated everything and made all the preparations. But you will always be better than me. Okay, you have to take this risky game , you just leave it to me. Our underground party organization, the Shanghai station of the military command, and the family you care about most, you can’t leave these messes and let them go!”

Minglou had never felt so powerless before.

The world is chaotic, looking around.Wandering in the endless darkness and almost numb pain, I don't know the direction, I can't distinguish things.In a trance, I can always hear calls from far and near: Big Sister's, Man Chun's, Ah Cheng's... They are calling him to go back.However, the eyelids are heavy and the hands are heavy.He seemed to be a cocoon tightly entangled in layers of silk, no matter how hard he struggled, he couldn't move, opened his mouth with all his strength but couldn't make the slightest sound, and couldn't respond at all.

In the dimness, a familiar and warm hand was caressing his forehead, gently brushing away the cold sweat from the tip of his forehead.After a while, Ah Cheng's deep voice rang out: "Sister Manchun was dragged away to eat something, we were all worried about her. While she is not here, brother, I have something to say to you."

Minglou tried his best to concentrate his slack spirit, and groped for the way home following the voice that was close to his ears.

"When you first went abroad, Sister Manchun kept telling me about your childhood. You told me about the first time you took her to Suzhou. She lost her playfulness and couldn't find you. She was so frightened that she cried. Brother, you do you remember?"

do you remember?That little girl who was as clear as water and as graceful as spring, that first and most beautiful emotion that came from the deepest part of his soul, the once-in-a-lifetime green years are unforgettable.If you forget, how can you forget?

"Later you found her, held her in your arms and coaxed her for a long time. You said to her: Man Chun, don't cry..."

Manchun doesn't cry, and she's not afraid of getting lost.As long as you call me, no matter where I am, I will definitely come back to find you.

When I was young at that time, I really hoped to hug her and take care of her for the rest of my life.As long as she is willing, the ends of the earth and the ends of the earth will be together.I only sigh that after all, he was no match for the shock/change of the troubled times, and he broke his promise, which is an irreparable mistake in his life.

"You will definitely come back to her. Just because of this sentence, she waited silently for a year after year. Then, you came back..."

A Cheng didn't say any more.

Wave after wave of remorse flowed endlessly from the heart to the whole body.Minglou once again tried his best to break out of this indescribable and boundless obscurity.Ying Wu is like him, even when his consciousness is wandering, he can understand what Ah Cheng wants to say.However, all the struggles seemed so feeble, and all the attempts to respond were in vain. I could only silently listen to Ah Cheng's more and more excited demands amidst all kinds of heartache:

"Actually, in my heart, I have always blamed you. I blame you for your cowardice at the beginning, and even more for your reason and ruthlessness later. You left and hurt her once eight years ago, and you hurt her severely when you came back eight years later. Until now, big brother, you can't hurt her for the third time!"

"She told you so much just now, in all aspects, so many reasons to force you to get better. She told you about missions, about Shanghai Station, about elder sister, Mingtai, and me, but she just refused to talk about herself. She Too stubborn, too proud, at this time, I can't allow myself to lose my temper too much, and insist on acting calm and strong. But I know, and you should know, she is really about to collapse!"

"In these years, she has suffered too much and lost too much, and she doesn't even care about her own life. Only you are more important than life in her heart. She can die calmly, but she absolutely Can't lose you! So big brother, you have to get better no matter what, you really can't hurt her for the third time!"