Blame me, I don't want to be separated from you!

Researcher's observation diary (2)

In 1959, it was decided to bring back the Winter Soldier to deal with the officials blocking their way, so I was transferred back to Siberia.

The world thought Hydra no longer existed, but Hydra has infiltrated the SSR, thanks to the U.S. government's paperclip program.

This task is quite urgent, and there is no time to check her psychological situation.Unfreeze, and directly read the activation vocabulary to her.She went out after receiving the task, but this time there was an extra person in charge of weapon maintenance beside the two of us, and we were both very uncomfortable.

Yes, it was the two of us, she woke up and gave me a hug for the first time.My first reaction was that she regained her memory?But who knew that when she was halfway through this movement, she suddenly froze and became at a loss, as if she didn't know why she did this.My heart sank, if she saw a familiar face, would she still be like this?

I'd rather be around her as an observer than anyone else, maybe the last time she showed mercy to me?Didn't kill me?Compared to others, she is still "kind" because she never "kills innocent people indiscriminately"

Each task is only given her a goal, the rest is for her to play, and we don't have extra manpower for her.Car accidents, food allergies, heart attacks, asthma, death on lover's bed, etc. Most of the officials who blocked Hydera Road in the past two years died due to various circumstances.Hydera reversed the previous decadent situation.

A large number of accidental deaths of high-ranking officials from various countries have caused some people to become suspicious. The death records of all high-ranking officials from various countries have been connected in series since 1947, and two unclear backs of her accidentally captured by surveillance cameras have become suspicious.Coupled with the defection of Hydera peripheral personnel, some outside intelligence agencies believed her existence and called her the Winter Soldier.But most intelligence agencies still don't believe it, because there is no evidence, except for two pictures that may be fake.

In order to allow this top assassin weapon to be used for a long time, the above decided to freeze it if there is no task for a long time.In the ten years since then, she has only thawed twice, and her body has been frozen most of the time.

In 1969, when she was about to be put back into the freezer after completing this mission, she received a message from above that she was required to be an instructor in a secret base in the Soviet Union and train agents for their current employer, Stalin.

Most of the Soviet Union's elite agents were born in the KGB.Now we want our top assassins to be instructors, how shameless they are.But now it is the Soviet Union that pays wages, so go.She didn't have to freeze it this time either.I saw the corners of her mouth raised slightly, and then her face returned to expressionless. Girls should smile more to look good.

I went to this base called the Red House with her and her weapon maintainer. Unexpectedly, they were all women, which was much better than the original one.

I watched her cut her long hair short, and watched her enjoy herself with the girls, and the weapon maintainer who came with me was jealous.She is very good at teasing girls. I don't know if this is an innate skill or an acquired skill, but it's a pity that she is not a boy.She treats a Romanov girl very well. If I didn't know that she is Captain America's fiancée, I would have thought she was les.

Apparently, her weapon maintainer also found out about this situation. Out of jealousy, she abducted the girl named Romanov during a field training and brainwashed her.

When she went to rescue Romanov, she found that Romanov no longer knew her, which made her very painful, but she did not look for a way to restore Romanov's memory. She knew that she was still far away from Romanov Point is good for Romanov.

However, the weapon maintainer did not end well. He died in an accident.

I am very happy, the strange feeling after he died is gone, and I can also feel her good mood.I already guessed who was responsible for this accident, but I'm not going to say it, it's better to rot it in my heart.

Later I found out that Romanov was married to a test pilot named Alexei Shostakov, but Romanov's husband died in an accident shortly afterwards, and she also became a black widow.

I'm sure she didn't do the accident because she was still in the freezer at the time.

In 1989, I felt that my life was not long. My immediate boss was squeezed out by Winter General Karpov, and he was going to send his apprentice Alexander Eugene to take my place.I avoided monitoring and woke her up the day before he came.

She asked: What's the matter with you?

I said: I'm going to die

She asked: Someone is going to kill you?

I said: No, I am old, I will not live long, and I am going to retire.There is something very important to you, and I put it in the wall facing the pillow at the head of the dormitory bed when you thawed.

She asked: what is it?

I said: Everything about you, remember not to tell anyone, I will help you get back what you want.

She nodded inexplicably, I looked at her face that hadn't changed for decades, stretched out my wrinkled hands, stroked her face, stroked her long hair, and kissed her Her lips, the red lips I've always wanted to kiss, were as cool as I could imagine.She watched my movements with wide eyes, and she was wondering about something in her eyes, with a hint of confusion. Following my next movements, she seemed to recall something.

I know she has a way to remember what she wants to remember, and brainwashing is useless, and I made a small change to the brainwashing machine, and no one will find out.But I also know that my time is up. They may have discovered the abnormality of the monitoring. I don’t regret it. I am not a loyal Hydera, but I have not been able to escape their control. Some time ago I got reliable news. My only relative, my grandson, was also killed in one incident.I didn't care about it anymore, I had no relatives anymore, I was alone, I was forced to work for Hydera for nearly my whole life, and in the end I got nothing.

My subsequent missions are all tied to her. Yes, I fell in love with her. A normal man falls in love with a beautiful woman. She has never been as fierce as when I was on a mission in front of me.On the contrary, she was very confused for a long time. I used the things left by Dr. Zola to explain to her, making her think that what she did was right. Worship.For a small bird that fell in the woods outside the base, she would climb forty or fifty feet up a tree and return it to its nest.I will also buy some gadgets that have nothing to do with the mission, such as little things that girls like, lipstick, bags, small desserts and so on.She also has a small temper. She likes to eat plums. Every time she eats without plums, she will be very unhappy. Of course, only I can feel this unhappiness. In the eyes of others, she still looks expressionless.

Decades later, she is still the same as when I first met her, and I am old.Just let me do something last for you, I can't have you, and I won't let them have you, you should live your life with a caring husband, lovely children, and a big golden retriever .Instead of being used as a weapon by Hydera for a lifetime, until the old weapon is destroyed and eliminated.People in Hydera thought you were infertile, but I found that your uterus was still intact in the past ten years, and it was not harmed by the incident at the beginning, but the ovulation cycle became longer, and freezing stopped your body’s time. , I will not let them know these things, thank Hydera for allowing me to accompany you for decades, I will keep these secrets.

After all, they came and pulled me away from her. When she saw someone else coming, she recovered her expressionless face, her eyes were calm and there was no wave, and she entered the cryogenic cabin again.

"Come and see, our spotter fell in love with his mission" I knew Eugene he'd be there early

"You won't understand"

"I didn't understand at all why you maintained such enthusiasm for a weapon for decades, but now it seems that you fell in love with that cold weapon with blood on your hands."

"It sounds like our hands are clean"

"Do you have any last words? It's because you sacrificed your life for Hydera"

"Is my teacher okay?" My boss, my mentor

"Very well, you can go to accompany him right now."

"Hahaha, he also has today, I hate him, I hate him for everything, hate why he brought me into Hydera, hate him for killing my wife, hate him for sending my daughter into the abyss. The only thing I don't hate His job is to put me next to her"

I knew I was going to die, and I watched Eugene raise the muzzle of his gun on me, watch his finger pull the trigger.Farewell, my Jess Barnes, farewell to my Winter Soldier, and never forget what I left you, and don't forget me.

☆, extra episode 2

I saw Jess fall down the ice valley with my own eyes, but there was nothing I could do, my fiancée, I couldn't catch her.She said she saw the ring I hid and asked me to hide it in a different place next time because it was too easy to find.Then I'll hide it in another place next time, and if you find it again, tell me, okay?

I looked at her falling body, and let go of the hand that grabbed the guardrail. Jones grabbed my arm from behind and told me that the task had not been completed, and Zola was going to be escorted to the headquarters.

The task is accomplished, but I lost my wife, at least I had her when I had nothing, now I have everything but she is missing.I nestled in the tavern that had been bombed into ruins and imitated her drinking, trying to be as drunk and unconscious as she was before. She knew that I would carry her back when she was drunk.But I can't get drunk, because of the serum, my cell renewal rate is four times that of ordinary people.

Peggy came over and told me Hydra wasn't wiped out, at least I could avenge her.I regained my spirits, the hatred sustaining me.

Colonel Phillips sent a search team to search for her in the ice valley, and finally found a severed arm, my military badge, a lot of blood around the severed arm, and bear scratches.

When they took the left arm back for me to identify, I trembled, opened the sleeve of the clothes on the severed arm, saw a long scar on it, and collapsed and sat on the ground.That scar was when she just became a sniper last year. When she finished her mission and retreated, she was wounded by an enemy army. The wound was deep.She also sent me a letter saying that if the scar doesn't heal, she will get a tattoo to cover the scar.I took my military badge and remembered what I told her once, I would exchange it for the ring, and now the ring is still with me, and the military badge is back.

When she was on the front line, she said that if she couldn't come back, she must find her bones and bury her with her original teammates.

It's my fault that I couldn't even find your complete body. I shouldn't have agreed to you joining this team in the first place, and I shouldn't have agreed to it out of selfishness because I can see you every day.You should stay away from the battlefield, instead of going away forever like your father, Uncle Barnes. It was me who didn't like you, everything was me.

I'm flying the fighter plane and crashed with it, so I can go to accompany you.I've asked Peggy to take care of our home, Jess, I'm going to find you, wait for me.

"Steve, look! There's a honeycomb here. Dad said it contains honey!" Seven-year-old Jess happily pointed to the big honeycomb behind the eaves.

"Bucky, don't! Put down the pole first"

"Steve, get me the newspaper and matches, and smoke them first!"

"They'll sting you!"

"But don't you want to try?"

"...think"

"Then listen to me"

"Bucky, point it up"

"Don't worry Steve, you go first!"

"No, I want to be with you"

"Don't be so stubborn, I can run away"

I woke up just as Jess, who was still Bucky, was about to stab me.Sit up and look around, is this a hospital ward?Jess and I were there as a baseball broadcast sounded in my ears, and it got worse the more I heard it.

I ran out, in a street full of tall buildings.This is where?Is this the future?But now my future is without you.

Nick Fury, who claimed to be Director of S.H.I.E.L.D., told me, 70 years later.

I am trying to adapt to this era. Peggy has preserved our home, which is so special in the high-rise buildings.I opened the door and went in, and found that nothing had changed inside, but many things were no longer usable.Looking at the handwriting you wrote on the wall to remind me to eat, I closed the door and ran out. I don't want to stay in this room full of memories.

70 years, everything outside reminds me that nothing is the same.I went to see Peggy, the once charming lady who had turned into a dying old man.She persuaded me to let go of everything in the past. After all, 70 years have passed, and there are not many people left in their generation.Looking at the still young appearance in the mirror, how can I let it go, the ring is still hanging around my neck, together with my military badge.

I met Howard's son, a young man who was not like Howard, and we formed the Avengers.Sure enough, it is very different from 70 years ago. There is no Hydra and no Nazis.Some are aliens, some are invaders.I'm still the soldier, but behind the soldier there is no Jess holding a gun to keep me safe.

Until I know, Hydra is still there, has infiltrated S.H.I.E.L.D., and the two are mixed together.I used to think that Jess, who had fallen into the ice valley and died, was still alive. The moment she unveiled her mask, I was grateful to Hydra. My Jess, I will find you.

The author has something to say: By the way, little angels, do you want the Starks to take lunch?