[Korean Entertainment BTS] First Kiss

2018

Beside him was the deafening support from the fans, but it was not a noisy feeling, but an inexplicable familiarity and nostalgia.

The lights under the stage are dim, only the cheering sticks are waving and changing colors, your eyes may also be stained with colorful colors; the people on the stage are singing and dancing, you can see sweat appearing on his forehead, and you can see his eyes. Looking at the eyes of the fans, I saw him doing the movements that he had practiced thousands of times, without any sloppiness, just like copying and pasting.

You can imagine how many times he corrected the members in private in order to make the movements exactly the same.

Late at night, when everyone was falling asleep, the lights in the practice room were still on. With the flowing music, he danced wantonly, and then lay down on the ground tired, looking at the spotlights above his head, thinking about tomorrow's autograph session, The concert the day after tomorrow, the commercial shooting on the weekend, his time is like this, passing on the road, slipping away while waiting, spending NG time...

The originally lit stage lights went out, and the video started to play on the screen. He changed his clothes backstage and prepared for the next stage. The music started, followed by fans cheering and screaming. You looked at him, and he looked handsome again. , but you would rather he was not so popular, at least he would not be so busy and tired, but when you think about it again, you are afraid that his contribution will not be proportional to the reward, and in this contradictory thought, you sing along to the song, and your eyes are red... …

You look at the dark backstage, his girlfriend Ali should be waiting for him, I wonder if she has prepared warm water for him, his stomach is sick because of the long-term eating time, and it feels uncomfortable when he drinks cold water.

You stand on tiptoe and look, hoping to see something, but then shake your head, and of course you can't see anything...

At this time, the music sounded, and on the stage, he slowly rose from the center of the stage, "Jung Ho-seok, what should I do with you?" You said, your low voice drowned in the cheers of the fans...

2009

"I said Zheng Haoxi, are you really going to Seoul to participate in the audition? What about here? What about the dance troupe here?" You asked him who was about to leave the practice room.

"What to do, can I know what to do? This place is too small, and if I want to realize my dream, I can't stay here forever." He said.

You looked at him, trying to persuade him to stay, but the words came to your lips but couldn't come out.What can he get in Gwangju?Everyone knows that he shouldn't be here, his ability is enough to support him to a bigger stage.However, the partner who has been practicing, the person who said that he would go on together, just left like this, it is still sad.

After he finished speaking, he shook off your hand and closed the door to leave, and then returned to silence... You sat on the ground weakly against the mirror, slowly pressed your head on the ground, tears fell to the ground, like sweat every day... …

2010

I heard that Jung Ho Suk was selected and joined JYP as a trainee.Although he left, everyone agreed.They made a video call with him, and after only a few words, he hung up in a panic.In the short video, you can see that he is thinner and his hair has grown in the camera, but he is still smiling.Yes, laughing has always been his trademark.

But in your impression, he is not smiling all the time, he will show a different side.Maybe it's because you grew up together, you are more dependent on each other, he will complain to you, confide in you, you know his troubles, you also know the sadness and fatigue behind his smile all the time.

2011

Zheng Haoxi's trainee career went smoothly, you continued to practice and perform with the dance troupe in Gwangju, and the dance troupe became better and better, until one day, you received a call from Bang Shihyuk's PD.

The last time you came to the practice room of the dance troupe, you thought back to asking why Zheng Ho-seok left two years ago, but you never thought you would have this day.

You look at yourself in the mirror, and you seem to see yourself and Zheng Haoxi practicing dancing together a few years ago. You will quarrel over a few moves, and you will stay up late practicing for the next day's performance, and then sit slumped. Eating a fried sauce noodle on the ground...

How is he in Seoul?

2012

You are sitting on the sofa, facing a surprised-looking Jung Hoseok.

"Ami, why are you here?" He asked, his eyes were full of excitement, but mixed with confusion.

"Well, if you can come, so can I. Don't you believe in my ability?" You are not a trainee, but a choreographer assistant. At this time, Zheng Haoxi came to BigHit with PD Bang Sihyuk Continuing his trainee career, he is now a candidate for his debut.

"Do it! Zheng Haoxi, come on!"

"Okay." He didn't say much, and drank the beer in his glass.

You watched his face turn red after drinking a glass and laughed out loud. After laughing, you looked at him and asked, "Jung Ho-seok, do you regret it? You left us at that time." You still asked, even though you knew the question was How cruel to him.

He thought for a while and said slowly, "Maybe, I don't know either. When I came to Seoul, I realized that my dance is not the best. It turns out that I also have many flaws, and there are so many capable people. If I hadn't left , you may always overestimate your own strength. Ami, what about you? Do you regret it?"

You guessed it would be this answer, you don't know, what will happen to Seoul after leaving Gwangju?You look at Zheng Haoxi, his mouth is moving, but his voice can't be heard, "What are you talking about?" You hold his face and move closer to him and say.

"No, it's fine if you didn't hear, there will be opportunities in the future." After he finished speaking, he carried you on his back and walked towards the dormitory. Halfway through, you suddenly remembered that he was preparing to debut now, and he was struggling to get down and walk by himself. For you At first, he ignored the movement, but you still refused to let him continue to carry you, so he reluctantly let you down, watched you staggering and walking in front, and was afraid that you would fall, so you put your hands on your back Left and right are ready to support you at any time.

After that, you start working and he continues to practice.

Trainees are really tired. You see Tian Jungkook, who is also a trainee, who is young and leaves at the latest all day long. You sometimes wait for Jung Ho-seok to watch that kid practice dancing all the time, as if he will never get tired.

The same goes for Min Yoongi, he is a year older than you, one day you saw him limping and asked him what was wrong, he was reluctant to say at first, but you asked him again and again, only to say that he was hit by a car while delivering food , He also repeatedly urged not to tell other people.

Of course, Jung Ho-seok is still working as hard as before, desperately working hard.

When will debut?No one knows.

Watching them practice every day, often regardless of day or night, sometimes you walk out of the practice room only to find that it is already the next morning, and you will go to the Bao restaurant near the company to have breakfast with Zheng Haoxi, and then go back to practice .

In this way, the time finally came to 2013.

2013

"Ami, I have something to tell you." He stopped you after the usual practice.

"Ami, I don't know what to do, maybe I shouldn't be here, should I go back?" He lowered his head, not sure if he was talking, and kept turning the bracelet on his wrist, which was his hesitation Performance.

"Go back? Gwangju? Do you want to quit?" You thought for a while, looked at him and said.

"Maybe, I think here is not as good as I imagined. Seoul is too big to be in my control. I have been practicing for four years, but now I don't know what I want in the first place." He still Lowering your head, you were surprised to see something like tears on his hand.

Jung Hoseok, crying...

For a while, you didn't know what to say. You looked at the hair on his head, and then looked up at the familiar practice room. Not far away were everyone's water glasses, and there were piles of clothes on the sofa. There is a group photo from the last dinner together...all these are the reasons for him to persevere.

You hugged him and patted his back lightly.

"Hoseok, you have to persevere. You are destined to shine on the stage. I believe in you, and everyone believes in you." You can only say this, feeling bitter in your heart.

You closed the door, called Namjoon, explained the situation to him, watched him rushing over, exchanged glances with you, opened the door and walked in.

You are sitting on the chair in the aisle, and at some point, the relationship between you and Jung Ho-seok seems not as close as before. The burden he is carrying now is not your Jung Ho-seok, but the members’, you Suddenly feel that you don't know him well, when did it start?On the way of chasing dreams, will each other really drift away like this?You don't know, you looked at the closed door and slowly lowered your head...

Zheng Haoxi still did not leave in the end, you are happy for him, they are going to debut in summer.

His daily schedule is full, and you can only see him when he is practicing his debut song.You still go out to eat sometimes, but you don't have the time to chat like you used to.

Through the rising heat, you look at Zheng Haoxi's face, he eats with his head down, eats very quickly, his hair changes every few days, the final shape has not been determined yet, he doesn't know what he has in his hand Sometimes there are many small wounds.

He probably sensed your gaze and raised his head, "What are you looking at? Eat quickly!" While talking, you saw the bruises under his eyes, which could not be completely covered even with makeup on.

"I'm looking at the big stars of the future!" You teased, and when he heard your answer, he also smiled, then lowered his head and remained silent.

You know, you're not sure about the future right now.

Is debut the end?

Of course not, you can't imagine what difficulties he will experience in the future.

"Zheng Haoxi, you've secretly practiced extra time again." Seeing that he answered another phone call as if he was about to leave, you stopped him and said.

He didn't speak, but picked up the coat on the chair, "Pay attention to your body, I believe you."

You don’t know about the future, but no matter what the future holds, what you believe is that you will definitely stand by his side and always support him. He is like a light in the dark. You don’t know when he has changed for you. It's so important.

There was a pause in his movements, "Well, I know, Ami. Thank you." He looked at you and said.

2013. 6, 13

BTS debut.

You and other staff watched their dancing on TV in the background, and you shed tears silently watching it.The first one to cry was Sejin Ouba, and as he cried out, everyone couldn't help crying and laughing again when they saw each other's faces.

When the members came out of the stage and opened the door, what they saw was this scene of crying and laughing.

Tian Jungkook was the first to rush to you and hug you, muttering "Nu Na Nu Na, I did it", you looked at his face covered with tears, raised your hand to wipe his tears, the kid jumped to another place Celebrate alone.

After greeting the other members, Jung Ho-seok walked up to you, stretched out his arms, and you hugged him, "Jung Ho-seok, you...you did it" you said, choked up several times because of being too excited.

"Well, I know." His muffled voice came, you wanted to look up at him, but he pushed your head back, "Ami, thank you for always being by my side." He said, you can feel Seeing that he was trying to control his emotions, his voice was mixed with a strong nasal sound, he should be crying, he must be crying.

You are grateful for this moment. Although everyone is crying, they are all happy. In the next few years, you can't find a happier day than that day.

2014 years, 2015 years, 2016 years...

Time goes by like this, Zheng Haoxi will bring you gifts after going abroad, every birthday must be attended by the other party to be considered complete, you will dress up when he has no schedule, go shopping for clothes on Boulevard, go to Hangang Park to see At sunrise, go to Yeouido to enjoy the cherry blossoms, go to Cheonggyecheon to watch the lantern show, go to the Hongdae Market at night to eat snacks... It seems like a couple, but not a couple.

Maybe it's because you know each other too well. Your relationship is not like two people, but more like two aspects of one person. They are too close. It is destined that no one can be separated from the other, but there is no closer distance.

You want to say to him, when you were in Gwangju, you always wanted to say a word to him - Zheng Haoxi, I like you, no matter what the future holds, I will always be by your side.

You always thought that you would get along like this until one day...

"Everyone, let me introduce, this is my girlfriend A Li."

During a dinner with one person, Jung Hoseok brought a person.

Ah Li, who is small, looks very gentle, and she will blush when she looks at Zheng Haoxi.After she sat down, Jung Hoseok handed her water and smiled at her.

It turned out that if some things were not said all the time, there would be no chance to say them.You suddenly understood this truth, picked up the cup in your hand and drank it with your head up.It really makes sense for Brother Yoongi to like soju, the spicy taste slowly flows into your stomach, and your tears also flow out.Tian Zhengguo, who was opposite, saw you and hurriedly poured water for you, complaining that you didn't drink slowly.You took the water, and unexpectedly met the gaze of Zheng Haoxi next to you. You wanted to smile at him, but from the corner of your eye, you saw Ah Li beside you, bitterness welled up in your heart, and you twitched the corners of your mouth. It must be ugly. Smile, because you saw Jung Hoseok pause for a moment.

Tian Jungkook sprained his ankle while practicing dancing.It was obviously painful, but he held back not to make a sound.You looked at him and wanted to teach him a few words, but unexpectedly saw the cold sweat on his forehead, and helped him slowly to the clinic downstairs of the company.

He was thinking about your feet, and his head was tilted on your shoulders. Your arm hurts from being scratched by him, but compared to his feet, this pain is nothing at all.

When you finally arrive at the clinic, you sit on a chair and wait for the doctor to finish applying the medicine, only to find a familiar figure opposite you and run over immediately, it is Zheng Haoxi.

He is wearing a peaked cap and a black mask, but you still don't recognize him after knowing him for so many years?You pulled his sleeve, and he turned around. When he saw that it was you, he quickly turned around, making a gesture to break away from you and walk away.You turned to him and stared into his eyes, "Jung Ho-seok, why are you here? What's wrong with you?"

He did not answer you, silent.

"Do you know how to cherish your body? How can you keep practicing?" You said in a low voice, afraid that he would be recognized by others.

"I know my body, don't think I'm so weak." He explained, pulling you away.

"Wait, Jungkook is still inside. Can't you be careful? Come here and tell Sejin Ouba in advance, how do you explain it when you are photographed? And..." He paused after hearing what you said, and then said Throwing away your hand, "Fang Ami, who are you to me? Why do you keep meddling in my affairs?" You were taken aback by what he said, and then smiled wryly. Indeed, you are nothing, although earlier I knew him, but I gave him up to others because of my timidity.The current him is not Fang Ami's Zheng Haoxi!How could I forget it myself?

You didn't look at him, didn't answer him, and turned to leave, but you were so sad that you could hardly breathe.

April 2017

Since that day, you haven't spoken to each other, and the members naturally found out, but since the world tour started, there was no chance to stay in Seoul all the time.Naturally, many opportunities for reconciliation were missed.

2018. 2, 18

Chung Hoseok's birthday is also the last show of the World Tour, and the venue is in Seoul.

You come to the concert and want to enjoy their performance from the perspective of fans.

The day of the encore concert happened to be Zheng Haoxi's birthday, and the fans prepared a special surprise. Many photos from the past appeared on the screen, and there were a few photos of you together, but you all only showed your backs, watching Skip the photos one by one, and your memory will flash by one by one.

"J-HPOE, happy birthday!" fans shouted.

"Jung Ho-seok, happy birthday!" you said.

After the performance, it was a routine dinner, and it was Zheng Haoxi's birthday, so everyone planned to have a big party.

I received a call from Namjoon early in the morning, and you also arrived at the reserved place after watching the performance.

"Happy Birthday Ho Seok!" Taehyung said.

"Ho Seok, you're one year older again! He He He" He knew it was Seok Jin from the sound of laughter.

"Brother, happy birthday, a gift for you." The first person to give a gift must still be Jimin.

"Brother, happy birthday, how is the preparation for this year's solo album?" Namjoon asked.

"I've heard it, it's pretty good." Said Brother Yoongi on the side.

"Hoseok, happy birthday!" You said after thinking about it.

"...um" he replied, just said one word and then didn't look at you again.

"Hoseok, isn't your girlfriend here?"

"She has something to do today, come over later."

"Oh~ It's better to have a girlfriend"

You don't want to see them together, even now, you are still not used to Zheng Haoxi having a girlfriend.Thinking that Zheng Haoxi will go shopping for clothes with her, watch the sunrise together, enjoy the cherry blossoms together, watch the lantern show together, and eat snacks together...it is difficult for you to show a sincere smile to that person, you Afraid that they will misunderstand you because of your reaction, so you try not to appear in front of her as much as possible.

Everyone chatted happily, talking about album sales, future plans, and the development of the company... You carefully opened the door, only to find A Li walking over.

"Hello, Miss Ami." She greeted you with a smile.

"Hello." She asked first, and she couldn't help but speak, so you smiled back at her.

You turned around and were about to leave, but she stopped you when you put your hand on the doorknob again, "Ami-san, is she dating Jungkook?"

"What?" You were shocked by what she said, Jungkook is your younger brother, "No, he is just like my younger brother."

This time she pulls a smile and walks in past you.

At 11:[-], you received a call from Zheng Haoxi, and it was Ah Li's voice on the phone, "Miss Ami, can you come to the dormitory? Haoxi is drunk and wants to find you."

"Looking for me? Did you hear me right?" My girlfriend is right by my side, why are you looking for me?Although he was puzzled, he couldn't ignore the phone calls.

"Well, I'm looking for you. Also, Miss Ami, I broke up with him..."

You drove to the dormitory in the car, their songs were playing in the car, but you kept thinking about A Li's words just now: "He has always liked you, sorry, it's my fault. I have been lying to him that you are with Jung I'm sorry, it took him so long, it's time to give him back to you."

It was Jimin who opened the door, looking at his worried eyes, you could tell that Jung Hoseok hadn't drank less.

You walked towards his room, but Jimin stopped you, "Miss Ami, do you like Ho Seok?"

"I like it, I have always liked it" You didn't look back, and pushed the door open after speaking.

Zheng Hoseok probably drank too much, but in fact, after he drank too much, the fuss stopped for a while, and now is the time to stop the fuss.

You sat on the side of the bed and patted his face, his face was flushed red, and the temperature on his face was frighteningly high, and you checked the temperature on his forehead, it was abnormally hot.

These children obviously have a fever, don't they know, how do they take care of themselves?

You walked out of the room again, looking for antipyretics. A group of people saw you coming out and asked with concern. After knowing that you had a fever, they searched for medicines one by one.

Wake-up Hoseok took medicine, he drank water, and he regained his energy. He looked at you without speaking, his eyes were foggy, and the corners of his mouth were slumped. It was not his usual appearance at all, no wonder the members were anxious.

You stretch out your hand and shake it in front of his eyes, his eyes follow your hand and shake it from side to side, after a while he grabs your hand, "Don't shake it, dizzy"

"Dizzy, you still look at it." When he said it, you couldn't help laughing, "Zheng Haoxi, I have known you for so long and I have never seen you like this. How much alcohol have you drunk? Also, you are already sick. Don't you know?" You looked at his face and couldn't help but say a few more words.

"You're not here, I drink too much when I'm unhappy." He muffled, "This is the first time you're not by my side on my birthday"

"I went, but, I just left later" You explained aloud, but in the end you bowed your head at the end.

"You still know that you left first. As compensation, don't leave me in the future, okay, Ami?" He was still holding your hand, and only then did you realize that you had already locked hands with him.

"Hmm" He heard you answer, sat up all of a sudden, his eyes were full of brilliance.

"It's 11:50, and your birthday is 10 minutes away." You look at your phone and say.

He lowered his head all of a sudden, "So you didn't agree?"

"No, I promise. It's just that I will spend every birthday with you, without exception." You shook your arm, and his arm shook accordingly. He looked up at you, and your faces slowly approached... …

"Ho Seok, I'm not late, happy birthday." It was Tian Jungkook, who came back now because he had a schedule.

You hook your hands, and Tian Rabbit runs over and sits down next to you, his eyes are round and bright... Looking at Zheng Haoxi whose face is gradually darkening.

2018. 2, 19

When Zheng Haoxi woke up, there was no one in the dormitory.Because he had a fever yesterday, his trip this morning was canceled.Walking to the dining room, I randomly found a sandwich in the refrigerator covered with ugly photos and gnawed on it. Then I remembered to go back to the room to get my phone, but accidentally found the note you left for him beside the bed:

Zheng Haoxi primary school students:

First of all, there is porridge in the rice cooker, and the sandwiches in the refrigerator are from Jungkook and Taehyung. You have a bad stomach and can’t eat them.

Secondly, go to bed after eating porridge, don't play with your phone, turn it off, I will call to check!

Finally, don't try to trick me into not having a good rest, I don't know you yet!

In the end, Mr. Zheng has always been my light. Whether it is in the small practice room in Gwangju or on the stage of the concert not long ago, Mr. Zheng’s light has already blinded me, so take it easy and don’t let yourself Being sick makes me worry.

your dear girlfriend amiliu

Zheng Haoxi looked at the note and thought of the day he met you again in Seoul. That night, he told you that he liked you, but you didn’t hear it because you drank too much. I thought that there would be no chance to tell you in the future. not too late.

Luckily it's not too late...

He continued to nibble on the sandwich, looked down at the note again, thought about it, put the sandwich aside, and obediently walked to the kitchen to drink porridge.

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