Delicacy

Lian Xiao got off another morning shift tonight. When he walked out the back door, a car blocked the narrow alley and honked its horn frantically at him.

After walking over to look at Lian Xiao, he realized that it was Qin Yuanmu.

"Are you okay?" Lian Xiao asked calmly without looking excited or disgusted.

Lian Xiao didn't ask him if you were sick, Qin Yuanmu was already very content, pressed down the glass and smiled at Lian Xiao: "It's okay, just passing by, shall I take you home today?"

Lian Xiao refused without thinking: "No need."

Qin Yuanmu opened the car door and grabbed Lian Xiao's arm: "Why are you being polite to me? It's just like what you said that day. After all, we met once. I've come here, so don't refuse my kindness gone."

Lian Xiao looked at Qin Yuanmu and said nothing, Qin Yuanmu suddenly felt a little guilty when he saw him.Lian Xiao was not angry, he was just a little curious about Qin Yuanmu now.Before we got together, Qin Yuanmu really belonged to the kind of high-cold male god, every day he had a cold aura that strangers should not get close to. After we got together, although Qin Yuanmu restrained a little, but emotionally forever Take the initiative, never so attentive.

Facing Qin Yuanmu like this, Lian Xiao couldn't tell how he felt, and he didn't seem to hate it either.

But it doesn't matter whether you hate it or not, of course Lian Xiao would not agree to Qin Yuanmu sending him off, insisting: "It's really unnecessary, you are tired from working every day, go back and rest quickly."

Qin Yuanmu smiled, leaned on the car door to take out a cigarette, and handed one to Lian Xiao: "Lian Xiao, you really still blame me."

Lian Xiao felt that Qin Yuanmu must have taken the wrong medicine today. Based on his understanding of Qin Yuanmu, it is unlikely that he would say such a thing. After all, how could he reflect on what happened at the beginning for such a selfish person?You should never talk about it.

I don't know if Lian Xiao did it on purpose. After taking the cigarette, he didn't smoke it, but pinned it behind his ear.This action is so down-to-earth, it doesn't seem like something a super chef can do, but Qin Yuanmu just looks at it with joy in his heart, no matter what Lian Xiao does, he is so cute.

"It's really unnecessary," Lian Xiao said indifferently, "Let him pass the past. If you still want to be my friend, don't bother to find me again, okay?"

If the former Qin Yuanmu heard this, with his self-esteem above everything else, he would definitely turn around and leave, and he would never come again.But today's Qin Yuanmu is really weird, not only his face has not changed at all, but he still smiles: "I don't want to be friends with you. It was my fault at the beginning, so I will try my best to make up for you. Lian Xiao, I don't want to lose you again. You did it once."

Lian Xiao suddenly wanted to slap Qin Yuanmu sincerely, and his tone became a bit tougher: "Qin Yuanmu, how old are you? Can you stop acting like a child? I am the dog that comes and goes when you call it If you want to separate, you can separate, if you want to be together, you can stay together, how can it be so cheap?"

Qin Yuanmu was taken aback by Lian Xiao's words, but he still forced a smile on his face: "It's okay Lian Xiao, you can scold and beat if you want, and I will take my responsibility. But Lian Xiao, in fact, the relationship between us I don’t have any hatred between them, right? I admit that I flinched back then, and that we had some conflicts because of the separation, but it’s different now. I’m willing to face all problems, can you still give me a chance?”

Lian Xiao remained silent, turned his head away from looking at Qin Yuanmu.

Lian Xiao thought, if Qin Yuanmu could face the problem so bravely back then, would they still be like this?At the beginning, he thought that Qin Yuanmu would be brave, so he was able to break up with his family recklessly, but what he got in return was Qin Yuanmu's breakup.Now that he has finally slowed down and his life is barely on the right track, how dare he trust Qin Yuanmu again?

Trust this kind of thing, it is impossible to give others a second time.

Thinking of this, Lian Xiao suddenly looked at Qin Yuanmu, and tried his best not to beat him up: "Forget it, Qin Yuanmu, since you don't want to be friends, then don't even be friends. Where are you?" Your face continues to appear in front of me? Also, you don’t know what I did for you, so you can face this relationship calmly, so you can love if you want to love, let go if you want to let go... I don’t blame you, but you Don't be too pushy."

After Lian Xiao finished speaking, he pushed Qin Yuanmu away and walked straight forward.

Qin Yuanmu thought that Lian Xiao was going to beat him when he heard it, but Lian Xiao restrained himself very well, just pushed him away and left.To be honest, Qin Yuanmu was still wronged, even if he was to blame for that incident back then, but he couldn't help it, he couldn't leave the lonely Wu Fenfang at home alone, and elope with Lian Xiao, right?But Qin Yuanmu immediately dispelled this idea, he came to find Lian Xiao to get back together, all the previous problems had to be blamed on him, he couldn't be wronged, he couldn't complain!

Qin Yuanmu thought bitterly, it would be better for Lian Xiao to accuse him today than to be a stranger that day?It seems that things are still turning around.

Looking at Lian Xiao's hurried back, Qin Yuanmu endured the itching and unbearable desire to follow, the future is long, so don't push Lian Xiao too hard.After standing still and smoking a cigarette, Qin Yuanmu got in the car and went home.

Lian Xiao thought that with Qin Yuanmu wanting face, after he said those words that night, he might never bother him again.But it turns out that not only he has changed over the past year, Qin Yuanmu is also very different from before, and he started pestering him endlessly.

"Chef, the guest in private room No. [-] who came to eat Buddha Jumping Wall alone, still ordered a handmade noodle." The waiter who came to place the order said to Lian Xiao.

Lian Xiao stared at the kitchen knife on the chopping board for a while, then sighed slowly: "I know."

I don't know how many times it is, Qin Yuanmu will make an appointment for Buddha Jumping Wall every now and then, and then come to eat alone, and order another bowl of noodles after eating, which seems to have become his habit.Youdao is a visitor is a visitor, even if Lian Xiao wants to put down the pick, their boss will not do it.Although he has never had any personal contact with Qin Yuanmu, Lian Xiao still has a feeling of displeasure in his heart. He really doesn't want to cook for Qin Yuanmu!

Lian Xiao wanted to serve Qin Yuanmu a bowl of half-baked noodles every time, but he held back every time. Although his face was ugly, the noodles were still delicious.Lian Xiao explained to himself that this has nothing to do with Qin Yuanmu, it is because he has the professional ethics of a chef.

After Lian Xiao was busy for a while, the waiter came in again and said as usual: "Chef, that guest still wants to invite you to eat together."

It's really too much to eat Buddha Jumping Wall and handmade noodles alone, Qin Yuanmu asks the waiter to invite Lian Xiao to eat together every time.The number of times has increased, and the waiters have changed from being in a dilemma at the beginning to being familiar with it today.Of course Lian Xiao didn't agree every time, he wanted to have dinner with Qin Yuanmu only because he was crazy.

But today, maybe it was Qin Yuanmu's spirit of dripping water through stone that moved God, Lian Xiao thought about it and nodded in agreement.He didn't give Qin Yuanmu a chance, but wanted to talk to Qin Yuanmu so that he wouldn't waste any more time.

Seeing that the waiter really brought Lian Xiao into the door, Qin Yuanmu straightened his loose sitting posture and looked at Lian Xiao expectantly.Lian Xiao sighed silently in his heart, it's really 30 years in Hedong and 30 years in Hexi. When we were together, Qin Yuanmu could scare him from speaking with just one look. Now their roles seem to be reversed.

The bowl of noodles was almost finished, and there was still a lot left in the Buddha Jumping Wall, and the fragrance was wafting all over the room.

In their store, a Buddha Jumping Wall is 99, which is ten thousand dollars short. During this time, Qin Yuanmu has already spent tens of thousands with them. Looking at it like this, it’s likely that he didn’t finish eating every time Buddha Jumping Wall. What a waste. !Lian Xiao felt distressed for a while, but his face was still expressionless.

After the waiter walked out, Qin Yuanmu saw Lian Xiao staring in a daze at the more than half of the remaining jars, and immediately understood that Lian Xiao was distressed about something, and said with a smile: "It seems that this food is delicious, but I can't eat it every day. It's already a bit Tired. But it’s not a problem if I persist for another month, I will pack it every time I can’t finish it, don’t be afraid that I will waste food.”

Lian Xiao ignored him, and said bluntly: "It's your first job to eat at a restaurant and take the cook with you. What do you want to do?"

Qin Yuanmu smiled and said: "I have inquired about it. If you want to be late to Chef Lian's craftsmanship, you must order Buddha Jumping over the Wall. If I want to eat your noodles, that's all I can do. As for why I want to be with you, Isn't that obvious?"

Lian Xiao snorted: "Qin Yuanmu, your behavior is quite similar to those ancient literati and poets who spent a lot of money in brothels, just to see the appearance of that famous prostitute, and have a sense of elegance."

Qin Yuanmu frowned slightly: "Lian Xiao, you don't want to have a gun in your words, I did it because I really wanted to get back together with you."

Lian Xiao sneered: "It's up to me to get back together, right? I don't agree, so don't delay my business."

Qin Yuanmu nodded: "If you don't agree, don't agree. I didn't delay your business. Isn't it your job to cook for guests? Anyway, I will come when I have time, and eat until you agree."

"You!" Lian Xiao glared at him, this Qin Yuanmu is really shameless!In the past, Qin Yuanmu's shamelessness would only be shown on the bed, and as soon as he got out of bed, he would drag five or six people. Unlike now, they all look a bit rascal.

Lian Xiao didn't want to waste any more words with Qin Yuanmu, so he stood up as soon as he sat down and said, "Anyway, I have something for you, if you have money and want to waste it, it doesn't matter if you come every day." After finishing speaking, Lian Xiao walked out , and slammed the door shut.

As soon as Lian Xiao left, Qin Yuanmu lost his appetite in the face of the remaining delicacies, took out his mobile phone and sent a voice message to Wang Ya: "Brother, your idea is not good, I'm going to be Lian Xiao's grandson, he doesn't Don't even give me a chance!"

"Hehe, a scumbag deserves to be abused!" Wang Ya replied quickly, "If you can't be a grandson, then you should be a great-grandson. Think about it for yourself. If Lian Xiao broke up with you back then, you might dig up his ancestor's grave, right? ? It would be nice if they gave you the chance to be a grandson, so keep working hard."

Putting down his phone, Qin Yuanmu stared alone in the private room for a while, and suddenly had a bold idea.He doesn't know where Lian Xiao lives now, but he knows where his home is. Should he gamble on Lian Xiao's feelings for him?If everything is uncovered and Lian Xiao still has some feelings for him, will he be able to be with him?

This adventurous thought took root in Qin Yuanmu's heart from that moment on.After more than a week of hesitation, he finally decided to take the risk.

So on a Saturday, Qin Yuanmu, who had a rare day off, bought a gift, and found Lian Xiao's house following his memories many years ago.

It was still a dilapidated building. Qin Yuanmu had only been to Lian Xiao's house once, so he didn't have a deep impression of it.But when he saw the picture that was no different from the one in his memory, his heart still twitched violently.Back then, he and Lian Xiao had a really good relationship. It seemed that they couldn't finish talking every day when they were together.

Feeling anxious, Qin Yuanmu knocked on the dilapidated door with a gift.

"coming."

A hoarse and old voice sounded from the room, it should be Lian's mother, followed by the friction of slippers on the floor.Lian's mother's footsteps were not brisk. After walking a short distance for more than half a minute, she slowly opened the old anti-theft door, making a harsh noise.

Lian's mother is much older than Qin Yuanmu's impression. Qin Yuanmu had no time to express emotion, so he held up the gift and smiled: "Auntie, do you still remember me, Qin Yuanmu, Lian Xiao's classmate. It's not too late for the Chinese New Year, Thinking that I have never visited before, I came here to see you and uncle."

Lian Xiao's mind seemed to be much duller. Looking at Qin Yuanmu, he stretched out his hand tremblingly, but he didn't say a word for a long time.

Qin Yuanmu smiled and said, "Auntie, don't you remember me? I used to come to your restaurant to eat."

"How could I forget you!" Lian's mother suddenly howled like crazy, pushing and chasing Qin Yuanmu out, "You pervert, what have you made my Lian Xiao look like! You don't even return to this home, you give back my son! You give back my son!"

Qin Yuanmu's heart suddenly fell into an ice cave, what does Mother Lian mean by this, could it be...

Lian Jun heard the movement in the room, and hurried out to have a look. After seeing Qin Yuanmu, he also had a dark face: "You still dare to come to my house? Have you been crazy with Lian Xiao all these years? What are you doing now? Let me tell you, you and Lian Xiao will never return to this house, get out!"

As if he had forgotten how to speak, Qin Yuanmu watched the scene suddenly out of control without saying a word. Did Lian Xiao's parents already know about it?Then, why did Lian Xiao never tell him?

Mother Lian and Lian Jun yelled to return my son, and the other yelled to get out. Qin Yuanmu was pushed down in the corridor by them, but he didn't even have the strength to get up. There was only one question in his mind: when did they know about it? ?

The gift brought was smashed to the ground, and the amber ginseng wine was spilled all over the floor. Qin Yuanmu didn't regain his senses until the sound of closing the door sounded in his ears.

With a blank mind, he placed the unbroken gift box by the door, and Qin Yuanmu got up silently and left.

Walking on the road, it seemed that everything was slowly leaving him. What woke Qin Yuanmu up was a cry.

"Qin Yuanmu, wait..." A woman's voice sounded from behind.

Qin Yuanmu looked back numbly, and saw a woman in her 30s, wearing home clothes, who should be a resident here.The woman's face was somewhat similar to Lian Xiao's. Qin Yuanmu thought for a while with his chaotic head, and guessed the woman's identity: "Are you, Lian Xiao's sister?"

It was Lian Yun who came here. Now she comes to stay at her parents' house for two days every weekend, and today is no exception. When she was in the house, she heard her parents yelling outside, and she also heard Qin Yuanmu's words in her The name is taboo at home.

"Qin Yuanmu, my parents can't accept the matter between you and Lian Xiao, so don't worry about it, after all...how should I put it, you, oh..." Lian Yun sighed softly, but in fact she faced Qin Yuan I was also very tangled when I was animal husbandry, I didn't know what to say.Although she also hated Qin Yuanmu for taking his only younger brother down that road, she understood that a relationship is a matter between two people, whether it is good or bad, outsiders really have no position to judge, so she could only smile wryly and say: " Don't blame my parents, they are also in great pain because of what happened to Lian Xiao."

"I don't have the face to blame them, I caused all of this..." Qin Yuanmu said sadly, suddenly remembered something, and raised his head to stop Lian Yun who was about to leave, "Your parents, when did you know About me and Lian Xiao?"

Lian Yun sighed: "I knew Lian Xiao hadn't told you, otherwise you probably wouldn't have come today. My parents found out a long time ago, not long after my third year of high school."

Qin Yuanmu's heart was suffocated again, so early?Qin Yuanmu thought for a while and suddenly understood why Lian Xiao didn't tell him.It should be the day when Qin Dayong died at that time, of course Lian Xiao would not say such things to himself.

Seeing Qin Yuanmu's stupefied look, Lian Yun thought he was sad because of his parents, and persuaded him: "Actually, as long as you and Lian Xiao can get along well, other things really don't matter, even if my parents can't accept it for a while. , don’t worry too much about it, just live your life.”

Lian Yun didn't know that his kind words made Qin Yuanmu truly understand what it means to be ashamed.

Farewell to Lian Yun in despair, Qin Yuanmu walked aimlessly on the street.He suddenly felt that he was really not human. Where did he have the face to continue pestering Lian Xiao?He doesn't know how much pressure Lian Xiao bears for him, he doesn't know anything, and always lives so selfishly, as if others should do everything for him.

Qin Yuanmu lost all strength in his whole body, leaned weakly against the wall by the street, and sat down slowly.He buried his head deeply in his knees, and after the first tears came out of his eyes, he couldn't stop the brakes completely.Qin Yuanmu just sat on the ground like this, crying heartbreakingly as if no one else was crying.

What has he been doing all these years?

After returning home, Wu Fenfang was still working overtime at work, and the house was empty.Qin Yuanmu went straight to his room, pulled out the drawer, and put the ring that had been left unused for nearly a year back on his neck.

It has been left for too long, and the touch of the skin is a bit too cold.

But this coldness can't stop those good memories rushing into his mind.

Qin Yuanmu picked up the water glass next to the bed, swallowed the remaining half bottle of Valium, and then he lay down on the bed relieved as if he had completed the final task, waiting for his thoughts to dissipate little by little.

I'm sorry Lian Xiao, I can only make it up to you in my next life.