Ode to Joy - Healers don't heal themselves

In the quiet ward at night, Tan Zongming looked at Su Yaqing who was lying on the hospital bed with a pale face. She hadn't woken up after the operation, and she lost her usual agility. At this time, she was more fragile like a porcelain doll.

Jiang Zuo went to the ward after get off work and saw Tan Zongming sitting beside the bed, staring blankly at Su Yaqing

"The operation was successful, don't worry too much," Jiang comforted with his left hand in his pocket

"Well, thank you." Tan Zongming looked gratefully at Jiang Zuo, looking at the bruise on the corner of his mouth, "I'm sorry, I was shocked when I saw Xiaoya's appearance this afternoon."

"I didn't keep my promise." Jiang touched the slightly sore corner of his mouth with his left finger and smiled. This promise is not only a promise to Tan Zongming, but also a promise he made before he left.

"She is always so rational. She thinks of saving others even when she is dying. She really thinks of herself as Bethune." Tan Zongming looked at Su Yaqing who closed his eyes with pity, knowing that Su Yaqing was still in such a dangerous situation. Let Jiang Zuo save others first, should he say she is selfless or selfish?

"She respects the profession of a doctor." Jiang Zuo frowned and looked at Su Yaqing, "But when her left wrist fell down the mountain, she used too much force, which caused the tendon in the wrist to be strained, and at the same time caused the dysfunction of the wrist joint, resulting in a small joint subluxation."

"What do you mean?" Tan Zongming frowned and asked Jiang Zuo

"Although it has been corrected, the damage is quite serious. Even after recovery, she may not be able to pick up the scalpel for a long time. She is a surgeon, and this is a fatal blow to her." Jiang Zuo looked at Tan Zongming worriedly, He didn't know that Su Yaqing's wrist would be so serious

"Can't you recover even if you resume training?" Tan Zongming looked at Jiang Zuo incredulously. He knew that for Su Yaqing, these hands were her pride. What should she do when she wakes up?

"Rehabilitation is just about being able to live a normal life, but it takes a long time to hold a scalpel on the operating table. Her wrist can't hold heavy objects for a long time and fix a position for too long, otherwise it will be dislocated." Jiang Zuo shook his head heavily. It means that Su Yaqing can no longer go to the operating table

"Don't tell her yet, let's talk about it when she gets better." Tan Zongming looked at Su Yaqing dully and said to Jiang Zuo

"She is also a doctor herself, and it won't take long for her to find out." Jiang Zuo broke Tan Zongming's self-deception

"How long can you hide it?" Tan Zongming sat down decadently

"I hope." Jiang Zuo nodded, "She is a respectable doctor."

"You are an admirable doctor." Tan Zongming stood up and patted Jiang Zuo's shoulder. Jiang Zuo was able to calmly help Su Yaqing with the operation today, which he never expected

"If this operation was done before, I would not be able to do it, but today, I saw that you are the person she most wants to see before she dies." Jiang Zuo looked at Tan Zongming and smiled in relief, "She has never loved me before." , so if there is no love, let it go, let go of your heart, and you will naturally be settled."

"If you were on the operating table today, the result would be hard to tell." Jiang Zuo and Tan Zongming looked at each other with a smile, turned and went out

Under the double concealment of Tan Zongming and Jiang Zuo, Su Yaqing did not notice the seriousness of her wrist for a week after the operation, but some things are often unsatisfactory, and the hospital is often the center of spreading gossip

Su Yaqing walked out of the ward, and heard the nurse say her name at the corner of the nurse's station, she stopped curiously to listen to their evaluation of her

"Anyone else can't be as selfless as Director Su." Nurse 1

"Yeah, I was injured so badly that I asked Dr. Jiang and the others to save others first." Nurse 2

"It's a pity, our Renhe has lost the golden signboard of Dr. Su" Nurse 3

"Yeah, many people came here for Director Su's reputation." Nurse 1

Su Yaqing was confused, and was about to go out to ask about the situation when she heard the follow-up

"I think, although Director Su's wrist is injured and she can no longer go to the operating table, but she can still stay in our hospital as a doctor. She is the director now, and if she doesn't go to the operating table, she will be more than enough to go to the specialist clinic." Nurse 2

"Director Su is such a strong person, how can he accept that he is only an outpatient doctor?" Nurse 3

Su Yaqing looked at herself in disbelief with her fixed wrist wrapped, her mind was in a mess, she didn't care what the nurse said, she stumbled back to the ward, and locked the door behind her

After Tan Zongming finished handling the company's affairs, he and Andy rushed to the hospital to see Su Yaqing, but he couldn't open the door when he reached the door. He could only hear faint crying from the VIP ward. Tan Zongming was so frightened that he wanted to kick the door open, but was caught Andy stopped him on the grounds that he didn't want to scare Su Yaqing, so he and Andy kept knocking on the door hard

Jiang Zuo, who received the news, rushed over and knocked on the door in the same unknown situation. Just as Jiang Zuo was looking for the head nurse to get the key to open the door, Su Yaqing opened the door calmly, but her eyes were still red and swollen

"Qingqing, what's wrong with you?" Andy looked at the thrown fruits and flowers all over the floor

"I didn't hold the bag steady just now and fell down. I'm tired, you go back first." Su Yaqing lay sideways on the hospital bed and didn't look at them

"You all go out." Tan Zongming shook his head at Andy and Jiang Zuo to signal them to go out first

After they went out, Tan Zongming silently picked up the scattered fruits and flowers

"I want to sleep, you should go out first too." Su Yaqing suppressed her trembling and said to Tan Zongming lightly

"Go to sleep, I won't bother you anymore, I'll just..." Tan Zongming was interrupted before finishing his sentence

"I'll let you go out! I don't need anyone to accompany me." Su Ya sat up fiercely and yelled at Tan Zongming with tears in her eyes

She can't stand Tan Zongming's soft-spoken words now, her mind is full of her crippled hands, she can no longer be a doctor, she has lost her proud ability and destroyed everything about her

"Xiaoya, you know." Tan Zongming walked forward and hugged Su Yaqing lovingly

"Why are you hiding it from me... My hand is useless, I'm a useless person... woo woo woo" Su Yaqing cried and hit Tan Zongming emotionally

"You are not a useless person, Jiang Zuo said, your hands can recover." Tan Zongming hugged her and let Su Yaqing vent her pat

"What are you recovering? You can't continue the operation even after recovering. Why are you still lying to me?" Su Yaqing vented her emotions hoarsely

"You are still a doctor if you can't have surgery, and you can't deny that you are still Dr. Su trusted by patients." Tan Zongming comforted Su Yaqing with reddish eye circles, and stroked Su Yaqing who was trembling in his arms

"I'm not a doctor anymore...I'm not a doctor anymore" Su Yaqing cried and denied herself repeatedly

"You will always be Dr. Su, and I will be your eternal patient. Only you can cure the disease." Tan Zongming's words made Su Yaqing calm down slowly.

"Well... forever patient" Su Yaqing paused slightly, then her voice became smaller and smaller

"Xiaoya?" Tan Zongming looked down and saw Su Yaqing fell asleep with tears still hanging on her face

Tan Zongming slowly laid her flat on the bed, wiped away tears, covered her with the quilt, kissed her forehead, got up and went out to look for Jiang Zuo, what he didn't notice was that when he lowered his head to kiss her forehead, Su Yaqing fluttering eyelashes

Su Yaqing heard the sound of the door closing, opened her eyes and turned over to look at the closed door, crying silently

"Yaqing knows?" Jiang Zuo asked as soon as Tan Zongming came out

"Well, she fell asleep when she was tired from crying now." Tan Zongming frowned and nodded

"How did Qingqing know, who told her?" Andy questioned

"There are no secrets in the hospital. Even if she doesn't know now, she will find out by herself in two days." Jiang Zuo said helplessly

"I'm worried that she won't be able to accept this, so there's nothing she can do?" Tan Zongming looked at Jiang Zuo worriedly.

"Yaqing just can't accept it for a while, and she will slowly accept it when she recovers." Jiang Zuo shook his head. He knew that Su Yaqing was very strong, and he believed that she could let go.

"Old Tan, Qingqing is a very strong person. Before your incident, she also recovered after breaking down and crying. Now you also believe that she can survive." Su Yaqing in Andy's impression is indestructible. She can digest everything by herself, "I'm here, so go see your aunt first."

"Well, if she wakes up, pay attention to her mood, I'll be back later" Tan Zongming looked back at the ward, and told Andy

Although Tan's mother's vital signs have returned to normal after the operation, she is still not awake. Tan Zongming visits her every day and tells her some daily things that she didn't talk about before.

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I just want to finish it now