[Hunter] Song Andante

"It can be said to be a way to verify yourself, if you really want to say..." he said, and then turned his head to look at me.

"—I want to try to see if you like me."

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At first, I just felt that my whole head was blank.

There was no joy after the blank, but a chill slowly spreading from the waist, splitting into two paths, one side rushed to the top of the head, and the other side fell to the soles of the feet.

Okay, so thunderous...

I was almost stunned by Kuroro's words. His old god struck down the sky thunder, and split me into a piece of scorched earth. Wherever he went, there was no grass. ah……

Now that I can use so many idioms, it means that I have almost recovered

To be honest, I feel that the sky thunder is really inaccurate, so why bother me if it strikes others?

"Wait." I said, the whole thing is too suspicious and I have to calm down.

I pressed my temple with one hand, and felt that it was jumping happily there, jumping enthusiastically and unrestrainedly like my little liver, it was a good partner of the same level.

Kuroro is very patient, he has never been short of patience.

After taking a few deep breaths, I decided to save the main event for later.Emotion is philosophy, so let's explore a little bit of philosophy first.

"You said, this is a way to verify yourself?"

"Um."

I am completely baffled by this sentence. If killing people is a way to verify myself, I can still understand.But I think that my love for a person is not big enough to make the other person feel that the other person is my whole world.

——What's more, you have killed me so many times, and you still want me to like you. Wouldn't this be too much?

Of course, I didn't say a word of this sentence, I just struggled with it for a long time, and then asked: "Convenient... can you explain it to me?"

Kuroro leaned forward, which usually meant he was thinking more seriously, but his eyes fell on the TV, which felt very unconvincing.

Convincing or not, anyway, he said:

"Probably human beings have to go through enough interactions to exist. The simplest kind of interaction is that a person can only confirm that he really exists through the reaction of "others"——as you said, You have to pay to buy things, and if you don’t pay, it’s called stealing and leaving, the boss will beat you if you don’t walk fast enough, but if you walk too fast, the boss will still beat you next time.”

"Wait," I skipped the payment question, "so you're saying that if everyone ignores and doesn't respond to this guy, in the long run he will," I pause, deciding to stop.

Can't find myself.

Kuroro looked at me from the corner of the eye and raised the corner of his mouth, which means I got the answer right.

——People in Meteor Street do not have a "self".

I haven't lived on Meteor Street, but I can imagine it through this guy.

It is a void that can only be squeezed out under an extremely barren situation.The only thing to do is to survive, as long as you survive, but the individual cannot survive, and can only be attached to the group, so "self" is suppressed to the minimum with the intensity of power.

Every strong person starts as a weak person, and their "self" has been worn out while being weak.When he becomes strong, Cyclonus only has the desire to "prove himself".

The "self" needs to be cultivated, but Meteor Street only needs to survive.

I own the reactions and attitudes of those people to me, and even the things that those people gave me. Through these things, I can confirm at the most basic level that I own "myself".

But under survival, "I" has been thrown to nowhere, and when I am finally free, I can't pick it up anywhere.

"—Is it like a rabbit will die if it is too lonely...?" Thinking of this, I couldn't help being startled, but Kuroro started to think more seriously because of this sentence.

Somehow, I felt that my life would be in danger again if he continued to think like this, so I decided to stop the philosophical topic about "self, self".

I took another deep breath, "What does that have to do with wanting me to like you?"

Only then did Kurolo recover from the serious topic, and glanced at me.I think it must be my illusion that the three big characters "not successful" flashed in that glance.

Definitely an illusion.

Then he thought about it.

"Because you can't play badly." His expression was very innocent.

Some people have a very simple way to verify their existence, and basic dialogue and interaction are enough; some people are not, and they prefer more intense ones, such as killing.

Among them, the one in front of the latter is a representative.

Hearing this answer, I almost fell to the ground.

I can't help but want to scold why I don't review the reason why toys are easy to play with and break, you man!

But I didn't dare to shout out, so I could only look at him sadly, and said heavily: "If you continue to play more intensely, the toy will still break."

"Aren't you very clear? Although my ability is to repair my body infinitely, but in fact there are many side effects, the speed of recovery is not fast, and there will be sequelae of aging,"

"──So if I cut too many times, I will still die."

Regardless of whether this counts as reading ability or not, after confessing, I carefully avoided being caught and fingerprinted.

Then he smiled and fell back on the couch.

"No, Miss Charlotte, you're mistaken." It's been a long time since I heard this name, and I froze for a moment, "It's not the body."

I looked at him suspiciously.

-- not the body?

Those black eyes looked at me, as deep as a black hole, greedily sucking everyone in.

At first, it was just a thought.

Want it, so reach out.

Then he said,

"Miss Charlotte saved me a month and a half ago."

"I killed you with my own hands. No matter what your physique is, your fear of death will not change."

"But you saved me."

"Of course I felt killing intent when I fell asleep. The most recent time was last night."

"But there's never been a real danger."

"When I was in this house, I hardly had to wrap myself up to protect myself, and I was even resisting the urge to fight back."

"One and a half months ago, I determined that Miss Charlotte was a 'weak', and this conclusion remains unchanged until now."

"It's not that you don't hate me,"

"But never once did I actually do it."

"It's not that I don't give it a chance, it's that you give it up every time."

The shadows enveloped me sentence by sentence.

Kuroro came to me at some point, with his chin resting on the top of my head, his beautiful fingers combing my hair, a scene so sweet that it makes people shudder.

There is no escape.

There was nowhere to escape.

I can no longer escape.

The canary was caught in a cage and sang I love you every day.

When some children catch a white bird, they will nurse it up and let it fly.

Some children catch a white bird and pluck its wings.

"So I was thinking, it would be fun if this guy liked me."