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"Sherry... Sherry... Sherry... Sherry..." Gin in the dream smiled strangely at herself, and pointed the gun at her.

She screamed in fright and hugged herself and sat up.

"Oh, you woke up, did my voice scare you?" A kind-hearted old man turned his head to look at her with a smile.She looked down and saw that she was lying on a sofa, covered with a blanket, and there were no handcuffs or anything to trap herself. Then, it should not be someone from the organization, and the people from the organization would not wait for her to wake up naturally, it should be Just splash it with ice water.

She stared at the man in the white coat, who seemed to be a researcher like herself?

The old man said very gently: "Hi, little sister, my name is Dr. Ali, you..."

She jumped off the sofa and ran to the window. It seemed that she was brought into this room by Dr. Ali.Dr. A Li continued to ask: "Little sister, why did you collapse at the door of the new family?"

He knew Kudo Shinichi?

"Where's Kudo Shinichi?" she asked bluntly.The doctor froze for a moment, shifted his eyes for a moment, then turned back to her face, and said with a smile: "I don't know where Xinyi has gone." With such an obvious lie, it's no wonder that Gin used to always catch a glimpse of her. Seeing through her duplicity, but a person like him should be able to see through more advanced lies.

At the same time, he himself can tell more advanced lies in a way that is less likely to be discovered, which she has not seen through for several years.

She lowered her head and smiled, raised her eyes, and said, "Dr. A Li, you don't have to lie to me, I know that Kudo Shinichi has been infused with poison () medicine and his body has shrunk... because, I am the same as him. And, I It's the person who made that drug." She spent an hour telling Dr. A Li about her life experience, of course, she omitted the part about gin.Under Dr. Ali's surprised gaze, she said, "Now, please tell me where Shinichi Kudo went."

The doctor seemed to believe her, and told her truthfully that Kudo was now living at the house of his childhood sweetheart girlfriend.

She wanted to go to find Kudo immediately, but now only Kudo can cherish her.But the doctor said: "Little sister... Oh no, Ms. Miyano, is it not good for you to go to see Kudo like this?"

She looked down and saw that she was still wearing dirty clothes.The doctor said: "Anyway, you should change your clothes, right? I'm the only one living here, so you don't have to be afraid, just stay here at ease, at least wait until you recover your health before going to see him."

Only then did she realize that she had hardly eaten anything these past few days, and she didn't know what supported her to survive.

The next day, the doctor originally wanted to accompany her to the mall to pick out some little girl's clothes, but she shrank before going out.The inner fear struck again.In the end, Dr. Ali had no choice but to measure her shoulder width and height, and went to the shopping mall to tell the shopping guide lady that she wanted to buy clothes for the daughter of a relative's family as a gift. She collected some clothes and came back.

The doctor suggested that she change her false name, and seriously gave her a name: Haibara Ai.Looking at this name, she remembered her false certificate when she was in the United States, because she and Gin were pretending to be siblings, and her false certificate was named Kurosawa Ai...

The past was shocking, and she dared not touch it.

"Alas..." She turned her head to the inside of the bed and said, "Huiyuan...Alas, don't love."

Loving this kind of thing is too extravagant and too scary.

Hui Yuan Ai, this person's name is just like his name, maybe it is the name that really suits him.

She didn't dare to go out, even in the doctor's house, she only dared to hide in the doctor's basement. Dr. Ali lived alone in such a big single-family villa, and the spare room was turned into a laboratory.Hiding in the doctor's basement laboratory, doing all kinds of well-known chemical purification experiments mechanically and repeatedly every day, she felt extremely at ease, as if hiding here, she would not be found by the organization.If possible, I really want to hide in this basement for the rest of my life.

However, the inner panic cannot be relieved in a short while——

One day the doctor was wearing a black coat, and she shook the beaker in her hand;

Seeing crows flying by outside the window, she would wrap herself in a blanket in fear;

Seeing Sherry appearing on the book on TV, she pushed the book away;

She dared not touch anything related to alcohol...

He once said that if he was drunk, he would dare to make her tremble at the sight of alcohol.I didn't drink, but I was drunk, intoxicated in the illusory love he created, and he did make her tremble when she saw the wine...

When going to sleep at night, she would have many strange dreams, dreaming that the strange person who had failed in the experiment she saw in the basement of the United States was crawling towards herself;

From time to time, I dreamed of the scene where Gin ordered Vodka to push himself into the gas chamber;

Dreaming of people tangled together in pain in the gas chambers;

The person who dreamed of the human experimenter who was killed by him came to ask for his life;

Dreamed of Belmode's sneer;

I dreamed that my sister was talking to me softly...

The doctor asked her worriedly: "Xiao Ai, do you have PTSD? I have a good psychiatrist."

PTSD: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, which is a mental illness --

A mental disorder that results when an individual experiences, witnesses, or encounters one or more actual deaths involving himself or others, or is threatened with death.

The main manifestations are hypervigilance, increased startle response, long-term and persistent avoidance of events or situations related to traumatic experiences, refusal to participate in related activities, avoidance of traumatic places or people or things related to traumatic experiences.

Trauma-related situations or content repeatedly and involuntarily appear in thinking, memory or dreams, and severe emotional reactions may also occur, and even feel as if the traumatic event is happening again.

May also exhibit substance abuse, aggressive behavior, self-injury or suicidal behavior...

She flipped through the books on mental disorders in the doctor's house, smiled sadly, and said, isn't it herself?What is the use of seeing a psychiatrist?Do you want to tell the psychiatrist that you used to be a scientist in a criminal organization, because you were conducting anti-human drug experiments, and you fell in love with a big shot in the organization, and in the end because the big shot killed your sister and put yourself in the gas chamber? Cause yourself to get PTSD?

Waking up every morning, looking at herself in the mirror as a complete stranger, she couldn't help but ask: Who are you?

Why are you still alive? ——This is what she cursed to herself when she was extremely sad and angry.

The author has something to say: Personally, I think that the 73 old thieves set up Hui Yuan Ai perfectly in the early stage, and it can be used as a psychological research case.

Ai who just appeared on the stage and gave away his head is a perfect case of PTSD.

later on. . .