[Journey to the West] So I am Monk Tang

Miss Yin is dead.

When I heard the news, I couldn't say what I felt in my heart, but I reconfirmed it with the person who reported it.Then, I was clearly told that it was not that I heard it wrong, but that Ms. Yin really avoided everyone this time and committed suicide.

But I thought of the whole set of clothes from inside to outside that she sent someone to give me the day before yesterday.

I have been living in Hongfu Temple for the past few days. One reason is that I have been in the limelight recently. The rumor that I went to worship my father and made my father die and resurrected spread more and more widely. The people who came to visit me were too much for me; secondly, I also wanted to avoid the people in the prime minister's mansion in Hongfu Temple.

Before I came to Chang'an for the first time, I was officially ordained ordained as a monk.At that time, I didn't know my parents, and I was alone. Except for Master Faming who made me think clearly, no one had any objection to my decision.But not now, now I have father, mother, grandparents, grandparents, they all feel that I have endured hardships these years, so they send good things to me with such vigor, and hint from time to time that I will return to vulgarity and be happy.

How could I agree?

To put it cold-bloodedly, although these people are my blood relatives, my affection for them will not be more than that of the elders and peers in Jinshan Temple.I can't understand those people who get close as soon as they find out that they are related by blood, as if they have never been separated, and they are strangers before.

Does bloodline matter?

Of course it matters, no one can deny that.

Likewise, I can't deny that after so many years of growing up freely, I'm not used to the restrained expectations they place on me.Maybe this is their way of caring and getting close, but for me, it's a bit too much.The relationship between us is not close enough that they can interfere with my future life planning.

It is true that Chen E is now promoted to a bachelor's degree, and the emperor has his existence in the eyes of the emperor, and the future is promising; the prime minister is old and strong, and it will not be a problem to stand in the court for another ten years. With the protection of these two people, I will be one in my life Carefree children of officials and eunuchs will not spend their lives too hard.In particular, I also know who the next emperor is, and the next queen will appear, so I don't have to worry about standing in the wrong team and hugging the wrong thigh, and being ransacked and exterminated.

But is this kind of life what I want?

Returning to the vulgar, marrying a lady who is of the right family who may have met a few times, and spend my life without the pressure of life... This is not what I want. This may be very attractive to a real ordinary person who was abandoned since childhood, but for Me, for me, who has seen the extraordinary things in this world, this temptation is not worth mentioning.Now there is no sweetheart who makes me willing to give up this exploration of the unknown to live an ordinary secular life that I would never yearn for as long as I live in modern times. I want to live a comfortable, wanton and wonderful life, to see what I have never seen before level.

I don't think my idea is too much. Chen E and Miss Yin are still young in my eyes. They can have another child, raise him up little by little with their own hands, and shape him into the perfect appearance in their hearts instead of staring at each other. Looking at me, my eldest son, who has been completely stereotyped and even looks a little crooked.

Of course, I did not explicitly tell them this, but my actions have represented my thoughts.Whether it is the prime minister or Chen E, they can be regarded as heroes of the moment, and they will not fail to see what I mean. Although they did not explicitly express their approval, they have already acquiesced.

The prime minister's wife pulled me to cry once, and then she stopped mentioning it. Among high-ranking officials and nobles, it's not news that the children of the family escaped into Buddhism. I'm still famous. The old lady who had been picked up from the Wanhua shop began to stare at Miss Yin together, intending to take good care of her body and prepare to give birth to a younger brother for me.

The joy brought by a newborn is enough to change a family shrouded in gloom. I think this is a good idea. Ms. Yin also smiled shyly at the time. How could she have thought that after half a year, she would commit suicide again and succeed?

When I hurried back, the prime minister's mansion was already full of crying and nothing was seen.

My relationship with Ms. Yin isn't too deep, but it's not bad either.She has a weak temperament and is gentle. Even though I didn't know that she once complained about my little toe being bitten off when I was born, it's still hard to complain when I see a real person.Not everyone is born resourceful, bold, careful, and meticulous. Miss Yin is just an ordinary girl in a boudoir. She was brought up pampered, and soon after marrying a successful husband, she suffered a big change.As she said, if she hadn't had a baby in her womb, she would have followed Chen E and threw herself into the river. She tried her best to protect this bloodline, and she had a fairy dream, so she persisted until the willows were dark and the flowers were bright. That day.

Some people may wonder why she hasn't struggled for help in the past 18 years, but after I saw her, I knew that she hadn't changed, she was just trapped by the words of the gods, and I took this as a time limit for bearing humiliation. It is possible to end suffering and completely forget that there are other ways.

One day in the sky, one year in the world.

For the immortal, this is just a snap of the fingers for a nap, but they forget that for the mortal, it is the tormented half of their life.

Or, they know, but, who cares?

A person can become a fairy, but after becoming a fairy, he will forget the suffering of being a human being, which is called tempering.

But I can't vent my anger, because even I didn't expect that Miss Yin would choose to kill herself.The most common thing in the world is hindsight. When Ms. Yin committed suicide, I suddenly realized that she was not happy before.In other words, I knew she was unhappy, but I didn't care too much.

Life is full of ups and downs, who can be smooth sailing?I even feel that Miss Yin has survived the catastrophe, and there is nothing that can defeat her anymore.For 18 years, I have endured such days with a forced smile on my enemy's family. Shouldn't it be smooth sailing after the big revenge is avenged?

The reality hit my self-righteousness severely. I thought it was not worth mentioning the trivial things that had already been turned over, but they could become a demon in a person's heart.

The prime minister seemed to have aged several years, Chen E's expression was blank, but there was sadness in his eyes.

I stood on the mourning hall and looked at Miss Yin's coffin. I couldn't utter a word, but I had an epiphany in my heart.

After Miss Yin was buried, I went back to Hongfu Temple again.