whatever you do

"I've been decadent for a while, I don't know what else to do in this damn life, I don't know what I'm still alive for."

Gu Nianchen's heart skipped a beat when he heard this, he didn't want to eat at all, staring at Ye Shu, Ye Shu just narrated it calmly, as if he was telling someone else's story.

"One night, I dreamed of my grandpa. He said that he went to heaven to find someone he liked. He said he hoped that I could live a good life and grow into a big tree that is not afraid of wind and rain. He said that he finally got rid of me. The rascal doesn't want to see me just yet."

"I woke up from my dream, like an ordinary student, studied hard, ate well, slept well, passed junior high school, passed high school, and entered university. I haven't dreamed of him for a long time. I almost I forgot what he looks like. Why hasn't he come to see me even though I've been admitted to university?"

Gu Nianchen didn't answer, he didn't know how to answer, and he knew that Ye Shu didn't need to answer.Amidst the hustle and bustle of the hot pot restaurant and the bright lights on the street, the two people at this small table were silent.

Gu Nianchen watched Ye Shu eat for a while, the sound of the chopsticks colliding with the plate hit his heart like a drumbeat, making him feel like a ball of cotton was stuck in his chest, making him unable to breathe.

He recovered from his suffocation for a while, and said: "My grandma once told me that people will become stars in the sky after death. I believe she is guarding me in the starry sky. Your grandpa must also be guarding me in the starry sky." You bless you and never leave."

Ye Shu smiled: "Actually, I'm not a person who likes to look back and think about it. Sometimes when I think about it, it's just a nostalgia without emotion. It's quite cold."

"Don't say that about yourself. It is human instinct to avoid pain. If there is no possibility of regaining what is lost, then thinking about it over and over again is self-punishment." Gu Nianchen said.

Gu Nianchen knows what Ye Shu feels like. He has also lost someone close to him. Not long ago, he was talking and laughing with you. The person who told you to put on clothes in the cold weather suddenly disappeared. That kind of extremely sad feeling is beyond any words. expressive.

Hearing Gu Nianchen's words, Ye Shu felt like a drizzle fell in his heart, very fine rain, but it wiped away the long-standing dust in his heart.

He knew that it was foolish to hope to have those good times again, not to think about it was to protect himself, but at the same time, he felt guilty in his heart, as if he had forgotten his grandfather and the meat bun.

He stared at Gu Nianchen for a while, and suddenly felt a familiar feeling, as if they knew each other a long time ago, but he knew it was impossible, if he knew someone like Gu Nianchen, he would not forget it easily.

"Thank you for inviting me to dinner and listening to me take out the trash." Ye Shu picked up the coconut juice, "Take it as wine and clink a glass."

"It's an honor." Gu Nianchen raised his glass and smiled.

"You look pretty when you smile. Don't put on a cold face and scare away the little girls who want to hook you up." Ye Shu said with a smile, "Look, that's it, it's cold again."

As he spoke, he took out his mobile phone, took a snapshot of Gu Nianchen's cold face, and handed it over for Gu Nianchen to see.

Gu Nianchen suddenly grabbed his hand, startled Ye Shu, and dropped the phone on the table.

"What happened to your wrist?" he asked.

"It's nothing." Ye Shu was a little baffled. He looked carefully at his left wrist and saw a very faint mark, "You mean this scar? It was there when I was very young. It's so faint because of your attention." get."

"How?" Gu Nianchen asked.

"I can't remember clearly. When I was young, I was very naughty. I jumped over walls and bricks, climbed trees to steal pears, stumbled, and often fell my arm today and scratched my skin tomorrow. Who remembers how the injury came?" Ye Shu replied indifferently. .

"Don't you remember at all? I think it looks like a strangle mark." Gu Nianchen asked Ye Shu hopefully, and he also gave a hint, hoping that Ye Shu could remember.

It was the first time he saw Ye Shu's familiarity. He had taken several classes with Ye Shu in this month, had dinner together and went back to the dormitory after class, and listened to Ye Shu's talk about the past this evening. He knew that he did not admit his mistake.

Even though 12 years have passed, even though the bear boy back then has grown into a polite and gentle boy, even though he doesn't remember himself, Gu Nianchen is still very lucky, glad that he came to D University, and lucky that he met his little tree again.

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"You come from the south, so you must have never seen a frozen river, the kind of ice that is so thick that you can jump on it." Six-year-old Ye Shu said to Gu Nianchen.

That was the first winter that Gu Nianchen knew Ye Shu, and it was also the last winter so far. Like sharing his treasure with a good friend, Ye Shu took Gu Nianchen and the meat bag to the frozen river after school.

Gu Nianchen felt a little nervous, but when he saw Roubao running so happily on the ice, Ye Shu kept urging him from behind, pushing himself forward, and stepped on it cautiously.

Although the river was frozen in early winter, the thickness was only a few centimeters, and the ice became thinner as it got closer to the center. The weight of a dog was okay, but the weight of two children was unbearable anyway.

After walking a few steps, Gu Nianchen felt that the ice under his feet was cracked, so he quickly turned around and pushed Ye Shu to the shore, and at the same time, he took a few steps back because the ice was too slippery.

Ye Shu saw the crack and ran ashore. When he reached the shore, the ice under Gu Nianchen's feet cracked and his feet sank in.

Ye Shu panicked all of a sudden, and wanted to run down to pull Gu Nianchen up, but Gu Nianchen stopped him.When Ye Shu comes down, the ice will crack even more, not only can't pull Gu Nianchen up, but he will also fall into the water himself.

The cotton shoes and trousers in winter are very thick, but after being soaked in water, Gu Nianchen felt a biting chill. He tried to walk up by himself, but there was a lot of mud in the river, and his feet were frozen, so he couldn't move forward. It was only a few meters away The shore seemed far away.The only fortunate thing is that the water is not deep, only up to his waist, and his life is not in danger yet.

Gu Nianchen asked Ye Shu to go back to find his grandfather. The riverside in winter was very deserted, and there was no one else to see except the two of them.Ye Shu didn't want to leave, he didn't want to leave Gu Nianchen here alone, he cried and told Gu Nianchen that he couldn't leave, he cried and said he was sorry, he cried that he was so scared.

Gu Nianchen said don't cry, I want to cry when you cry, if you don't leave, don't leave, nothing will happen.

Roubao kept yelling around Yeshu, Yeshu cried and said Roubao, can you go back to find grandpa, Roubao, you bring grandpa here, but Roubao opened his eyes to look at Yeshu, but he refused to leave.

The river is not long, some willows are planted on both sides, and then there are patches of farmland.Ye Shu saw the trees on the shore, and wanted to find some longer branches to pull Gu Nianchen up, but all he found were broken, thin ones, and the ones that grew on the trees could not be reached.

However, hemp rope was found under a tree, which may have been thrown here by the villagers in Xiatian. The hemp rope was long and short, and it should be cut from the middle by a rope.

Ye Shu connected the two ropes together, tied a knot, threw one end to Gu Nianchen, and told him to hold on tightly with both hands, and tied the other end to his left wrist. He grabbed the tree next to him with his right hand, and pushed hard towards the shore. While dragging Gu Nianchen.

Gu Nianchen was actually pulled up by Ye Shu like this, Ye Shu hugged Gu Nianchen and said sorry that he would never come to this river again, Gu Nianchen patted him and said that he didn't untie the rope in your hand beforehand.

Then Gu Nianchen looked at Ye Shu's frayed left wrist and suddenly cried. Ye Shu was frightened and said that he didn't hurt. If I don’t tie the rope to the tree, I can pull it up by myself. Ye Shu said that if you say I’m stupid, I’ll be stupid. I’m not worried that you won’t be able to pull it up without anyone.

Then Ye Shu also cried, and the two held hands and walked home crying.

Ye Shu's grandfather's house is very close to Gu Nianchen's grandmother's house. Gu Nianchen was sent to his grandmother's house by his father during the summer vacation.

When he was about to get home, Ye Shu was crying so hard, Gu Nianchen was afraid that he would choke himself, so he said stop crying, look, I don't cry anymore, the little girl is crying all day long.

Ye Shu looked at Gu Nianchen with big teary eyes and nodded, saying that I am not a little girl, so I will stop crying.

Gu Nianchen wiped away his tears and said, neither of us should tell my grandma about this, nor your grandpa, or you will be scolded by your grandpa.

Ye Shu said that your pants are wet anyway.

Gu Nianchen said it was fine, so I said I accidentally made it when cleaning after school today.

Ye Shu said, will you still play with me?Gu Nianchen said, of course, I will come to school with you tomorrow morning.

Ye Shu smiled and said that Xiaotu is the best, I like Xiaotu the most, I want to be good friends with you for a lifetime, and I will give you all the delicious food in the future.

Gu Nianchen also smiled and said that I also like Xiaoshu the most.

There was a scar left on Ye Shu's left wrist. Although it healed with time and became very pale, it was always there.

Later, the relationship between the two children became better, and they stayed together on Sundays after school.Until Gu Nianchen suddenly disappeared from this small village without saying hello, just like he came suddenly, along with Gu Nianchen's grandmother.

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Gu Nianchen finished the memory and looked at Ye Shu, Ye Shu said that he really didn't remember.

Gu Nianchen was a little disappointed, there were two voices clamoring in his heart, one said: "Tell Xiaoshu everything, that you are Xiaotu, that you knew each other when you were young."

Another said: "He doesn't remember you anymore, what's the use of telling him? Didn't you hear him say that he doesn't like recalling the past?"

"I don't remember you, so I have to tell him more. I told him over and over again that he remembered you. He said he would be a good friend for life."

"Do you want him to think of grandpa and meat buns? Where was your good friend when he was alone?"

"I had to be taken away by my father, and I didn't want to go."

"But you still go, admit it, don't be so selfish..."

Ye Shu looked at Gu Nianchen in a daze, and waved his hand in front of him: "Hey, what's wrong with you, are you okay?"

The two voices in Gu Nianchen's heart hadn't reached the final conclusion yet, he stammered, "I..., you..."

Ye Shu listened to him and me for a long time, showing a puzzled expression, Gu Nianchen finally shook his head: "It's okay, I want to ask if we are friends?"

He thought it would be a great happiness to meet again now, the past is over, the present and the future are worth looking forward to.

"Of course, otherwise why would I invite you to drink coffee and have dinner with you?" Ye Shu replied.

"Thank you for the coffee, I am very happy to treat you to dinner." Gu Nianchen looked at his dimples when he laughed and felt that he was drunk from coconut milk.

"Haha, you can invite me often from now on." Ye Shu said cheekily.

After eating, the two walked back to the dormitory with the cool wind blowing.Gu Nianchen pushed open the door of the dormitory and went in, and saw Wang Chen and Li Zhuo eating barbecue, one of the computers was playing the game live video, and there were beer bottles lying on the ground.

Li Zhuo belongs to this dormitory building, but not from their dormitory. He is Wang Chen's friend. Since the mess in the cafeteria, he often comes to play with Wang Chen and provoke Gu Nianchen from time to time, but Gu Nianchen is too lazy to talk to him.

Every time he comes over, Gu Nianchen usually goes out. He doesn't like his space to be disturbed, but after all, he doesn't own the dormitory alone. As long as he doesn't overdo it, he can still bear it and generally won't say anything.

D large dormitory is distributed as a quadruple room. Each person's bed is on the bed and under the table, equipped with wardrobe drawers and bookshelves. The dormitory has a shared air conditioner, water dispenser and a large table.

The large table can be moved and used to put thermos bottles, buckets, basins, laundry detergent, etc.There is no private bathroom, and you have to go to the public bathroom to take a shower. There are two large toilets and water rooms on each floor.

Seeing Gu Nianchen coming back, Wang Chen said with embarrassment: "Have you eaten, do you want to go together?"

Li Zhuo sneered: "Why would the cold and cold young master eat our greasy things?" After speaking, he took a bite of the mutton skewers in his hand.

Gu Nianchen walked to Li Zhuo's side expressionlessly, and said to Wang Chen, "Don't touch anything of mine without my permission."

Li Zhuo sat in Gu Nianchen's chair, Wang Chen reminded him to sit in another roommate, but Li Zhuo deliberately made Gu Nianchen unhappy, how could he change it?Wang Chen also followed him.

"Isn't it just a chair? What's the matter with sitting? Who cares?" Li Zhuo said in a strange way.

Wang Chen pulled him up and put the chair on Gu Nianchen's seat.

"Dirty." Gu Nianchen looked at Li Zhuo and spit out a word.

"Gu Nianchen, what do you mean? Dirty, right? Then I'll make it even dirtier." Li Zhuo put his foot on Gu Nianchen's chair, stomped vigorously, and switched to his left foot after his right foot.

Gu Nianchen watched his movements coldly, without speaking or moving.

Wang Chen said: "The table is too much."

"I was too much? Didn't you hear what he said?"

As he spoke, he put the finished grill on the top and sprinkled beer on it.

Wang Chen knew Li Zhuo's character, he was a violent bandit leader who would act recklessly and would not listen to persuasion, but Li Zhuo treated him very well, although sometimes he knew that he was doing something wrong, but he was often helpless.

Li Zhuo made a fuss for a while, seeing that Gu Nianchen ignored him, he felt that it was meaningless.

"Tonight is really fucking unlucky, Chen'er, I'm leaving." He even slammed the door when he was leaving.

The chair was already horrific under his ravages, Wang Chen looked at the chair and sighed. "Shall we change the chair?" He tried to ask Gu Nianchen.

The author has something to say: jumping on the ice in winter is really cool!It would be even better if it fell in! (The stupid author has personally practiced it)

Ah, I want to eat barbecue, I want to eat skewers!

Today is the second watch, let me be diligent, please praise me~

(I didn’t expect that ravaged|ravaged turned out to be a harmonious word, a dash was added in the middle, and nothing else was changed)