[No.8 Pawn Shop] On the Raidability of Gao Leng

Opening his eyes, his dark eyes couldn't absorb any luster.This day will be another boring day, and the days will still be spent between transactions.After the guest comes, I want to understand his past and see his future, and give him my help. Every time I go through these processes, I can clearly feel the kindness in Xia Jing's squinting eyes.Don't I know that these are at a loss?No!But this undeserved sense of justice makes me happy.

Every day, I feel suffocated by breathing the air of the pawn shop in my nostrils, but this kind of life has become a habit.In order to make my future better, I will also think about it, make it sufficient, and let the time be filled bit by bit, so that I will not feel the lonely air.

After the transaction was completed, I put my hands behind my back and left the seat. I thought: At this time, I should read the book that I haven't finished reading yesterday.

There are many ways to pass the time, nothing more than reading a book or playing the violin, as well as tasting wine.Most of the time, I use it for reading, because only reading can give me a little comfort in my heart, forget all the helplessness, all the sadness, and let my brain use other places besides the guests...

The last time I left the pawn shop was when the only transaction failed. I never thought about going out again. Even if I was nostalgic, it no longer belonged to me.It's better to cut it off once than to cut it off.The good news is that there, there will be another me and my beloved who are living happily.

Shen Feng's decision was the most selfish I've ever made since I entered the pawn shop, but I don't regret it, if I could go back in time, I would still do it that way, even if I would bear the shackles of guilt, I would gladly wear it.

Every time I miss Yu Yin, I will close my eyes and search, and at the same time, I will also "see" another me. At that time, I always have a... indescribable, very complicated feeling (in In the 21st century, the sadness of egg pain?).

For Yu Yin, I have gratitude, guilt, and admiration for her, but I have no love for her.Yes, no love, poor woman, who waited for me.I can't love her, I have already pawned my love, facing her, I only feel like an old friend, like, a photo that was originally a bright color, suddenly becomes black and white, you want to recall the beauty of the past, but the reality is still Very skinny.

Decades ago, before entering the pawn shop, I made a deal with Sombra.

I pawned my love from life to life in exchange for her life's happiness.

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After my marriage with Yu Yin was established, I was often too happy to be myself. However, after the appearance of the shadow, there was a crack in my happy days.

He said, my soul is rather dark, and it is difficult for another one to appear even in a land with a radius of ten thousand miles.A human being who can communicate with him easily, and he wants me to put aside my family, love, and career to help manage his pawn shop.

I rejected him without even thinking about it. This is something that no normal person would agree to.

With his arrogant laughter, he left. However, instead of relaxing, I often felt uneasy.Afterwards, fate really responded to my uneasiness, and all the misfortunes came one after another. The unpredictable danger and inexplicable horror hovered above my head like a ghost, and every time I thought of it, I shuddered.

All the disasters, it seems that I have lived a happy life, and everything has come true to me, which makes me feel, what is despair.It was a powerless thing that could not be changed by human beings. Until now, I can still clearly feel the suffocating smell lingering in my nose, and I resent my own insignificance.

If there is a danger in the light, I can face it bravely without blinking my eyes.

But now, I feel the pain.

What is suffering?

Suffering is a long, slow, continuous, grinding, but never numb...

First, Yan Hao was suddenly involved in a murder case and was taken away by the reporter. His mother was frightened for a while, and her health was about to fail, and gradually she began to linger on the sick bed.One afternoon, my lover wanted to comfort me by making soup for me and medicine for my mother.However, I don't know why, she was developing normally, but she was suddenly discovered by the servants, licking her upper body with raging tongues, but instead of screaming, she still had a calm expression on her face, as if she had seen a beautiful scene The appearance of the dream, until now, still has no meaning of waking up.And this is also the last straw that overwhelms my rationality.

I thought of many ways, but before I solved one, another appeared. All these made me have to succumb to fate.Yes, I figured it out. This is not something that everyone can work together to change. Things will not be rewarded after you work hard. On the contrary, in the eyes of that powerful person, because of your struggle, your "delay" time" and it got worse and worse.

I can't be naive, and I don't have the time, I can only agree to Sombra's request and be forced to live with loneliness.

I want my family and lover to be happy.

I dare not touch my beloved's bandaged face, I feel sorry for her pain.Half of the body is burned, how painful is this?

I ask about the future of my family and loved ones.

Black Shadow said: They will drift with their fate. Fate wants them to be good or bad. It only depends on their good fortune. I will not hinder or help.

I feel angry, I gave my life, I want them to be happy.

The black shadow seemed to be angry at my request, and the pressure inside the cloak continued.He is dissatisfied with human beings demanding of him.

I saw his anger, but somehow, his dissatisfaction only made me more persistent.His anger, I have to choose to be more angry than him.Looking into his gaze, I am determined to move forward, even stronger than any determination I have made before. I know that I can no longer compromise, nor can I compromise.

I can have a sad fate, but my family and loved ones will have no wind or waves.

The long silence and confrontation came to an end with the painful groan of the lover.

My heart softened, and with great sadness, I knew that I couldn't let her suffer anymore, even if it was just one more minute or one more second.Since Sombra can't give her happiness, let me be the customer of the pawn shop.

I pawn all my future love in exchange for her life's happiness. I want her to meet someone who loves her sincerely.That person took care of her, cared for her, tolerated her, and loved her wholeheartedly. She was happier following that person than following me...

Sombra seemed even more shocked. "Your love from life to life?!"

"Isn't it worth it?"

"No!" There was a smile in Hei Ying's thick tone: "The love from life to life, to save a woman's happiness for a lifetime, is worth more than that. It's just! She is not worth it at all."

I stood up, with no waves in my eyes, put my hands behind my back, and raised my chin proudly: "It's up to me to decide how much she is worth." Suddenly, I turned my head to look at the shadow, and my tone was cold and provocative. : "Don't forget, I am the owner of the pawn shop!"

The black shadow also became interested, and a deafening laughter came from the cloak, as if my arrogance satisfied him even more, he said: "Good! Good! You said it well! I like it!"

One more sentence, I greeted him with straight eyes. "Besides, I don't want love either. In case I won't be able to forget her forever."

Sadness filled the air, and I sat back on the edge of the bed, staring deeply at the person on the bed.Stretch out my hand, trembling fingertips, touch her face above her face in the air, I want to engrave her face into my heart and lungs, into my heart and soul.At this moment, it seems that every second is infinitely extended, and every arc is infinitely magnified in my eyes. I want to firmly imprint the outline under my finger deeply in my heart, so reluctant to part with it.

I bent down, and finally I couldn't help but gently hugged my wife. In my heart, she was already the only wife and the love of my life.

I lowered my head, and a drop of hot tears soaked into her cloth strip, before it touched her skin, it was already sucked dry.In the end, he still hated her.We haven't reached the end yet, but love is the deepest.

Just like the world is impermanent, it is really unpredictable.

In the black shadow's cloak, he quickly stretched out a hand and flitted through the air. At the same time, a cloud of rose-red gas left my body. From then on, I was a man without love.

I let go of Xu holding her hand, the heat in my eyes dropped sharply with the passage of love, and looking at her, the original pain that I wanted to live became empty.

From now on, whenever I think of her, it's like thinking of any old friend, no itching, no pain, just like I've known each other before.They once stared at each other, pulled each other, rubbed against each other... But everything just happened once.

Can't remember the feeling of old love, and won't fall in love with anyone.I got happiness in exchange for her, and also saved myself from missing her.

I came to the pawn shop with the shadow, opened my eyes, and saw a magnificent room. I stood up from the couch, and the silver-white Tang suit on my body quickly turned into a gorgeous black Tang suit, looking graceful and luxurious.

I lowered my head, just glanced at it, then put my hands up indifferently...

Since then, I have been with Changsheng.

After I left, Sombra also fulfilled his promise to let Lin Yuyin live happily ever after.The maintenance of her happiness is naturally part of my family, so Yan Hao quickly left the case involved.It’s just that my mother was getting older. When I went home once, there was only the word “Dian” and a white lantern hanging high at the door. My father’s healthy body has deteriorated since his mother left. .

I pawned love, but I didn't pawn family affection, so I once again felt the piercing taste, like ants eating bones.

After Yu Yin was injured by the fire, she has recovered very well, and all my requests have been fulfilled by her.Her skin miraculously did not leave any traces of burns, and her appearance was as clear as ever.

There were also many excellent men who had pursued her, but she rejected them all without hesitation, and Shen Feng was just one of them.I who lost my love don't understand why she behaved irrationally.

Every time I see her stubbornly, coldly, and irrelevantly sending away other people's love, I just don't understand why.The boss who has lost his sense of love only knows that this is a woman's irrational behavior.The consequence of her refusal of these benefits is to live alone.

After seeing Shen Feng, I understand that I want to make Yu Yin happy, she can't let her waste time anymore, she should have a bright future.

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Pulling out the chair, I sat down. There was an open book on the table, and I continued to read with it in my hands. My afternoon schedule was to play the violin, which should be Vivaldi's score.I think, this time, I should play his "Winter" again.

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