[Douluo] Tang Yuke can't laugh

Tang Yuke raised her head and tightened the cloak around her body.

Yelu is still heavy.

Zhu Zhuming glanced at her worriedly, but when he saw a figure leaning against the wooden door out of the corner of his eye, he chose to turn his head sideways, bent his body slightly as a gesture, and then silently pulled the carriage and turned into the backyard .

"It's rare to see you waiting for me." Tang Yuke smiled, "What's wrong?"

Wuchang looked at the bright moon gradually rising behind her from the corner of his eyes, turned around and walked into the lobby, and slightly waved his hand, signaling her to follow.

"How did you discuss today?" Wuchang leaned against the counter after pouring a glass of water.

Tang Yuke took off the cloak and put it on the back of the chair. She paused when she heard this sentence, but after a while she said nonchalantly: "They will be looking at the imperial city during this time, so you can rest assured about the central part of Xingluo for the time being." And the little guy Yiran and I will go to the north and south borders separately... the sky is high and the emperor is far away, there will always be some people who are not clean, let's clean it up...and also beware of some internal threats by the way."

Wuchang knocked on the counter, looked at her with a little indifference in his eyes: "You know that's not what I want to hear."

"...I admit defeat." With her forehead pressed against the cold glass in her hand, she mumbled, "I've always been a fool, I couldn't make a choice at all, and as a result, I lost all the happiness that was about to be obtained, and Or give up on your own.”

"Do you regret it?"

"...No." The only thing that cannot be admitted, Tang Yuke thought with a wry smile, "I will not, and it is impossible to regret it, since I have made a choice, I will take it well... just, a little, a little ..."

"It's just sad." After hesitating for a long time, she finally found such a similar adjective.

"You just made your own choice." Wuchang put the cup in his hand on the counter, tiptoed to reach for the box of sweet-scented osmanthus sugar that the proprietress put on the top of the wine cabinet, "but it's the same choice, after that Since the road you choose is your own choice, what will happen is only determined by your current choice. You can’t blame others, and you can’t blame your life. You can only blame yourself. If you are sad or something, just look at the present as futile, and wait until it is true. The moment your fate changes, you probably don't even have room for grief."

"...It's too much, you're talking mercilessly like this." Hearing that this guy was so merciless, she was able to feel relieved when she fully understood the nature of this unreasonable god, " ...So, you really did it on purpose."

"Well, on purpose." Wuchang, who had reached the box of sweet-scented osmanthus candy, took out one and threw it to Tang Yuke, took one apart and stuffed it in his mouth, "I came back early on purpose, told you the current situation on purpose, and let you stay here on purpose." It’s a difficult choice between the two.”

Tang Yuke took the sweet-scented osmanthus candy, looked at the expressionless Wuchang, shook her head, didn't know whether to cry or laugh, and finally stuffed the candy in her mouth, curled up on the chair.

...It's still uncomfortable, but I'm so old, I can't cry like a child... Or, I don't know whether it's regret or sadness, mixed feelings, my heart is empty, like floating in the air, nothing.

"Absolutely rational, able to accurately measure and calculate everything, able to make the most correct choice, able to see through the future... What does it feel like to be almost omnipotent? Quietly watching the development of everything, but not interfering ...What kind of feeling is it?" After a long silence, Tang Yuke began to recall the bits and pieces of getting along with impermanence in the past, and then couldn't help asking about impermanence - in those endless years, as a bystander watching all developments but never Gods who don’t interfere, what are they thinking—absolutely rational, gods who can make absolutely correct choices in everything, when you go against your own heart... you will be like ordinary people like us , Does it hurt the spring and the autumn?

"...I don't feel well." Wuchang's face was shrouded in shadow, and Tang Yuke couldn't see her expression clearly, but could only notice the corners of her mouth slightly bent downward.

"Many people regard me as a poisonous snake and avoid it - even if I have done nothing, in their hearts, if I have done nothing, I am probably guilty," the corner of the mouth suddenly curled up with sarcasm, " Or they resent my blunt revelations, my unrelenting truth."

"It's all about deceiving yourself, but you still uphold what you think is right to crusade against me, regard inaction and watching as sin, and speak out as evil words."

"However, there is nothing wrong with them coming to crusade against me. After all, I am such a bad person—in the eyes of the world, I take other people's choices and karma as a joke, and it is fun to watch the world's troubles—I cannot deny this, because It’s one of the few small interests I have left.”

"Well, I know. I have been friends with you for so many years, I have already seen this, I have long known what a bad guy you are, and I know that you like to put the hardest parts of others naked, naked, naked. Let them make a choice on the table, I know that you like to watch the ending of those stupid choices, and you also know that you like to quietly watch the lover go through many hardships and finally get married, so you have been avoiding the point, why? ?" Tang Yuke listened to Wuchang's sarcasm and realized that her friend for many years had been avoiding answering her own questions. She smiled helplessly, twitched the corners of her mouth, and finally just shook her head.

"...Do you know how to do calculations?" Wuchang put the candy box on the counter, with a soft click, "For calculation questions, if you want to get closer to the correct and real answer, you need to consider more variables."

"...At first, I was just a guy who calculated math problems, and I was just a person who didn't know anything other than calculations—but in the hearts of humans, there is no difference between such a alien and a ruthless god Bar."

"Because people are the most difficult thing to count, so I am deeply addicted to counting humans."

"Karma retribution, reincarnation, this is the final result of this calculation problem for people. In order to collect more variables and understand things like people, I began to read more and more, and recorded these joys and sorrows, and more and more The more I understand the huge number of variables needed for this complex calculation problem of human beings, I finally found the proposition of fate, which is more interesting than human beings—then I started trying to calculate fate.”

"Because of the complexity of the calculation, all variables must be considered, so I spread out all the variables and gave them to people, watching quietly, trying to sum up the law of the sequence."

"Then they hate me, just like this time I brought you the news of the future, I brought the decisive variable, and they who deceive themselves can only abuse the variable, fate, and me, and then fall into self-pity-so I'm really happy that you made the choice this time."

"Finally I started to learn, I started to think, and I started to understand feelings... It's not the numbers in the calculation problem, but the reflection in my mind."

"I imitate countless personalities, countless behaviors, trying to unravel the basic formula of this proposition."

"But from the first time I violated the so-called correctness, followed my heart, abandoned all imitations, and embraced my inner self, all the choices before that suddenly burst out, and the turbulent emotions made me almost collapse."

Impermanence pulled away the chair opposite Tang Yuke, sat down with a peaceful face, and looked into the distance: "That feeling is not indescribable."

"However, I didn't regret it and followed my heart—it was almost a miracle for me at that time. It's amazing that I didn't regret making this choice."

"So, this time, your situation is the opposite. You made the right and struggling choice, and didn't follow your own choice. Do you regret it?"

"Of course not." Tang Yuke replied.

"...That's it, let's look forward to it." Wuchang got up, stretched out his hand in a strange way, and touched Tang Yuke's head.

"I don't want you to wait until you see your hometown destroyed and regret it...so I chose to tell you the truth..."

Tang Yuke forced a smile: "Is this the kindness of the gods?"

"No, it's just a friend's self-criticism." Wuchang's sharp phoenix eyes are soft now, "I'm sorry for you."

"However, since I have made a choice, I will not look back... I am different from them. I am not the one who holds you in my palm, and I will not hide you from you, but please believe me."

"No matter how bad I am, I will still pray for you."

"There will always be an answer to a calculation problem. If there is no solution, it's just that the person who wrote the question is too bad."

"Anyway, relax." Walking upstairs, Impermanence waved his hand, leaving the space to Tang Yuke alone, "Some things... Even if I can read people's hearts, I don't know how to answer... If you don't regret it, just Go out for a walk, look at the sun, look at the sea, think about it, and make yourself happy."

"Since you don't want to die anymore, there will always be a way to solve the long-distance relationship." Looking back, Wuchang put on a nasty smile again, "Look, there are some obsessions, you, an optimist, can handle it yourself." Figured it out, then this little setback is not a problem. Well... I won’t tell those people, you already remember it, let them worry about it for a while.”

...Since hope has been recovered, what has been returned is hope itself.

The author has something to say:

Impermanence: Hey, how angry!What should I do if I waited all night trying to comfort someone, only to find that I can only taunt?Wait online!very urgent! (So ​​choose to analyze the inner empathy (not

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Beep beep!Buzzer!Well it didn't work out at all...

Try a new way of writing... anyway, it's better to hone yourself QWQ

Speaking of that cover, % cover! @#￥%...

Forget it

The specific setting of impermanence will wait until a few chapters later...

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Regarding the mental journey of the old Ke'er in the past two years, the impermanence can be seen now. Others only know that she should recover part of the memory, and then there will be a specific explanation in a few chapters QWQ

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