Pei Gonggui

The so-called three religions and nine streams, the secular world has long been clearly distinguished.

In Cao Luan's ancestors, he was promoted from subordinate staff and got official titles. In his father's generation, his family was implicated in local party struggles, and he was labeled as a criminal minister.After becoming a criminal minister, Cao Luan had no hope of taking the imperial examination, and became a low-ranking class of litigators. The Pei family was a hereditary marquis and a loyal family. Pei Yan was the daughter of the general family and accompanied by the princess. How to compare with each other?

Pei Yan couldn't accept Cao Luan's sudden awakening.She grabbed his sleeve, pulled him stubbornly home, and yelled as she walked, "There's nothing impossible for a person to be alive! You just can't be an official in a department, but you can still fight with the army and make military achievements Ah! Even if you really live an ordinary life with me, what's wrong with that?"

Cao Luan broke free from her, and said in great pain: "Joining the army and fighting is about luck and life. How can you talk about it? Ordinary leisure is something you can only think about when you have enough food and clothing. I can't give you a good life. Ah Yan, The fate of both of you and me was decided from birth, you followed me, you are as beautiful as a flower but committed to the moron, if it gets out, the whole capital will laugh at you for being blind and disgraceful, and for the misfortune of your Pei family! I don't want to hurt you!"

"It's true what he said back then..." Pei Yan took a deep breath, and the sarcasm on her face gradually faded, "But then, what's the use? If he said this three years earlier, Nothing will happen, but three years have passed, and he only said it to let me know—the man I, Pei Yan, has a crush on is nothing more than this."

"At that time, I gave him a slap, told him to get out, and told him not to see me again. He walked away with red eyes, his head down, his sleeves folded, and he was crying. I've never seen him so useless..."

Pei Yan's voice weakened, her dull eyes looked at the stone wall behind Pei Jun, Xiao Ran said: "That was the first time in my life that I ran home crying."

"I decided to forget about him."

What happened from then on seemed to gradually begin to emerge in Pei Jun's mind.He did remember that Pei Yan ran back crying and was locked in her boudoir for more than an hour, crying loudly, and no one asked why, and she didn't come out until night to serve her mother Pei's meals in the sick bed. She seemed to be fine. People are like talking to their mothers with a fan.But one month later, when Jiang Xi used the reception in the palace to ask Pei Yan again in front of the Queen Mother, Pei Yan actually nodded her head after several declines in the past few years.

The next day, the Queen Mother's decree was handed down in the palace, ordering Pei Yan to marry Prince Rui Jiang Xi as his concubine.As soon as this news reached the Zhongyihou's residence, Pei's mother fainted in a fit of anger.

Cao Luan, who got the letter, ran wildly and ran into the eunuch who was announcing the decree in the palace, and stepped out of the carved threshold of the Zhongyihou Mansion.He knew that everything was irreversible, so he stopped outside the door.

In the vestibule, Pei Jun shouted anxiously that his mother's voice crossed the high wall and penetrated his ear bones, like a steel needle piercing his heart. He let go of his hand, and the name paper in his hand fell to the ground and spread out, soaking the remaining night rain on the ground. The word "Cao Luan" signed and printed on the corner was soaked, which finally made him lose the seat he wanted to fight for in the army that would be deployed a few months later.

And Pei Yan doesn't know about this.Pei Jun only picked up the certificate of honor on Cao Luan at the wine table a few days later, and then asked why Cao Luan joined the army.

Cao Luan didn't give any explanation at that time, but just smiled wryly in his drunkenness, and said that he was thinking about it and went blind, so he threw the name certificate into the copper furnace and burned it on the spot, and replaced it with gray cloth the next day Clothes, go to the Yamen to write a lawsuit.

Since then, he never mentioned the matter of enlisting in the army, as if nothing had happened, and Pei Jun couldn't ask any more questions.It was only now that Pei Yan's confession was matched with Pei Yan's, so that Pei Jun realized that behind the time when he didn't know the truth, there had been a silent, sad and heart-piercing story.These stories are turned into the folds of time. Every time I think of them, it is a silent and painful grinding, which finally polishes these folds into sharp creases, cutting deep and deep wounds on the hearts of these two people day and night. It's hard to calm down.And if what Cao Luan faced was only the misery that he couldn't ask for and the miss that he never mentioned, then compared with him, what Pei Yan suffered was undoubtedly the punishment of fate that was too unfair.

"I still remember what mother scolded me back then." Pei Yan didn't expect Pei Jun to say anything. Seeing that he was silent, she only gave a wry smile, and continued with regret in her eyes, "She once said that Jiang Xi beat me. Xiao is not a good character, if it is not the heir of the dragon, I am afraid that he is only worthy of being a gangster on the street, agreeing to marry him. I am a rat in my head and a heart covered in lard, and I will eat the bitter fruit in the future. She was coughing and persuading me to turn around, and painstakingly asked me to beg the queen mother to take back my life, but I was too stubborn, too naive, and I thought she wouldn't understand the real pain in my heart, and I couldn't tell her at all. That's a lot. I was just betting on my anger, so I thought, if Jiang Xi is a scum, but he is also a prince at the worst, then I will be a princess after all—after all, it is a matter of love. It's a joke, it can't be done, so it's better to occupy all the glory and wealth."

"Since Cao Luan said that he is not worthy of me, I will make him not worthy of me for the rest of his life."

Regardless of her mother's life, Pei Yan agreed to King Rui's marriage proposal without authorization, and was admitted to the Empress Dowager's Palace to wait for her marriage. Although this was a blessing from heaven, it did damage the reputation of the Pei family.Pei's mother was very ill at home, but the Ministry of Internal Affairs and the Ministry of Etiquette came to her home several times to prepare for Pei Yan's marriage, so she couldn't help worrying about her, and the news of her serious illness would not spread to the palace where the wedding was coming, which made her sick even more difficult .

At that time, Pei Jun had just entered the palace as a servant, and all the matters around the young emperor urgently needed him to perceive as soon as possible.He didn't have much free time, and he had already argued and broke up with Zhang Ling outside the court hall, so he lost his contacts with high-ranking people in the court, and he was still unable to talk about Pei Yan's marriage.His mother's serious illness turned his incomprehension towards Pei Yan's actions into anger under the strong pressure day after day, and finally turned into resentment towards Pei Yan after Pei Yan became Princess Rui.

Mother died that winter.

Although everything has been predicted many times by the imperial physician for many years, when the death actually happened, Pei Jun still felt extremely sad and desolate in his heart when he faced the gray and aging face of his mother on the bed.

He blamed everything on Pei Yan, and decided that Pei Yan was mad at his mother—even if he knew somewhere in his heart that this was just a fulcrum for his anger and impatience that he had nowhere to vent, even if he knew that from now on in this world Pei Yan, who has become fatherless and motherless, has always insisted on holding on to the unshakable resentment, ignoring his mother's death, refusing to admit his own uselessness, and not even afraid to use the most vicious To criticize Pei Yan, to ridicule and hurt her, to temporarily pass on the pain caused by the emptiness in my heart, like a jerk.

When the mourning hall was set up in the mansion, Pei Yan went home in panic to cry, and was escorted by her servants to meet Pei Jun, which undoubtedly intensified Pei Jun's anger to the peak.

He pointed at Pei Yan's nose in front of Baishijing High School who came to express his condolences, his eyes were red, his teeth were gritted, and he ordered her to get out of Pei's house word by word.

Tacit understanding is a cruel thing sometimes.Pei Jun didn't say any reason for this, and he didn't add any threatening consequences, but Pei Yan seemed to understand all of Pei Jun's intentions while her eyes were red and crying.

She cried out at this moment—for her mother, and especially for her lost brother.She was so difficult that she couldn't say a word. She looked at the pale bouquet of flowers and ribbons on the mother's mourning hall in a blink of an eye, and looked at Pei Jun wordlessly with tearful eyes implying infinite pleading. Tears rolled down her face, but all she got was Pei Jun glared at her when Uncle Dong stopped him.

She can only go.

She left without saying a word, just crying, and the funeral objects she brought were very luxurious, but none of them could be carried to Pei Muling.She turned her back amidst the sarcasm of the crowd, wiped her eyes with her sleeves, walked out of the gate of Pei Mansion, looked back for the last time, and was helped by the servants onto the carriage, and went all the way back to the palace.In the next eight or nine years, even if they met at a banquet or Jiang Xuan was born, Pei Jun and her would never have a good word to say even if they met. If it wasn't for the death of King Rui in this life that brought all the secrets to the surface, the relationship between the two would never be released. hatchet.

Pei Yan asked Pei Jun with red eyes: "Pei Jun, now...do you still hate me?"

Pei Jun raised his hand to pin her sideburns behind her ears, shook his head and said hoarsely, "It wasn't you who I hated, but myself, who was powerless at the time, and my fate."

He once again held Pei Yan, whose eyes were closed and weeping, on his shoulders, let her cry, and gently patted the back of her head. Feeling a sore nose and pain in the eyes, he said for a moment: "I'm sorry, Pei Yan, these years I'm really sorry for you, I won't say those bastard words in the future, after I pick you up, we will have a good life every day. You and Xuan'er, we will never be separated again. "

Pei Yan cried and nodded on his shoulder, and couldn't help asking him: "How is Xuan'er?"

Pei Jun said: "Jiang Zhan took Xuan'er into the palace in order to restrain me, and even ordered Xuan'er to be his heir. You don't have to worry about this. In the current situation, Xuan'er is more secure in the palace than outside the palace. Waiting to be taken out If I leave you, I will definitely find a way to bring Xuan'er back."

Pei Yan lifted herself from his shoulders, her slender eyebrows trembled slightly: "Can I still see Xuan'er alive?"

Pei Jun looked at her choked with sobs, and affirmed: "Yes. I will go to the palace immediately to find Cai Yan, just to see if it is my life or his son's life, which one he wants more."

"Pei Jun, you must be careful in everything." Pei Yan raised her hand to caress the side of Pei Jun's face, and tried her best to warn, "Xuan'er has lost me, and I can't live without your protection. He and I can only rely on you in this world." Now, you must be safe, do you know?"

Pei Jun patted the back of her hand: "I know, but don't forget about Mei Liu. Your business almost broke his leg, and he is waiting outside right now."

Pei Yan leaned against the stone wall and sighed vainly: "If you can talk less, you should talk less to him. He has a really pure and kind nature, so he should worry more about his own affairs and not mine. thing……"

"Wait out, you can talk to him yourself." Pei Jun looked at the bandages on her body again, stood up and asked, "I will ask Uncle Dong to bring someone to change your dressings later, you should rest a lot first. You Zhang San from Yushitai is currently watching the case. He is not bad, and he will never harm you. If there is another problem, you can ask the jailer to report to him, and save yourself first. Within ten days, I will definitely come to pick you up go out."

"Don't do anything stupid!" Pei Yan straightened up immediately after hearing the words.

Pei Jun hurriedly pushed her back, but in the end he only said in a low voice: "I have my own measure." After saying that, he left her, turned and walked out of Dali Temple.