Delicacy

"English is really difficult, why do we have to learn English as a major?"

"It's a compulsory course, but that's all if you don't learn it well. Anyway, we haven't had these public courses since our sophomore year."

Coming out of the final exam room, Qin Yuanmu walked forward through the crowd and voices.Taking out his mobile phone, he turned to the message Lian Xiao sent him a few days ago, he hesitated and replied: I was busy with the exam recently, so I just saw it today.You don't need to pick me up, my mother is coming to pick me up.

After walking downstairs to the dormitory, Lian Xiao's message came back: OK.

Scrolling up, the most recent chat record is a video call a while ago, which was Lian Xiao's birthday.It was the first time the two of them played a video after they went to college, and they didn't do anything shady. Qin Yuanmu still talked a lot to Lian Xiao suppressing the awkward feeling in his heart.Seeing Lian Xiao's excited expression at that time, Qin Yuanmu felt very uncomfortable.

Today's temperature can be said to be irritating, closing his eyes, Qin Yuanmu felt as if he was being held in a steamer.Summer is here, and my freshman year is over.This year seems to have made Qin Yuanmu a little numb and bored. He can't get up to do anything but paint every day, and painting is more like a subconscious behavior. It's not happy or not. .

Even the holidays are the same, Qin Yuanmu is not as excited as before to see Lian Xiao.

It was a heavy blow on the shoulder that interrupted Qin Yuanmu's elegant mood in the sun. Qin Yuanmu turned his head expressionlessly and saw Xu Tao who was also walking into the dormitory building.

"Brother, are you playing in the sun?" Xu Tao pushed him into the building, avoiding the direct sunlight, "You look like this, did you fail the exam?"

Qin Yuanmu looked at him: "You are in a good mood, can you get full marks in the exam?"

"That's not true." Xu Tao walked upstairs with a smile, and suddenly looked at Qin Yuanmu with some confusion, "I have something, and I want to ask your opinion."

"Ask." Qin Yuanmu was listless, thinking that Xu Tao would not be able to ask any good questions.

Xu Tao's expression couldn't tell whether it was excitement or fear: "Xue Yujie told me to let me accompany him home this summer vacation, saying that his parents wanted to see me."

Qin Yuanmu paused, even if he wasn't interested, the amount of information on this matter was too much: "What does he mean by bringing you out?"

"Brother, you know a lot," Xu Tao muttered with a smile, "That's it, this fellow sneakily exposed my existence to my father-in-law and mother-in-law. Do you think I should go? It always feels weird to go. If I don't go, I'm afraid that Xue Yujie will punish me."

Qin Yuanmu thought of himself and Lian Xiao, yes, there are still family members.

Qin Yuanmu's complexion was even worse, Xu Tao misunderstood his meaning, and said with a dry smile: "Brother, don't make such an expression, I'm not showing affection with you, but really entangled. Xue Yujie said that his parents still I can accept me quite well, and I probably won’t be beaten if I go. But I’m afraid that if I go, what will he do if he insists on me coming out to my family? I’m not afraid, but this kind of thing has to be done slowly... ..."

Qin Yuanmu didn't want to talk to him anymore, and strode upstairs to distance himself from him.Isn't this a show of affection?As he walked, he said coldly, "Whether you like to go or not is none of my business."

Xu Tao wondered why he was so angry, and kept pestering Qin Yuanmu that he was not a pervert, but that he was still his best friend Balabala...Qin Yuanmu didn't say a word to him, after packing up his things We set off to the station under the sun.

In fact, he can't go home several times throughout the year, but every time Qin Yuanmu arrives at the station, he feels as if he just left here two days ago, and the days seem to pass faster and faster.

Summer vacation should have been the most favored word in the hearts of the students, but Qin Yuanmu didn't look relaxed all the way.He was a little afraid of seeing Lian Xiao, and didn't know how to face him.He is more afraid, and this fear will turn into boredom in a short time.

I used to feel that the provincial capital was far away from my home, but now maybe because I am used to taking a car, Qin Yuanmu feels that it is quite close.Before he could figure out the stupid thing in his heart, the stop announcement sounded, and Qin Yuanmu got out of the car slowly with the suitcase followed by the crowd.

The air conditioner in the station was more effective than that in the car. When Qin Yuanmu got out of the car, he felt the air-conditioning drill into his body along every pore. He strode forward, thinking that this crappy station was quite willing to turn on the air conditioner.

Wu Fenfang did come to pick him up. Wearing a sun hat, she was waiting in the waiting room at the entrance of the station. When she saw him from a distance, she waved her arms.

It seemed that Qin Yuanmu's worries about going to school had been settled, Wu Fenfang's face was relaxed, and even the wrinkles at the corners of his eyes were not so clearly visible.Although it is still incomparable with before the accident at home, but now it can no longer be said to be haggard.

Wu Fenfang smiled and looked at her son a few times: "I seem to be thinner than in the Chinese New Year. I don't usually eat well, right? You have to take good care of yourself when you are outside."

Qin Yuanmu smiled: "It's better to be thinner, it's so ugly to be fat. I was almost ashamed to face people during the Chinese New Year. It's just right now."

Wu Fenfang made a joke: "I didn't see you get a daughter-in-law even if you're thin."

Qin Yuanmu's smile froze for a moment, and he changed the subject without changing his face, and walked away from the station while talking to her.There is a car waiting for them outside, and the driver is of course the old uncle Wu Guangming who has been bad for thousands of years.

Qin Yuanmu couldn't hold it back, and mocked his driving skills, Wu Guangming smiled nonchalantly: "I'm a slow-witted child, and I'm already old when I was learning to drive. It's good to be able to drive. By the way, Yuan Mu, if you have nothing to do during the summer vacation, why not learn to drive, after all, you will have to take the driver's license test sooner or later."

Wu Fenfang felt sorry for her son: "When can I not learn to drive, why don't I wait for the winter vacation, the summer vacation is too hot, it's unbearable."

What Wu Guangming said reminded Qin Yuanmu. Qin Yuanmu looked at Che Hai outside the car window and said, "It's fine to learn to drive. Anyway, I have nothing to do during the holidays. I won't have time to learn after graduation."

Wu Fenfang smiled lightly and said, "My son has really grown up and knows to worry about serious business."

Qin Yuanmu didn't say a word, closed his eyes and fell asleep.Wu Fenfang didn't know that Qin Yuanmu was in a bad mood, and thought he was tired from the car ride, so she didn't take it to heart, and turned around and chatted with Wu Guangming without saying a word.

The two of them were talking about trivial things in life. His uncle seemed to want a second child, so he talked about housing prices and commodity prices.Qin Yuanmu couldn't take it anymore after listening to it for two ears. Are those trivial things worth talking about every day?

People who have been away from school for decades naturally don't have such a thing as summer vacation. Wu Fenfang went to work overtime after cooking a meal for Qin Yuanmu.

In the current weather, the sun is still emitting heat dutifully before it officially sets.Qin Yuanmu was sweating, and when he was about to turn on the air conditioner, his phone vibrated.

Little Noodles: Are you home yet?

Seeing the message from Lian Xiao, Qin Yuanmu twitched for no reason, and quickly recovered: I'm home, and I'm eating.Not as good as yours.

Lian Xiao sent a moving picture of laughing, with a paragraph attached: I was going to be busy this summer vacation, but Lao Yang arranged for me to go to school to practice like last year, but luckily I refused wisely.Blessed is your mouth this holiday season.

Looking at the bouncing animation on the screen, Qin Yuanmu always felt like he was laughing at him, so he directly dialed Lian Xiao's phone number.

"Hello?" Lian Xiao's tone was cautious, with a tone that could not understand Qin Yuanmu's mood.It seems that even a dull person like him has noticed that there is some inexplicable sense of estrangement between him and Qin Yuanmu.

This simple word of Lian Xiao made Qin Yuanmu's words stuck in his throat, as if he hadn't heard Lian Xiao's voice for a long time.

Thinking about it, too, I didn't even have a few words to chat, and of course it was even more impossible to make a phone call.

"Why don't you speak?" Lian Xiao asked softly.

"I don't know what to say," Qin Yuanmu was going to turn on the air conditioner, but he stood up and walked around before sitting back down, "Lian Xiao, I miss you a little bit."

Lian Xiao's tone returned to normal, and he asked with a smile, "Is it just a little bit?"

"No, I really want it." Qin Yuanmu said expressionlessly.

Lian Xiao chuckled twice, and said: "Well, we haven't called for a long time, right? I'm so busy every day, Lao Yang is like dementia, he thinks of something every few days and doesn't teach me It’s something that bothers people every day. But you didn’t bother me much, isn’t the school busy too?”

"Yeah," Qin Yuanmu said, pressing his brows, and continued with a measured tone, "Lian Xiao, do you feel that we are getting farther and farther apart?"

"Why do old couples talk about this?" Lian Xiao replied with a smile, "Stay far away, anyway, distance creates beauty. Besides, it's not that there is a rift in our relationship, it's just that we have things to do, wait for you to come back from graduation Enough."

Qin Yuanmu responded silently, Lian Xiao continued: "If you are afraid of this, let's come out and meet now?"

In the past, Qin Yuanmu would definitely agree without saying a word, but now Qin Yuanmu is really afraid to face Lian Xiao, and simply said: "Why don't you go to your class teacher, if you have nothing to do during the holidays, you should go to training, I'm going to learn to drive during the summer vacation, so I'm afraid I don't have much time to spend with you."

"Ah? Why are you so busy?" Lian Xiao sighed exaggeratedly, unable to hear the proportion of real disappointment in his tone, "But it's a good thing that you can learn to drive now. Anyway, you will learn sooner or later, otherwise you will wait later. If you learn it when you are old, you may not even be able to hold the steering wheel steadily." Qin Yuanmu smiled and said, "Shit, with your man's IQ, you can learn it even at the age of 80."

"Go away, you won't be allowed to take the driver's license test at seventy?" Lian Xiao also laughed, but then asked, "Then do you want to come out and meet now?"

Qin Yuanmu hesitated for a moment, then replied: "Forget it, I'm ready to take a bath and rest, I'm too tired from the car ride today."

"That's fine," Qin Yuanmu sighed, "Go to rest, my young master. But even if you have nothing to do during the holidays, we can't find an excuse to be together every day. After a long time, your family will definitely become suspicious Yes. Well, it’s better to graduate quickly.”

Qin Yuanmu suddenly asked for no reason: "Can you wait until I graduate?"

Lian Xiao was silent for a moment, then smiled and said, "Why are you asking this? I'm not waiting for you, who are you waiting for?"

"Lian Xiao, I have always been very grateful to you. Really, I will remember everything you have done for me." Qin Yuanmu said slowly, he was not afraid that Lian Xiao would hear any implication, and he seemed to have some warnings in doing so My own reasons, "In any case, I am very grateful to you."

"Yo, Qin Yuanmu, did you suddenly change your painting style?" Lian Xiao didn't know if he was really stupid or pretended not to hear it, and his tone was a little frivolous, "Is there any need to say these things between us? You suddenly don't play hooligans I'm still a little uncomfortable..."

Qin Yuanmu smiled lightly: "I'll meet you in two days, and let you meet the familiar me."

Lian Xiao sighed slightly: "It seems that you are still familiar with the smell... I'm sure you are really tired now if you can say this, otherwise you won't let me go if you say anything today. That's all, you should rest quickly Well, I'm going to bed too. By the way, are you sure which driving school you went to learn?"

Qin Yuanmu said: "I don't know yet, but it should be settled within two days, and I will tell you as soon as possible."

Lian Xiao smiled and said: "Okay, I will bring you some water when my brother is free, so you can dry some."

Putting down the phone, Qin Yuanmu sighed weakly as he looked at the half bowl of porridge in front of him that had gone cold.

This summer vacation, Qin Yuanmu is destined not to forget the high sun every day.He was the one who let it out, so of course Wu Fenfang would not refuse to cooperate with him. The next day, she negotiated a driving school and paid the fee to enroll in the class that afternoon.These days, any unit likes to engage in some service competition, so the rumored scene of the driving school teacher yelling at the students did not happen. Of course, it may be because Qin Yuanmu is a young man with good understanding, and the coach is quite gentle to him.But God doesn't need any service evaluation, but he is trying his best to radiate high temperature, and it hasn't even rained much this summer, so Qin Yuanmu feels that he is a lot darker.

Lian Xiao is just like what he said, and occasionally comes to bring him drinks in his spare time.When seeing Lian Xiao, Qin Yuanmu was not as restless or excited as he imagined. It should be because he is too familiar with Lian Xiao, so familiar that no matter how long it has been since seeing him, he will not be abrupt when they meet again.

But in Qin Yuanmu's heart, this unobtrusiveness did not bring him and Lian Xiao closer again.

When Qin Yuanmu successfully got his driver's license, apart from the fact that he was really blacked out a lot, it was only a few days before the start of school.After a few meals with Lian Xiao, he packed his bags and left again.

On the day of leaving, Qin Yuanmu persuaded Wu Fenfang not to accompany him, and finally Lian Xiao could send him off.

To borrow a more written tone, when facing Lian Xiao, Qin Yuanmu no longer had that feeling of rapid heartbeat.It's not that they don't love each other anymore, but that's where the difficulty lies. Relationships are never afraid of problems, but numbness, lack of a common language, and ending without a problem.It may be that they have been separated for too long, it may be that the environment between Lian Xiao and himself is too different, it may be that they do not know each other well enough, or it may be that they are simply tired of this feeling, anyway, when Qin Yuanmu faced Lian Xiao, I can't find that feeling anymore.

It seems that Qin Yuanmu's acting skills are so good, Lian Xiao didn't see what was going on in his heart at all, and kept feeling there, his face full of reluctance.

When the departure was approaching, when Qin Yuanmu was about to enter the station, Lian Xiao finally took his hand.The moment the two met, Qin Yuanmu didn't feel much, which really confirmed the famous saying: Touching his wife's hand is like touching the right hand with the left hand.

Lian Xiao asked shyly, "You celebrate your birthday this year, shall I go to your school to find you?"

Qin Yuanmu looked at the time and pretended that it was too late: "Let's talk about it when the time comes, I have to go, otherwise the time is too late, be careful on the way back later."

Squeezing into the crowd with his back to Lian Xiao, Qin Yuanmu gritted his teeth and scolded himself as inhuman, but he was really afraid.He was afraid that his indifference to Lian Xiao would turn into disgust sooner or later, so he would use the distance as an excuse just like the recent one.

At the beginning of the new semester, Qin Yuanmu's life has returned to the way it used to be. To be honest, he really feels relieved.When facing Lian Xiao, he was really afraid that if he didn't cover up well, Lian Xiao would see his true thoughts.

Sometimes Qin Yuanmu couldn't figure it out, why did he suddenly lose interest in Lian Xiao when nothing happened?But this question, like why he fell in love with Lian Xiao in the first place, has no answer.

There was also an unpleasant incident in the new semester, which seemed to have completely exposed the problem between him and Lian Xiao, and brought it to the fore.

Qin Yuanmu and his sophomore opened a new public course, Sociology.Since it is not a professional class, the students are very relaxed in class, and social teachers can also think about it, and the class basically follows the style of entertaining and teaching.

During a certain class, the society teacher talked about why most dormitories are shared by four people. Qin Yuanmu found it very interesting after listening to it. He thought of the experience he and Lian Xiao had in high school, so he told the story Lian Xiao.At present, for the two of them, chatting has become less and less, but Lian Xiao's reply makes Qin Yuanmu feel like he has eaten a fly.

Noodles: Hey, those who went to college are different?

This was just an obvious joke, but Qin Yuanmu didn't know which string was touched by him, and suddenly became irritable, and replied to Lian Xiao suppressing his temper: Do you regret it?If it weren't for me, you could be a college student too.

Lian Xiao thought Qin Yuanmu was joking, but after a few words he realized that he was really angry, and explained it nicely for a long time.But Qin Yuanmu couldn't listen to it at all, and he was so focused on seeing that there was something in Lian Xiao's words. After the two of them had spoken a few words, Lian Xiao's temper also came up, and the unpleasant chat stopped abruptly.

They seem to be caught in a cold war, but compared with the previous situation where they can't talk a few words a month, it seems to be no different.

The author has something to say: this chapter is so tangled, I really don't want to abuse it...

PS: The problem of the number of dormitories was really mentioned by the university teacher.Living alone is prone to psychological problems, living with two people is easy to fall in love with each other... living with three people, it is easy to cause a small group of two people to reject the third person, and if there are more than five people, there are too many people, so four people sleeping is the most reasonable.