【Shinkoma】Love called hope

The sea was calm and swaying, and Komaeda was lying on his back in a room, humming.

"Ah, such a peaceful feeling is really good. If you have such an experience before you die, it doesn't seem so bad." He remembered the expression on the seat of God just now. It's over.

Komaeda folded his fingers on his stomach, looking peaceful as if he was lying in a cradle, even though he sat up and rested against the wall less than 5 minutes later, after all, seasickness is not good.

God Zuo didn't understand what he was thinking. Originally, his purpose of preparing for a month was to break through the [-]th branch in the shortest possible time. He even wrote the death notice of the [-]th branch to tell the world to appease the hearts of the people.But Komaeda was waiting there. The last time he saw him waiting by the sea was a few months ago. At that time, he thought that the boat coming over was carrying Hinata.

But now he clearly knew who the person was, and knew that his end would not be much better, yet he stood up boldly and fearlessly.

Is this the so-called hope?

...Forget it, it doesn't matter.

these things……

Cang Ji...

Your mother is back now.

"Cang Ji."

When he opened the door, Komaeda raised his head to look at him, he was dizzy and nauseous because of seasickness, and he didn't have time to pay attention to the expression on Kamito's face: "... Cang Ji?" What Cang Ji.

Kamito lowered his head and looked down at him, and slowly spit out the words, grinding Komaeda's nerves word by word: "That child's name, it's called Cang Ji." That's what he kept thinking about in that short week. My name is Soji, I think Komaeda will also like this name, and he will hold Xiao Soji and smile happily.

……

This is really a super high school level delusion.

Man-made hope, the carrier of man-made hope, man-made blood...

Cang Ji...

"... hahahahahahahahahahahahaha ... I didn't expect, I didn't expect, you really care about that child, this is really unexpected, but it is reasonable." There was no blood on his face: "You care more than I thought, which is really surprising."

"Then Kamizu-kun, when you pushed that stick of 'glucose' into your blood, did you think that you were the executioner who killed Xiao Soji... Uh..." It hurts... Komaeda was pulled from the back of his head The hair forcefully raised his head, first of all he smiled, with a look of repentance: "I thought that the luck and misfortune of this month came from me, but I didn't expect it to be your misfortune..."

Kamito: "Komaeda Nagito, when you were planning this, did you ever think that this child is also Hinata's blood to some extent?"

"He won't!"

Komaeda retorted violently, gnashing his teeth until he lost his composure just now: "It's not at all!...It's better to say that if you kill him and you can get Hinata-kun, I think it's a good deal. This child...he shouldn't arrival……"

"Ah, really." Shen Zuo let go of his hand and stood up again.Under the backlight, his face was sunk in shadow, making it difficult to see clearly.In the end, he walked out of here step by step. The moment the door was closed, it seemed that some kind of gas was injected into the room. Komaeda tried his best to maintain his consciousness, but he couldn't resist the erosion of the medicine.

Before he passed out, what he thought was——

Cang Ji?Cang Ji...

"Mr. God, the car is already waiting at the pier. You can go to the headquarters as soon as you dock."

Kamito nodded and saw that the monitor showed that Komaeda had fallen into a coma and stopped the injection of medicine. He raised his eyes and looked at Komaeda: "Do the rest of the work well." He explained, and everyone listened carefully , If what happened last time happens again, the medical team will not be replaced.

The seat of God is always so cautious, going through the process of everything in his own hands.

How I hope you like this kid.

The Komaeda Nagito he saw in his memory, the Komaeda Nagito who was facing So Hinata, was different from the current one.He never rejects every word of Hinata, even if he doesn't care about some things, he will agree to them.Since he woke up from the seat of God until now, only Komaeda's reaction exceeded his expectations.

Human emotions are full of unknowns, this world is all within the plan, there is no need to plan anything at all, do this step well, and then wait for the time to pass, this is what the seat of God is doing.

But it was just such a simple thing, but it was magnified by Acura, and God Zuo didn't understand.

I don't even bother to figure out the relationship.

So he feels that as long as he does this step well, as time goes by, Komaeda will definitely forget Hinata So and fall in love with him one day.All this is only a matter of time, and the change in the middle almost made him a complete failure.

He almost lost Komaeda, if he increased the amount of that 'glucose' a little that day...

It may be God's back fear, and the back fear stems from the human emotions that slowly sprouted in his heart.

Shenzuo Chuliu has man-made talents, and the almighty he is like the savior expected by all.

Now he is like a blank piece of paper, gradually drawing pieces of emotion.Kamito has long been aware of his feelings for Komaeda, and he also understands the importance of this feeling.He just didn't express his intentions, because the time has not yet come, maybe when the time comes... But he just waited, what did he wait for?

The plan failed.

Shen Zuo felt that he had to give up his original idea and directly cut off all possibilities and retreats.He shouldn't rely on time to evolve naturally—since it's man-made, it should be tougher.

Komaeda Nagito was brainwashed through drug influence plus mental hypnosis.

If it weren't for Komaeda's current physical condition, Kamito would directly use instruments to operate on the brain and directly extract all relevant data about Hinata So's personality.

Kamito thought he loved him.

absolute.

Hypnosis is like re-arranging the memories in the mind, changing all the dislikes and replaceable ones beyond recognition, and then sending out a secret signal when the final work is completed, as neat and fast as hitting the confirmation button.

Something in Komaeda's mind was being pulled out uncontrollably, but at the same time something was stuffed in.

That Hinata-kun's face and voice seemed to be getting farther and farther away, more and more blurred.

When he is clear...

Who has become.

"At present, the recovery of the first and second branches has gradually entered the right track. The third..."

Ah, sure enough there it is again.Shen Zuo stretched out his hand and held down the headset, pretending not to hear the sound of the door opening behind him, while urging the staff who reported to work on the other side of the computer: "Continue talking."

"Ah, yes! The third branch is currently based on the status quo..."

The people behind were sneaking around, holding plush slippers in their hands, stepping on the floor with their bare feet—ah, the floor is so cold, you have to remember to put a carpet on it.While thinking this way, Komaeda secretly sneaked behind Kazuru, not paying attention to the sudden silence around him, stretched out his hand to cover Kazuru's eyes: "Guess what surprise is there today?"

Kamito sighed, stretched out his hand to grab Komaeda's wrist and pulled him into his arms, Komaeda blushed and struggled, "Okay, I'm just kidding, you're still in the meeting." Seeing himself like this in the video conference, Komaeda thought that this kind of misfortune was enough for him to exchange for great luck.

Kamito clicked the mouse to close the page: "It's over early, because you showed up." He didn't forget to adjust his arms and put Komaeda's feet on his lap to keep warm, he frowned: "Don't do this next time It's gone." It always makes me catch a cold.

"Oh..." Komaeda curled up, trying not to disturb him as he nestled in the arms of the god seat, "Well, the study room is indeed going to be carpeted."

As a result, Kamito didn't have the heart to work anymore, and he didn't plan to spend all his time on the future agency, but now Komaeda needs his company even more, and this is enough.

"Hey, aren't you working? Out." Komaeda subconsciously hooked his shoulders when Kamizuo got up, watching him walk out with her in his arms. "No, that's the end of today's work." The seat of God put him on the table, and then put on slippers for him: "There is also the surprise you just mentioned."

"Ah, that!" Komaeda remembered the purpose of attacking God today, he pointed to the black smoking pot in the kitchen and said, "Actually, I made a milkshake today!"

God seat: "Alright, I'll send you back to sleep first."

"Hey...I don't want to sleep right now."

"Take a good rest, is this an appointment?"

"Hmm——" Komaeda lay on his shoulders, wrapping his arms around Kazuru's neck to play with his hair, Kazuru didn't mind, and occasionally Komaeda patted his butt lightly when it hurt him, at this time Komaeda would often make a braid for Kamito even more.

"Clang~ It's done!" When Komaeda was put down by the seat of God, he still grabbed his hair, lying on the bed and pulling him down.The scene and the atmosphere suddenly heated up. Even though Kamizuru still looked expressionless, he didn't mind leaning over Komaeda propped up on the bed, staring at Komaeda who was playing with his own hair.

Komaeda, who felt as if he was playing off, let go of his long black hair, which he was busy knotting in his hands, and said to Kazuru with a smile, "Hey, is the outflow a wall-thump? Or a bed-thump? Hahaha, this outflow Where did you learn it from?"

Kamito stared at him until Komaeda retracted himself into the quilt and raised the quilt, only exposing his eyes and looking at him, then sighed, pressed his palm on his forehead and said, "Now pay attention to rest, the last time I took you to the beach I caught a cold and haven't recovered yet."

Komaeda: "It's okay, it's okay, it's better to say that with the luck of being able to marry Shiru, I feel that any misfortune can happen."

God seat: "..."

"Out?" Komaeda felt his palms stiffen slightly, thinking that he was concerned about the child again.Komaeda knew that he had a child with Chuliu before, but it seemed to be dead, and then he was in a coma for a month, and he woke up only a month ago.Leaving must be very sad, it used to be like this in middle school...

Eh……

In middle school?

The person at the school gate?The figure is so far away...

Komaeda suddenly felt a headache, he subconsciously reached out and grabbed Kamito's arm, until he was hugged into his arms and buried his head on his shoulder, Komaeda gradually subsided the pain - that person, he has been walking there, turned back...

Something flickered in my memory...

"What, it really is an outflow." Komaeda smiled softly.

God seat: "What?"

"Just now, I suddenly remembered when we were in middle school, ah, and when you were on the island, you often came to see me, although it was only once a week, but ah--as expected, you said that you would be with me when the despair disappeared. I didn't break my promise to get married. That's great, leaking."

For Komaeda, the current life is just like the hope he has been longing for, and it goes so smoothly that he fears that this hope will be broken by misfortune in the next moment.

God seat: "...ah, yes."

A few days ago, he took Komaeda out to that island, and Kamizu stood on the reef, and said to Komaeda what Hinata had said once again, covering the remaining memory fragments about Hinata with brand new memories.Komaeda was very happy that day, walking barefoot on the beach, the sea water kept rising and receding, the coolness when his feet were bare made Komaeda shiver uncontrollably, but he didn't care about the chill, it was fun like a child.

"Outflow," Komaeda's voice interrupted him, he stretched out his hand to pinch his face from bottom to top, quite dissatisfied with his distraction, "I've almost recovered from my cold, can I skip porridge today?" Ah, although people like me are not qualified to give opinions, but the sick fan has really had enough.

The seat of God told him to lie down and cover the quilt: "Okay." Wait until you finish packing the milkshake you made.

Komaeda still reads quietly most of the time, and sometimes when Kazuru is not working, he will read together with him, or even ask Kazuru to read to him—otherwise, Komaeda will be quiet all day with the chance of Kazuru speaking every day down.He still likes to listen to the voice of the seat of God.

"Out, out, look at this." Komaeda pushed Kamizu, complaining in his heart that Kamito was still so incomprehensible—is the new idol on TV really that cute?Chu Liu stared at her for a long time.

Kamito, who was pushed to react, looked at Komaeda who had been sitting next to him at some point. He had been fascinated for too long just now so he didn't notice it. It's really... I knew I wouldn't be fascinated by the TV.

"What's wrong? Are you sleepy?" Shen Zuo stood up and dragged him back into the house.

Komaeda rubbed his eyes and looked at the TV. The rookie idol in it was wearing a pink lace skirt and matching white lace stockings, which looked sweet and lovely—but it’s outrageous, do you like this kind?

Komaeda is a little uncertain, because even when she does it every time, it's a very common kind, although it often looks very evil, but...

Well, it really needs a little change.

Komaeda thought so, and said to Kamizu before falling asleep: "Deru, let's go to the pedestrian street tomorrow, I haven't gone out to a market or something like that for a long time." Although Kamito didn't understand the reason, because Komaeda is not the kind People who go out to play, at least in these few months, Komaeda spent most of his time at home.But God seat still agreed.

After all, the current Komaeda loves him completely and only him.

However, Komaeda was a little strange.

In fact, I discovered it when I was shopping. It was obviously the Yukini dumplings that could be bought quickly, but I was told to make them fresh, and Komaeda unexpectedly put on an expression of wanting to eat - he, it turned out to be Have a sweet tooth?The seat of God was a little puzzled, but he didn't delve into it, and sat at the dining table to wait.

And Komaeda looked left and right like a curious baby, and when he finally walked out of the gate of the dumpling shop, he was grabbed by the back collar of the god.

Even so, even though he tried his best to pay attention to Komaeda's movements the whole time, he still bought something behind his back.

As for what it is, God seat doesn't care, after all, his intuition tells Harmless.

However, in the past few days, Komaeda has been watching him secretly. Although he would immediately hide in the kitchen as soon as he was discovered, the maid spent a lot of effort cleaning the kitchen in recent days and tactfully asked the seat of God for something similar to "can you?" Don't let Komaeda-san come in and out of the kitchen" or something like that.

Now it's time to talk about it, what is Komaeda secretly planning?

[[-] words of meat are omitted here]

Komaeda feels that his current life is very happy, and this kind of happiness makes him always secretly worry about whether there will be any misfortune coming.

Komaeda's wish now is to have a child to make up for Shang Ji's regret.

Because Kamito's expression every time he mentioned Cang Ji was the loss and complexity that Komaeda had never seen before.Komaeda wants to make up for this shortcoming, even though he doesn't seem to have much affection for this child in his heart... Could it be... am I too cold-blooded?Why do I dislike him...

Komaeda, who was sitting on the balcony basking in the sun, was unexpectedly dazed for a long time because of this, and it was only when she was hungry that she realized that the maid had something to ask for leave and did not come.There is no other way, just heat up the food in the refrigerator to eat - Chu Liu always refuses to cook by himself, even if he puts the food in the microwave to heat it up, he has to watch it.

But today, I have something to go to the future agency, and I was left at home.

Ah, let's do some cleaning after dinner. Thinking about it, I don't seem to have touched the things in this house, so I can learn about the layout by the way.

According to Komaeda's habit, he would collect the weekly newspapers and put them in a special drawer.

Usually it is the TV cabinet under the TV. Open the first drawer to put the newspapers from the past few days in, then open the second drawer to organize, and throw away some that are not needed.

"Hey, this—"

I took a closer look at the content from a few years ago. I didn't expect that the newspapers from so long ago are still kept, but I think this is also my habit.Look through it, maybe there is a photo of God Zuo-kun or something.

But no...

As the paper was flipped, Komaeda's face became paler and paler, no... not a single word...

But Komaeda remembered all the above events in his mind, those were obviously done by Kamito... But the newspaper said Hinata So, who is Hinata So? ...

Hinata...

Hinata...

"Wait until the remnants of despair disappear..."

"... Let's get married."

The blurry afterimages in his mind struggled and flickered, his nerves seemed to start to throb, and the pain in his head made him have to give up thinking, give up thinking about anything, and could only squat down and hug his head.

No, wait, wait a minute!

Komaeda hastily pulled out the top one of the stack of newspapers, looked at the date intently——

It was almost a week before he went into a coma. Shen Zuo said that he had been in a coma for a month due to various reasons after the miscarriage, so the memory of that month no longer existed.But...the me at that time...

Why leave something like this...

Komaeda's face was pale, in order to prevent Kazuru from worrying about the abnormality, he hurriedly put the things back to the original place, went back to the bedroom and lay motionless, waiting for Kazuru to come back.

Time is the first time people are so difficult.

"what happened?"

The moment Kamito approached, he saw Komaeda's face, and sat on the edge of the bed worriedly, pressing his hand on his forehead.

Komaeda: "...It's okay, I just had a nightmare."

"Nightmare?"

"..." Komaeda didn't dare to look at Kazuru's eyes, and turned his eyes away, "Dream, despair has returned."

"How could it be?" Shenzuo sighed, it was indeed a nightmare that Komaeda would have: "Don't worry, it won't happen."

"……Um."

Now, Lord God.

Did you really win?

"Well, Wuqie-san doesn't have to worry about me." Seedling stood in the headquarters of the future agency, and Wukiri on the opposite side of the communication was obviously helpless with his abnormality in the past few months: "It's not that I'm worried about you, but that you have visited frequently in the past few months." Headquarters, the reasons for the [-]th branch are almost used up."

"Haha, this... I'm really sorry." Seedling scratched his head with a smile, and then said seriously: "But, I also promised him that I will give this to him personally."

That diary was found in the room where Komaeda used to live, but Naegi didn't open it to read it.He doesn't care what's inside, he just wants to fulfill his promise.

"Okay, but you have to pay attention to safety." Wuqie looked at the direction of the entrance next to her, there should be a member coming to report work: "Okay, I won't say more. Be careful yourself. "

"Well, goodbye Wuqie-san."

Hey……

Staring at the screen of the phone, Sapling sighed, even though he wanted to hand over the diary to Komaeda-san, but there was really no news about him in the past few months... He didn't even know if Komaeda was really alive.

"Hey, the boy over there... Ah, isn't this Sapling-kun?"

This voice!

Seedling turned around in surprise and looked at the person who came, wearing a loose sweater and coat, walking towards him.

"Ah, it's our first time meeting, Sapling-kun." Komaeda said, looking at the stunned Sapling in front of him.

"Koma, Komaeda-san?"

Komaeda: "Hey, Naegi-kun actually knows someone like me, ah, no, have we met before?" Why should I have the impression that I have never met.

"...I didn't expect you to become like this now, Komaeda-san..."

What have you been through these past few months?No, no... This Komaeda-san must be different from the previous ones!The eyes of Kamito flashed in Naegi's mind, which was extremely cold.Under his puzzled gaze, Sapling asked tactfully, "Komaeda-san, why did you come to the Future Agency today." Logically speaking, he should have lost his right to freedom of movement.

"Ah, actually, there is good news I want to tell Chuli. So I sneaked out." The weather was getting colder, Komaeda shivered slightly, and he said, "Why don't we talk about it in another place?" , Sapling-kun."

"It's lucky to find an empty tea room."

Komaeda was holding a disposable cup and clutching it in his palm, and Naegi sat opposite him unexpectedly, looking very restless.

"Sapling-kun?"

"...Ah, no, it's nothing... It's just that I haven't seen Komaeda-san for a long time, so I'm a little scared."

Komaeda: "Well, in fact, since I woke up, he rarely let me go out. Maybe he thinks that I haven't recovered physically. After all, that child——"

"not like this!"

"Eh--"

Seedling stood up: "Komaeda-san, you... really don't remember anything?"

What... what?

"...You once entrusted me to hand over this to you," Naogi took a deep breath, and took out a booklet from the bag beside him: "Now, please accept it."

Komaeda looked at the book, his own handwriting was clearly written on the cover.

The hot water in the palm suddenly became bitingly cold.

Do you want to take it?

this……

Has my misfortune finally arrived?

He eventually took the notebook, before leaving, he said.

"Actually, I came here to find God seat because I have some good news. It doesn't matter to tell Miao Mu-kun now."

"that is……"

this kid...

Come on right?

Komaeda didn't look for Kamiza again, but returned home the same way, sat on the sofa and flipped through the diary page by page.

The protagonist of the diary is a person who is always waiting, waiting for a person he rarely sees. He complains, but does not give up, and has been waiting silently.

perhaps……

Maybe it's a bit similar to myself, but...

You see, the protagonist said again, the person he loved gave him his ring, and then went away by boat.

The next time he comes back is when the promise will be fulfilled.

Komaeda thought, that person probably came back... definitely came back... because this is the last entry in the diary, just like every fairy tale, it must have a happy ending...

Komaeda knew that his hands and feet were cold now, and the uncontrollable tears flowed spontaneously, which were not his tears at all.

Not at all.

He knows better than anyone...

That person didn't come back...

will never return.

Komaeda became thinner and thinner, and the smile that he often put on his face began to disappear.

Kamito had actually discovered this diary a long time ago, and on the first day Komaeda brought it back, he didn't react—because Komaeda always forced a smile in front of him, and would pretend that he didn't know anything, thinking that as long as he put this diary Just bear this kind of "misfortune"...

But Komaeda can't forget, he seems to be walking in a diary every day, being pulled by the protagonist, preventing him from returning to the happy life before...why...why...

Komaeda lived desperately, feeling the existence of this child, when his belly started to swell slightly, he thought it was a way to get rid of it, as long as he was sure of the present... he shouldn't be entangled in the past...

Should not be……

"Outflow, is that you?"

He would ask this question with earnest eyes: "Sure, it's you?"

Shen Zuo didn't know how to answer him, how to comfort his panic and self-punishing guilt.

Komaeda he won.

He had already guessed that the seat of God might brainwash him, so knowing his own nature, he left a newspaper in a specific location, and also asked Sapling-kun to do it.In this way, his memory can be recalled, so as to use the misfortune of the seat of God who discovered the mutation of his lover in exchange for luck.

Komaeda won—he would fall in love with the brainwashed him by putting his misfortune on the throne, and indeed, he won.

But Komaeda was also wrong.

Because he didn't know that Kamito loves not the brainwashed Komaeda, but him, Komaeda Nagito.

Because he didn't know that the current self would fall in love with the seat of God.

I love so much that I don't want to accept the naked reality and the truth that I have deliberately presented.

Love so much that you don't want to recall the past, love so much that you are willing to be tortured by guilt...

Hyuga-kun, Hyuga-kun.

What would you think if it was you?Will you feel like I'm doing the right thing?Or?

Or……

I'm wrong.

Komaeda woke up again in the middle of the night, and it had been a long time since winter, he was sitting on the balcony with bare feet on the blanket, not knowing what he was thinking.The wind was blowing on the windows, knocking on the glass, and the room was warmed by the heater.Komaeda felt palpitations again, as if he was struggling with himself, the feelings for that Hinata-kun should be nothing to him...but it's different...

Komaeda put his hands on his stomach, this child is very obedient, and will always settle down when he is uncomfortable.

everything will be fine……

Just like hope always triumphs over despair...

"Why did you wake up again?" Kamito came over and covered Komaeda's cold feet in the palm of his hand, "Go back and rest."

"Ah."

Komaeda got down and put on his slippers. Now he can only sleep in one position, and his legs are always numb. He often teased Kamizu, saying, "Sure enough, he has the skills of a super high school masseuse." Then he was taken seriously by Kamizu Squeeze lightly.

"Hey, out."

Before going to bed, Komaeda grabbed Kamito and said, "This child, named Xi, how is it?"

"Well, as long as you like it." He covered him with a quilt, turned on a small bedside lamp, and lay down next to Komaeda.

"Deliu, aren't you going to sleep?" Komaeda looked at him.

God seat: "I will sleep when I see you fall asleep."

"Yeah." Komaeda obediently closed his eyes.

The light of the lamp is small and warm.

After a while, Komaeda fell asleep. At this time, he looked gentle and peaceful. Kamito looked at him steadily, and then slowly got up and changed his clothes.

I'm leaving before dawn, my beloved, please don't panic and miss

because i'll be back soon

Maybe I'll bring your favorite flower, and the promise of the past

Maybe I will appear behind you one afternoon

But ah, now I can only gently kiss my lover's forehead

because it's getting late

'cause I'm leaving before dawn

But my love, please don't feel flustered and sad

even though i may never come back

This unprecedented affection is like sticky gaudy poetry.

Because God Zuo left anyway, he didn't know what he was going to do now in the cold air before dawn, maybe this was also part of Komaeda's plan?

Maybe so...

But it doesn't matter.

Already, I don't want to see him torture himself like this.

"God, God Zuo-san?"

"Come with me."

Seedling remembered that the sky was still dark at that time, the darkness before dawn, making people breathless.

I followed the footsteps of the seat of God and entered a research institute belonging to the future agency, which was probably the private place of the seat of God.Seedling looked at the seat of God and said to himself: "I will lie down in this instrument, and I have already set the relevant step values. Once the instrument is closed, you only need to press this button."

"This...is this..."

"Sapling Makoto," Kamito interrupted him, he was still busy with the adjustments in his hands: "In the next few days, I will completely self-enclose my consciousness, and all the functions required for the operation of this body will be maintained by this instrument, so you don't have to Worried about asking."

Seedling: "Closed consciousness! God seat-san you!——"

"In the past few days, Komaeda will ask you to take care of her."

Other human gods don't fully trust, but this seedling...

It can be trusted.

"God seat-san..."

Shen Zuo didn't answer him, but lay down calmly in the instrument, the light of the instrument turned on and began to close gradually, and Shen Zuo closed his eyes.

Before his consciousness slowly shut down, Kamito thought that Komaeda might panic when he woke up and saw that he was not there.

but……

If Hinata's remaining personality can regain the initiative during this period, then Kamito can accept it, even if he will disappear.

Thinking about it now, the human heart is really a wonderful thing.

The same is true of love, God Zuo never thought that one day he would give up his current life for someone.

However, the reality is that he seems to have budgeted wrong.

wrong again.

However, forget it.

So Hinata, come on.

Seedlings were running on the streets at dawn, so fast that they didn't have time to stop.

The tactile feeling of the moment he pressed the button is still on his fingertips, and he is now running to Komaeda with all his strength.

but……

What should I do, what should I say?

Seedling stopped in front of Komaeda's door, not knowing what to do.

Because he didn't even--

Whether it was Kamiza or Hinata who came back, he couldn't tell Komaeda clearly.

But fortunately, Komaeda didn't ask much, he just sat on the balcony for a long time.Occasionally he would fall asleep, at this time the seedlings would bring the heater and cover him with a quilt.

Seedling will occasionally talk to Nozomi in Komaeda's stomach. It's strange that Nozomi seems to like the appearance of Naegi very much.

Komaeda has not lost her mind these days, at least she always smiles in front of saplings.

But Naegi couldn't help but worry——

God seat him, will he come back?Or is it Hinata-san who came back?

Today is a beautiful day, although it is still cold but there is a warm light shining.

It makes people feel that maybe spring will come soon.

Seedlings set up tea and snacks in the yard in the afternoon, as well as hand warmers and blankets.

There is no wind today, and the weather is so good, it is suitable for sitting in the yard to rest and get some fresh air.

Komaeda looked into the distance, and suddenly smelled a scent of flowers through his nose. Feeling novelty, he said to the sapling, "You can also smell the scent of flowers in winter." The sapling didn't answer, and he didn't care. .

It wasn't that Naegi deliberately didn't answer, but he looked at the person standing behind Komaeda.

god... no, no...

Hyuga-san? ...

Those eyes are Hinata-san!

Seedling quietly walked away and returned to the house so as not to disturb the two of them.

He didn't notice that the color of those eyes was shaking slightly, and they were struggling weakly for the last time, as if they were returning to the light.

Hinata actually knows that he knows better than anyone else that his personality can't last long, even if he desperately wants to regain the initiative of his body these days, it can only last for a while... He knows that if he doesn't do this Maybe he could still sleep in the depths of his mind until he died.

Once this step is taken, it is like moths to a flame, but Hinata has no regrets.

He knew that there was not much time left for him.

He wanted to say too much, and he didn't know how to speak for a while. On the way here, even though he was in a hurry, he didn't forget to buy flowers—because I broke my original promise.Now with flowers in hand, just to make amends and apologize.

Look at him, standing behind that person, but unable to speak, his eyes are full of that person's figure.

At that moment in his life there was only his lover, the only eternity.

Finally, he spoke, and said to the man like an old friend——

"nice weather today."

His lover didn't look back, probably because he was a passer-by, and he replied: "Yes, that's great."

"……how is your day?"

He could clearly feel the fragmentation of personality consciousness, slowly pulling away from this body.

"Well, I'm having a good time."

"Ah, really—" He smiled, he wasn't worried at all, because the God Throne would appear to take over this body, and would take care of him instead of himself, because he loved him so much: "That's really great."

Eh?Komaeda stood up, and he turned—

"..." Too many things filled his mind, he couldn't say a word, couldn't shout a word.He looked at Hinata, but tears flowed from his eyes.

He gave him flowers.

Gently stroking the top of his head: "I'm just a little worried about you. I want to see you."

Even if it's the last time, I want to see you.

"But I'm relieved now..." he said.

"sorry."

His palm left the top of Komaeda's head, as if taking away their memories.

It's just a little private possession, isn't it too much?

In the end, I apologized well, although I still made him cry.

those eyes