little guess

There are almost no scenes where she is absent.

When they were filming, Kong Ning was watching from upstairs, and she couldn’t open Sui An—no matter how she controlled her expression, how she tried to cover up with body movements, she couldn’t open it—it was a chronic illness in her mind.

Maybe it's time to take her there.

A simple scene went through more than ten times, and the atmosphere downstairs gradually became dull.

The director stared at the monitor, took out a cigarette from his pocket, drank it leisurely, and did not light it, but the air was full of unspeakable depression.

"I don't care who you are or what awards you have won. This week, I only came to one conclusion, you are not qualified for this role." After a long time, the director pressed the lighter, and with a "click", a cluster of flames burst into Sui An Zhanlan's eyes .

"I give up, you guys re-select someone! I will compensate for all the losses." Sui'an lowered his eyes, and his words were not like a joke.

She can't ruin something that so many people take seriously for her own selfishness. She was wrong in this matter from the beginning.She thought that she could control the role of Annie well. She thought that she would accept this drama just to reunite with Kong Ning, but it turned out that she was wrong. She seemed unable to accept Annie, the little girl with the same name as her. In the novel, the script Here, Suan understands her innocence, her exaggeration, her wantonness, and her truth, but she can't accept it. Suan has an almost instinctive rejection of such openness.It was also at that moment that Suian understood that she grew up in darkness, in her last life, and in this life too.

From a distance, Kong Ning saw the field workers put away the equipment, and the two older actors patted Sui'an on the shoulder, and walked away silently with the staff without saying anything.

The wind blew in through the wooden door, rustling, and the house became even more silent.

Suian raised his head in the silence, looking at the people upstairs with his blue eyes, big and helpless, pitiful.

Kong Ning suddenly smiled, didn't he just show a heroic attitude to bear everything unswervingly, he couldn't help being happy when she showed weakness in front of him.

Sure enough, the little face downstairs wrinkled and wrinkled.

The next day, September 9th, Canada Labor Day, a public holiday for all.On this day, Suian was packed by Anna and told to Kong Ning, insisting that she would take a quick trip.

Sui An didn't know whether to laugh or cry, knowing that they were worried about being depressed, he didn't have any objections. They kept it secretive and didn't know they were going to Switzerland until they registered.

Kong Ning's legs are almost healed, but he still has to rely on crutches to walk.Many stewardesses helped a lot during the check-in process. With the help of someone, or to be precise, with someone's face, Suian enjoyed unprecedented high-quality service in her life.

Just after settling in, another beautiful stewardess came over and asked Kong Ning what drink he wanted.

Just as Kong Ning was about to speak, Suian pulled Kong Ning's sleeves like a good girl, "Daddy! I want a glass of wine."

The standard German was deliberately emphasized. Kong Ning was confused, but in a blink of an eye, he saw Sui'an's provocative little eyes, and couldn't help laughing. He turned around and said to the flight attendant in English, "Children are not sensible, Pour two glasses of milk, please."

The flight attendant chattered, glanced at Kong Ning, then at Sui'an, and then looked at Kong Ning again as if unwilling to give up, as if she couldn't accept the fact that these two were father and daughter.

In fact, it's not the flight attendant's fault. Kong Ning has a childlike face, and with the careful treatment after the injury, his whole body has become much whiter and his outline has softened a lot. He looks 30 years old at most.The most important thing is that Sui An is European at first glance, and Kong Ning is Oriental at first glance. According to common sense, it is impossible to think of this wonderful pair of partners as father and daughter.

Suian drank the milk, her head was a little dizzy, and with the slight shaking of the cabin, she felt more and more sleepy. In the dimness, a pair of hands stretched out to cover her with a small blanket, and then it seemed that someone turned off the switch of consciousness Same, sinking into chaos...

Sui'an's eyes quickly flashed scenes: the endless dense forest, the rhinoceros being hung upside down, a red teardrop rolled on the rhinoceros' thick and hard eyelashes, the crazy woman in the dark hut raised her bent The moon-like knife slashed at the man on the ground. The man on the ground was lying on the body of a little girl, and the blood splashed on the little girl's face at night. Why, just based on the pictures, she knew that the man was the woman's husband and the girl's father, but he was violating her own daughter!And the mother who was driven to a desperate situation had no choice but to raise the scimitar—although there were only these pictures, she was sure that it was a natural intuition.However, she can do nothing but watch...

Kong Ning casually flipped through some magazines, and when he looked at Suian again, he could only see that her forehead was densely covered with sweat, her bangs were wet, her eyes were tightly closed, and her golden eyelashes were trembling, as if they were about to tighten. As if locking some secret, the blanket was tangled under her hands.

Kong Ning remembered Anna’s words, “She has nightmares when she’s nervous, but she’s fine now. When she was filming “Redemption” before, she was woken up in fright as soon as she closed her eyes. Drinking whiskey together, others are terrified when they look at it. It is really much better now! Mr. Kong Ning, although I don’t know what kind of relationship you have with Ann, and how long this relationship can last, But I sincerely thank you and pray to God for you."

He can't afford that kind of blessing, and what he has done is not worth one ten-thousandth of atonement.

Gently hugged Suian, held her hand, and closed his eyes.

"Everything will pass." He tilted his head, rubbed her hair, and whispered in her ear.

☆, 84

The car passed through the city, through the countryside, through the wasteland, through the towering dense fir forest, and finally stopped in front of an ordinary small fir gate.Next to the small door is a small wooden table of the same material and texture. There is a wooden ashtray on the table, with three or four cigarette butts in it, and there is cold tea in the wooden teacup next to it. The surroundings are strangely quiet—— Sui An almost doubts to wait A group of puppets jumped out, and she shook Kong Ning's hand to express her doubts.

"This is a nursing home." Kong Ning finally spoke.

Suian was annoyed and funny, "I'm not in such a bad condition, I don't need to go to a nursing home, and there is no one who only stays in a nursing home for a day or two, but since you're here, let's take a look around."

This journey was across mountains and rivers, and he insisted on bringing himself here despite his injuries. Suian was really curious about this isolated sanatorium.

"Let's go in directly? Don't need to register?" Since it is a nursing home, the wooden table and the things on the wooden table just now should belong to the guard, but where did the guard go in broad daylight?

Kong Ning smiled, propped up his crutches, and walked in first, Suian hurried forward to support him.

Turning into the door, there is another large dense fir forest, fortunately not long, and you can see a small villa-style building at the end, which is very simple.

The air is fresh and quiet, slightly cool, as if every breath can purify the soul.There are birds chirping among the trees. Looking up, there is no trace of the bird, but in the distance, white smoke is winding up.

The road was silent, and finally came to the villa. Suian thought he had arrived, but he didn't want Kong Ning to continue walking. He turned around the big building and turned into a small road.

Sui'an was a little puzzled, and Kong Ning nodded her tangled brows sideways, "It was a concentrated nursing home a long time ago, and now it has been converted into an office. I made an appointment before, and the procedures were completed, so I came in directly. After walking for a long time, you are also hungry, right? After walking for a while, there is a restaurant in front of you, and it happens to be meal time, and the food here is very good..."

"Have you been here before?" A thought suddenly flashed in Sui'an's heart, but out of instinctive resistance, she didn't think about it and let the thought slip past.

Going forward, bypassing an artificial lake, they came to a sports field. On the basketball court, there were two men playing basketball, one fat and one thin, a perfect match.

"The tall man was abused by his father when he was a child. His father was a retired soldier from World War II, and he suffered great injuries. The small man was gay and the eldest son of a large family. He was tied up by the family members himself. Here."

Suian was a little surprised. Kong Ning's understanding of this nursing home was beyond her expectations, and the faint uneasiness resurfaced in her heart. She tried her best to suppress it, and followed Kong Ning silently.

With a sound of "dumb--", a big bird flew across the blue sky with black wings, and Suan's heart suddenly jumped again.

"Everyone here has pain hidden in their hearts, some came by themselves, some were forced to be sent by others; some, healed and left, and some lived here for the rest of their lives ; Some, with vague hopes, or the hope that one day they will be able to go out."

Kong Ning's words came with the wind, and even the words contained a chill.

"Don't say it anymore" Sui An's uneasiness was confirmed little by little.

"There used to be a little boy living here. The boy had no father since he was born, or, until a certain day, the boy's father didn't realize the existence of the boy. The boy lived with his mother since he was a child. The troupe asks for life. The troupe is not big, there are not many people, but the relationship is very chaotic. The boy's mother is young and beautiful, so naturally there are many suitors, but the mother's heart is as firm as a marble, and not a single weed can get in. With resentment, the group of people shifted their target——

The boy is also very beautiful, inheriting all the advantages of his mother's appearance, with thick eyelashes and big eyes, red lips and white teeth, and he has no offensive power.That group of people was a group of people lacking in conscience. They used the boy's mother as a threat, and with the temptation of candies and toys, they molested the little boy time and time again.The little boy knew it wasn't normal, a group of adults and a kid, not normal.

However, just like the system of a machine, no matter how well-prepared you were before, once the format is refreshed, you have to, have to live according to the established rules.Every year there are smaller children in the troupe, year after year, the boy grows into a teenager, from the abused to the abuser, this is the way to survive-his mother doesn't know, the mother thinks she puts the child She was well taken care of, and she felt that she had a clear conscience when she knew she was dying.Later, the boy's father came to his door. The boy who had lived in poverty for more than ten years did not know that his father was a billionaire.

The boy was taken to another country. No one knew that his internal system had been refreshed many years ago. He hid his internal system well and installed a new shell for himself. Having said that, the boy is very good-looking, as long as he works a little bit, or even without any effort, he can easily get close to the hearts of others.

Everything, looks fine.Until the boy met an equally outstanding girl, he saw that the girl also had her own internal system, which was different from him and everyone else in the world, and was tightly wrapped in her internal system. It can be seen at a glance that they have blue eyes of the same hue, the purest blue, the most transparent blue, and the darkest and most turbid soul underneath.

The boy couldn't restrain himself anymore, the appearance of a girl, a girl of the right age, made him lose control and go crazy in his heart.However, on the surface, he became more and more calm. He has experienced it, so he knows the most suitable way to hunt.

Finally, one night, on a most wonderful occasion, the boy achieved his goal.However, he didn't expect that he removed all obstacles, except for the girl herself, who would have thought that a three-year-old girl would have the ability to save herself?Wasn't he just so desperate and helpless back then!

Girls are different, girls fight for their own lives, but also want his life!This is something he never imagined, the option of killing has never been in his system, but it is in the girl's system. At the last moment, he finally understood what the darkest inner part of the girl is. "

Kong Ning spoke for a long time, so that when he stopped, Sui An was a little uncomfortable. There was a small wooden house in front of him, and the smell of meat mixed with the smell of vegetables and fruits wafted from it.

She looked forward blankly, as if there was a vast sea in front of her, and she didn't see anything on the sea.

Kong Ning led her into the cabin, walked through the flow of people, and stopped at a step in the corner.

"The boy is waiting for the girl upstairs, let's have lunch together with her," Kong Ning said cruelly and firmly to the endless sea in Suan's eyes.

Sui An's body backed away uncontrollably, everything around him seemed to disappear, only the long staircase in front of him remained.

Step by step, step by step, light and shadow engulfed by darkness.

In that light and shadow, there is the sound of iron hooves of thousands of horses and horses, there is the light of the fire, there is the hot blood rolling on the tip of the knife, there is the gloomy moonlight, and there is the heavy footsteps of the young man step by step...

"Boom-thump-thump-"

The sound of footsteps like that step by step, along the stairs, winding down like a snake, passing through the ground, passing through the soles of the shoes, numb the damp and cold to the bottom of my heart...

Sui'an turned around with all his strength, but was blocked tightly by Kong Ning.

He was wounded and lay across the stairs, Suian's only exit was blocked.

"Suian, not everyone will encounter such a thing, but everyone may encounter it, unfortunately, it may fall on your head.

"You let him go, but you still can't let go of yourself.

"If I knew this earlier, I would rather kill you—"

"Kong Ning!" Sui An cried out, looking around in panic.Everyone around was eating, and the sound of spoons, knives and forks was mixed with the sound of conversation, and no one heard it.

Kong Ning smiled like a spring breeze, rubbed Sui'an's little head with his big hands, and looked at her gently, "Have you ever thought about——

"If Annie had encountered such a thing, what would she have done?

"She's supposed to be yelling and crying, punching and kicking, and even running away in a rage—

"Try it, if you were Annie now, the red-haired, sensitive, talkative, irritable and stubborn Anne, what would you do when you faced A Tong again?

"I know you can't do it, you're used to hiding and burying, but that's not necessarily the best solution—

"Can you let go of yourself first and try to solve the problem in Anne's way?

"You have to go up."

She has to go up.

Suian's face was pale, and his gaze went up the stairs, into the place where there was no light and shadow.

At the end of the stairs, it was pitch black, and she looked at Kong Ning again, with helplessness and pity in her big blue eyes.

Kong Ning shook his head slowly.

She could only walk through the darkness by herself, level by level, level by level.

She is Anne, the red-haired, sensitive, talkative, irritable and stubborn Anne, Sui An told herself over and over again...

She has to go up.

The door opened, and the light blue wall came into view. The man was sitting at the table by the window, the curtains were white, blown by the wind, like a flock of white pigeons huffing in and out of the window...

He was dressed in a linen shirt, with handsome features, sitting at the table like a prince charming, smiling at her.

Every step that Suian took was like the tip of a knife slowly blunting, and his palms were clenched with sweat.

The table was covered with white lace floral cloth, and on the floral cloth was a delicate fruit basket. She finally walked to the fruit basket, picked up an apple quickly, and threw it at A Tong. He missed it and just avoided it.

A tear slipped from the corner of Sui'an's eye, and then, the second, and the third, the tears lined up...

"Why do you escape!"

"I ask you!"

"Why are you!"

"Why laugh!"

"Why did you treat me like that!"

……

She didn't stop, she questioned A Tong over and over again, and threw out fruit again and again, first apples, then bananas, then grapes, cherries, oranges...

The house was full of ping-pong-pong sounds, and the people downstairs were startled when they heard it, and they looked up one after another. The wind rolled up the curtains, and there was a burst of ripe fruit aroma. There were girls' hysterical shouts in the aroma, and the world There is silence, no one goes upstairs, everyone here knows that everyone is incomplete and flawed, they understand and respect each other...

The wind will take everything away. After being stunned, the people downstairs picked up their knives and forks and enjoyed their lunch again...

In the room, Sui Anhong stared at A Tong with wide eyes, gritted teeth, and pursed mouth, holding a big grapefruit. A Tong's body was already in a mess, all kinds of colors were dyed all over his white shirt, and some flesh Hanging on the button of his shirt, dripping down along the lines of his texture, slowly, like a slowed-down movie lens, one drop for one day, one day for one year, 11 years.What a long, delayed moment—

Suian put down the grapefruit, or let go of A Tong, like a wounded cub, squatted down, hugged his knees, and cried horribly.

The pomelo rolled on the ground in a circle, and stopped at Atong's feet.

A Tong's eyes were also red.

☆, farewell

When Suian came out, the sun was just right, and it was warm on his body.

Under the sunshine, Kong Ning smiled at her as always, as if there was a smile in his eyes as long as she was in sight.

Walking all the way back, the scenery is not the same.

This time it was Kong Ning who listened to the story.

It is a very old story, and Sui'an started it very vulgarly, "A long time ago, there was a country called Liang Guo. This country was small but very rich. Therefore, whether it was the king or the people of this country, All are satisfied, in short, it is a very happy country.

"However, by accident, the king of this country became obsessed with Taoism, indulged in profound cultivation, levied heavy taxes, built temples to make alchemy, and the people suffered unspeakably. The pressure will be reversed, and the neighboring countries are eyeing. Soon, the country of Liang died, like a mayfly in the vast history. After thousands of years, few people knew the existence of this country.

What I want to talk about is the princess of this country.The king has a queen, many concubines, and many sons, but only one daughter, so the baby is abnormal, but this princess is stubborn by nature, always feels that daughters are not as comfortable as men, and always want to do what men in the world can do.Sneaking out of the palace, wandering around the market, fighting - of course she didn't do it herself, there were always hidden guards in the palace, it was like this growing up day by day, even so, the etiquette that should be learned, the books that should be read, the Knowing the tricks, she was forced to learn the same, so she grew up carefree.

Until one day, the king of Liang issued an order to recruit sons-in-law, and the princess’s daily life changed. It's not annoying, anyway, the country is so big and there are so many people, he doesn't believe that his daughter doesn't like it.

Sure enough, one day, the governor of Chao County came out of the Princess Pavilion safe and sound, and swaggered into the imperial study to ask for a marriage. The emperor refused to show it. Chaozhou was flooded. I didn't see my daughter coming to make a fuss, so I clapped my hands and it was done.

That afternoon, the princess quietly buried a jar of Nurhong under the peach tree behind the bedroom.

Four days later, the messenger sent the bad news. On the way back to the county, the governor of Chao County and his party encountered a mountain rock rolling down.

Since there is no body, it is not dead.The princess waited year after year with this belief, until the neighboring country entered the palace, the palace gate was broken, until the younger brother was slaughtered, and the queen mother burned the palace, but he has not come back.He didn't come back, she brought her relatives, her countrymen, and they came to find him together.

That's what the princess thought as she was submerged in the flames.

When she opened her eyes again, the princess couldn't believe that she had turned into a baby. She came to a completely strange country, and there were no relatives from the previous life around her. Compared with the previous life, a warmer, more harmonious and brighter world The world opened up to her again, but she still couldn't get into it. Her heart was already full of dust in another world.

Then, by accident, she returned to her own country again, more than 2000 years later, in her own country, and then she met a person, a person who squatted down to look at her as soon as the door opened A person with a smile, a person who treats everyone sincerely.

She also met other people, a person with the same pronunciation as her younger brother, a young man from the old city, a person who also brought warmth to people—and there are many others, she met too many people who gave her warmth, so , she decided to open her heart, she decided to embrace the new self.

However, one bad karma can easily destroy thousands of good karma.

But, today, that bad fate—”

Before Sui'an finished speaking, Kong Ning grabbed his hand, and it became quiet at this moment, as if the drizzle from all over the world was falling on the green grass all over the world, the sun was still warm, and the road was still long.

They walk down together.

The author has something to say: Thank you friends who have followed me all the way, thank you for your support and encouragement, this article is over~~~ There will be some extra episodes one after another, if you have anything you want to see and want to know, please put it forward Let's go~~~Thank you again for your perseverance~~~Three bows~~~