Big Bad Wolf Guide to Regularization

☆、Chapter 3

This is Cheng Cheng's first kiss.

Han Ling was so overwhelmed by this kiss, he wanted to send Cheng Cheng home and leave, but now...

The moonlight, blocked by the thick curtains in the bedroom, was bright and clear.

Cheng Cheng was still asleep when Han Ling left. Looking at the sleeping profile of the person on the bed, Han Ling felt a little regretful.

he made a mistake...

It shouldn't be like this today, I should send Cheng Cheng home and leave...

But it happened to be the person he had been paying attention to for so long...

If he hadn't seen Cheng Cheng running out in the middle of the night today, he wouldn't have followed him to the bar...

So what to do now?

Han Ling sighed, so he had to go back and make a report...

When Cheng Cheng woke up, Han Ling was gone.

He didn't wait for him to wake up to say hello, nor did he ask him to leave a communication code.

If it weren't for the marks on his body and the messy room to remind him, Han Ling would have never been here.

Cheng Cheng's mood is lost, but his reason can understand.

Originally, he chose it by himself. Who else could he blame for failing?

He can't fall in love properly, so what else can he do besides humiliating himself like this and seeking a one-night love affair?

What's more, Cheng Cheng was actually a little scared when he calmed down and thought about it.

The stranger, who was taken home by him, had a relationship...

Who knows if it will be sick?Even if he was not sick, what if he raped and then killed himself, and then robbed all the valuables in his house?

Fortunately, that person didn't do anything bad, was clean, didn't have any special hobbies, didn't do anything to him, and was even gentle.

But after all the sensible words were said, Cheng Cheng's sense of loss and irritability still did not disappear.

Yesterday was my own embrace, it was my first time...

He's a bit rusty in technique, but that's not enough to make people feel bad at all, right?

That person just walked away so quickly, without any thought of seeing him again?

Isn't this too ruthless?

Can he be that bad?It's fine if you don't want to have sex with him first, don't you even have the intention of being a long-term girlfriend with him?

This fucking hurts my self-esteem too much!

Cheng Cheng didn't think there was anything wrong with his competitive spirit at this time.

He was the only child in his family at this age, and he was held in the palm of his hand since he was a child.In his limited emotional experience, he subconsciously always felt that as long as he could let go of his figure, it would be someone else chasing him.

Strictly speaking, the beginning of a relationship requires mutual affirmation and mutual attraction.

Cheng Cheng unilaterally felt that he was attracted and didn't get enough response. It's normal to feel a little depressed.

But he still doesn't understand it now, he just feels that he is a bit hypocritical.

After taking a boring bath, Cheng Cheng cleaned himself up, resumed his usual appearance of rejecting people thousands of miles away, went out, and went to work.

The morning sun is warm and warm, surrounded by four high-rise buildings, surrounded by tall Fatong and lush artificial garden landscape.

As the time drew near, all kinds of suspended vehicles parked outside the high-rise corridors were like bees coming out of their nests, drawing overlapping and intersecting trajectories in the air, and flying to their respective destinations.

The building where Cheng Cheng lives has a total of [-] floors, and the interior is finely divided. Two or three households have an independent area. The elevators are all over the outside of the semi-enclosed corridors as if free of charge. The suspended parking lot is still in front of the elevators. outside.

Cheng Cheng didn't buy a car, so he got into the elevator, and just a few floors down, he met Ma Shu.

"It's so early today? Go to the cafeteria to buy something to eat?" Ma Shu greeted him with a smile.

Cheng Cheng shook his head, "I don't want to eat."

"Then I'll bring it for you." Ma Shu said as he entered the elevator.

"Didn't you say you won't eat?" Cheng Cheng took two steps back, subconsciously keeping a distance from him in the elevator with only two people.

Ma Shu wanted to say a few more words, but as soon as the elevator stopped and someone else came in, he stopped talking. When they got to the first floor, everyone went out, and Cheng Cheng strode past him and walked out.

Ma Shu didn't follow him for a while, and sighed softly looking at his back.

The early summer morning is already a bit hot, and the young leaves of the sycamore tree are still fresh green.In this day and age, not many people choose to walk to start a new day.The students in twos and threes on the road were talking and laughing in pairs.

The flow of people basically converged in the direction of the cafeteria. Cheng Cheng lowered his head and walked quickly, and it took only 10 minutes to reach the laboratory building.

The biological experiment building built 30 years ago is already a bit dilapidated, and many functional facilities were added later.The parking lot is built on the roof of the building, and it is divided into several floors. The densely packed crowd arrives at their respective destinations through the elevator on the roof.

The underground garage was sealed ten years ago.The old cars parked twice around the building, leaving only one lane for a small number of small cars.

The laboratory where Cheng Cheng works is on the third floor. Even though the corridor can't go very far, everyone still chooses the elevator.

The building is cool and clean, and the smooth marble floor has turned gray. When Cheng Cheng arrived at the laboratory, there were already several colleagues in the bright, white and clean laboratory. As always, he pretended not to see them, sitting in a white coat Arrived in front of his own test bench.

His mentor, Ma Shu, has made some progress in the regenerative medicine project some time ago. These days are busy days, and he can be exhausted every day.

When the bell rang for work, Xiao Ke rushed into the door panting, and greeted him, "Brother Cheng! Have you eaten yet?"

"Not hungry." Cheng Cheng didn't even look at anyone, and concentrated on it.

Xiao Ke got used to it a long time ago, sat across from Cheng Cheng, and ate the warm steamed stuffed bun in his hand.

Time passed unknowingly, Cheng Cheng put his mind on his work, and all the awkwardness in his heart in the morning was forgotten by him.

At twelve noon, the black bracelet on Cheng Cheng's left hand vibrated, and a small analog display screen popped up, showing a text message from an unfamiliar communication number.

"If you don't feel well, rest for a while. I was too excited yesterday, did I hurt you?"

Cheng Cheng was stunned for a while before he remembered who the person who sent him the message was, his fair face turned red hot.

He looked around at his colleagues in the laboratory with trepidation, seeing that no one was paying attention to him, Cheng Cheng took a few deep breaths, and immediately replied.

"I'm not as precious as you think, okay?"

There was no reply for a while after sending the message, Cheng Cheng's heart couldn't hold back any longer.

He opened his bracelet to look at it from time to time, and looked at it more than a dozen times. After almost an hour, the man finally returned a voice.

Cheng Cheng bent down and dug out the earphone strap that he hadn't used for a long time in the drawer under the laboratory table, connected it to the bracelet, and clicked to play it.

The man's tone was slightly smiling, "It's not that expensive, but don't you say it's your first time? I'm afraid you will feel uncomfortable."

Cheng Cheng's face was red and his heart was beating continuously. All kinds of things from last night seemed to appear in front of his eyes, and the touch of the man's touch seemed to return to his body.

When the mood calmed down, Cheng Cheng, who still looked indifferent on the outside, was just about to reply, but Xiao Ke interrupted him.

"Brother Cheng, I can't keep my cells alive! I'm dead again!"

Cheng Cheng had no choice but to shake his left hand, put away the display screen simulated by the bracelet, turned to Xiao Ke and said, "You must have made a mistake again, and I didn't notice it."

Xiao Ke sighed, and complained: "I think the black glue insect must have hated me in the previous life, and would trouble me every now and then."

"Come on you, is there something wrong with the incubator where you store the petri dishes..." Cheng Cheng said, walked up to Xiao Ke, approached the large virtual screen in front of Xiao Ke, and carefully checked the real-time microscope of the petri dishes on the screen. screen and various data.

"The temperature and humidity are all right, and I didn't just take them out to look at them like I did before... I really didn't do anything... How could I die again... I'm really desperate... ..." Xiao Ke scratched his head with an expression of about to cry.

Cheng Cheng shook his head, and investigated the reason with him.

As a result, the two searched and searched and found nothing. It can only be said to be metaphysics.

Xiao Ke and Cheng Cheng entered the laboratory together, and they are only two months younger than Cheng Cheng. They are already familiar with each other, so they naturally called each other more affectionately.

Cheng Cheng is calm and introverted by nature.In addition, when he first entered the laboratory a few years ago, his mother made some things about him known to the whole hospital, so he always avoided the crowd subconsciously.

There are only five or six people in this laboratory, except for Xiao Ke, the others are only acquaintances with Cheng Cheng.

Before leaving get off work, Ma Shu came over.

"There is an order from above to suspend the research on regenerative medicine, and all the materials will be sealed and handed over. Our laboratory will focus on human body function enhancing medicine. Everyone, pack up quickly and try to get it done before get off work!"

As soon as Ma Shu finished speaking, one after another complained.

"Putting it off again? Security guards are vegetarians, right? Did you let someone in again?"

"My God, it's finally going to require animal experiments, and now the progress of the medical university must surpass ours!"

"I'm not afraid of thieves coming in, I'm afraid of thieves thinking about it! If you're so afraid of technology leaks, you shouldn't hold a seminar in the first place!"

Ma Shu frowned and said, "That's enough! Hurry up, don't waste time!"

After leaving work amidst the complaints, Cheng Cheng bid farewell to Xiao Ke, watched him run among the colleagues waiting for him, a group of people talked and laughed and walked towards the cafeteria, while he walked home alone with his head down way.

Cheng Cheng remembered that after finishing his work last night, the man hugged him and laughed at him, making him hold back.

At that time, Cheng Cheng said righteously that he had only reached the stage of estrus that every creature would have, but he knew in his heart that the man was right, he was very depressed... But he was afraid of interacting with people, afraid of being seen by others His eyes were curious and inquiring.

What can he do?

When Andy chased Cheng Cheng before, he mentioned his family and parents to Cheng Cheng more than once, but every time Andy asked Cheng Cheng, Cheng Cheng could only avoid it.

His family used to be a warm haven, but now they have no contact with each other, which makes him a little embarrassed.

It’s not like Andy can bring up the person he likes without any grudges... Every time I think of my parents’ incomprehension and cold and alienated attitude, it’s like scratching Cheng Cheng’s heart again...

There's nothing wrong with living alone...

After so many years, haven't I also passed it?

☆、Chapter 4

The evening wind in early summer was a little cool, and the young leaves of the sycamore tree swayed with the wind. Cheng Cheng felt a little cold, so he quickened his pace of going home. When he was leaning on the sofa and staring at the TV, Cheng Cheng realized that the man had sent him a text message. Got several messages.

"If I'm free this Saturday, I'll go to your house?"

"Why don't you reply to the message, are you busy?"

"Come back to me when you're free."

The interval between each message was about one hour to two hours, and Han Ling's tone changed from tentative at the beginning to vaguely anxious at the end.

Cheng Cheng thought about it and decided not to return.

I want to be with you, but I am afraid of being too close.

Even Cheng Cheng himself felt that he deserved his life like this.

Besides, it's enough to think about being impulsive once. Cheng Cheng couldn't figure out why he had the emotion of reluctance.

Maybe it's because I really long for physical touch?Or maybe it was love at first sight?

It was not until a long time later, under Han Ling's enlightenment, that Cheng Cheng understood the reason for his current state.

But now Cheng Cheng's rationality tells himself that no matter what his emotions are, just stop at the end.

What's more...he has never been in love...

His current situation can be said to be a dilemma, beyond the control of a person like him who has no love experience, it is better not to try...

You can't fail without trying.

But when it really came to Saturday, Cheng Cheng slept until twelve o'clock and got up at twelve o'clock. He ordered takeaway alone, ate it alone, and sat on the sofa watching TV in a daze. The man sent a voice message.

"Will you leave my house? Do you want me to locate you?"

But after the news was sent out, it was like a stone sinking into the sea.

From noon to evening, from impatience and anxiety to ashes, Cheng Cheng began to think based on his shallow experience.

Does a man treat him like this... playing hard to get?

Or is he just casting a wide net... In fact, he sent the same message to many of his sex friends, and he was just one of them?

Or, is he really busy with work?So no time to go back?

Could it be that because I haven't replied, I'm deliberately angry with myself?

Never... He sees that I don't reply... Maybe he has an appointment with someone else...

Cheng Cheng felt that the man had much more experience than him...it seemed like he often went to bars...

Therefore, the possibility of casting a wide net should be the greatest.

Meeting by chance, dewy love, the man probably doesn't care about himself at all, maybe who he is having a hot affair with right now...

When Cheng Cheng was disturbed by his frivolous affection, the news from Han Ling arrived.

"Can you tell me sooner next time? I've been waiting for you for a week! This week won't work! Next Saturday, whether you agree or not, I'll be at your door at eight in the evening, remember to open the door for me!"

Cheng Cheng, who saw the news, smirked by himself.

"Aren't you afraid that I'll lock the door for you?"

But once again there was no response to the message sent.

Maybe he was really busy... Cheng Cheng stood up with a bit of disappointment and walked to the bathroom, knocking on the white wall opposite the bedroom door.

The wooden trap door turned open with his knock, revealing a boxy entrance leading to the downstairs at the bottom of the corner.Cheng Cheng entered his secret room through this passage, and stayed there until Sunday night.

When the man still didn't reply on Monday, Cheng Cheng felt that he was about to lose control of his emotions.

When the man didn't reply to the message, he felt extremely anxious, irritated, and lost. It was like his heart was full of small bugs, gnawing non-stop, and he was so depressed that he couldn't breathe.

As soon as the news of the man's reply arrived, all the negative emotions were swept away, and thousands of flowers bloomed in his heart, as if there was a bird locked in his chest that was about to rush out of his body.

The emotions are repeatedly intertwined, and as time goes by, it will imprison him.

Even if it is reasonable to tell myself that the man may really be too busy with work so he doesn't reply, it's useless...

Emotions are never controlled by reason, and reason can never override emotions and control the body...

Cheng Cheng remembered what the doctor said to him, so he worked overtime for a week and forced himself to divert his attention.

Several other colleagues in the laboratory chuckled, and some even joked: "Look at this kid, it's going to be a disaster if you have a girlfriend."

Cheng Cheng also tugged at the corner of his mouth. After everyone left, he couldn't help but look at the news records between him and the man.

Still no reply...

What the hell is going on?

What kind of work keeps a man so busy?

Even if you are not interested in yourself, even if you regard yourself as a friend with sex, you can't not reply to the news like this!

This is so fucking disrespectful!

Unknowingly, angry and annoyed, he thought about 07:30, Cheng Cheng turned off his laboratory bench and went home from get off work!

As soon as I went out, I ran into Mashu.

Ma Shu smiled at Cheng Cheng, and asked with some concern: "Why did you leave so late?"

Cheng Cheng looked at his mentor and elder brother in embarrassment, unable to avoid it, forced a smile, "The experimental task is tight, I just want to do more..."

"Is work more important than your body? I think you've been absent-minded this week. What's the matter?"

Ma Shu's gossip is deeply understood, and he didn't want to say too much, so he pushed his glasses, "Anyway, I'm fine..."

"It's all right? Don't make trouble out of the good youth? Why don't you learn from Xiao Ke and have a relationship or something?"

Ma Shu simply walked up to Cheng Cheng, walked with him to the residential area, and said earnestly while walking: "Work is work, and life is life. Before you are old enough to fight, you should first solve your personal problems..."

Cheng Cheng looked at Ma Shu's pure concern, and said nothing.

"You see, Xiao Ke is already in a relationship, so you have to hurry up. Didn't you two come together? Your parents are also pushing you hard..."

Cheng Cheng was really a little angry now, "Can you leave me alone?"

Ma Shu's family and Cheng Cheng's family can be regarded as family friends, and they have known each other since their grandparents' generation.

Seeing that Cheng Cheng was angry at this time, Ma Shu didn't care, and said with a smile: "Just listen to my advice, say that this person needs to find a companion..."

"No... my parents asked you to force me to marry too?" Cheng Cheng couldn't help frowning, he didn't like Ma Shu's care without boundaries.

"What am I forcing you to do?" Ma Shu glared at Cheng Cheng, "I just care about you. Besides, you didn't marry me, so why should I force you?"

Cheng Cheng's heart stabbed, and he murmured and did not make another sound.

Ma Shu then started to care from the leaders and elders, "I feel that your mental state is not very good this week, and I think so, you are alone, you have been alone these years, except work is work, a little There are no entertainment activities, and if you are asked to go out to play, you will not go, sooner or later you will be bored. Find a companion as soon as possible, and you will feel more comfortable."

"I... am I not in a good state of mind?" Cheng Cheng felt good about himself, and he didn't feel that his performance was too obvious.

Ma Shu nodded seriously, "You were not in a good state of mind when you first came here, but after the yard tried to persuade your mother to leave, you got better. Your best time was when Andy pursued you. For a while, my face was full of red every day..."

Ma Shu brought up the old story again, obviously as a joke.

Cheng Cheng thought of Andy, blushed, and quickly denied, "Don't talk nonsense..."

Ma Shu had a mischievous smile on his face, "If I were you, I would have accepted it at the beginning. After pulling the marriage certificate, take it home, whether your parents object or not? I will say that your parents are also antiques." , the marriage law doesn’t require gender anymore, so why do your parents care so much?”

"I want to have a grandson. As soon as the artificial uterus is applied, the grandson will come down in five months. He will be born faster than others, and he will be healthy and good. Don't take them as a burden on your mind. If you can persuade them, don't you? Mom and Dad will spend the rest of your life with you?"

Every family has its cupboard.

Cheng Cheng was still as calm as water on the surface, but there were ripples in his heart.

☆、Chapter 5

Cheng Cheng didn't want to talk about it, so he kept silent, but Ma Shu didn't finish.

"If you want me to tell you, you are just too obedient, and you take your parents' words too seriously."

"You see, you have been obedient and sensible since you were a child, and everything follows your parents. But there are some things that you don't have to listen to. Sexual orientation is a cliché. We all know that it is born, and your parents also It’s not that they don’t know, but they just can’t accept it.”

"Don't take this as a big mistake. It's really not possible. If you don't get married, as long as you have support conditions, you can apply for the qualification to use the artificial womb by yourself. When the child comes, take it home and throw it to your parents to take it. , to see if they still say anything..."

When Cheng Cheng heard this, he really couldn't continue to perfunctory, "Old Ma, you are really too lenient, I don't like it."

Ma Shu: "Didn't I help you find a way to solve the problem?"

Cheng Cheng knew that Ma Shu was kind, he had always been like this, and had never changed...

What's more, there are not many people who can talk to Cheng Cheng about this, so he can only sigh; "This problem can't be solved, I just don't want to make my mother angry, make her sad... I want to do what you said, then I will Mom can't wipe tears every day?"

Ma Shu thought about it again, yes.

He also knows a lot more about the situation in Cheng Cheng's family than ordinary people. Cheng Cheng's father's temper, he must be tough, but he has nothing to do with Cheng Cheng's mother, so he can only sigh: "Then I I'll give you three days off, and you can make some adjustments at home, so don't lose your mind every day. If you want to make yourself sick, I'll have to be scolded too."

Ma Shu was often talked about by his family because of Cheng Cheng's affairs, especially Cheng Cheng didn't go home every Spring Festival, and he had to be questioned by his parents as soon as he went back.

Cheng Cheng thought to himself, "Two days off on weekends, and one day off on Monday, can this count as three days?" On the face, he asked calmly, "Am I in such a bad state now?"

Is his performance so obvious?

Ma Shu: "Then you don't think so, you are so close to putting the words 'I have something on your mind, please come and comfort me' on your forehead."

Cheng Cheng's face darkened.

Of course he was not as exaggerated as Mashu said.

Cheng Cheng used to have a cold face every day, with the four big characters "Don't let strangers in" written on his face, no one dared to approach him.

This week he was disturbed by the man's affairs, nothing more than the expression on his face was a little colder, not much different from before, except for Ma Shu, no one else could see anything.

"I think I'm pretty good. Don't make up your own mind," Cheng Cheng said with a cold face. "What's more, I just changed the project. My experiment is now at a critical moment. Isn't it delaying the progress of my experiment if you let me go on leave?"

"The delay of your experiment for two days doesn't affect anything at all, let alone the subject I chose, I control the progress, so I can't let you go on vacation?"

Ma Shu patted Cheng Cheng on the shoulder, "Everyone is a screw, don't think too much about yourself, it's not like you won't be able to turn around without the laboratory, it's good to leave it for three days, and you just have time to go far away Go around a little bit, get to know more people..."

Cheng Cheng: "...Didn't I just say that I don't want to fall in love?"

Ma Shu: "Isn't it better to have more friends than to fall in love?"

Cheng Cheng had nothing to say, but at this moment, the man's news arrived, "Where are you? Are you really going to shut me at your door?"

When Cheng Cheng saw the news, all the troubles of the past week were replaced by surprises!

The man is here early!

"Three days off, it's a deal, I'll go home first!"

Before Ma Shu could call him, Cheng Cheng trotted home with his briefcase in hand. If he looked carefully, he could still see the smile on the corner of his mouth.

Halfway through the run, the man's message came again.

"10 minutes! If you don't come back, you will suffer!"

Cheng Cheng, who was out of breath from running, hummed in his heart when he saw the news, and simply walked slowly.

What's the matter with just letting you wait?What can you do to me?

When he walked to the door of the house, he saw Han Ling from a distance, still wearing the T-shirt and jeans that night, clean, leaning against the wall at the end of the corridor, looking at him and smiling, his shiny black eyes filled with happiness. joy.

Cheng Cheng's face became hot and his heart beat faster when he looked at him. Only by staggering his gaze could he maintain his consistent calmness.

The look in the man's eyes made Cheng Cheng's heart flutter, and he couldn't stop restless.

Is this person sick?

It was only the second time they met, they didn't even know each other's names, how could they show such affectionate eyes?

It's like looking at a lover in love...

If Cheng Cheng could see his own face, he would definitely find that the restrained shyness on his face, the flushed cheeks, and the joy that couldn't be concealed by the thick lenses were the root of Han Ling's expression reason.

If you want to go deeper, for Cheng Cheng, they met by chance and fell in love.

As far as Han Ling was concerned, he had been observing this person for four full years.

On the short walk from the elevator to the door of the house, Cheng Cheng walked lightly, not knowing where he was.

After finally walking to the door of the house, Cheng Cheng turned his face away and said, "I'm sorry, something happened after get off work and I was delayed." He gently pressed the fingerprint lock.

With two beeps, the door opened, and Cheng Cheng was about to enter when Han Ling stopped him.

"Fingerprint, add it to me."

He didn't want to wait like this again next time, Cheng Cheng didn't care, but his face couldn't be so revealing.

Cheng Cheng looked back at him, his heart was pounding, but at least he hadn't completely lost his mind, he hesitated.

"Why, are you still afraid that I will do something bad?" Han Ling stared at Cheng Cheng angrily and amusedly, with a little doting in his eyes.

After thinking for a while, Cheng Cheng pressed the fingerprint lock setting interface.

"Let me remind you, our fingerprints have all been registered with the police, if you..."

"You know you're scared now. Why didn't you see you so cowardly last time?" Han Ling pressed his palm onto the virtual screen, and his entire palmprint data was slowly engraved on the virtual screen.

Cheng Cheng defended in a low voice with a guilty conscience: "Last time, it was the brain of a sperm..."

"If you are angry, you will be angry, and you say it so implicitly." Han Ling smiled disdainfully.

Cheng Cheng rubbed against each other, and his face turned red again.

Han Ling looked at it, and his heart blossomed with joy.He just likes to tease Cheng Cheng like this, seeing this duplicity person blushing and shy.

There were two beeps, and a stereotypical female voice sounded, "The fingerprint information has been added."

Han Ling pushed Cheng Cheng, who was still blushing, "Don't come in when you get home, how about being a door god?"

Cheng Cheng's head was a little dazed, and he took two steps in in response to the sound.

As soon as the door closed, Han Ling picked him up and strode towards the bedroom.

"Hey...don't worry...let me take a shower first..." Cheng Cheng screamed, struggling in a panic.

"Fuck it, I've been holding it back for almost two weeks..." Han Ling said as he suppressed Cheng Cheng who was struggling, and buried his head in kissing his lips.

It was long and hot, and finally when Han Ling let go of Cheng Cheng's lips, Cheng Cheng had a chance to say apologetically, "I...haven't washed for a week..."

The man paused for a moment as he was about to touch down.

"How about... you first... wait?"

Cheng Cheng panted, extremely shy and embarrassed.

The next second, Han Ling picked Cheng Cheng up again and rushed into the bathroom.

"What are you doing!" Cheng Cheng yelled in panic.

"Wash together!" Han Ling answered decisively and smiled meaningfully.

But Han Ling's dream did not come true.

In the bathroom, Cheng Cheng's sudden burst of suppressed crying caught him off guard for a moment, so he had to hug the crying out of breath man through the bath towel and lie down on the bed.

☆、Chapter 6

In fact, everyone has an illusion.

The thoughts of the people around you are the mainstream thoughts of the society, and the views of the people who are closer to you are the mainstream views of the society.

The sooner people realize that there are still circles of people with different ideas, the sooner they can get rid of the pressure from the people around them.

But when Cheng Cheng knew this truth, it was too late.

The circle in which he has lived since he was a child is too narrow, so narrow that there are only tens of thousands of people in the compound, so narrow that he can't see the outside world, and even surfing the Internet can only go to designated websites under the strict supervision of his parents. Play parent-approved games.

Ma Shu was right, his parents actually understood.

Only if you understand it will you find him disgusting, and only if you understand it will you not be able to accept it.

Cheng Cheng is the only outlier in their yard, different from the others.

Cheng Cheng originally thought that he had thought clearly about how he could take that step that night, and he was well prepared.

But in fact, under the warm, hot and bright light in the bathroom, even though his vision was blurred, he could still see clearly.

At the moment he saw it, he was eroded by great shame and disgust, and the accusations he had faced since he was a child seemed to reappear in his ears, making him collapsed and unable to continue.

The heavy curtains in the bedroom were half open, the light outside the window dyed half of the night sky red, and the room was dim.

Han Ling let Cheng Cheng sob and patted him on the back lightly.When Cheng Cheng calmed down, he leaned on Han Ling's chest and said softly with a strong nasal voice: "I'm sorry... for spoiling your interest..."

Cheng Cheng felt that they were not familiar with each other after all. This man came here with a purpose, but he made the atmosphere like this.

What's more... Isn't he like this last time?This man should think... he's hypocritical...

Han Ling raised his face and kissed him softly, "It's my fault. I forgot that you have no experience and lost your sense of proportion."

He was really frightened. When Cheng Cheng was crying, he thought about it for a long time, and finally thought of Cheng Cheng's previous illness, and only blamed himself for being negligent, and he shouldn't be so limitless.

Cheng Cheng lost his glasses and couldn't see clearly. He only felt that Han Ling's tone was extremely gentle, but he didn't know how to answer this sentence.Is it pure politeness?Or... the truth?

Han Ling didn't wait for him to answer, rubbed his broken hair, and whispered, "Actually, everyone has such a process. Think about it, did you hate other people's saliva when you were young? Kissed me several times Is it disgusting?"

In fact, Cheng Cheng, really, thinks, a little bit.

The last time it was driven by desire, it was not so obvious, this time there is less desire and more shame.

Cheng Cheng put on a blank face and didn't answer, Han Ling didn't know whether to laugh or cry, hugged him even tighter, and said with some air: "Last time I took the initiative to kiss me, but this time I think my saliva is disgusting, and I still cry like this, are you angry on purpose?" I?"

Speaking of the last time, Cheng Cheng felt a little guilty.

"Last time was the last time, last time it was all dark, and I couldn't see clearly... You are not like this time..." Doing such an embarrassing thing.

When mentioning the incident in the bathroom, Han Ling was not so confident, and comforted: "If you think this matter is disgusting, I can understand it...it's true that I didn't consider your feelings...but you don't have to. Too much pressure, this is actually a very common thing, that is, to add some interest, you have to treat it with a normal mind. Just like eating and drinking, you like to eat delicious food and drink, and the same is true for sexual desire. Some tricks are more exciting, that's all."

Only then did Cheng Cheng realize that the man was real and was comforting himself.

He couldn't help hugging Han Ling even tighter, and whispered his feelings: "I just think that seeing too clearly makes me feel that I'm too abnormal..." It's different from others...

Han Ling didn't answer him, but asked instead: "Why do you think you are abnormal? What is abnormal?"

Where else?But let Cheng Cheng speak out, he felt that he couldn't.

Is it all the same, what else can he do?

Can he still straighten?

But Han Ling guessed it, and asked in a low voice, "You think it's dirty, right?"

Cheng Cheng bowed his head and remained silent.

The man laughed and said, "Do you think normal people don't feel that? Do you know how many kids think sex is a dirty thing? Do you know how many kids feel disgusted when they think of two people rolling together? Whether it's a man Or women, gay or straight, once they grow up, they have to accept the sex life that they thought was dirty when they were young."

"Sometimes it's not because you are willing to accept it. It's just that as you grow up, the dose of hormones secreted in your body increases, and your sexual desire arises. Everyone has to face it. In fact, it's not just you who can't accept it, what's wrong with you?"

"It's different..." Cheng Cheng wanted to say something more, but Han Ling didn't let him continue.

"Actually, I don't know if everyone is like this. But I think if you are under such a lot of pressure, it may have something to do with the guidance you gave when you were young."

"From another perspective, existence is reasonable. You can ask nature why it allows humans to evolve shame and cleanliness, but keeps reproductive organs and excretory organs so close; why is it necessary to continue life, but not Let a small number of people have different sexual orientations."

"This question has not been answered until now, but if you have been living under the pressure of others, you will not be able to live."

Scientific theory guides practice, helping human beings to spy on each of their behavioral motives and inner world, and to understand themselves more truly.

No one has ever told Cheng Cheng like this, not even Ma Shu taught him that.

For such a moment, Cheng Cheng felt that he seemed to be in love.

The two hugged each other and slept together, but when Cheng Cheng woke up, Han Ling was gone again.

Fortunately, this time he left a message for Cheng Cheng.

"I'm too busy at work. If you have anything to do, just leave a message with me. Next week will be Friday. At eight o'clock in the evening, I'll wait for you to go home."

Cheng Cheng was as disappointed as last time, but he no longer felt bored as before.

What kind of job can be so busy?Saturdays and Sundays?

But on second thought, there's nothing wrong with that.

This man...should be busier than him...

So you don't have to make too many contacts, just meet up from time to time.

He doesn't have to think about how to maintain the relationship... and he doesn't have to worry about the man asking about his family