[Comprehensive] Boy's request

After dinner, he came to the hill alone, lay on the grass with his arms pillowed, and looked up at the star-studded sky.

The night wind carried a comfortable coolness, gently stroking his cheeks, and the tip of the grass blown by the wind also swayed against him, with a slightly painful itching.

He couldn't help but tilt his head, avoiding the grass.

He didn't know when he developed this habit. After a busy day, he found an open space to lie down after dinner.Next, either distinguish the stars in the sky, or close your eyes and rest your mind, and then think about future plans or recent events.

In the past few years, he has experienced more than people of the same age. He has experienced despair and unwillingness, and he also has moments of rage, but in growing up, no matter how long it takes, he never loses himself.

From the beginning when I only wanted to realize my own dreams, now I am carrying everyone's dreams.

The process of this transformation was too fast, and he couldn't even react in time.But he is bolder. Since he is a leader, he doesn't feel uncomfortable at all. After all, he has been able to lead a group of people with dreams to explore the ruins since he was 14 years old. Now that he has more experience, he can let everyone He also has his own way of listening to people with different temperaments.

But there will be times of confusion.

And at this time, he lived alone in a corner, thinking slowly by himself, and then discussing with others if he couldn't figure it out.

But this kind of situation is rare, usually before the problem starts, he already has a solution, and it is a pity that he has not experienced too much trouble.

No... not without worries.

Lily may be a knot in his heart that he can't solve.

His breathing gradually eased, unconsciously, he felt that he was going to merge with the surrounding vegetation.Amid the sound of the branches and leaves rubbing against each other as the breeze blew, he remembered what Lily said: [Man is a thinking reed]

Thinking about it that way, it doesn't seem so bad.

Human beings are weak and helpless, but they have thoughts that make monsters with strong bodies tremble.

Suddenly thinking of that original companion, he felt a tasteless feeling.

There was always an indescribable emotion stirring his heart.

She disappeared and never came back.

Two or two years have passed, and they had known each other for two years, but she still hasn't come back.

What did she want to tell herself at the end?

she is leaving?Is that so?

That's why he felt it and interrupted her capriciously?

But he didn't do this once again.

Thinking of this, he smiled.

Jin never thought he had a good temper, just look at those companions who were so angry that he jumped every day.I am stubborn and arrogant, and I like to take care of everything by myself, and I don't want others to intervene.

It just sucks.

If Du Enren hadn't held back his fear once and tremblingly fought with him, he would probably have gotten worse than now.

[It’s not good to do it alone. If you have the ability to do the game, you can do it alone. Without the help of Liszt to make magnets, Yi Tan and the others make cards, what can you do! ]

Duen's trembling appearance is still in front of his eyes, as soon as he closes his eyes, he can see Duen's unscrupulous face covered with bruises, but it is different from the previous forbearance and concession, with a feeling that he can't refuse His aggressive demeanor taught him a lesson.

Lily's face gradually overlapped with his shattered face...

He thought of when he was 13 years old, the curly-haired girl was sitting beside him, watching him peacefully, comforting him helplessly after hitting a wall, and started to develop in an all-round way with all his strength.

[Jin, you have to think about what you need to do and what you can do, that's enough.If you can't do it, let your companions do it. If you still insist on doing it alone, then what's the point of your companions to you? ]

Thinking about it now, at that time she would often say something that fit her status as a big sister to enlighten him, and he would probably run her away with rude words—and not long after, this girl became heartless again. Looks like he came to chat with him.

It's really enough, there must be a limit to the plot of the love sister.

He sighed and turned sideways, resting his left arm on his head and staring at the crystal water droplets hanging on the top of the grass, he picked up a piece of grass and chewed it in his mouth.

The sweet breath filled his mouth, and he couldn't help but smile.

From the time when he was 12 to 14 years old, she was the one who appeared most frequently, and she was the person he couldn't forget the most now.

She said a lot of things to him inadvertently, and he kept them in his heart, and then he continued to get through the difficulties.

...Although most of the time, his own strength is still there.

She said that she would support everything he did, so he told her about his aspirations and ideals, and in the four years since she left, he pursued them non-stop and never gave up.

Just to show her.

You see, after all these years, I have done what I said.What was not done is also nearing the end.

I can do just fine without your support.

I never forgot my dream.

He thought again, what a bard he met on the roadside once said.

[Some people make promises when they are young and laugh them off when they grow up.

The real strong, they keep the promises they said at the beginning in the bottom of their hearts, and then fulfill them one by one. ]

However, everyone is not born strong, they will all transform in the process of growing up.

Even the current president of the Hunter Association dare not say that he was a strong man from the very beginning, let alone him.

But as time passed, he went farther and farther on the road of being a strong man, and the satisfaction he felt after achieving what he wanted was less and less able to fill the vacant part of his heart.Perhaps as they say, the more a person grows, the more troubled he will be, and the more he grows, he will feel that there is a good thing called not being able to get it.

He gets all kinds of emotional satisfaction—family and friendship.

Only love is missing.

But just like what he said to Lily at the beginning, he doesn't care whether he is popular with women or not.

Because he discovered that since the love and longing surged like a storm at the age of 14, the past four years have never stopped, but instead turned into a huge wave on the sea level.

But what it is to love him is not very clear.

The only one with the most experience in love is Du En, but the girlfriends around him have changed one after another, and it is common for him to be dumped.They often used this to tease Du En.

Du'en also emphasized that this is not because he is promiscuous, but because he can no longer meet the best one, so he has to find the initial feeling in his new love life.Jin had heard that the girl he couldn't forget the most was the first girl.

One day he was drunk, put his arms around Jin's shoulders and said something he couldn't understand drunkenly.

"Kim, I said—"

"Why do you say love is so selfish?" He hiccupped, his eyes no longer clear, "The moment he expressed his love, all those things that he liked were replaced by selfishness. When you say love It becomes a kind of promise and oath, which is bondage, not tolerance anymore."

"Why do people who love each other hurt each other?"

He couldn't answer Du En's question, because he alone couldn't understand what he said.

But, if it were him... I'm sorry he couldn't imagine it.

If it was the love concept he defined for himself...it should be very frank.

Figured it out, then told her.

Whether she agrees or not, she will stubbornly tell her what she wants.

It might seem absurd, but it would certainly seem like something he could pull off.

But he never had a chance to say it.

For Lily, his age may be too young, but this does not prevent him from pursuing this girl.At least these years had passed, he was taller than her, and with a shaved beard he looked much older than his actual age.

Looking at it now, people will no longer be recognized as siblings when walking on the road.

He slowly spit out the grass stalk he was biting on the tip of his teeth, and there was still a sweet breath between his lips and teeth.This is an edible grass, and he often chews it slowly in his mouth as a snack in his spare time.

While relishing the taste, Lili crossed her arms and frowned with a smirk: "Ah? Jin, no matter how much you change your baby face, it will betray you. Save yourself."

Maybe she would answer herself that way.

He laughed for a while, and finally he lost any expression.He turned over and lay flat on the grass again, with his hands crossed by his sides, staring straight at the starry sky, feeling lost.

If I told her right away...

Thinking about all kinds of things randomly, he lay down in the middle of the night as soon as he lay down.

Then he returned to the tent covered in dew, accompanied by the sound of insects and moonlight, took off his coat, stuffed it indiscriminately, got into the sleeping bag and fell asleep.As if giving up on himself, he wanted to rely on sleep to relieve the knot in his heart.

From the melting of ice and snow to the wild growth of miscanthus, he missed this man more and more day by day.

Whether it is a dream or love, it seems beautiful but it needs to go through many difficulties to get it.

He devoted himself to his dream and gained a lot.

But his love has not yet begun.