[Comprehensive] Teacher Songyang is always committing suicide

After all, Yingu has the physique of attracting insects. After discussing with Huaye, he decided to stay for about a week before leaving.Master Chong rummaged through medical books at Huaye's house, and Huaye was walking around leisurely. When he saw Songyang, he leaned over and asked him, "What about you?"

Songyang tilted his head, "Me?"

"Are you going with him, or are you in a long-distance relationship?"

Confused by Hua Yechao's gossiping smile, Songyang lowered his red pupils and thought for a while, then said with a smile, "I just hope Mr. Yingu will take me in."

"Why do you say it so pitifully, as if you are homeless."

Songyang moved his lips, but in the end he just smiled silently.

When he fled back to the insect master, although he still had the same body, he felt that Xu was separated from him the moment he entered the light vein.

Probably this is the meaning of what Yin Gu said, "There can only be one Lord of Light Veins in the same world".When he and Xu are in the same world, the two can only share the same body; once separated to different worlds, they can move freely.

There is no need to work hard to suppress the emptiness, and I feel that the whole person is relaxed and collapsed.Although I tried my best to make myself only focus on the person in front of me, a huge black hole has been created in my heart, and I can never ignore it.

—He is a deserter.

Fleeing from Xu who must fight, from Oboro who needs to be rescued, from the sin of killing Jinsuke, and from the side of Mr. Yin Gu who doesn't know, trying to absorb the last bit of warmth and value of existence.

Such a weak and self-abandoned self is like a real human being like never before-but also deviates from the teacher who leads the students like never before.

Yingu and Huaye would practice medicine and sell medicine in the village during the day, and Songyang tied up his long hair to tidy up the house, and when it was time to eat, he tied up his sleeves and cooked for them.After cooking, he found that the weather had turned cloudy. He reckoned that Yin Gu would not be able to survive the heavy rain, so he waited quietly by the door with a clean towel in his hand.

Sure enough, the doctor and the insect master came back running.Yin Gu was covered in muddy water from the sudden heavy rain, when he looked up and saw Songyang waiting there with his wet face, his expression softened in an instant.

"How long have you waited?"

"Not long."

Song Yang answered softly, stepped forward and wrapped the man's wet hair in a towel, wrapped his fingers in the cloth, and wiped the wet ear pinna carefully.His ability to take care of people was trained by the children in the private school, but now that his partner is the insect master, he always felt that there was something different, so he never dared to raise his eyes to meet the other party's gaze.

"Well, this lady, where is my towel..." Huaye said weakly at the side.

Songyang smiled, "Get it yourself."

"..." Single dogs have no human rights!

Seeing Hua Yelei rushing into the house, only the two of them were left at the entrance, Yin Gu grabbed Song Yang's hand that was wiping his hair, and asked in a low voice, "Are you really my lover now?"

"Yes."

Despite being very shy, Song Yang answered Yin Gu's question sincerely.After thinking about it, he added without confidence: "Because it's the first time I fell in love... I don't know if I can do it well. Anyway, please give me some advice..."

The man's response was a soft laugh, and a gentle movement that couldn't help but pull him into his arms.

"You are too cute."

The first real hug since we met.With such a large area of ​​contact with the insect master's body, Song Yang's whole body instinctively relaxed, leaning against the other party's arms with a very docile attitude.

Because the insect master still had some urgent letters, Yin Gucao took two bites and went back to his room.After Songyang had eaten, when he quietly brought the food into the room, he felt that Yin Gu was in a bad mood.

The white-haired man was sitting on the ground with his head raised, looking at the ceiling expressionlessly and smoking a cigarette.In front of him are several virtual cocoons for communication, and there are piles of shredded paper on the table.

"Is it a letter from a colleague?" Songyang saw not only the table, but also a small stack of letters under the table, "Are you studying some weird bug again?"

He had no intention of prying into the privacy of the other party, but there was a piece of letter paper spread out, and with a glance, the contents were confused.

[To Yin Gu: Su Yu lost the news.In the future, I will ask you to carry out the research on 'Ever Darkness' by yourself...]

The writing is very large, but he hesitated. It can be seen from the depth of the brush and ink that it was written down word by word.Always dark, always dark, what is it?Songyang took a peek at Yin Gu, the man was grilling the rice with his head down, his hanging white hair covered all his eyes.

He wasn't sure how to ask, so he sat down behind the man and let him gently touch his back.Intuitively, he felt that the always calm and rational insect master might need a little support at this time.

The man behind him paused for a moment, slowly relaxed his body against his back, leaned his head back, and leaned on Songyang's shoulder.

"Things in the world can't be as you wish. I used to think it was easy when I was a spectator, but when I really wanted to fight against fate, I realized that it was really not easy."

Songyang let him lean on quietly, and asked cautiously: "Is there anything you can tell me?"

"It's not that I can't tell you, it's just... I really don't know how to tell you."

Yin Gu leaned on his shoulder, smoking a cigarette slowly, "For example, if you broke your leg, lost your relationship, or lost your dog, you can cry and talk; but some things are so heavy that even where do you start? I don’t even know what I’m talking about. Day after day, year after year, I keep silent, and it slowly becomes a part of myself.”

Song Yang didn't say a word.He thought to himself, he also understood, after all, he also kept silent to Yin Gu about his burden.

"It would be great if I could meet you earlier."

At the end of the silence, the man's soft voice, with a smile, drifted into the air along with the insect smoke.

In the last few days when Yin Gu and Song Yang stayed at Huaye's house, a row of crystal-like glowing diamonds hung on the beams of the house. Yin Gu said that the insects they had attracted had begun to build their nests.I couldn't see the insects before, so I didn't feel Yingu's insect-recruiting physique. Now as soon as I open the door of the room, I can see the room full of strange-shaped insects floating around. It's like carnival.Individuals who are a little bit conscious will line up around Songyang, looking very close to the Lord of Light Veins.

"Well, it's almost time to start."

Yin Gu forgot to say where he was going, and Song Yang didn't ask.He began to habitually not think about the future.Huaye was nagging at him not to bring back fake medicines for him, Yin Gu responded without sincerity, but still asked Huaye for a set of cotton clothes, and helped Songyang pack them in a wooden box.

Walking on the mountain road at night, Songyang can clearly see the light veins flowing quietly far away from the ground.In the past, he could only notice when the main stream of light veins passed by him.

So quiet and so beautiful.

Sometimes I can't help watching for hours.It seems that all the painful and depressive memories are lost, together with those happy and beautiful pasts.

"Songyang. I can't watch it anymore."

The man's warm palm stretched out from behind, covering his eyes lightly.

"If you really like it, just look up at the Milky Way in the sky. It's also very beautiful, and it belongs to the light of the real world."

Songyang was very obedient, so he raised his head to look at the bright starry sky.As Yin Gu said, the Milky Way is also very beautiful, and it is also flowing forever, as if it corresponds to the light veins underground.

The bug master was sitting next to him, but he didn't look at the starry sky, but just looked at him quietly.

"Choose to become a human, have you ever regretted it?"

"what?"

I just wanted to open my mouth and say, "I'm not a human being from the beginning", but when I realized it, I swallowed it back immediately.The insect master saw that he was silent, so he didn't rush him, but took his hand and played with it in his own.Song Yang has held the knife for hundreds of years, but his fingertips and palms are still soft, probably because of his dragon veins constitution, even calluses can't grow out.These hands have been burned by fire, pierced by wooden nails, poured with hot oil, and placed in the hands of a man, they are still delicate and white, like some delicate objects made of warm jade.

"A worm has no feelings, it just lives for existence; it doesn't love people, so it won't be easily hurt. Thinking about it this way, being a worm is an easy thing, isn't it?"

The insect master whispered, stroking the opponent's thin white fingers with his fingertips.

"Since I have experienced the pain of being a human being, it is perfectly normal to have such thoughts. There is no need to feel ashamed or blame yourself for this. You are not running away from anything, you just need a good rest."

Song Yang was startled, wanted to say something, but didn't say it out loud.He lowered his head, and lightly hooked his fingers in the palm of the man. The insect master responded gently, and clasped his hand into his palm.

Yingu's physique is naturally attractive to him, even the gentle movement of rubbing his fingertips can still make his heart itch like a cat scratching.He wanted to retract his hand, but his body wanted more comfort from the other party, so he pursed his lips like this, in a dilemma.

Yin Gu noticed his embarrassment and smiled softly.

"Sometimes it feels like I'm cheating."

"Cheating?"

"Because Songyang is a very gentle and beautiful person." The man said, "Maybe you won't notice, but I guess, there should be many eyes following you. But, your most precious part Gentleness, but I chose to give it to me. How should I put it, um, is victory unwarranted?"

Song Yang was afraid that he might misunderstand, so he hurriedly said: "It's not because of Mr. Yingu's worm-inducing physique, but because of Mr. Yingu himself—" he mumbled, "I am a very good person, but I..."

The man laughed.In terms of expressing feelings, Master Zong has always been generous, saying what he thinks of, much more straightforward than the restrained Songyang.

"In my opinion, you deserve the warmth and happiness of the whole world."