Hollywood Rhapsody

"Boys Don't Cry", a small-budget independent film, has not changed anything from the original except for the female lead. Sarah is very cautious about this project. If I make any suggestions, I am afraid that I will accidentally lose the grades of the original work to Butterfly.

Saying she doesn't care about awards?Don't care about honor?Not interested in Best Actress?That's bullshit!

Sarah's inner world is not as free and easy as she showed in front of Michael and Leonardo. The reason why she didn't compete with Weinstein is because this year is really not a young year for the leading actress award. She knows that she has no That two catties.But Weinstein offended her so much, and she is not the Virgin, how could she not be angry?Before the filming started, Sarah kept holding back her breath!wait and see!Let's see who will win the statuette next year?

But when the filming of "Boys Don't Cry" officially started, this anger gradually disappeared. She began to fully devote herself to the role, no longer for the statuette, but for the "boy" who was killed in 1993, who longed for happiness, longed for Brandon who really became a boy.

In front of the camera, Sarah came out wearing a bath towel, her hair was still dripping with water, she quickly closed the door, and stretched her hand between her legs. Of course, the camera would not shoot sensitive parts, but she bit her lip and frowned The expression on her face seemed to be a little painful, and then she held the tampon in her hand, and turned her head to look at the closed door vigilantly.She stuffed the tampon into the bag, looked around the room aimlessly, and finally hid the tricky bag under the mattress. After doing all this, she looked at it again, and seemed dissatisfied, she stuffed it hard .

And the next step is the main event. She used the bandages to complete the corset with great skill and put on her panties. She straightened her wet hair in front of the mirror and let out a light breath. Her expression was not as serious as when she just came out. This is A small detail, the director did not ask her to do this expression processing, but Sarah felt that for Brandon, who has gender barriers, only by hiding his towering chest can "he" feel psychologically relaxed, so in After pondering over and over and discussing with the director, she added such a detail of expression change. It will not become a cadenza of Sarah's performance, but the embodiment of countless small details will make the character image more full.

After stuffing a ball of socks into the panties and adjusting the angle, Brandon in the mirror finally raised the corners of her lips in satisfaction. She repeatedly turned sideways to appreciate the body in the mirror. After putting on a T-shirt, the flat-chested and fake male The lower body looks so perfect, this is the real "he", "he" licked his fingers to make his hairstyle more handsome, and even couldn't help raising his eyebrows in front of the mirror, "his" mood Obviously more flying, "he" enjoys the feeling of being a boy, "he" is a happy and handsome boy!

"CUT!" Director Camberley Pierce nodded with satisfaction. He found that the cooperation with Sarah was much smoother than expected.This girl's performance is down to every detail, and her control over the details is even to the point of outrageous - a shot is rehearsed three times, and she can guarantee that only the part pointed out by the director will be improved, and other performances will remain almost completely unchanged. It's like it was carved out of a mold, like a program that has been edited a long time ago, she just fixed the bugs purposefully!How can this be?She is a human being, not a machine, how could she maintain such a stable performance?

"How many times have you practiced these shots?" After re-reading the shooting results, Camberley Pierce couldn't help expressing the doubts in his heart, "How can you make the angle of grabbing hair the same every time? Every time the corner of the mouth The upward arc remains the same? I even suspect that you are a robot, and every performance of yours is performed precisely according to the set scale, how is this possible?"

"I have indeed rehearsed many times in private, there must have been more than a dozen times. But what you said just now is a bit exaggerated. My performance is actually different every time, such as the scene where I just grabbed my hair. If you observe carefully, you will find that I His fingers are a little more bent..." Sarah shrugged, pointing out a small detail that Pierce didn't notice, "It doesn't affect the overall effect of the performance, so I guess you just ignored it."

"Here?" Pierce went back and watched it again in disbelief. Sure enough, as Sarah said, there were indeed subtle differences between the two performances, but if you didn't look carefully, you wouldn't notice it at all. He stared at it with a hellish expression. Hold Sarah for two seconds, "You really only practiced this shot a dozen times? I'm afraid that even if I practice hundreds of times, I can't perform as stably as you. It's a pity that you are an actor. You should become an athlete. Such as gymnastics, diving or skating, always maintain the most standard movements, and you can probably keep all games without mistakes."

"Forgive me, it's not as exaggerated as you said, I just like to practice in front of the mirror, and I have a little obsessive-compulsive disorder for details." Sarah laughed and laughed, "Obsessive-compulsive disorder is sometimes painful, such as my The pillow must be [-] centimeters away from the head of the bed, the toothbrush must be placed facing the left, the cup must be rinsed three times before it can be reused, and the door must be checked two or three times almost every night to sleep peacefully..."

"Eh... what else is going on?" Pierce had a sympathetic look on his face, and he patted Sarah on the shoulder to show comfort, "Excellent people often have certain quirks, I think it's because of your respect for her." Such attention to detail has created what you now call an exquisite performance."

Exquisite performances may not be wonderful, Sarah couldn't help sighing in her heart when she returned to the room after a day of filming.

Leonardo once said that Sarah’s performance is closer to expressionism, and he has a model in his heart, and then he carves every action and every detail based on this, but this kind of performance lacks aura, and excellent character creation must be integrated into the soul .For example, the character of "Sarah", because the setting is relatively popular, so combining her previous life growth experience and the memory of Sarah's original body, she finally figured out the character's psychology very well.But Brandon in "Boys Don't Cry" is obviously a marginal person, far from the public psychology.

Just like Sarah and Leonardo analyzed before, after long-term imitation and even experience of life, she can perfectly show the shape of a boy, but what about the soul of a person with gender identity disorder?Her gold finger doesn't have this heaven-defying function.

She compared the original and thought she was no worse than Hilary, but Hilary's "Brandon" was still a girl at heart, which made the movie look more like a gay tragedy, and Sarah hoped that her character creation would be closer to the prototype of the story , to express the pain of gender barriers more vividly.This is the crux of the matter, although the filming went well and director Pierce was pleased with Sarah's performance, Sarah herself was not.

Under the premise of not changing the script or influencing the director, Sarah hopes to surpass the original work through her performance.After the brain possesses extraordinary image memory processing ability, as long as she thinks, as long as she is willing to work hard, it is not impossible to completely replicate the performance of the original Hillary, but she does not want to, she hopes to make a breakthrough, and people will talk about it after many years There will be no more sighs of regret when it comes to this movie, she wants to restore the real Brandon, a Brandon with a boy soul.

"I'm a boy! I'm Brandon! I'm a man! I'm trapped in a female-sex-shell, but my soul is a man! A man!" Sarah paced the room, telling herself over and over again. Make psychological hints, "Man is good! I was born to be a man! I am obviously a man!"

Just like the slogan that is popular all over the country, "No gifts will be accepted for this year's festival..." Who will pay attention to this sentence in the first place?But after countless times of brainwashing, everyone will think of it at the first time when giving gifts, and even take it for granted!

Another example is that a child has been instilled by the elders and the whole society from the beginning of the concept of "boys should not cry, girls should be quiet", so he/she takes this sentence as a matter of course truth and natural law since he/she has cognition .But is it really so?Who stipulated that a man should endure even if he is sad?Isn't it cute if a girl is lively and naughty?

It's all just because of long-term psychological hints.

Tell a lie a hundred times and it will become true!This is what Sarah is doing, constantly forcing the idea that she is a man into her brain, as if brainwashing herself to accept this awareness, and believe this hint-"You are a man! You are a man trapped in a female-body !"

She even searched for images of beautiful men in various movie memories in her mind, from the handsome Rhett in "Gone with the Wind", to the charismatic mafia in "The Godfather", from Tom Cruise's handsome officer in "Top Gun" , to Leonardo's poor boy in "Titanic", with all kinds of male characters and completely different character settings, she began to gradually sink into the longing for the gender of men.

Finally, under the continuous bombardment of consciousness, Sarah found that even when she thought of Leonardo, her first thought was no longer sweetness or miss, but "It would be great if I could be him! "

And her performance became more and more exciting with the success of the psychological suggestion. When filming an intimate scene with Chloe Sevigny, Colo could not even tell whether she could kiss a boy or a girl. She was just like the script described. In that way, I was completely fascinated by the "tomboy" in front of me.Driven by Sarah's performance, Ke Luo, like all girls in love, was completely intoxicated by the gentle kisses and caresses of her "boyfriend", and the happiness and sweetness between the two filled the entire scene.

"Perfect!" Director Pierce looked at the monitor, and he couldn't think of a better adjective except "perfect". He looked at Sarah and gave a thumbs up, "Brandon, you are the best boy I've ever seen!"

Without special request, the entire crew stopped calling Sarah's name. They all called Sarah "Brandon" in unison, as if the filming here was really a movie with a male protagonist.Everything seemed to be going smoothly unexpectedly. The movie was halfway through shooting in less than two weeks, but the accident happened suddenly at this time. No one thought that before the most important event came, the heroine unexpectedly entered the hospital!

There were shouts and exclamations. On the shooting scene of "Boys Don't Cry", director Pierce ran to the place where Sarah fell, and he stretched out his hand to pull Sarah up from the ground, and asked with some concern: "Is there any harm?" Right? Really don’t need a substitute? Is it okay to continue like this?”

"Of course it's okay. I'll use a stand-in for this kind of scene. How can I make action movies in the future?" Sarah didn't care about the dirt on her body at all. She rubbed her nose with her index finger and wiped her face vigorously, signaling Pierce to continue. filmed.

Holding the rope tightly with both hands, stepping on the bumper of the truck with both feet, the body is completely suspended outside the car, supported by hands and feet, clenching her teeth so as not to be thrown as the car circles around the farm. This is Sarah The scene being filmed at the moment - bumper sliding!

"Hiss..." Seeing Sarah being thrown out by the pickup truck again and falling heavily to the ground, many crew members couldn't help gasping, it hurts to see it!

But Sarah seemed to be struggling, she got up, patted the dust on her body casually, and shouted excitedly, "Come again!"

Leonardo and Ian, who came to visit the set, happened to see this scene. They frowned in unison as they watched the tomboy being thrown off the car again and again.

"Do you have to act like this? She will fall!" Ian's face was as gloomy as the night.

"If the script is written like this, she can only act according to it." Leonardo said and looked at the young man beside him, "Do you think that being an actor means reading lines to the script? Although I also feel distressed, but this is Sarah La's job, she's just finishing her job... Hiss... I'm afraid I'm going to fall and hurt myself..."

Leonardo saw Sarah fall again in the middle of speaking, he couldn't help but lost the mood to chat, took out his mobile phone and called Rick: "I remember you recommended me a very useful falling method last time." Apply ointment?"

"..." Ian listened to Leonardo talking on the phone, but kept his eyes on Sarah. When Sarah climbed into the car again, his lips were tightly pursed into a line.

"Jesus!" Leonardo put down the phone and ran towards the center of the field with a low curse. arrival.

"Honey, are you okay? God, is this a broken bone?" Leonardo straight...bent...to check Sarah's injury, and stopped in time when he touched that arm .

"There is no fracture, it's just a bruise...Hiss...the knuckles may be hurt...Blame me, I just rolled up my sleeves in a moment of excitement." Sara raised her head and smiled at Leonardo, but she grinned in pain , the left hand and the forearm were scratched a lot, and the blood and mud on the wound were mixed together, which looked really scary.

"Go to the hospital? Your hand has to be dealt with, it looks misplaced. Mr. Pierce, can I take Sarah to the hospital?" Leonardo looked at Director Pierce, although he would take Sarah to the hospital regardless of whether the other party agreed or not. Go Sarah, but a polite question is still indispensable.

It wasn't until Leonardo stuffed her into the car that she noticed that Ian was following behind her. She greeted him with some embarrassment, and even comforted herself with a joke: "At least I have enough time to listen to your work report, Are you ready? We can talk slowly in the hospital."

"But honey, what you should worry about now is the award ceremony tomorrow night." Leonardo took out the phone of the public relations manager Dawn, and reminded Sarah while pressing the dial button, "You have to pester Bandages to wear that tube top dress?"

The author has something to say: Petting Sarah who hurt her head...

Aww!I actually wrote the second update!I originally wanted to save the manuscript to improve the state of the streaking,

It turned out that I couldn't bear it at all, and wanted to post it after writing it!

Aww~~~~ come and praise me!